Oh, Laurie... It's times like this I wish so much I knew the right things to say, some magic words that will make someone's pain go away.
I've spent the last 15 years doing just what you said - trying to push away everyone who cared about me. I lived in self-imposed exile, not even having the slightest shred of a social life. I don't recommend it. I'm still working on escaping that trap I made for myself, I don't want to see anyone else do that to themselves - pushing them away didn't help, it only made everything worse.
Add me to the list of those you inspired. You, with your kindness and humor, are one of the reasons I had the courage to post here in the first place. So thank you, and know that, even if you can't accept it right now, we all care for you.