The wee small hours - my demons

[Cindy]

I'm not going to post this just a way of talking

They are with me - again. The hell when I try to sleep

They hurt me so much, can I ever recover. Can I ever love

It still hurts. I'm good. I'm strong, come on girl you can do it. Face it, take it. I'm strong.
I close my eyes and I feel their breath, I feel their lust and their need, I cry a meaningless mewl.

They hurt me.
I'm stronger than this, I'm OK come on honey.

OK good, good girl

I'm Cindy - I'm raw, I hurt, I'm strong, I'm weak

I'm me

I shouldn't post this

[Sarah Louise]

[suzifrommd]

Lots of hugs to you. We're all here if you need us.

[Adam (birkin)]

You are strong, Cindy, even when you don't feel like you are. There are very few people I've met who carry themselves with as much poise, dignity, and pride as you do.

[big kim]

Hugs sis,PM me if you need to

[Shantel]

Love you Cindy, feel free to email me any time your private stuff is safe with me dear!

[FalseHybridPrincess]

Thats really deep and inspiring

[Jamie D]

I'm not going to post this just a way of talking

They are with me - again. The hell when I try to sleep

They hurt me so much, can I ever recover. Can I ever love

It still hurts. I'm good. I'm strong, come on girl you can do it. Face it, take it. I'm strong.
I close my eyes and I feel their breath, I feel their lust and their need, I cry a meaningless mewl.

They hurt me.
I'm stronger than this, I'm OK come on honey.

OK good, good girl

I'm Cindy - I'm raw, I hurt, I'm strong, I'm weak

I'm me

I shouldn't post this

Nope.  You should post it.  Support is a two-way street.  You can't give, give, give, and never receive.

[Jerri]

well now sister,
as much we turn to you for help pushing our own demons back surely you should never shy from us, sorry to hear they have choosen to visit once again. I know for me one day i can only hope to be half as strong and confident as you, PLEASE never feel that you stand alone. we all have to many to fight alone
stand tall and stand proud sister we are right beside you
Jerri

[Jessica Merriman]

I shouldn't post this

How else is your family supposed to know you need a hug? 

Sometimes you are just too strong for your own good! When I tell new members we are here with a shoulder to cry on, I mean you too!

I love you Cindy my sister!

[carrie359]

Cindy hope you feel better.. appreciate you...

[Nero]

Love you hon.

[Asche]

Don't know if this helps, but sometimes when my own demons come to stay and just won't go away (like the "man who wasn't there"), I think of Frodo at the end of Return of the King, who continues to feel pain and despair on the anniversaries of his worst wounds.  Our accomplishments don't go away in the dark of the night, but our wounds don't either.

It doesn't make the pain go away (for me), but it does make me feel less alone.  (Wow! Even made-up people can help!)

(If this just makes it worse, PM me and I'll remove it.)

[calico]

Nope.  You should post it.  Support is a two-way street.  You can't give, give, give, and never receive.

I agree, I am here as well, if you need to talk I have my Skype up, or you can email me 

[Rachel]

Cindy, hugs.

I am sorry for your pain. I am sorry you relive the events. I am sorry it happened.

You are a wonderful woman, full of love and caring for others.

You are important to us and we care about you.

[Cindy]

Thank you everyone.

That was one of the worst for quite awhile. In case you didn't notice

I'm fine now, happy, facing life and enjoying it.

Hugs to you all

You help me so much

Thank You

Cindy

[Miss_Bungle1991]

I'm fine now, happy, facing life and enjoying it.

That's good to hear!

[Adam (birkin)]

I'm fine now, happy, facing life and enjoying it.

I'm glad, Cindy. Of course you are allowed to be down and we are always here to try to help prop you up, but you deserve to be happy. You deserve to enjoy every possible moment!

[Cindy]

You people are just incredible!

I am so glad to be transgender so that I had the opportunity to know all of you.

Thank you

[LordKAT]

You people are just incredible!

I am so glad to be transgender so that I had the opportunity to know all of you.

Thank you

I knew I had a use, just never thought of that one.