dysphoria

[Jazmynne]

hi all I just need to talk about dysphoria. I didn't think I ever had any till last night. the voice wouldn't leave my alone. I awoke at 2 am no sleep since. I now know what it is to have it. started to cry but got that stopped, have asked for help from above but no message that I can tell. my thoughts used to be about being a woman last night it was I should be a woman omg. some times my mind keeps telling me to get estrogen. if I questioned about being transgender after last night I know for sure now I am. I have felt like not going to work but going to a quiet place to be alone with this. I am not out to my wife yet but I know now  this is coming to a conclusion what ever the results will be I cant bear this secret much longer. I know now being a woman is not about having breasts or dressing feminine its what is inside and in your soul. iam as I am I just cant help it. thanks for listening  sorry my thoughts are all over the place its bad for me today.P             

[KathyLauren]

Now would be a good time to talk to a gender therapist.  You will need to explore your dysphoria and map out a plan to deal with it in a way that will work for you.

[LizK]

hi all I just need to talk about dysphoria. I didn't think I ever had any till last night. the voice wouldn't leave my alone. I awoke at 2 am no sleep since. I now know what it is to have it. started to cry but got that stopped, have asked for help from above but no message that I can tell. my thoughts used to be about being a woman last night it was I should be a woman omg. some times my mind keeps telling me to get estrogen. if I questioned about being transgender after last night I know for sure now I am. I have felt like not going to work but going to a quiet place to be alone with this. I am not out to my wife yet but I know now  this is coming to a conclusion what ever the results will be I cant bear this secret much longer. I know now being a woman is not about having breasts or dressing feminine its what is inside and in your soul. iam as I am I just cant help it. thanks for listening  sorry my thoughts are all over the place its bad for me today.P             

Hi Jasmine

Great you are feeling so positive about your new knowledge of yourself. This must be something you have struggled with for a very long time. Coming to terms with just being Trans can be hard enough then trying to work out what flavour you are if any one particular flavour at all.

Its a happy scary confusing time. Give yourself some time to process this. I think the suggestion made by KathyLauren is a good one. If you can't find a gender therapist even a trans knowledgeable one will be of significant value. Depending on where you are in the world will depend on how good those resources to help you are.

We are here to help if we can 

[Jazmynne]

thank you ladies for listening, I have taken your advice and been in touch with the transition channel by email so maybe a start there. so much to think about but feeling better this evening . what set last night off I don't know. thanks.   

[Dena]

The walls that kept all of this caged up have just come down and there will be no putting them back up again. The feelings will continue but you are experiencing the worst of it right now. In a few weeks to a couple of months you will be able to function better but it will be a long journey. I wish you the best of luck and let me know if I can help you with  anything.