FB still stuck as Alice
So annoying as i'm dying to post and Like stuff and I can't as I don't want to see a name that isn't mine.
Still a lucky escape after all the time it's taken me to be me and I can't believe I was stupid enough to almost give it up.
Mega up side from all the publicity with my announcement, name change and frantic backpedalling everyone now understands that Jerri hurts me and will be extra sure to use my full name from now on.
With that on my side I've also now buried Jerri at work too with another email (not as big and epic as last one but it worked) so yay me I've burned the bridge and I'm just me now with no strings to the past.
Partners can be a double edged sword. If supportive they can be awesome when not they can be rather devastating.
I've had my share of both from crying to Rosie (my teddy bear) feeling alone and hated by the one I love right through to crying with happiness with nail dryer and nightie as presents from her. (might be seeing a theme with the crying here - lol).
Speaking of which my SO is coming back out of her darkness again so hopefully be her normal good self for a while. It's that way I know she loves me and she knows she loves me but her brain struggles against all the girl/girl=bad programming leaving her a bit mixed up and even fearful mostly about what people will think.
Think she might need to just have one schnapps too many some night and ravish me to get it out her system
She agrees but I don't want her to have me while she's drunk so I'll wait until she's ready
Echoing everyone else's earlier sentiments Sarah you did bring us all together in here so at least you're never completely alone.
I know your scared of the family gathering Sarah but must be so exciting too. I've seen most people in chunks so far but would really really love a full on clan gathering with everyone. That said though everyone knows about me which is pretty cool and as "he" had basically already died long ago as far as the family was concerned. Guess it might have made it easier as they weren't really losing anyone but gaining a daughter/sister/aunt/niece but I'll take it. I'm sure your family will get on board although it be easier or harder for some. Personally I was blown away with just how welcoming everyone was as y'know I was expecting hellfire etc so hopefully yours will be the same.
The cancer thing is horrible and hope his treatment goes well.
At the risk of taking advantage of a misfortune it may help your family to remember how important family is and make them less likely to be negative.
Lastly I'm so looking forward to my first Christmas it's going to be sooooo much fun.
SO's folks and brother coming to our place for dinner. Think everyone else going to my folks which is 2 mins walk from mine so I'll get to see everyone on Christmas day
Christine's turn I have a really hard time thinking of you as anything but just another pretty girl in that kind of way that if you threw on guy clothes I'd still be going "yup defo a girl". 68kg in your work gear very very good you do indeed seem to have it all I'm too scared to check mine now. Sorry to hear about your grandfather and the extra worries it has brought to you as relatives appear on the scene. Plus side as with Sarah it may work in your favour as hard times are good for bonding drawing everyone closer together. Your own physical strength will likely stay the same as you are continuing to use what you had but you do seem to have a delicate frame as opposed to being the Hulk so no worries there. Broadly for muscle use it or lose it seems to be the way of it. For myself I purposefully dumped my strength as I was too mechanical because the muscles had been strengthened on machines. Never bulky (even when I tried in the past) they would just get stronger when used in the same way as the machines so to learn to move properly I had to let myself get weaker while working on my aerobics etc to even it out. After GCS I'm wanting gymnastics, swimming and dance classes so badly I could scream. For your own muscle being grown doing actual work their range of movement and strength distribution are likely to be far more balanced as I couldn't imagine you moving anything less than gracefully.
Exciting times ahead for you both for family stuff and really hope it goes well for you.
