Laurie,
So sorry to hear about what you are experiencing, have been away from the site for awhile so catching up at the present. I am fortunate in that for most of my life depression has not been a part of it, dysphoria, yes, but thankfully HRT has for the most part eliminated that from my life. That being said I cannot begin to offer personal experience advice nor would I, as each of us can only know the life we have lived in the past, live in the present and hope for in the future. I wish that there was a magic wand I could wave and make your life better as everyone in this community would also do, but we know that is not the way it works. I can only offer my thoughts, you have experienced many things this past summer. An increase in estradiol, (one thought there, was proestrogen a part of that? it has properties that can increase depression). You have begun RLE, and all of the emotional changes that accompany it, not only with your own emotions but the experience of seeing others react to your change. The rebuff from your daughter and her family which I suspect was the hardest on you. You have experienced in one summer what many go through in a lifetime and never experience. There has been no stability for you to fall back on and rely on. I can only hope and pray that you can find that in your life's journey as you go forward.
With hugs and prayers,
Denni