After reading alot of the posts, and the stories of others, I have come to a conclusion.
Life is a test. A test that you never studied for and forgot all your supplies at home that morning. It is a test of whether or not you can figure out the ultimate secret and ace the test. This secret?
Live your life...with the most truth that you possibly can.
In the end of every day, it is we, not our spouse or children or anyone else but US, us who have to look in the mirror. I think that is why we all strive as humans to better ourselves, that the truth resonates within us. It is also we who decide to bury, ignore, or distort the truth.
But the best, and possibly worst truth? You can't live in fear, ever. In the end if you truly want the truth, you must reach out and no matter who or what stands in your way, grab it and hang on. I am no longer afraid. If some bigot wants to hurt me, then they will. But I will NOT live my life in fear of said bigot. I will not kill, even in self defense, but I won't go down easy either, both in spirit and body. I'm tired of fearing the 'what if'. I'm tired of lies.
Sometimes to change the world you must first accept its wrath. Jesus did this when he allowed himself to be nailed onto a cross. He could have fought back, but he accepted it to bring home the truth to those who would listen. That is the secret of life and being a christien. To truly change the world, you must be a light for others to see.
I believe that my life brings peace to others, even if I don't know peace myself. I truly belive that every person in this world is a catylist for change. We have but a speck of time in this world, and we all have the power to make it a little better or worse. So even if noone else wants you to, live your life right, follow the rules, and turn in that wallet. Even if you know noone would do that for you, you must do that for others.
In all of this I believe that the people who come to terms with their problems, especially all of us here, are the most blessed. We can be the living embodiment of truth. We can change ourselves so that the true being, either man or woman, shines through. We can show the world that good has not gone into such short supply. That a decent human being does exist in this day and age.
We can show the world, the truth.