Did you know as a child?

[Jasmine.m]

Just as far as natural selection goes, female humans shouldn't be alive. They'd be eaten.

That's why we have you boys to protect us!!!

like how you shed a scab when the skin underneath heals.

Wow! This is *exactly* what I thought... Ahh, to be so naive again!!

[jmaxley]

The reason I was interested to hear this is that I felt pretty much the same thing in reverse (like Farm Boy) - that nobody could possibly want to be female, that other girls must want to be boys, that all of them are deep down trans and suppressing it.I could have said the same thing but with the word "females" substituted in.

Same here.  I was shocked to find that most female-bodied people liked being female.  I just always assumed the females around me hated it as much as I did.

[Silver]

Same here.  I was shocked to find that most female-bodied people liked being female.  I just always assumed the females around me hated it as much as I did.

Lol yes, I thought it was normal. Apparently not, still baffles me that there are those that want to be female/like being female.

[Cindy]

Seems a common thread that neither of our genders wanted to be the sex they presented as. Pretty normal feeling really; we just never made the connection until later.

No doubt some good meaning none TG person will completely misinterpret it, as usual. Sorry feeling cynical.

Cindy

[insanitylives]

Lol yes, I thought it was normal. Apparently not, still baffles me that there are those that want to be female/like being female.

did you ever have parents saying stuff along the lines of "it's normal to be uncomfterable with yourself" at like 10-11ish when you tried to complain?

[Jeatyn]

did you ever have parents saying stuff along the lines of "it's normal to be uncomfterable with yourself" at like 10-11ish when you tried to complain?

I still get this now "everyone hates parts of their body" "yeah i get that you dont like your body...i wish i was thinner/had longer hair/was taller"

and I'm like noooo....it's nothing like that....even if I was the hottest perfectly shaped female on this earth I would still hate it. I'd much rather be a fat balding man than a hot chick.

[K8]

I still get this now "everyone hates parts of their body" "yeah i get that you dont like your body...i wish i was thinner/had longer hair/was taller"

and I'm like noooo....it's nothing like that....even if I was the hottest perfectly shaped female on this earth I would still hate it. I'd much rather be a fat balding man than a hot chick.

Yeah.  When I was first starting transition and going through the phase when we worry so much about passing, I figured I'd be happier as an ugly, old, mannish-looking woman than any kind of man.

- Kate

[jmaxley]

did you ever have parents saying stuff along the lines of "it's normal to be uncomfterable with yourself" at like 10-11ish when you tried to complain?

Yeah, I still get this too.  My mom tells me a lot of females feel uncomfortable with their body.

[Nygeel]

I feel...disconnected to what most  have been saying. When I started questioning my gender I asked trans people (transsexuals, namely) how they felt and it was always something completely different from my experience. It lead to a lot of doubts which I still have.

[Jasmine.m]

I figured I'd be happier as an ugly, old, mannish-looking woman...

Which you are not!! 

[Farm Boy]

did you ever have parents saying stuff along the lines of "it's normal to be uncomfterable with yourself" at like 10-11ish when you tried to complain?

I still get this too!  I think it'll be one of my biggest obstacles, getting my family to understand that this is different from thinking my nose is too big or not liking my hair color/eye color, etc. because:

even if I was the hottest perfectly shaped female on this earth I would still hate it.

Actually, if I resembled a 'hot' female actress or singer or what have you, my body shape would be much worse in my eyes than it is right now...

[Silver]

did you ever have parents saying stuff along the lines of "it's normal to be uncomfterable with yourself" at like 10-11ish when you tried to complain?

Yep, definitely. Well, I didn't outright complain about being female (I don't know, maybe I was in denial of gender or something.) But when puberty came along, I did not react well. This led to my mom resenting me for a long time (I guess I was pretty upset. Except it wasn't 10/11 more like 13/14.) I guess they knew I was uncomfortable with it.

[LordKAT]

Yep, definitely. Well, I didn't outright complain about being female (I don't know, maybe I was in denial of gender or something.) But when puberty came along, I did not react well. This led to my mom resenting me for a long time (I guess I was pretty upset. Except it wasn't 10/11 more like 13/14.) I guess they knew I was uncomfortable with it.

Puberty for me was more like ...unacknowledged.

[Northern Jane]

Yep, definitely. Well, I didn't outright complain about being female (I don't know, maybe I was in denial of gender or something.) But when puberty came along, I did not react well. This led to my mom resenting me for a long time (I guess I was pretty upset. Except it wasn't 10/11 more like 13/14.) I guess they knew I was uncomfortable with it.

I did complain (mouthy little thing LOL!), started complaining about age 10, went into open rebellion by 13. "Resenting" would be too light a term for my mum's reaction - more like knock down drag out shouting matches that constantly had me on the verge of being committed and treated against my will and eventually led to me being disowned. I guess I was stubborn to LOL! 

[Espenoah]

I feel...disconnected to what most  have been saying. When I started questioning my gender I asked trans people (transsexuals, namely) how they felt and it was always something completely different from my experience. It lead to a lot of doubts which I still have.

I have the same problem. Every TG person I have ever talked seems like they had a feeling they were wrong from the very beginning, but I never had that problem. For me, I was never really uncomfortable with myself. I didn't know until I researched it that it fit me.
It used to bother me and give me doubts, but I know who I am, and I'm not going to let other people's experiences influence my thought process. Everyone's different, so as long as you know what you need, no one else's experiences matter. I really hope one day you can kick those doubts out of your mind. It's so much more liberating that way. :3

[MillieB]

I didn't know until I researched it that it fit me.

Why did you research it?

I wouldn't say that it was a driving obsession for me at an early age and like lots of people have said, I thought that all boys wanted to be girls really they just didn't talk about it because we were boys. I think that it was a bit later that it started to get uncomfortable, but there was still a lot of denial.

[Sabene]

I have a memory of playing with two little girls when I was about six.  I was wearing the apron and serving the tea when their father came into the room.  His look was very disapproving and my sister appeared right after and took me home.  I didn't understand why exactly, but I remember a very distinct sense of "difference" in myself and shame and a feeling that I had done something wrong.  I think that was the first time I realized that I had to hide that difference away.

I found a book about it in the library at high-school age and suddenly it all clicked with how I had always felt.

[Espenoah]

Why did you research it?

I'm a very analytical person. I like to educate myself about topics I know little about, and when I became friends with an FtM on a different forum, I wanted to learn more about how he was feeling. It intrigued me, and when I learned more about it, I discovered it was intriguing because it fit me. I was in denial about it because I was bullied a lot for being butch [and still am bullied, I hate being in high school], and I liked to hide my feelings, even from myself, so it took educating myself to finally realize it.

But just because I was never had uncomfortable feeling doesn't mean I'm not trans. I was obsessed with being a role model, the perfect being, so I often fooled myself into thinking I was happy with my body when I wasn't. But now that I've opened my eyes, I know it's the path I have to take, and no one else's experiences are going to persuade me otherwise.

[K8]

I often fooled myself into thinking I was happy with my body when I wasn't.

I did that for decades, and it works until you finally realize your body really isn't right and there is something you can do about it.

- Kate

[Nygeel]

I have the same problem. Every TG person I have ever talked seems like they had a feeling they were wrong from the very beginning, but I never had that problem. For me, I was never really uncomfortable with myself. I didn't know until I researched it that it fit me.
It used to bother me and give me doubts, but I know who I am, and I'm not going to let other people's experiences influence my thought process. Everyone's different, so as long as you know what you need, no one else's experiences matter. I really hope one day you can kick those doubts out of your mind. It's so much more liberating that way. :3

For some reason I never got an e-mail saying that there were new posts...oh well.

I had more of a feeling of being masculine and not equating it with being male...seeing those as two different things. I was a female that could wear boy's clothing all the time without question. I was allowed to object to playing on all girl's teams.