Wow Kim 54 pages! Am I wearing out my welcome?
I started this thread with the same resolve that I had when I started with my therapist, absolute honesty. I promised myself no more self lies, no more hiding how I feel and no more denial.
I promised after 62 years that I would hold nothing back. Thank you all for listening, supporting, sharing your thoughts and opinions and for opening up your hearts.
I am never alone now.
Kim, for your peace of mind, you can never talk me into transitioning, nor have you tried. You have shared your thoughts and experiences, for which I truly thank you. The decision has and always will be mine.
My intention has been for the last few months to transition...still not a done deal. I am pursuing every avenue to achieve that goal recognizing that there many road blocks along the way.
If I don't transition, it won't be for lack of trying, it will be because of an obstruction of such colossal size further along this journey that I never saw coming. If that happens I will be at peace because after 63 years I had a chance to be who I am. This journey, even now, has allowed me to understand who I am and to purge a lifetime of shame, denial and guilt. I truly have none now.
I am transgender and I am not only OK with it, I am proud to admit it.
I believe that I have brought the best of both genders together to be a much better person and that is really great.
Thank you for letting me drag you through 54 pages of my self discovery. I hope it has helped you has much as it has helped me.
We deserve it.
Hugs,
Emma