Well tomorrow I've got a furry meet in Stafford. Honestly though I can't say I'm that excited about it anymore. Guess I'm really just going because my partner enjoys it and want to keep him happy. I'd sooner just spend my life at home hidden away from view, but he would hate that.
Can't say i feel very comfortable being out and about, feel like everyone is looking at the sorry state of me. Just feel my eyes squinting and want to look at the ground. Almost feel like my eyes are watering.
I looked at my pictures from the last 12 months and there has been only two bits of progress. A slight improvement about 4 months ago and after my FFS. I'm not sure what the next stage is though. I'm still not fully happy with myself to be honest. Maybe HRT will actually do something to my face in the next year or so. If it doesn't I will probably see if I can get more surgery in 2028, but would have to ask what else can actually be done, if anything.
I definitely want a hair transplant as the front is too thin to work with now. I could do with filling the gaps to have a fringe. That would help immensely to frame my face better.
Honestly I'm doing stuff quickly as the state of business in my employment, I'm not sure I'll still have a job in a couple of years time. I'm already paid way more than all the similar jobs out there, so would land a £20k pay cut if I had to find a new job.
Charlotte 😻
