9/15 to 11/15 meet with several terrible therapists during this time. One made me actually consider suicide.
10/15 (not sure when) I bought a waist trainer, a male waist trainer. I really like wearing it, because it feels like I'm being hugged all day and makes me look better. It also made my back pain go away.
11/13/15 spoke to my psychologist and got my hrt letter (described as true trans, but not hyper feminine.) Whatever that means.
11/14/15 had first laser hair removal for face/neck. 1,800 in 100 dollar monthly payments with free touch ups for life
11/22/15 ordered finasteride.
12/15 started working on my voice. I noticed that my testicles shrunk by close to a quarter or so smaller. It appears that i have foreskin because my penis is turtled in the bikin underware. My glans are turning a different color and are really sensitive. It's a good thing. I don't know if it is because I switched to bikini cut underwear or its from the Finasteride, because low doses of medicine work well for me. This has helped my GD incredibly.
12/19/15 second laser treatment
12/23/15 I bought another waist trainer. This time a female one with shoulder straps. I like this even better, because it covers my entire upper body and the waist actually fits a lot better. It is more difficult to breath, but I don't care. I really like the getting hugged feeling. What I don't like it's that the hip portion doesn't fit, but there isn't as loose down there as I thought there would be.
12/24/15 going to work, somehow I slid sideways and the front end of my Suv was under the trailer of a semi. The trailer smashed my front end. I was able to finish driving to work and somehow controlled my anxiety. I am surprised that I did not pee my pants.
1/15 I had to buy new jeans because my pants were not fitting correctly. I am much skinnier now and i've gained weight in my thighs and butt. I have more cellulite. I realize now that I need hips. I now get wedgies, but they don't upset me like they use to. I wonder if eventually I will wear a thong? I do not know if i can wear a thong and tuck because of my endowment.
1/15/16 third laser treatment. Facial hair is now soft and 1/3 gone. I only had mustaches and chin hair. Hardly any hair on my cheeks to begin with. Bought another pair of jeans because there is no way to fit the old pants. Two are only 6 months old and I love it. I love the way I look in them and it makes so happy.
1/21/15 First Endo appointment
1/22/16 ordered Jayln (Tamsulosin and Dutasteride.) This is in addition to the Finasteride
1/30/16 I was super sad and life really got to me I am letting my feelings out and actually feel better afterwards. This is something new. I use to just cry into my pillow at night and sleep. Instead I went to bed happy. The chat feature on this site got me through it. I feel like I am in crisis mode. Damn bipolar with schizo effective disorder.
