I've noticed that I feel much better about myself during those rare times when I have a girlfriend. My gender issues are still there, but I think I create some kind of "living vicariously through somebody" situation that makes everything seem more manageable. I have less anxiety just by being around her, but finding satisfaction from anything more intimate than a kiss usually involves me picturing myself and trying to imagine I'm feeling what she's feeling. Has anybody else caught themselves doing this?
