Greetings from the Philippines...

[IamJoannaAndJohn]

Hello hello you beautiful people of Susan's Place. I'm john, 36 years of age, and a late bloomer in the whole coming out scene. I stumbled across this website while looking up on HRT articles/forums and I'm glad i found this place. Looking forward for awesome articles/know hows, etc

A little backstory:

I tried writing out a small intro but i kept getting carried away into full detail so i'll try my best to just summarize the chapters of my life/journey

-came from a very strict religious and violent upbringing

-lived a very chaotic and depressive life, the black sheep

-drugs, booze, violence were my friends as my depression worsens; went to rehab for 8 months

-life resumed, got a job, everything was supposedly fine; drugs and booze repeats itself as depression rears its head

-internet exposed me to my hidden curiosity about same sex attraction (started out from hentai then went to transgirls, and so forth)

-curiosity soon followed and with the help of drugs and booze i engaged in numerous gay sex (safely always, with rubber)

-the denial phase sucked so bad...it hardens my dependence on drugs/booze to numb/forget that i might/may/could be gay.....if not at least bi...

-the last transgirl (she was a switch) that i fooled around it pretty much started out my 'coming to terms with my sexuality' journey.

-finally came out as a gay guy at 35 yo but it didn't stop there. i actually wanted to crossdress which i have been doing bit by bit but privately and wasn't in the best shape of my life (drugs and booze and eating to my heart's content and my age) didn't help one bit. I was 5'9.5" (178cm) at 90kg+/200lbs+

-fooled around with a fellow crossdresser and when he told me i was pretty as i was staring down at him....that did it for me. i went on a journey to become as fit as i can humanly be. (currently at 65.77kg/145lbs)

-midway through my healthy living is when i decided i wanted to become a transgender. i want to be pretty...i want to be cute...i want to wear girly outfits....be all cutesy daisy...pampered...spoiled....so i further strict down my diet and started HRT (almost 3 months now as im typing)

-ever since then i've been happy...positive...uplifted...yes yes problems and down times are still there but this is actually the best my life has ever been and i'm actually happy and always looking forward for tomorrow coz i can live and be pretty

[Northern Star Girl]

@IamJoannaAndJohn   
Hello IamJoannaAndJohn,   Thank you for writing your Introduction with interesting details about your life.   We are so glad that you found your way here to the Forums.
It is great to see that you have taken the step to become a member of Susan's Place and that you have shared your  introduction with us.   

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[V M]

Hi JoannaAndJohn 

Welcome to Susan's Place    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

Hugs

V M

[IamJoannaAndJohn]

thank you for the very informative and warm welcome, darlings