Hello everyone,
Has anyone here had sudden genital dysphoria? I started transition 3 & 1/2 years ago. I've been full time and on hormones almost 2 & 1/2 years ago. Up until Jan 1st-Jan 15th I had no desire to undergo SRS. However, during the first two weeks of Jan I have developed severe genital dysphoria and have decided that I do want SRS and have begun to research it. Its a few years away due to financial reasons. I can't stand to see it, touch it or have it attached to my body. Also excess urine gets trapped in the urethra of the penis. It has shrunk considerably since hrt was begun. I was small before starting hrt. I don't have problems during urination just after it. I'm tired of wet underwear. My sister thinks its a prostate issue. I think its cause its shrunk.
My sister who was my strongest supporter of my transition has stated that she thinks I shouldn't get SRS. She's in school to be a nurse. She was accepting of my transitioning socially and taking hrt but not SRS. There was a history of cancer on my mother's side but I felt hrt was an acceptable risk. According to my obgyn my hormone levels are perfect for a 31/32 year old genetic woman and have no sign of any cancer at all. Also I have less testosterone than my obgyn. Another reason I am wanting SRS is talking to people at work, a new lesbian friend off pof, and getting turned down constantly by lesbian women cause of my transsexuality. I'm a lesbian. I want to be like other lesbians.
Also after being on hormones so long, I feel like a genetic woman and feel like I do/should have a vagina but when I look down, its not there. There is also the possibility that I was too scared to look into the surgery and lying to myself saying that I didn't want it or that it was impossible to afford. No matter the cost I do want it now. I do have my regular gender dysphoria therapist appt today and I'm going to run my genital dysphoria and desire for surgery past him later today. I would appreciate it if anyone could give me some advice.
