Now I Know Why They Leave

[Kate]

For me, this isn't a sense of debt to pay off.  Instead, I have a desire to share what I have and will learn.

I am an instructor.  It's what I do.  It's how I show love.

Exactly. I don't forsee a conflict between getting on with a normal life eventually, AND still contributing here. Sure, I'll move more into a quieter time, lending a hand more than looking for one, but still... I've fallen in love with you kids. You're family.

And when I see newbies joining, asking and saying the same things I did those many months ago... my heart just breaks for them. We're all different, and yet there are so many similar patterns we have to struggle through. It's not a chore of obligation, it's a labour of love.

Kate

[mary83054]

I for one would never want to make anyone feel quilty for moving on because as so many others have said before that is what life is about.  However I cannot express how much Susan's and each of you mean to me (even tho I think all of you are simply gorgeous and I am so jalous) as I am still taking baby steps with my gender issues.  Being over seas and in this work enviroment I do not have any other support or anywherre to turn where I can be accepted and understood.  I do not get here as often as I would like because of internet access problems but when I am here i feel better for days after.  One day i may be at the point where I am can live and act as the woman I feel I am and when that day comes who knows I May stay or go, I will never be able to do stealth (my size and my masculine features are pretty dominanat) but I do hope and pray that i will be able to accept and be the woman that I know i am.
  Everyone here has helped and continues to help on that journey.  So again thanks to each of you as the sayin goes you have touched a life and made a difference so God in God's way will surely reward each of you.


Mary

[Stormy Weather]

You know when, you just do.

Yep... that time is fast approaching. Just got to wrap some things up and possibly revise some statements I've made in the past.

[togetherwecan]

and what of the SO's that are in these pictures? If you have moved on without them or they have decided to not move on with you....how does an SO get themselves out? It wouldn't be as simple as walking away because their life is now complete, in fact it would be incomplete and devastated even more...

I agree with when your done, your done. Bri and I have talked about this before a few times as have Melissa and I. I would feel like that I think, but reading the responses made me realize that if and/or when Brooke decides to move on in any direction without me after what I have given it would be really hard - for me. I have embraced Susan's and the people here. I have accepted what is with Brooke so far. I have left other things unattended or behind entirely. SO's that are there for you get lost in this shuffle so I just hope in my saying it it helps all of you understand it.

[tinkerbell]

You know when, you just do.

Yep... that time is fast approaching. Just got to wrap some things up and possibly revise some statements I've made in the past.

This is so true.  I am just waiting for that internal voice which never fails everytime it tells me "okay Tink, it  is time"...

tink

[Julie Marie]

You know when, you just do.

Yep... that time is fast approaching. Just got to wrap some things up and possibly revise some statements I've made in the past.

This is so true.  I am just waiting for that internal voice which never fails everytime it tells me "okay Tink, it  is time"...

tink

As I once again find myself absent from Susan's for more than a few days I have to ask myself how close that "time" is?  Life is a transition but the one we make often means leaving things behind.  We change in any transition but our transition changes us in many very deep ways.  Most of that change is the result of just feeling the freedom to be ourselves.  As that self emerges we find those things we wanted or needed changing too. 

When that voice says it's time does that mean we have completed our transition?  Will we finally be living as the person that we've hidden for so long?  Maybe.  Hopefully.  But, thus far, what is most satisfying about approaching that time is the inner peace.  The war is almost over.  Soon it will be time to go home.  Finally.

Julie

[tinkerbell]

When that voice says it's time does that mean we have completed our transition?  Will we finally be living as the person that we've hidden for so long?  Maybe.  Hopefully.  But, thus far, what is most satisfying about approaching that time is the inner peace.  The war is almost over.  Soon it will be time to go home.  Finally.

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They say that if you listen to your conscience everytime it *communicates* with you, you can be certain that things are going to turn out well and if they don't, at least you will have the peace of mind for having tried when you were supposed to.  Naturally, the *messages* spoken by your conscience will vary according to the situation you are facing at a particular period of time; therefore, in my case, and at this moment, I am waiting for that voice to say *it is time to move on* which for me, it will mean the *official* closure of my transition.  What do I mean by closure?  again, in my case, that closure means total stealthness and my separation from everything which identifies me as transsexual.  Now, I know that some of you don't think that this can be possible, for there are always going to be the breadcrumbs we leave behind.  Nevertheless, I have the right to at least try to live a life as peaceful/*normal* as possible without being reminded everytime that I wasn't born a genetic female.

tink

[Maud]

I'd hoped that just quitting IRC would stop that need but I still feel I need to move on, I may post on the forums some time in the distant future but for now this is my last post.