Refiled my legal name change last week due to a clerical error. This has helped me to sink into a depression and limbo (which i am not really used to at this point) for more than 2 months now - i was stuck and couldn't move in so many ways....
Ahhhhh..... a thousand pounds taken off my back and shoulders... Now i can move again and get the rest of my documents finished within the next couple of months......
Also, my wife and I went to the Ocean for the first time since i began my transition - more than 2 years now - we started at the sea, as friends becoming lovers more than 12 years ago... Many of the best parts of ourselves have always been deeply connected to the Sea. It goes so deep and intense that i cannot even begin to tell it all here. This weekend we went with two of our best friends, on a spur of the moment - threw caution and budget fears to the wind and just WENT.
We all got a nice room together, and at 3:00 in the morning on Saturday night, I was running across the beach into the Atlantic Ocean in April (O.C. Maryland - maybe 45 degrees), my sister in law watching in stunned amazement, as i stripped to nothing but my bra and panties, and dove in -
i told her the Sea was calling to me and i HAD to go - no matter how cold or dark it was - she grew up in the islands, and totally understood.....
Tomorrow (today) is our 12th anniversary, and we are still together, almost 3 years into my changes. Maybe there is still hope. It was good to go back to our special place together after so much trauma and torment of recent years for both of us.
Always,
LoveForever,
Annagirl
