What are you thinking? 7.0

[Lauren5]

I'm just kidding.. *hugs* You know I love you, Willow.

...still not cheering for Canada.

What about now?

[Calder Smith]

I may have Canadian roots but not today. It's all about U.S.A.!

If you loved me you'd cheer for America too.

[Lauren5]

I may have Canadian roots but not today. It's all about U.S.A.!

If you loved me you'd cheer for America too.

Not that desperate

[Calder Smith]

Not that desperate

[Miss_Bungle1991]

I'm thinking I should stop picking on Mr. Hockey. He is actually a pretty cool guy.

Okay. Then I can pick on him, instead.  I like picking on people. (But I mean that in a jokey way) You should see how I am around people in person. 

[Calder Smith]

Okay. Then I can pick on him, instead.  I like picking on people. (But I mean that in a jokey way) You should see how I am around people in person. 

You, Gwynne, Sheala and Jessica have already been doing this.

I'm not sure if you really do enjoy picking on me or if you just have a crush on me.

[Miss_Bungle1991]

You, Gwynne, Sheala and Jessica have already been doing this.

I'm not sure if you really do enjoy picking on me or if you just have a crush on me.

*giggles* No...no crush here, dude.

I did the same thing with this one penpal that I had met in person a few times. He totally got where I was coming from even though we had never met face to face, just talking online. Plus, he knew from the start that I am in no way into dudes.

[Calder Smith]

*giggles* No...no crush here, dude.

I did the same thing with this one penpal that I had met in person a few times. He totally got where I was coming from even though we had never met face to face, just talking online. Plus, he knew from the start that I am in no way into dudes.

What do you have against dudes?

[Miss_Bungle1991]

What do you have against dudes?

I mean from, like, a romantic perspective.

I'm not, like, some militant feminist that thinks all guys should be shot or something like that.

But having said that, there is no woman that is going to want me. I'm always going to be stuck in that 'pre-op' box (I've made my peace with that so it isn't a big deal), but I know that it would be a huge problem.

[Calder Smith]

I mean from, like, a romantic perspective.

I'm not, like, some militant feminist that thinks all guys should be shot or something like that.

But having said that, there is no woman that is going to want me. I'm always going to be stuck in that 'pre-op' box (I've made my peace with that so it isn't a big deal), but I know that it would be a huge problem.

Don't say that.

Just because you're not going to have SRS doesn't mean a woman isn't going to want you. You'll find someone.

[Miss_Bungle1991]

Don't say that.

Just because you're not going to have SRS doesn't mean a woman isn't going to want you. You'll find someone.

Yeah, but you have to consider where I live. It's a fairly close-minded area in many respects, has no scenes in which to meet people other than bars and I don't drink. I can't afford to move somewhere else and even if I could, I would end up in some scary, crime infested rathole because I don't have much money. I don't want to end up in a place like that just to meet other people.

[Calder Smith]

Yeah, but you have to consider where I live. It's a fairly close-minded area in many respects, has no scenes in which to meet people other than bars and I don't drink. I can't afford to move somewhere else and even if I could, I would end up in some scary, crime infested rathole because I don't have much money. I don't want to end up in a place like that just to meet other people.

Well yeah.

You're not alone though. I'm in the "Forever alone" category as well.

[LordKAT]

Alone isn't a bad place, even though some parents and friends think it is.

[Miss_Bungle1991]

Alone isn't a bad place, even though some parents and friends think it is.

Yeah.

I mean...sure, I've had a few fleeting moments where I would get lonely but it leaves just as quickly as it arrives.

There are many, many more times where I am comfortable just kicking back and being by myself, rather than having someone around 24/7 and them eventually getting on my nerves.

[Emo]

I feel like im about to have a panic attack...

[Shantel]

I feel like im about to have a panic attack...

No panic allowed, you'll be ok!

[Emo]

No panic allowed, you'll be ok!

Before you told me what you did, i was taking deep breaths trying not to freak out. Thank you.

[Calder Smith]

I'm wondering why I've only been here for two months and have 900 posts.

[Shantel]

I'm wondering why I've only been here for two months and have 900 posts.

They add up pretty fast Mr. Hockey just like years do as you get older, seems like I was in high school about 25 years ago and now I'm already seventy, omg where does the time go? 

[Edge]

I get the impression one of my friends was judging me for like The Princess Bride. This guy has never watched The Princess Bride and he posts and likes cute animal pictures on facebook. The thing is, this kind of thing used to bother me, but it doesn't anymore. I know who I am and that I'm no less who I am whatever my likes are.
That said, I also have some mildly conflicting ideas in my head of what I want to be like. They're probably less conflicting than I think. I just get hung up on trying to live vicariously through fictional characters. I should get better at seeing myself.
I also have the fire swamp scene stuck in my head. "We'll never survive." "Nonsense. You're just saying that because no one ever has."