So.. Whether it is good or bad fame, I do not want it. It would continue to take the privacy that I lack and sugar coat or bitter it all. I fight to never become a role model, or the "idea" of what trans people should be. Pressure to uphold and uplift the community. Not I, I do not responsible for others, nor do I ever want to be a Gaga for the LGBT community, just no.. Includes music, photography or public speaking.. Do we not just want to live a joyous life? Why face the vulnerabilty of the entire world critque not only your music but hour presonal life, celebrities know the life. Being a transsexual and stepping into that light is... No props to those who have done it.. The only interest I have is in Music and Dance.. Both which I do not hone in skill or have career passion for.. I move, I recite.. Also I feel pretty, so pretty I do not look at my reflection to not trigger and contemplate dysphoria! Why would I want to be an artist, the idea is fun, on stage, outfits, lights, THE SHOW, but what do you write about, dance for? Relationship experiences you never experienced or how sexy I can be? We get enough attention as it is, but with pressures to be this and do that.. Good riddance.. A bartender... To become a massage therapist reiki healer acupuncturist.. I wanted to join the military but my medical records are going to destroy, so why bother, and I have athsma.. Lame.. But I enjoy being a healer and to have a man by my side is the best compliment.. Another thing! Who would you date being in the public eye? I mean brave man he would be?!! Friends.. Your doctors appoinments.. Mannerisms.. Not my time.. Not this lifetime, but my imagination can serve me well.. My late night dancing, or cleaning the house.. Out dancing.. Singing in the shower.. Whistling while I work.. Meh.. The lifestyle could be all that.. I would be one paranoid woman, why do you accept me? Money, fame? Are you really my friends? Yea.. Do not need a reply.. But I have been fortunate to have the opportunities but will continue to deny that path.. Not me.. Crooked smile pictures.. Souless interviews.. Living shallow.
But being a respected neighbour, priceless.. If I can ever accomplish! No PITY!! 😀
