Hi everyone, It's my Birthday!!!

[Rebecca]

Love the 30 mins or less version. Anyone that can't read us that fast should consider a different line of work

So looking forward to hearing about your experiences with E.

Not long to go


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[SarahElizabeth1981]

yes it is just around the bend I'm not sure he might have the results to see him on Friday. it'll depend exactly what tests he orders. other wise it will be the following wed as it seem he is only there Wed - Fri

[Tasha_]

Yay Sarah!!! Glad you are doing so well!!! I really wish I could afford to start hair removal!!! Oh well.... someday....

[Jenny0713]

Awesome Sarah!  Good luck!


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[Rachel_Christina]

Its odd that you haven't noticed it starting to deminish Jenny, maybe the first four sessions really wher duds. Mines better work, cost me 450 a pop :/
Its great new dor you Sarah,and its funny about how long you wher in talking to the therapist, I was the same, once I started talking I couldn't stop, it was actually fun! :')
So far I have talked to two of my brothers and my mother, both have been really cool. The second brother though the one after me, said that it will be weird in the future, it will be as if you died, I always find it so odd hearing this cliche old line. I really don't get it, ha. Healso said though he always knew he was the big brother. I'm the oldest but they are all taller and heavyer built than me, i Have small feet and hands, I have a waist, and I do have some hips,.... it really makes me wonder, I do have strong shoulders, but so would any girl working as hard as me.
I would love to get test for maybe some sort of androgen insensitivity or something.I either got really lucky, or after praying every night for 20 something years maybe he did listen abit and helped me out atleast a little.
Maybe its our own will power, I have always thought of myself as a girl and so i developed like a girl, I dunno.
I wishI was intersex or something, I know my mom would be better then, if its something she can physical see and hear from a doctor, she would treat me different. I miss my mom, as I live abroad I used to Skype home everynight, now since I came out she weirds me out and I don't call near as often! :/
I wish my voice was better, for me if my voice was better I would be able to go out more as me and gain confidence and relax abit more!
Anyway I have rambled on long enough.
I will leave you be girls! Ciao Ciao

[Jenny0713]

Yea, I don't like the You're dead thing either. My mom once said she will have to mourn the loss of Russ. I said ok but eventually thought that I didn't buy that. I am right here. I still have the same personality, still a computer geek, etc.

Yea I hope I see more results from the laser soon too. So frustrating. I know what you mean by the voice but you are right. You are lucky in regards to your size. I wish I was about a foot shorter and had smaller feet and I also hate my voice. I get clocked on the phone all the time.

Sorry about your mom and the skype. I know that's gotta be difficult for you.

Talk to you later. 


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[Rebecca]

Personally I like that he's dead so I am seen as just me (which I am now) but my own situation was a wee bit different with the split and all.

For those that have lived and evolved normally as 1 person I could see it as the butterfly mourning the caterpillar. The kids have the best approach with the Pokémon evolution gig so you're excited and happy with what you've got instead of mourning the loss of the weaker one.

Grown ups really could learn a lot from kids.

[Rebecca]

Got my Mum's support for Thailand today which is great. She's been simply amazing with everything but was worried about me flying halfway around the world for surgery. She also got quite a fright with the "victims site" but that's understandable as I almost fell for it too at first glance.

Just a heads up I've not discussed aftercare with anyone so they know nothing about dilation etc. As far as they know once I get back to UK I'm finished/complete. Anything.... physically intimate shall we say will defo only be on Susan's with FB being more for reassurance back home. Not that they couldn't handle it but it's a very personal thing and I'm not ready to discuss what will be going in my vagina or when once I've got it. I am still growing up though and my relationship with both is getting deeper so I might change my mind later.

[Tasha_]

I am happy for you Jerrica!!! Must be VERY exciting!!!

[Jenny0713]

Fantastic Jerrica!  That's awesome!  I have a couple of friends who have gone through the surgery if you would like me to ask them to come here to Susan's to help you understand after procedures and issues. Let me know and I can ask them. I generally see at least one of them on out Tuesday group at the GIC here.   Really happy for you!


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[Rebecca]

It's great having them in my inner circle. I'm very lucky ♡

A good offer Jenny but from the net so far it's covered.

Got links for guides and a vlog on my preparation thread  giving a really detailed day by day feel for things.

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[SarahElizabeth1981]

That's great Jerrica. The more support you have the better I think. yeah the negative stuff can be hard to get past but soo much of it is based on shady doctors. you're going to a well known doctor so it should be good. I was right the girl I know here is going to Chet as well. but there won't be much time between when she gets back and you're planning to go so I'm not sure if I will be able to share any of her experiences with you.

So, I've pretty much decided to go to Mexico for my plastic surgery. not including vaginoplasty. Just for my nose, boobs and hips. however, I heard of a new implant called Ideal Implants which are saline filled but have a more natural feel then other saline filled implants. I really like these implants so far but, currently, you can only get them in the U.S and Canada. There is one surgeon where I live that does them. So now I'm considering what to do. it'll be a year or more before anything done so there's no hurry but a girl can still dream. and of course research and plan what she's going to do. take care girls.

[Rebecca]

I love being able to share my deeper thoughts with my Mum, Sis & DD and think my little circle will grow once I add my 2 other sisters (if interested ofc). All friends and family are welcome to share in my "normal" life but trans stuff is my own personal "flaw" (to me) that I hide from all but my closest of confidantes.

Always good to hear of more Chet girls. Bit like the rule for a first date "Take him/her to a busy restaurant. If it's busy the food must be good!".

Got tons of info so far mostly from here on Susan's as it feels more personal for it being other people here instead of complete randoms.

I'm honestly dreading having T back in my system even if only for a couple of weeks but after watching Carrie's vids I'm confident I'll get through it. Getting rid of the T threat forever, getting my all important anatomically correct genitalia and the lure of accelerated development after makes it so full of positives I'm totally psyched up for it.

Mexico sounds fun for other surgeries but I'm going to put the scalpel on ice for a bit after Feb but will be asking Chet for his thoughts regarding any additional work he would recommend on my face.

For breasts I'll be waiting at least to the 2 year mark to see what mother nature has in store for me. A wee bit of padding in the bra will do for now.

Dreams are fun. Never stop dreaming

[Rachel_Christina]

Yes Jerrica, that extra development, thats what I am after too.
I had my check up yesterday with my endo, had bloods taken and everything.
She was so happy for me, she could see I was glowing, I just let her know of all the changes, she was so excited too, she is so lovely, she straight away remarked that I wasn't dressed femme though, she was probably hoping I would be!
Maybe next time I will have the confidence, she would love that! :')
Even the blood girl just talked and talked away!,
I was bouncing when I came out of ther, even my weight is down to 66kg
She will contact me soon with results and possible new doseage! :3
Hope you girls are all good!! I'm off to work!

[Rebecca]

So jealous down to 66kg well done you. I've been eating like a bear preparing for hibernation so defo not weighing for a bit lol.

Getting all dolled up for going out will happen naturally it's that double edged way if your comfy then great and it's you but if not then you might feel like you're trading one costume for another which would be horrible.

Even knowing what I did in January I'd never have expected me to sitting here right now with skirt, boots, lippy, nails etc. Just kinda do things when I get the impulse.

When you're ready you'll know. A bit clichéd but true.

[SarahElizabeth1981]

Sounds like you got a good Endo Christine. that's awesome. Like Jerrica I'm jealous you're at 66 KG it seems like no matter what I do I'm stuck at 77KG. I would like to be around 68 - 70 KG. But I long ago stop worrying about my weight and focused on my appearance. I really only have to lose the belly fat and I will be happy. it's just stubborn as hell.

When I first started going out in public I would wear a female top and my breast forms and go to a movie. it was winter time so i had a winter Jacket on until I was in my seat. In the theater nobody paid that much attention to me. I got more comfortable over time until I was always Sarah in public. I read, probably on this site, that transitioning is a marathon not a sprint. You will get there.

I have my next doctor appointment tomorrow and then I will be out of town for a week. My Dad and step mum are moving and I'm going to help them. I will be book another appointment for when I get back and hopefully start estrogen then.  i will try and check in but if i'm not able to I hope you girls have a great week!

[Rachel_Christina]

Aw she is really nice, even really pretty too, shes Italian.
Shes so interested in it all
I don't really look like I have lost much weight, but she says it'll be muscle loss, I can't wait to tone up properly now next year when the weather gets warmer! Dat belly is always hard to shift!
Yea easing it in like that would be a good idea, I rarely get the chance, if my voice was good id be not so bad, if you can talk back female voiced that would throw them completly.
Aw thatll be fun, out of town for a moving!
I hope you get on soon! Its so exciting, the changes are slow but worth it!
I just can't wait for the new year, I should be out to everyone by the end of it!
Enjoy yourselves whatever your doing girls! :3

[Rebecca]

Fingers crossed for your estrogen Sarah hope the week goes quickly for you.

Pretty sure your voice will happen soon enough Christine. It's amazing how much of talking is done subconsciously. I used to talk differently to different people depending on their relationship with me. Kids, strangers and particularly other women my voice was a lot more me but when dealing with people who knew me prior my voice was held back a bit.

Probably a confidence thing but a lot seems to come down to self perception first then allowing others to read it from you. My voice is trashed right now but I broadcast female loud and clear with zero doubts or worries which I think might be why I seem to be read correctly everywhere.

Tough to put down a mask you've worn forever even when you know you want to smash it to pieces.

Like Sarah says extending your comfort zone takes time but it's down to you to choose what and when.

[SarahElizabeth1981]

Hey girls just got home after seeing the doctor. Physical went well. I've had so many test this year there isn't much he  needs to check.  But I do have a few things to check and to get my hormone levels. I had my doctor test my Testosterone a few weeks ago but didn't find out what it was at. Today I was told that before blockers I was at 22 when it was tested a few weeks ago it was at 16. which is down but i still find it a little disappointing. if everything is good from the blood work then I will get my hormones when I see him next week. 

i don't recall if i mentioned a little while back that I looked into joining the navy reserves here. well, I sent them an email on sept. 28 and didn't hear anything back. I got a response from them today. I was kind of surprised but I was super excited about it. I still have a lot more to do to actually apply but I find it super exciting.

My Friends have expressed some concern about it but I have done some research on it. there are currently over 100 Trans people in the Canadian armed forces. The have a policy about it and are currently updating it to include some guidelines to help CO's know what to do to accommodate trans people. It appears that it's a little hit and miss depending on the people you're serving with. So, if I do get accepted hopefully I'm with some great people and have a good experience. I'll be leaving shortly take care girls. muah love you all.

[Rebecca]

At least 22 to 16 is still progress and I'm sure they'll now increase your blocker to compensate.
I imagine the endo process being a very slow and conservative system with gradual increases to things until they get them right. With any system though better to have a slow system than no system so they'll get there in the end but it might take a while.

Navy reserves sounds both fun and scary. People and obstacle courses so long as it's a nice day sounds fun for sure but I'm not very good at doing what I'm told unless asked nicely. I don't really see army people doing much beyond barking orders movie style "Line up maggots!!!" etc instead of "Ok ladies get into line please." lol

Canada seems to be a nice place to be as even though the world seems to joke at Canadians being "too nice and polite" I think if that's the best people can do as a weakness then Canada must be a great place to live.