Given certain circumstances in my life, I was about 34 or 36 I made a commitment.
I accepted Christ as my personal saviour, spoke in tongues, visited services, payed my tithes, gone through deliverance (exorcism), become an exorcist, got thrown out of church for not "following the leader", and straight out of the Sanhedrin that "fired" me, spoke my prayer to Christ, and here I am, still praying, thanking, showing gratitude --- but being somewhat aware of all too much "humanness" in "leaders" so since then I have not gone back to any services I can recall, but gone quietly in to the odd church for prayer on my own.
I have no truck with doctrine and I like to keep it simple.
My commitment was to Christ and not to St. Paul or any of the other many "helpers", Saints, and Apostles.
My believe is strictly between me and Christ as it stands at present.
I still remember the song by Crosby, Stills and Nash "Carry on" that I played when I got thrown out of Church.
"Cathedral"
Six o' clock
In the morning, I feel pretty good
So I dropped into the luxury of the Lords
Fighting dragons and crossing swords
With the people against the hordes
Who came to conquer.
Seven o'clock
In the morning, here it comes
I taste the warning and I am so amazed
I'm here today, seeing things so clear this way
In the car and on my way
To Stonehenge.
I'm flying in Winchester cathedral
Sunlight pouring through the break of day.
Stumbled through the door and into the chamber;
There's a lady setting flowers on a table covered lace
And a cleaner in the distance finds a cobweb on a face
And a feeling deep inside of me tells me
This can't be the place
I'm flying in Winchester cathedral.
All religion has to have its day
Expressions on the face of the Saviour
Made me say
I can't stay.
Open up the gates of the church and let me out of here!
Too many people have lied in the name of Christ
For anyone to heed the call.
So many people have died in the name of Christ
That I can't believe it all.
And now I'm standing on the grave of a soldier that died in 1799
And the day he died it was a birthday
And I noticed it was mine.
And my head didn't know just who I was
And I went spinning back in time.
And I am high upon the altar
High upon the altar, high.
I'm flying in Winchester cathedral,
It's hard enough to drink the wine.
The air inside just hangs in delusion,
But given time,
I'll be fine.
A strange song with most beautiful music. It helped me along on my way from there on for a LONG time.
I highlighted the refrain that seemed somehow so appropriate to me.
Bless you all,
Axelle
