Has anybody ever gotten that line from a family member? I got that from my mom. She said there were no signs.
I can think back and think of so many red flags that I was transgender. Apparently, there's this idea that I had to be a masculine, tomboy little girl or scream "I want a penis!" as a child in order to legitimately be transgender.
When I was 2, my mom says that I would scream and cry if my parents put me in dresses.
When I was around 10-11, I cried and screamed at my mom because she said I have cleavage and I screamed that I hated it and wished it would disappear.
When I was 11-12, I begged God to turn me into a boy overnight, and would be extremely disappointed when I woke up a girl. Seriously. I would pray at night for that (or superpowers like shapeshifting so that I could change my body into a boy's) and then the first thing I would do is reach down and check my underwear. Sometimes it ruined my day because I was so upset that it didn't happen.
Oh, and when I was in daycare, my teacher read us this book, I don't remember what it was called, but it was about this boy who fell out of his bed one morning, accidentally licked his elbow, and that turned him into a girl. So, by my own logic, I thought: "Hey, if I licked my own elbow, I'll turn into a boy!" Too bad I could never actually manage to lick my elbow.
Just because I wasn't vocal about my desire to be a boy, and I whispered so that nobody would hear me when I prayed, trying to make a deal with God that I would do anything he wanted as long as he turned me into a boy, doesn't mean I'm not transgender and that there were no signs. Of course there were signs, she just never saw them because I realized quickly that girls wanting to be boys and boys wanting to be girls isn't normal.
When I was around 13-14, I got so frustrated with my own body that I forced myself to learn to pee standing up.
Hell, I remember I once sat on the jungle gym at daycare and watched the boys play soccer, trying to figure out why I wanted to be them, and what was so different about me. All I knew back then was that I wanted to be them.
According to my friends, there were signs. Then again, I always acted more like myself around them. I literally tell my friends everything I'm thinking because I trust them.
So I mean, those things sound like signs to me. My mom was just never around to see them.
Just because I was a girly child doesn't mean my transsexualism is invalid, right? I like girly things. That doesn't make my identity invalid. I hung out with almost all girls until I got into elementary school. That must mean I'm not transgender. I like to have female friends, that must mean I'm not transgender. I know cisguys who like to be friends with females. Does that make them transgender?
Just had to rant a bit there.
