Thanks guys too, it means a lot to me!
I used to browse this same forum so depressed, but time and work changed that. Four years ago I was a closet TG, drug addict, unemployed college grad living with my parents...basically I was amounting to nothing. Then I got arrested, went to jail for drugs, and it became clear that coming out was better than all of the lies and deception. Basically I was so close to just "ending it", but as a last resort I decided to be myself and come out and eventually go full-time. Best decision ever, my life has changed.
Please note I did have FFS about a year and a half ago and I've been on hormones for over 3 years.
Finally though my life has turned around so much, I'm still working on my image issues. Basically I am just like you sammy, I know EXACTLY what it's like.
I just want you guys to know I'm a person with problems too it's not all perfect.
BTW michelle and rinaballerina thanks, that particularly meant a lot to me!