You actually have some very, very nice features to your face that a lot of women don't have - the shape of your eyes is unusually nice, and the overall symmetry looks remarkable. If you're going to get anything done, it would be very helpful to get more opinions and advice from people who have already gone through or are currently looking into surgical procedures(s). The yahoo FFS2 users group for Facial Feminization surgery (FFS) is one such online support group. To get to it, go to:
https://groups.yahoo.com/neo/groups/ffs-support/info.I don't believe that Rhinoplasty is considered a difficult or complicated procedure, yet there can be many different outcomes, depending on the surgeon and his/her particular aesthetics. You'll find a lot of experiential testimonies as to the work of different surgeons performing different procedures, in this user group. You may also post questions and participate in discussions, as well. Some of the members are just exceptionally kind and helpful with the information they provide.
To join, follow the instructions in the Group Description section. When you are a full member, you can receive daily email of all the postings to the group. But it's a good idea to think about how to manage up to 20 emails (sometimes) per day from the group, if you set yourself up to receive email updates.
About the concept of 'ugly' - I'll share a little bit about myself. When I was 16, one day I was shopping in a department store and happened to look into one of those 3-way mirrors, the kind where you can see yourself from an angle, and on that day and in that moment my life changed, forever. I was instantly horrified when what I saw was someone too hideous, too grotesque to even bear looking at. For reasons of nature and biology, part of my faced looked like it had been literally caved in. I had never before seen someone so ugly as the person I saw that day in that mirror. It was funny, though, as over the years when I looked back at pictures that were only a few years old, I always saw someone who was in many ways quite good looking. Only I could never, NEVER see it in the moment. If this is you, or even if it isn't, get some stencil letters from the store and stick them on your bathroom mirror. Write the words, "I am BEAUTIFUL." And never forget it.
