Just hinted to my sisters that I plan on having top surgery.  They chastized me for coming to my sister's get together with no bra on and my sister started grabbing at my breast telling me how jiggly they were and I told her enjoy them while you can and she asked "why are you planning on cutting them off and getting a transformation?".

I still can't believe I hinted that to them.  That will probably be the last time I do that, as my transition does not concern them.  At this point, the only person I need to concern myself with is my mother, considering I live with her and heck if she doesn't approve, I'm out if I can't get it done under her roof.

At any rate, I'm just starting to care less about wearing a bra out in public.  My sister said our sister's father will be there and her husband.  I honestly don't care.  It's not my problem.  Why should I have to wear a bra?  Now when I go to important stuff that's different, but still.  I really cannot wait to get top surgery so I won't have to deal with this bra nonsense.

Quote from: Malachite on August 03, 2013, 06:59:17 PM
Just hinted to my sisters that I plan on having top surgery.  They chastized me for coming to my sister's get together with no bra on and my sister started grabbing at my breast telling me how jiggly they were and I told her enjoy them while you can and she asked "why are you planning on cutting them off and getting a transformation?".

I still can't believe I hinted that to them.  That will probably be the last time I do that, as my transition does not concern them.  At this point, the only person I need to concern myself with is my mother, considering I live with her and heck if she doesn't approve, I'm out if I can't get it done under her roof.

At any rate, I'm just starting to care less about wearing a bra out in public.  My sister said our sister's father will be there and her husband.  I honestly don't care.  It's not my problem.  Why should I have to wear a bra?  Now when I go to important stuff that's different, but still.  I really cannot wait to get top surgery so I won't have to deal with this bra nonsense.

Oh man, I am so sorry they did that to you! Some people have no concept of boundaries or appropriateness. That's actually disgusting.

I'm thinking that I'm getting really pissed off with my brother. I helped him with his homework in exchange for his help with stuff, and he keeps putting it off or doing piss poor work. I also took my Xbox headphones back from him, and he's taken them back, without asking, and he's yelling at his stupid little friends in them while I'm trying to nap.

Neither a lender or a borrower be.

Quote from: Ketchup Packet on August 03, 2013, 07:27:06 PM
Oh man, I am so sorry they did that to you! Some people have no concept of boundaries or appropriateness. That's actually disgusting.

I tried not to thnik about it and not let it get to me.  I've done it to them before in the past, but not on someone else's property.

Quote from: Miss Bungle on August 03, 2013, 07:02:14 PM
Unfortunately, I never had that experience.

My early childhood was pretty gender fluid. I had long, flowing hair, an undifferentiated family collection of costume clothes and toys, and habitually wore nail polish.

There's also an infamous home movie of me from about age four where I'm explain and demonstrate how I breastfeed my doll while the adults laugh their asses off.

Things changed at around age six or seven when the door got slammed hard on my gender non-conformity.

Maddy

I'm bummed out over what happened last night with Caleb. He was hurting pretty badly from the visit with his neighbor. I havent seen him this sad in a very long time. I wish I could give him a big, squishy hug and tell him it will get better. I hate that all I can do is listen. And I want to give his brother a swift kick to the groin for being the douche bag he is becoming.

Today I was grilling burgers when some jackass in a pickup drove by yelling "freak" at me. he was probably just pissed because a chick can use a grill better than his sorry butt.

Quote from: Keaira on August 03, 2013, 08:58:39 PM
Today I was grilling burgers when some jackass in a pickup drove by yelling "freak" at me. he was probably just pissed because a chick can use a grill better than his sorry butt.

-_- That mf.

I wish I had a house already. :3 I've lately had an obsession with keeping pet fish. I really wanna build a big fish pond in either my backyard or frontyard (leaning towards frontyard). I wouldn't have an aquarium though, I think they're cruel unless they're one of those really big, restuarant aquariums that can't fit in your house. But having my own fish pond would be fracking awesome. ^.^

I am sick as crap of going into a liberal place like uni and getting misgendered left, right, and centre. These are the people who have education and exposure to difference, but they handle it the worst. They're all "SHE....UHHH heeee ummm whatever soooooorry haha I know lots of trans people so I know it's important!" Funny, I can go to conservative places and not get misgendered once, but the supposed enlightened liberals can't get it right for whatever reason and somehow can "spot" me.

Well I am about ready to punch someone in the face. Yeah, you know what, if I still wasn't passing, I'd get it. I looked like a girl before hormones and well into them, I won't ever deny that. But when I have a male TSA officer pat down my boobs and not flinch, when I get "sir", "buddy," "young lad", "man" EVERYWHERE I go, I'm starting to smell some serious BS. You know so many trans people? You're soooo open-minded? THEN YOU'D THINK YOU'D GET IT RIGHT!!! Sometimes I think being open-minded just leaves room for it all to fall out.

Last night I felt dysphoric, thinking "of course they spotted me, I look like a woman." But no. That's dysphoria talking. I DO NOT look like a woman anymore. I do not sound like a woman. I look like a teenage boy. My own FAMILY doesn't recognize my voice and thinks I am my teenage brother on the phone (not the gay one lol). Family who have known me my whole life. So, yeah, no. Anyone who thinks a woman would look like me is looking too hard. There is no reason to even have the word "she" register in your head anymore.

I am really really angry about this. I am past the point of being seen as a lesbian, anyone that deducts that I was female-born now assumes I am trans. And if they can spot that, they know enough about trans people to not screw up my pronouns. Seriously. But no. They're thinking "ohhhh this is a trans person, a female born, but now male! Gasp! How fascinating! Lived as a woman! So it was a girl that now wants to be a guy.......wonder what that's like......" Sometimes I think, I'm an academic fascination instead of someone who is actually accepted for who they are.

Just sick of it and ready to bust some heads.

Time to stop being lazy and get off my butt and find a job.

If i had enough money i would so get a laser record player, they cost 10.000 or 100.000 dollars, so i'll never have one.

I want to do a Jake Muller cosplay.

Pondering the fallout if I accidentally sign a workplace e-mail Maddy, prematurely.

I don't remember changing my sig to a "success" by choice. o.O

Now that I've gotten through going out in public with a group, I'm going to try going grocery shopping on my own.  Wish me luck!

Quote from: Anna! on August 04, 2013, 06:50:12 PM
Now that I've gotten through going out in public with a group, I'm going to try going grocery shopping on my own.  Wish me luck!

Good luck. You're on a roll!

"Connie and Carla" is a silly movie. xD

Quote from: MadeleineG on August 04, 2013, 06:52:44 PM
Good luck. You're on a roll!

I'm back without a problem!  This has been a big weekend for me

Quote from: Anna! on August 04, 2013, 08:00:27 PM
I'm back without a problem!  This has been a big weekend for me

Maddy is living vicariously through Anna's triumphs!

Quote from: MadeleineG on August 04, 2013, 08:01:49 PM
Maddy is living vicariously through Anna's triumphs!

Go for it, but I'm sure you'll be able to reach my point soon enough!

It turns out my son is a huge Labyrinth fan.