Quote from: Padma on August 30, 2012, 03:29:32 PM
I caught myself today just beginning to start (all over a-bloody-gain) setting up to "rescue" a woman I like who's having a hard time.

I'm really tired of this Compulsive White Knight(Dame) thing, and all the misery it's caused me and the women I've done it with.

I'm really glad to have seen myself sliding down that incline, and to step off it, and just be caring instead.

I almost got into this situation recently with a friend who was abused. Fortunately, someone gave me really good advice and I was able to avoid it before it really began.

Thought my face was healing, but after shaving it looks as bad as one week ago...

Catching a rather hunky paramedic checkin' me out and then giving me a flirty smile as I was getting ready to leave the grocery store     I nearly melted, to bad he's too young for me 

Well I'm off to sleep soon which means work will get closer 
But at the same time IM SO COSY!! *squishes head into pillow*

I was happy visiting the old haunts I frequented as a youth and young adult. It was my comming of age. I am saddened that gentrification has destroyed some of the history of the neighborhoods.

I have a crush on someone who I've never met in person and who lives in a different country. That probably makes me creepy.

Lmao. Join the club, Edge. *hug*

Yeah... I have a crush on someone I've never even seen (no avatar, dammit ), I just really like how they communicate.

I know who Edge likes, everyone knows who I like I am curious to know who Padma likes.

I'll never tell... . Actually, I have two crushes here. Sigh...

Got my first GID teraphy appointment scheduled for November the 9th. The bad part? The doctor mentioned something about "preparing and adapting to the role", which from what I asked, yes, it is RLE. Wich since June it is not supposed to be mandatory, and it is impossible for me (My parents will kick me and I will be outed at work before time).

Poetry made me happy today, and finding that there are some things which transcend the years. Some feelings which... persist.

Tinged with a little sadness though, for the same reasons.


The Angel by William Blake

I dreamt a dream! What can it mean?
And that I was a maiden Queen
Guarded by an Angel mild:
Witless woe was ne'er beguiled!

And I wept both night and day,
And he wiped my tears away;
And I wept both day and night,
And hid from him my heart's delight.

So he took his wings, and fled;
Then the morn blushed rosy red.
I dried my tears, and armed my fears
With ten-thousand shields and spears.

Soon my Angel came again;
I was armed, he came in vain;
For the time of youth was fled,
And grey hairs were on my head.

My mates mum took him some stuff to hospital so he can freshen up and what not so I got to go with and see him. Hes stopped throwing up which is good as well 

The bad news -  she took my toothbrush 

We were bringing a ton of donations, and I did the heavy lifting...someone said "you're awfully strong for a woman."

It made me happy because T is helping me regain a lot of the muscle mass that I lost when I was sick a few years back, but it made me sad because obviously I was read as female.

I was looking at something in my hand and I looked up to see a 16 or 17 year old girl looking straight at my face. She looked stunned...literally stunned. I could understand that if I was a double decker bus going 70 mph straight at her but...stunned by my face???

It made me happy because I found it humorous but a part of me is thinking that could mean something rather bad lol.

Unhappy: I woke up and realised my carers and foster brother had all gone out for the day without so much as leaving a note and my foster sister is at her mams for the weekend and I have panic attacks when I'm on my own, they could have at least left a note.

Happyish: I was able to sit at the kitchen table and make things out of clay all day without being botherd by an annoying 4 year old boy who ruins everything I do

Finding out my kid still believes in the tooth fairy. Unhappy because I'm apparently all of a sudden squeamish about a bloody tooth falling out of its socket, and also she wrote a letter with questions I can't answer tonight because she'll recognize my handwriting. Happy because it's adorable, and a good reminder that this kid isn't pure viciousness and ill will. She's genuinely childlike and usually doing the best she can. She asked Celeste (the tooth fairy as I was taught to call her) for the crown back, and for a human sized camera to take a picture of her with. I have no idea how to respond to that, so I left some money and no note. My roommate said he didn't feel like donating his handwriting tonight but might tomorrow.

You could always write left-handed Felix.  Tough, been there, done that!

Meeting a fellow, much younger student's mother this evening, and finding her very attractive. Okay Exrtremely Hot!!  And straight. 

Oooch! Laser day today....

No pain no gain! 

electrol, my upper lip is forever hair free now, unhappy part, it burns alot. Worst reaction to electrol ive had yet.   and I did my eyebrows today