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[GrayKat]

Hello, I'm new

Like many of you, I came here due to my gender dysphoria. It's something I have suffered with since I first became fully aware of myself in first grade and was not welcome among the girls. And since I found boy's behavior distasteful, I spend my early years wandering alone. Well, I still do. But I have accepted this. I have been in therapy for six months, long enough to understand that there is no pill, no mental affirmations, or self induced delusions that relives dysphoria.

I have been on YouTube a lot and subscribed to many transwomen. Women like Sarah -n- Dipity, Chloe Arden and Isley Reust. I find them to be...perfectly normal people. It helped me understand that I should not be ashamed of who I am.

Again, hello

[Tessa James]

Welcome to the Place GrayKat,

Good to hear that you are in therapy and making adjustments.  Your early awareness and feeling alone is sadly too familiar here.  It sounds like you are exploring and gaining more information.

I would suggest that there is effective treatment for gender dysphoria that in fact may include a pill.  Transition is not for everyone, of course, and you are at a great place to share ideas and concerns.   I am so glad to hear that you are feeling less shame and understand that being transgender is as normal as having red hair. You probably know Lady Gaga's song about being on the right track baby, I was born this way! 

Hello to you too

[V M]

Hi GrayKat 

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[Shy]

Hello GrayKat

Good to here you're sorting things I too isolated myself for many years.
What I have found that since coming out i'm starting to interact with people more. i joined the local TG group, joined here, became much more chatty in general. People seem more comfortable around me now. Hard to explain, but definitely something I'm noticing more and more.
So things can change for us all. There is no shame in being yourself, It took me a while to figure that one out also.

Have fun

[Kylie9]

Hello, I'm new

Hi Gray, welcome.

It's something I have suffered with since I first became fully aware of myself in first grade and was not welcome among the girls. And since I found boy's behavior distasteful, I spend my early years wandering alone. Well, I still do.

This sounds like me. When I was 5, I wanted to have my hair long, like the "other girls." My father was strict and wanted boys to have short boy haircuts. Every time he called me to cut my hair, I'd run under the bed, cry, and scream. He'd have to drag me out, beat me, and tie me to a chair.

It get's lonely. Not a physical loneliness per se. More of a psychological loneliness. It dawns on you; or maybe it's just me; that no matter how many friends you have, and how many people in your family you have: they will never know the real you inside, never love you as you want or need to be loved. You end up feeling invisible, like nobody knows you exist.

I have been in therapy for six months, long enough to understand that there is no pill, no mental affirmations, or self induced delusions that relives dysphoria.

Has the therapy helped you? If there was a pill to make it go away, I'd take it

[Floof]

Welcome!

Awesome to hear you are in therapy.. It is almost an obession for me, I think everyone should at least try it . Susans is a great place to come for help, advice and support. I am doing so much better for myself since joining this place only a few weeks ago, and its all down to the wonderful people that polulate it.

All the best on your journey <3

[ProbablyOliver]

Hi GrayKat!

I'm new too, and trying to greet some of the other newcomers!

Gender dysphoria is the absolutely pits, and I'm sorry you're going through that, but I'm also glad that you're here. I just joined today but everyone has already been incredibly welcoming and friendly, and I hope that being part of it helps you feel less alone. I know that even in this tiny, tiny span, it has for me.

It's a pleasure to meet you, and welcome!

- Oliver

[Audrey94]

Hi!

It's great that you're in therapy. I'm haven't started myself, but that's like everyone's advice haha. Being lonely sucks.. I find myself socializing almost all the time I'm not pretending to be a man. Making new friends who acknowledge your gender is great though! I didn't become aware of my gender nearly as long ago as you have... I'm sorry you had to go through that when you were young . I hope you find friendship and support here, girl!

[GrayKat]

I appreciate the nice words, thank you. I did have to cut down on my therapy sessions. I have a new medical plan (not by choice) and it does not cover my sessions as well. I was paying $40 a session. Now I have to pay $129.

[Janes Groove]

Welcome to the club GrayKat. I'm glad you realized that you don't need to be ashamed who you are anymore.  I'm sorry you can't find a "pill, mental affirmations, etc., . . . that relieves dysphoria."

I actually FOUND a pill that does help with my gender dysphoria.  A LOT.  I started out with a little white egg-shaped pill, then it became a little blue pill and finally became bi-monthly injections. And OH MAMA. Does it ever help ease my gender dysphoria.