Trying to understand myself and thinking out loud. When I come on this forum, I legitimately want to help other people. For whatever reason, I really care about what they say and feel. And I really want to be part of the solution and help them. I care deeply and want to make a difference, even on this little forum. Part of me thinks I can really be there for someone and even help them in some way. Despite all of this, I have to admit that I'm a mess myself. I don't know how to help myself, and I struggle quite often to get where I want to be. How can I really help others if I can't help myself? Who am I to offer support and advice? And why is it that I seem to care about other people (their lives and problems) more than I do my own? What does this really say about me? As much as I probably should shut up and stop offering support or advice to others, I can't help but care about other people. I want to be here, offer support and try to help, but why can't I do the same for myself? Why can't I give myself the support and help that I need? God, I'm a complicated mess, lol. At least I admit it. It's just very confusing when you think about it.
