What Made You Both Happy and Unhappy at the Same Time Today?

[Ltl89]

So, it seems like everyone at my job want to keep me (I'm a temp) and enjoy working with me.  It's really heartwarming to know that I may have found an accepting work environment and can be appreciated for who I am and how I perform.  In fact, one of the Doctors texted me to let me know how much he enjoys working with me and that was really sweet of him.  And many of my coworkers have commented on how good I'm doing and how I'm officially one of them.  In many ways it should be going great which makes me happy.

The downside is that this practice is owned by a much larger entity that penny pinch everything.  They already tried to get me a full time permanent position but failed due to a hiring freeze and major reductions going on at the time.  Now they want to try again to get me in, but I'm hearing word that they have to prove there has been a revenue increase to justify my stay which will be judged over 3 months.  I've heard there has been an increase and a new physician has joined the practice which has enabled more revenue, but we are only 3 weeks into the process.  Sadly, I'm only there till the end of next week.  So, I may be out of work for 2 months and even then there is no guarantee that I'll make it through.  There is a chance that my office manager may be able to do something or at least keep me as a temp, but likely I'll have to wait and my temp position ends when she comes back from maternity leave.  It's all so silly because honestly they are in need of an office staffer.  With the hiring freeze they've been unable to replace people who have left, and this has all happened during the expansion of our practice.  It really doesn't make sense.  Honestly, I wish the people in charge of these decision would sit in our office and see what we do.  It's not like I'm sitting playing solitataire.  I'd love that, but it's not the case considering the giant work load that exists.  Anyway, I hope it works out.  I need work and have to find some financial stability while I start full time, but even more important would be to have a supportive work environment which I think this place will be.

[MadeleineG]

Happy: The Liberals won the Quebec election, meaning the threat of yet another referendum on sovereignty is out the window.

Unhappy: I'm concerned about the baby that is Quebec Secularism being thrown out with the colloquial bathwater.

[Lauren5]

Happy: met two girls in the field across the road and played football with them.
Unhappy: had a bad touch and smashed up my toenail pretty bad.

[piglet smith]

Found out from the lady that dropped my certificate off at the store that I had the second highest score in the class.

it wasn't the highest. 

[Shantel]

Found out from the lady that dropped my certificate off at the store that I had the second highest score in the class.

it wasn't the highest. 

Cripes hon, you did well!

[piglet smith]

Cripes hon, you did well!

But even going home that day, I thought of two that I got wrong, but should have gotten right. That would have put me first, dammit!   lol 

[Shantel]

But even going home that day, I thought of two that I got wrong, but should have gotten right. That would have put me first, dammit!   lol

You're in the upper percentile so wtf hon?

[piglet smith]

You're in the upper percentile so wtf hon?

I probably hold myself to too high of expectations. I get disappointed in myself due to it quite often.

[Shantel]

I probably hold myself to too high of expectations. I get disappointed in myself due to it quite often.

Try lowering your expectations by 50% and then you will always be surprised and thrilled by the results and it takes away the sense of failure and shortcomings.

[piglet smith]

Try lowering your expectations by 50% and then you will always be surprised and thrilled by the results and it takes away the sense of failure and shortcomings.

So that I'll feel accomplished if I put my socks on right side out in the morning?

[Shantel]

So that I'll feel accomplished if I put my socks on right side out in the morning?

There you go honey, see you're getting smarter already! 

[Hayley]

Had a family member blow up at me with the whole "you're a man" thing which kind of ruined my evening but at least I have therapy tomorrow so I'm happy it happened tonight and not tomorrow or the day after like had been the routine for me getting yelled at by people who "love" me. Looking at the positives!

[NathanExplosion]

Cut contact with my emotionally abusive mother. A weird feeling of freedom and loss.

[Sincerely Tegan]

All good today.

A student that I've been meeting with at lunch so that she can talk through her emotional problems surprised me with a gift today. It was a birthday gift. Nearly two months early. A handmade Alice (in Wonderland) and White rabbit. They're felt dolls and super-cute. Alice in Wonderland is one of my favorite stories and I have an entire concept mapped out for a tattoo sleeve on my left arm based on the story; as soon as my preferred artist gets into town, we're getting going on that. Anyway, that was a super special moment with a student. It's nice to feel appreciated.

Also, I'm almost done writing my intro to this site. It's been consuming my days (if I owe you a response, give me a little more time please). I've been here awhile now, but I haven't posted a proper intro, and I really want to open myself up. What I've written so far is extrememly long, and might be too overwhelming for a casual reader, but it has been extremely helpful to me to write it. It might also prove helpful in therapy. I've broken it up into chapters, and it expresses my life and journey very honestly and well. I'm looking forward to sharing it.

Also, I got a manicure today.

Also, at the mall today there was a men's button-up shirt that was in a color I sort of liked. I normally purchase shirts in a Large. The shirt at the front of the rack looked about right though; it was a Medium. When I tried it on, it looked a bit boxy. When I tried on the Small, it fit perfectly. I also have a lightweight hoody I picked up at a thrift store that's marked Small, but fits perfectly. I always figured that it was mislabeled, but now I guess not. Apparently, according to some standards of measurement, due to my thin frame I'm a Men's Small. I didn't buy the shirt, but it was a nice feeling nonetheless.

I'm going to go back to writing that intro now.

Cheers,
Tegan

[Finnyh]

Happy: Finished my dissertation. It's my birthday. It's only 52 days until I spend a month travelling Asia. Made some great friends at Susan's that already mean a lot to me.

Unhappy: I've got no choice but to revert to being female again tonight and have to glam up and wear a dress for my birthday night out 

[immortal gypsy]

It finally just hit me that I may now be cut off from my family . While my best friend told her mother who is happy for me. So if my family can't get over with what I'm doing I've been offered "adoption"

[Edge]

D is also doing his lab today which means I will see him. Also, since we usually have lab on different days, we might end up being lab partners.
Unfortunately, I feel sick. Also, I really should keep my distance from him.

[King Malachite]

Unhappy:  There was a spider in my room.  I found it while putting up some stuff back in place.  It caught me off guard.

Happy:  I killed it.  That made me happy.

[Shantel]

Unhappy:  There was a spider in my room.  I found it while putting up some stuff back in place.  It caught me off guard.

Happy:  I killed it.  That made me happy.

[King Malachite]

I'm afraid to even play it, lol.