I am sick as crap of going into a liberal place like uni and getting misgendered left, right, and centre. These are the people who have education and exposure to difference, but they handle it the worst. They're all "SHE....UHHH heeee ummm whatever soooooorry haha I know lots of trans people so I know it's important!" Funny, I can go to conservative places and not get misgendered once, but the supposed enlightened liberals can't get it right for whatever reason and somehow can "spot" me.
Well I am about ready to punch someone in the face. Yeah, you know what, if I still wasn't passing, I'd get it. I looked like a girl before hormones and well into them, I won't ever deny that. But when I have a male TSA officer pat down my boobs and not flinch, when I get "sir", "buddy," "young lad", "man" EVERYWHERE I go, I'm starting to smell some serious BS. You know so many trans people? You're soooo open-minded? THEN YOU'D THINK YOU'D GET IT RIGHT!!! Sometimes I think being open-minded just leaves room for it all to fall out.
Last night I felt dysphoric, thinking "of course they spotted me, I look like a woman." But no. That's dysphoria talking. I DO NOT look like a woman anymore. I do not sound like a woman. I look like a teenage boy. My own FAMILY doesn't recognize my voice and thinks I am my teenage brother on the phone (not the gay one lol). Family who have known me my whole life. So, yeah, no. Anyone who thinks a woman would look like me is looking too hard. There is no reason to even have the word "she" register in your head anymore.
I am really really angry about this. I am past the point of being seen as a lesbian, anyone that deducts that I was female-born now assumes I am trans. And if they can spot that, they know enough about trans people to not screw up my pronouns. Seriously. But no. They're thinking "ohhhh this is a trans person, a female born, but now male! Gasp! How fascinating! Lived as a woman! So it was a girl that now wants to be a guy.......wonder what that's like......" Sometimes I think, I'm an academic fascination instead of someone who is actually accepted for who they are.
Just sick of it and ready to bust some heads.
