Hi girls,
Thank you for the compliment Sarah! Most days I don't doll up with makeup. I love the look, but honestly I'm kind of lazy and don't have much reason to go through the effort most days. To be fair, I don't need makeup to look feminine these days. I've been blessed with lovely results and would have to actually try to get misgendered.
A friend stopped by yesterday and told me that I'll like a grown up version of my 5 year old daughter. It's funny because when my wife and I first went shopping for me as Amber we were clueless. My wife is not much for clothes or shopping, so she was no help. Eventually, I said, I have the same skin tone as Violet. Let's just try colors that look cute on her. It worked. So there is definitely a good bit of resemblance.
As far as other things go, we added bioidentical progesterone to the mix at my last visit. It has been almost 2 weeks on it and wow is it noticeable. I had breast ache periodically before, but omg not like this. Plus it's all concentrated on the nipples. I swear they grew noticeably just in the last 2 weeks. I've noticed that it does make me more emotional too, not in a bad way. A friend who moved about a month ago messages me that she was going to be in town and wondered if I wanted to get lunch. I was absolutely touched by it and expressed so much thanks to her for thinking of me. Not that I wouldn't have been appreciative before, but it would have been minor and I wouldn't have commented on it. Now I get to feel much easier. I hope it stays.
An unexpected effect has been that I dream now. I almost never seemed to remember dreaming before, but now it's every night. I knew it could make you sleepy after you take it, which it certainly does, but this was an interesting side benefit.
I'm hesitant to post about this but I feel it's good for you girls to know. I read the forum nearly everyday and this thread everytime there's a post. I rarely post things myself these days. Mostly, it's because of my own problems. As I have mentioned in other threads I have borderline personality disorder. One of the issues with bpd is high sensitivity to perceived rejection. Early on this thread was a lot of posts by Sarah, and Tasha, Laura and myself. Others joined while some left, or became less active. I felt for a long while that I wasn't included in the new clique. So I withdrew. I realize this wasn't intended by anybody and I don't want to be that person going, "what about me". It's just that so often when I post I feel ignored while everyone's conversation continues on. That's why I love when you post Sarah, you always take the time to acknowledge everyone. These things shouldn't bother me, but they do. Sorry for whining a little there.
Amber
