i used to be scared of the dark because when i was a child , i believed that things i can't see are burned by light or something , or at least i'll be able to see them .
anyway , i decided to 'face my fears' so i went to the darkest spot on the sea today , i went to a place where you can't tell if your eyes are opened or closed
at first i was so scared , i flenched for every sound , suspicion of movement , or suspecious of hearing a sound , or insects . so i was pretty busy and tell then it was a bad experience . but then i was like 'what the worst that could happen?'
then comes the real peace ,everything was so silent and thers' nothing that you see , i thought about how awful the world is and how everybody can't deal with life , and how is death A LOT easier , and how it's SO difficult and painful . i felt a light of clarity or hope that i don't know it's source , or maybe fear of death
sorry for speaking a lot and all the ranting , i hope everyone is ok