Well, I was just having some doubts about my gender and transitioning today, and decided to have a pause from all related media for a while... I decided to just see if I could just back off for a bit and dress in my old female clothes. Tried several of them on, got miserable after a short while. Then tried some of my current clothes on and felt such relief that it just can't be described.
I'm so not going back to girl mode, and even while much of this is still confusing and frightening, being FtA/transmasculine seems to be "it", for me. Every time I have doubts I just get more sure and understand how terrible I used to feel.

(But this is still scary as hell, even if I know I'm somehow at last on the right path.)