Thanks for the kind words, Monica. I definitely consider myself lucky to be this young and starting out. That being said, I wouldn't have minded starting earlier, but that seems to be the case regardless of age. I will have to keep your advice about including my wife in the decision making process. The first thing we did is discuss our fears and wants. I can see already how easy it can be to become self-absorbed, even after coming out to her this weekend, I already feel like hitting the ground sprinting in a way that I've never desired before. I know the process will be long and I should rush it. I have the rest of my life.
She has said that the idea of me as a woman makes her feel uncomfortable, but clarified that by mentioning that 'uncomfortable' is basically the default mode/reaction for her. Shes also consistently been surprised at how okay she is seeing me in a feminine manner, and even how she is as or more attracted to me now that I'm showing her my true self. (It helps that she already considers herself bisexual) But it will still be a process, regardless. We talked about our worries, primarily being that we are in the process of growing a family, we definitely want to be pregnant with another child in the next year and possibly one more shortly after that. We're only waiting for her to be done with school as it is. The other being that we both VERY thoroughly enjoy our sex life, and we are both fearful of losing that aspect of our relationship. However, I'm hopeful in that I have an extremely high libido as is, and a lot of the reading I've done has suggested that younger individuals tend to have better luck with maintaining some functionality. I understand that our sexlife would definitely be altered, though, and even if I'm able toncontinue penetrative intercourse, there will be some changes. It will be great to find a therapist (strange saying that after so long denying that I had a problem or needed to see anyone) who can help me sort through this and get my desires in check.
