my situation is complicated
im 22 years old and i dont hace sexual live and im virgin
in a time i tought i was asexual male or something like that
I think i was bi couse i feel atractive to mens ands womens, more men but i feel fear about it (cause all arounds me thinks its atnormal) and i preffer frienship with girls like a "normal boy"
But i have gender identity problems especial with my boy- thing that scares me and anal-sex with a men scares me more, but i like anal masturbation yes im crazy
My terapist talk me about try date with women and men to know my orientation and i try to open a little,...
my love record ... i loved a girl that was my exgirlfriend but our relation ship not work cause i sometimes acts few fem (probably i wasnt sexual atract to her but defenly i loved her) and she wants a male-male that do male things... now i understand it and probably is the reason why she starts to search a man
after that i only kiss a woman and a man was good but i dont was the same probably cause i dont love them
After for years thinking about if im a straight woman or bi woman or no binary bisexual or a lesbian woman trapped in boy body or a spacial watermelon.... after all this things i acep if you fall in love with someone only fall in love with him or her... but i dont want to be the boy of the relationship cause i dont feel in that way
so, for now i dont care if love comes good if not np (but i still prefer see nude boys
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My plans to trasition are far... but it comes first i need focus in my studies... in anyway i will need money XD
