Charlotte's scratch post

[ChrissyRyan]

Charolotte,


You look very nice!  May your transition go so ever smoothly.


Chrissy

[Stottie Girl]

Most of us on here are carrying bagage of some sort Charlotte, there is no reason to be envious of anyone here. We are all on the same path and we all have our insecurities too, some of us are further down that road than others. I realise and I think you realise that the envy is not rational but I hope you can get on top of it.

I will admit to feeling a bit of jealousy at times when I see people further on in their transition or those who have completed their journey and are living their best life. But I have belief that one day I will get there too.

7 years old is mighty young for sexual thoughts, crikey, thats a lot to process at that age.

I can't begin to understand what your childhood abuse was like or how it will have affected you. I am so sorry you have had to endure that treatment.

[Dawn Kellie]

I'm sorry to hear that Kellie but unfortunately it is an all too common condition with trans people it seems. I guess it must stem from having to deny who you are for so long maybe? I do know that my depression and anxiety has been reduced to just occasional incidents, usually relating to neurodiversity triggers. This is a huge step forward from where I was two years ago. I was very broken back then. Have you been discussing these feelings with your therapist Kellie?

Yes i have. Therapy has been a great change

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Most of us on here are carrying bagage of some sort Charlotte, there is no reason to be envious of anyone here. We are all on the same path and we all have our insecurities too, some of us are further down that road than others. I realise and I think you realise that the envy is not rational but I hope you can get on top of it.

I will admit to feeling a bit of jealousy at times when I see people further on in their transition or those who have completed their journey and are living their best life. But I have belief that one day I will get there too.

7 years old is mighty young for sexual thoughts, crikey, thats a lot to process at that age.

I can't begin to understand what your childhood abuse was like or how it will have affected you. I am so sorry you have had to endure that treatment.

Thanks and our feelings and journeys are more similar than we imagine like you say. We all have our struggles and wish we could be our truest and best selves. Some are further forwards which is both a blessing and sometimes hard to see. I think personally i worry and catastrophise. Rather than like you thinking "I'll get there" I lament over the reasons i might not get there. Probably all the same feelings as most, i just let them overrun and control me. Honestly these kinds of envy have written me off all day or made my hurt myself. But i know totally its irrational, but like any illness needs time and treatment.

Charlotte 😻

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Yes i have. Therapy has been a great change

It's definitely good just talking stuff through with a therapist. Explaining it sometimes untangles the issue and helps set it right in your head. Nice to hear its working out.

[Petunia]

Hi Charlotte. Hope you're feeling good today.

I just want to thank you for all your greetings to the newbies and for the kind eay you treat people, esp me.

I love seeing all you're new photos and seeing the way you've changed.

You know you can't pass as a guy right?

Everything about you screams feminine lady.

I love the cut of your blouses and dresses. Like I said before perhaps some bolder colours but I really can't be sure.

What makeup do you use?  Your skin looks so soft and perfect. Such a beatiful pale complection that is unachievable where I live.

Oh, I know what you mean about the crowd when you went to the play. I recently went to a valentines day show where the crowd was predominately from the LBGTQI+ community and I really felt at home even though I was presenting cis male, or as cis as I can

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Hi Charlotte. Hope you're feeling good today.

I just want to thank you for all your greetings to the newbies and for the kind eay you treat people, esp me.

I love seeing all you're new photos and seeing the way you've changed.

Hi Petunia,
Thank you for your kind acknowledgement, and being such an avid follower of mine and others content on Susan's. Its always lovely to wake up to your likes of my posts on a morning. I enjoy greeting others too and treating people as I would be treated myself.

You know you can't pass as a guy right?

Everything about you screams feminine lady.

I love the cut of your blouses and dresses. Like I said before perhaps some bolder colours but I really can't be sure.

Thats so kind of you to let me know Petunia. That means a lot. I do keep trying to make little improvements over time, so nice to know they make a difference. On my scruffy days I still look pretty masc but i don't share those yet. Maybe I will post some just for comparison.

I do love fashion as you've noticed and glad you appreciate my choices. Anything cute and feminine I'm onto it! I will keep an eye out for some bolder colours to try. I like most so anythings an option.

What makeup do you use?  Your skin looks so soft and perfect. Such a beatiful pale complection that is unachievable where I live.

Oh, I know what you mean about the crowd when you went to the play. I recently went to a valentines day show where the crowd was predominately from the LBGTQI+ community and I really felt at home even though I was presenting cis male, or as cis as I can

I use none to very little most of the time with occasional efforts for going out. I would say 75% of my recent pictures are no makeup. Those with I use Garnier BB cream as it smoothes the skin look but also light and has SPF. I finish with a soft powder to set it. Occasionally add some eye shadow but will be moving to cream based ones. My skin is prone to irritation like rahes and spots so I don't like heavy or dry makeup.

Of course everyday I use toner and moisturiser. Some days I use Tamanu cream to nourish and soothe the skin. I find skincare has made some of the biggest difference in making me look more feminine.

So glad to hear you enjoyed the valentines show and felt so at home. Was there a particular reason you presented as cis? I hope you can enjoy more shows again soon and hopefully feel just as comfortable. Its been a long time since I've seen a show and such a good crowd reminded me why I love it.

Thank you again Petunia. You're a beautiful soul and a I look forward to reading more from you again sometime soon.

Love and hugs,
Charlotte 😻

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

I'm really starting to work on some rap lyrics for my next musical adventure. Its not easy!!

As for a new artist name...im thinking DeeSM-5. Im the personification of that manual and it has trans relevance too. And a femme name...perfect for an alias!

[Dawn Kellie]

Sounds great as an alias.

[Lori Dee ✅]

That's a clever idea!

[Lori Dee ✅]

Some days I use Tamanu cream to nourish and soothe the skin.

I had never heard of Tamanu cream before. It sounds like it might be what I need to help with dry skin and sun damage. I just ordered a bottle of the oil to try out. Thanks for the tip!

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

I had never heard of Tamanu cream before. It sounds like it might be what I need to help with dry skin and sun damage. I just ordered a bottle of the oil to try out. Thanks for the tip!

No worries. I hope that it helps you out. Its a natural antiseptic too so great if you get spots or foliculitis. It cleared up some acne/folliculitis that wss leaving brown hyperpigmentation on my legs and butt.

Charlotte 😻

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Just planted 12 strawberry plants in my garden. Hopefully theyll estsblish and give me a nice crop.

Charlotte 😻

[Stottie Girl]

Just planted 12 strawberry plants in my garden. Hopefully theyll estsblish and give me a nice crop.

Charlotte 😻

They should do well Charlotte. You might need to net them though when they start bearing fruit. Strawbs are great because they keep multiplying each year.

[Dances With Trees]

Love the stage name, Charlotte!

Sending you good vibrations for your music. I'm not a fan of rap (it may be a generational thing) but look forward to hearing your voice merge with the great music you compose.

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

Love the stage name, Charlotte!

Sending you good vibrations for your music. I'm not a fan of rap (it may be a generational thing) but look forward to hearing your voice merge with the great music you compose.

Thank youu. Glad you like it.

The kinda rap I'm wanting to do is not much like what is known as rap music. More rap type vocals to high energy dance music. I want to try and make my own take on the style known as femcore. This artist is my influence and she is soo cool and cute!

[Lori Dee ✅]

I was wondering if you could try something (or maybe you already do) as Mike Oldfield does: lay down numerous tracks at various speeds to create different sounds. I love Tubular Bells, but then I recently found a BBC video of him recording the Blue Peter theme. I found it quite fascinating to watch him work.

[Charlotte Kitty ✅]

I was wondering if you could try something (or maybe you already do) as Mike Oldfield does: lay down numerous tracks at various speeds to create different sounds. I love Tubular Bells, but then I recently found a BBC video of him recording the Blue Peter theme. I found it quite fascinating to watch him work.

Oh ive definitely recorded me playing in sounds slower as i can put together and play melodies, but not fast! Often i mess around on the keyboard to get a rhythm, record it in and then tidy up. Sometimes not perfectly tidy as a little imperfection is nice.

I definitely cant play competently like Mike in that video, but for the music I make I dont need to. The rhythm rules in dance music, can shift notes around later to add colour.

My Rainy days track, I played in that bassline repeatedly and picked the best bit, then sped up. Also played in that background piano sound that comes in from the start and at the end. It makes it sound a bit less sequenced compared to some other stuff.

Charlotte 😻

[Lori Dee ✅]

Nice!

[Dances With Trees]

That was so much fun! Thanks, Charlotte, for sharing such awesome tunes!