I have been thinking about how I have changed since I signed up here at the end of January. I have really started growing in confidence and I'm.....well, just happier. Before boring you all on here with my inane stories, I knew I was trans, that I've known since I was a wee nipper, but I guess maybe I didn't know how to become something more than just the feeling or concept. I'm not sure I'm making sense there.
When someone asked me what my femme name was, Sarah Louise just popped into my head instantly and felt so right (Thanks Lauren!) and I guess from that moment on she has been growing inside me, evolving and becoming a real person. Taking over my thought processes to a large degree. Interacting as Sarah has fundementally changed my outlook on the world, how open I am to relationships, who or what I am attracted to, how I see myself in the years to come. It has all been unexpected really. It feels so natural now that dressing and going out in boy mode feels more like I'm cross dressing and I can't wait to get back home and return to normal.
I feel more like a woman than ever before. I have even caught myself signing off emails and letters at work as Sarah unconsiously! It just felt natural and I liked seeing it in print though I need to watch out that I don't accidently press send!
I'm not sure what the point of this post is really except I guess it's to maybe just say....thank you.
Anyway, these thoughts have been rolling around in my tiny brain and I thought I should write them down somewhere, I don't keep a diary so here is where I will download I think.
