9/15 to 11/15 meet with several terrible therapists during this time. One made me actually consider suicide.

10/15 (not sure when) I bought a waist trainer, a male waist trainer.  I really like wearing it,  because it feels like I'm being hugged all day and makes me look better. It also made my back pain go away.

11/13/15 spoke to my psychologist and got my hrt letter (described as true trans, but not hyper feminine.) Whatever that means.

11/14/15 had first laser hair removal for face/neck. 1,800 in 100 dollar monthly payments with free touch ups for life

11/22/15 ordered finasteride.

12/15 started working on my voice. I noticed that my testicles shrunk by close to a quarter or so smaller. It appears that i have foreskin because my penis is turtled in the bikin underware. My glans are turning a different color and are really sensitive. It's a good thing. I don't know if it is because I switched to bikini cut underwear or its from the Finasteride, because low doses of medicine work well for me. This has helped my GD incredibly.

12/19/15 second laser treatment

12/23/15 I bought another waist trainer. This time a female one with shoulder straps.  I like this even better,  because it covers my entire upper body and the waist actually fits a lot better.  It is more difficult to breath,  but I don't care.  I really like the getting hugged feeling. What I don't like it's that the hip portion doesn't fit,  but there isn't as loose down there as I thought there would be.

12/24/15 going to work, somehow I slid sideways and the front end of my Suv was under the trailer of a semi. The trailer smashed my front end. I was able to finish driving to work and somehow controlled my anxiety. I am surprised that I did not pee my pants.

1/15 I had to buy new jeans because my pants were not fitting correctly.  I am much skinnier now and i've gained weight in my thighs and butt. I have more cellulite. I realize now that I need hips. I now get wedgies, but they don't upset me like they use to.  I wonder if eventually I will wear a thong?  I do not know if i can wear a thong and tuck  because of my endowment.

1/15/16 third laser treatment. Facial hair is now soft and 1/3 gone. I only had mustaches and chin hair. Hardly any hair on my cheeks to begin with. Bought another pair of jeans because there is no way to fit the old pants. Two are only 6 months old and I love it.  I love the way I look in them and it makes so happy.

1/21/15 First Endo appointment

1/22/16 ordered Jayln (Tamsulosin and Dutasteride.) This is in addition to the Finasteride

1/30/16 I was super sad and life really got to me  I am letting my feelings out and actually feel better afterwards. This is something new. I use to just cry into my pillow at night and sleep.  Instead I went to bed happy.  The chat feature on this site got me through it. I feel like I am in crisis mode. Damn bipolar with schizo effective disorder.

Congratulations on both your achievements and progress!

good luck

@ Ms Grace - thanks

@ Stephanie - no luck needed, just determination of will.

Why take dutasteride AND finasteride at the same time? Dutasteride is the same as finasteride except it's better in terms of DHT suppression. It will also atrophy your prostate gland on its own.

Congrats for everything else.

Quote from: KayXo on February 01, 2016, 12:21:54 PM
Why take dutasteride AND finasteride at the same time? Dutasteride is the same as finasteride except it's better in terms of DHT suppression. It will also atrophy your prostate gland on its own.

Congrats for everything else.

Because i was told so. :/

Finasteride inhibits type 2 alpha-reductase while dutasteride inhibits type 2 and type 1 which convert T to DHT. This is the first time I ever hear of someone taking both at the same time. You should do some research, find out for yourself if what I'm telling you is correct and perhaps question your doctor. Don't do/change anything before advising your doctor first and getting their consent. 

Quote from: KayXo on February 01, 2016, 02:43:36 PM
Finasteride inhibits type 2 alpha-reductase while dutasteride inhibits type 2 and type 1 which convert T to DHT. This is the first time I ever hear of someone taking both at the same time. You should do some research, find out for yourself if what I'm telling you is correct and perhaps question your doctor. Don't do/change anything before advising your doctor first and getting their consent.

I understand that mmv, but people's experience to me is very important also. This is new science and I know why doctor's are said to 'practice medicine' from some of my past experiences.

Im on dutasteride, should i b taking tamusulosin? What does tamusulosin do for transition? thx

Quote from: LJP on February 02, 2016, 09:17:59 AM
What does tamusulosin do for transition?

Nothing. It just helps with prostate enlargement.

Quote from: KayXo on February 02, 2016, 10:25:37 AM
Nothing. It just helps with prostate enlargement.

Thx for info

2/2/16
Yesterday I received my derma roller! I am suppose to use this where my hair recedes to aid the growth.  I was informed by the nurse to use the 1mm needles. The laser people said that I can micro derm  my face and neck,  but only worth the .5mm roller.
http://i.imgur.com/RpgztkT.jpg
http://puruskin.com/video-courses/

This product has great reviews.
*the video says to use the 1.5mm for hair restoration worth Rogaine 5% the next day. I will do more research tonight.

2/8/16
Last Thursday night I went to Lasting Hope and today I was released.  I had some medicine changes. Additions really.

While I was there I saw a psychologist who laughed at me when he learned that I was transitioning. How professional is that? Anyway the rest of the staff was nice and asked if I wanted to use Alice or my official name. I informed them that I want to be called by how I present myself.

Descrimination is alive and well.

Quote from: KayXo on February 02, 2016, 10:25:37 AM
Nothing. It just helps with prostate enlargement.

Tamsulosin is for my Kidney stones.

2/10/16
Got my Jalyn today. Getting a new tattoo tomorrow. Here's my Angry Alice tattoo.

Congrats 

2/16
Had to postpone the tattoo no big deal.
Today I finally gained the courage to microderm the M pattern on my scalp to assist with hair growth.  Not nearly as bad as I thought.

2/19
The "shedding" of my hair concerns me.  I know it is a good thing,  but now there is no way I am leaving the apartment without a hat. Also, only a couple shirts fit me now because I've lost so much size in my upper body.

It doesn't make sense to me why Finasteride and/or Dutasteride would make me lose so much upper body mass. My pants are tight in the hips,  so I measured. My hips have grown! Also,  more shrinkage in my shoulders and neck.

For perspective this shirt fit perfectly in December. Look at the shoulders.
http://i.imgur.com/UiODiVv.jpg

2/21
Microdermed my front hairline again today. Hurt a lot more today and looks much more effective. Today I did not hear pops as I was rolling.  Everything went smooth and it took 1/2 the time. Obviously the skin was tough and really needed the process.

3/1
Microdermed my front hairline again today. It did not hurt nearly as much as previous applications and blood was minimum. I am a bit upset about my measurements, but that is what happened when i did not stick to my diet. Damn you Valentines day/month! On Thursday I have another trip to see the Endo.