Starting a new thread. Such an honor. That makes me happy.
Also, I had my first laser hair treatment AND I got new glasses! I'm a happy girl! Although my face doesn't show it.
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And weirdly, the sales girl mentioned that something with my eyes was something "a lot of guys get. Well, a lot of people." it was so weird that like she was correcting herself. I was total guy mode, but it felt like I was giving something out there. I don't know, but it felt goooooood. [emoji1]
Continued from a previous thread. A place for all of us to share the things in life that made us happy. I happy/good news type thread. Have fun GF's.
Popcorn, Ice Cold Coke and watching the Jenner Interview.
It's an 'important' event. ;)
Quote from: ChiGirl on April 24, 2015, 06:29:26 PM
Starting a new thread. Such an honor. That makes me happy.
Also, I had my first laser hair treatment AND I got new glasses! I'm a happy girl! Although my face doesn't show it.
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi356.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Foo6%2Fcbgreiwe%2F20150424_160401-1_zpsvzy2q17y.jpg&hash=8b6a89611ad82b67107ec37a7442a919e797583b) (http://s356.photobucket.com/user/cbgreiwe/media/20150424_160401-1_zpsvzy2q17y.jpg.html)
And weirdly, the sales girl mentioned that something with my eyes was something "a lot of guys get. Well, a lot of people." it was so weird that like she was correcting herself. I was total guy mode, but it felt like I was giving something out there. I don't know, but it felt goooooood. [emoji1]
Hey ChiGirl I'm happy that your happy to start the new thread! Congrats! ;D
Happy that I finally got my HRT prescription!! It has been a hassle... So, incredibly excited!
Time for a new thread ladies.
What made me happy today?
My E implant has started to pump oodles of E into my body and I feel awesome again after a few weeks of going down when the old one was running down.
Now to try and get the $%^&#@! stitch out >:-)
a friend of mine who I totally came out to called me exotic
Appointment Monday with my plastic surgeon. The women there & the doc are so nice. I'm going to have some liposuction & body shaping done. Tummy tuck as they call it & maybe some work on my back & flabby upper arms. They all want me to look my best as I correct my gender, they are all so happy for me & know that I'm a woman. This is my plastic surgeon that did my facelift & eye lid surgery last summer & I have healed so nicely & have such a nicer more feminine face.
happy for another day of full time
Other than the fact that it is raining and cold, I feel pretty good today. One week on E! Can't say that I see or feel to much yet. Looking forward to the day.
Hi Ladies, there were 3 versions of this topic, so hope you don't mind but I merged them into one
L Katy :-*
I was hoping someone would. It makes me happy. ;D
Getting along pretty well with Sweetie. Last night she asked me some questions and, although asking made her sad, she bounced back pretty well. Even kissed me back when I saw her off to work. Going as slow as I can for her, it's hard, but she's worth it!
Quote from: katrinaw on April 25, 2015, 10:36:34 AM
Hi Ladies, there were 3 versions of this topic, so hope you don't mind but I merged them into one
L Katy :-*
Thank you GF.
I am happy that today I did not get sprayed by a skunk
I am happy that today I am finally not wet and cold
I am happy that today my allergy problems are going away
I am happy that today I did not have an argument and near fight with a Rude Hypocritic SOB
;D
It makes me happy to be a woman. Little by little my life is becomming more calm & focused. I'm hopeful for a nice normal vagina later this year. It will be so nice to heal up & then maybe a new man in my life to fully enjoy. Life is good GF's be happy.
Waking up alive with my loving partner beside me. Our two beautiful dogs, three cats and umpteen fish. I had an orchi recently and it took ages to finally get it done, and am very very pleased it has finally happened.
That now I am comfortable using a ladies restroom, and am virtually never taken for a male - especially cool at work. That I actually pass now - i never thought I would, and it took a while. I didn't even need to get any expensive surgery that I couldn't afford. That I have a female birth certificate now, with no mention of my prior name or gender, along with passport, drivers licence and everything else.
Phew!
And I have good friends who are non-judgemental, know I am trans, and respect me.
Ok i am straying a bit from the rules, this is what made me happy yesterday
Yesterday I spent the day with my mother. The in morning we went dress shopping, as she getting married in June, so i needed a dress.. we found a stunning maroon dress, knee length with V-neck Straps. Shoes still needed, i thinking a black open sandal.. that search continues. I will then paint my toes nails to match the dress.
then after that we went to spa.. and we got a body massage each and a mani and petti. the whole day was her treat. I really love been a girl and spending some girl time with her.. we are both very girly.. My mother says she loves having a daughter.
The man my mother is marrying is great.. i am getting a step sister, who is my age and two older step brothers.
Quote from: noleen111 on April 26, 2015, 06:51:13 AM
Ok i am straying a bit from the rules, this is what made me happy yesterday
Yesterday I spent the day with my mother. The in morning we went dress shopping, as she getting married in June, so i needed a dress.. we found a stunning maroon dress, knee length with V-neck Straps. Shoes still needed, i thinking a black open sandal.. that search continues. I will then paint my toes nails to match the dress.
then after that we went to spa.. and we got a body massage each and a mani and petti. the whole day was her treat. I really love been a girl and spending some girl time with her.. we are both very girly.. My mother says she loves having a daughter.
The man my mother is marrying is great.. i am getting a step sister, who is my age and two older step brothers.
Such nice warm happy news. I'm so happy for you. I hope all GF's can become close to their mothers. My dear mother loved me as her daughter however she has passed away. We did some nice things together but not enough. Enjoy your mother girl friend. I'm almost crying even though it has been 3 years since she passed away. Thank you so much for your post GF.
Quote from: noleen111 on April 26, 2015, 06:51:13 AM
Ok i am straying a bit from the rules, this is what made me happy yesterday
Yesterday I spent the day with my mother. The in morning we went dress shopping, as she getting married in June, so i needed a dress.. we found a stunning maroon dress, knee length with V-neck Straps. Shoes still needed, i thinking a black open sandal.. that search continues. I will then paint my toes nails to match the dress.
then after that we went to spa.. and we got a body massage each and a mani and petti. the whole day was her treat. I really love been a girl and spending some girl time with her.. we are both very girly.. My mother says she loves having a daughter.
The man my mother is marrying is great.. i am getting a step sister, who is my age and two older step brothers.
congrats
The past week made me very happy. More than I can even say or thought would happen. Bear in mind that I have had to live a double life where I am male for the most part at work and around those we socialize with.
Well, earlier this week, my wife gave me a card for her "new and closest friend" She wasn't fully accepting who I am but she was affirming that no matter what I was her best friend. The card had two young girls all dressed up and out shopping. It was adorable.
Yesterday I went clothes shopping yesterday with my wife. While we were out shopping something shifted over for her. Without going into details the essence is that she is now happy enough with me that we are talking where we go out just like that card and vacations too. We even have talked some about me going all the way over.
I always thought this was a dream and that I would lose her for good if I went full time and that she would never be with me while female. It took a while but because I am better person than I was, being happy now and working to make her happy as a natural part of that has worked out.
congrats
CrysC's post made me happy. It gives me hope!
Waking up in my own bed at homeand reading and responding to a slew of friend requests on my Facebook page after announcing on his page that I was in transition and letting everyone know that I would soon legally be Jessie and his page would no longer be updated.
I spent the last week back in my hometown (a very, very small farming community) going through my parents things and watching almost all of it being sold at auction. I had promiced my brother that I would be him and not myself. . It was a hard week so it was great to get to wake up at home.
Also today I have an appointment to get my eyebrows shaped. :eusa_dance: :icon_geekdance: :eusa_dance:
First day at work as myself. Going really, really well. WOOT!
Happy Girl today. Plastic surgery for May 26th. liposuction for mid section, tummy tuck & facial surgery to correct a scar. My surgeon & all of his staff are so nice to me to help become more of a nice attractive woman. They all care & want me to look my very best. He will help me with anything else I may need for a more feminine body. My breasts are growing nicely however I know would be a beautiful job with breast implants if I need them later.
I'm happy that I seem to be socializing well as a girl, also, cool the happy thread got stickied!
Honestly? It might be getting repetitive, but that Bruce Jenner interview really helped my parents out a bit. I haven't explained myself to them yet, but just seeing them react the way they did made me smile.
If not me, the fact that they support someone from a community that I'm apart of, makes me see things with a hopeful eye again.
So many today.
A friend posted on Facebook - "I am so proud of my children and the amazing adults they have become. I shared with one of them today that a friend of mine, one of their friend's dads, is transitioning to her rightful gender and will be legally known as a woman in a few weeks. When told of this important event in my friend's life, the reaction was immediately positive, praising all she has courageously dealt with, and very happy for Her happiness!!" She was my son's Den Mother in Cub Scouts and I was the summer camp leader for her son one summer. I'm pretty sure it was her son who reacted this way.
My dad commented that as he watched the Bruce Jenner interview he realized he had heard the information before. He said it was like two young boys who had got together to tell the same story to their parents so they wouldn't get in trouble? Maybe he understands a little better now.
I finally got to get my eye brows shaped some today!! If the wags back in my hometown thought I "looked a little effeminate" last week, what would they say if they saw me like this???
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Been a while since I post, but overall there's lots to post, collections of little things that I think about now and I get to be really really happy
Work has been difficult for a while because a small group of people still resist and use the wrong gender pronouns, but there's now enough new people and supportive people that being at work feels exceedingly natural. I get told my name is pretty whenever someone new hears it, for example.
Also, one co-worker returned after a long absence (since before I went full-time) and he asked my name and asked if I had had a brother or relative work there before because I looked "familiar" xD
Then on the phone I get correctly gendered all the time now. I would get calls from operas and symphonies to my old name constantly asking for donations. Now, when they call, they ask if he's around and I say he isn't so they don't bother me!
So everything is pretty great. It's "miss" and "ma'am" all the time, and even at spas and salons they assume I'm cis. It's phenomenal!
I was at a meeting today. High power $13mill deal. They had five suits and a woman. I had my secretary (female), my business manger (male) and I.
The suits lead off. The woman was quiet and in the background.
After 5 minutes the woman spoke. "WE will deal with this woman to woman".
An hour later we settled, both parties happy. Hard factual negotiation, no talking over each other. We both presented our cases and politely but firmly stated our demands and positions.
Five unhappy looking suits.
So much easier dealing with another woman.
He could never have done that ::)
Fantastic!
Quote from: Cindy on April 29, 2015, 03:54:49 AM
I was at a meeting today. High power $13mill deal. They had five suits and a woman. I had my secretary (female), my business manger (male) and I.
The suits lead off. The woman was quiet and in the background.
After 5 minutes the woman spoke. "WE will deal with this woman to woman".
An hour later we settled, both parties happy. Hard factual negotiation, no talking over each other. We both presented our cases and politely but firmly stated our demands and positions.
Five unhappy looking suits.
So much easier dealing with another woman.
He could never have done that ::)
After much thought and deliberation, I have picked my name. Finally! I am Charlotte Rose.
I picked Charlotte because I wanted to keep my first initial and it was one of the few C names I liked and wasn't being used by a family member.
Rose was my paternal grandmother's name. My current middle name is after my maternal grandfather, so this seemed appropriate. Plus it might gain me some brownie points with my dad and his side of the family! [emoji1] [emoji6]
Congrats, Charlotte Rose has a beautiful ring to it. Hugs
Mariah
Quote from: ChiGirl on April 29, 2015, 02:04:56 PM
After much thought and deliberation, I have picked my name. Finally! I am Charlotte Rose.
I picked Charlotte because I wanted to keep my first initial and it was one of the few C names I liked and wasn't being used by a family member.
Rose was my paternal grandmother's name. My current middle name is after my maternal grandfather, so this seemed appropriate. Plus it might gain me some brownie points with my dad and his side of the family! [emoji1] [emoji6]
Got a date,taking me on the back of his Harley.
What made me happy today was being able to have a short chat with someone at work about trans things. I came out to her the other day and she was great. It's a comfort to know that she knows and that work is not a place where I am totally hidden any more. Small thing but big help. Jx
I'm happy because Sweetie played hooky from work today and we went for a nice ride on country roads. Also because I've decided to be brave. That name on the left is my real one. Well, "Dee" is my nickname, but since Mom gave it to me, it's still legit.
Quote from: Kira357 on April 29, 2015, 09:58:05 PM
I am happy because today, I finally procured the last components of my "death machine" (excruciatingly hard and time-consuming to source it all). I can finally execute myself at will, anytime, anywhere. 100% irreversible and almost instantaneous and minimally painful. I put all of my chem/medical/engineering skills together to develop my own logistically complex yet cleverly simple apparatus, and it is so liberating to know I finally have it at my fingertips. This has been over a year in the development and construction. I can once and for all exit this realm of ->-bleeped-<- and garbage on a whim... no more excuses, no more delays. I worked hard for this, I deserve it. YES !! ;D
I know I'm not
supposed to post in this thread because I'm not MtF, but I couldn't just ignore this. Please, call a suicide hotline, see a therapist, anything. You still have so much to live for even if you don't see it now. Suicide is never the answer to life's problems. Please, stay strong and seek help; I believe you can make it if you try.
My birthday & so happy. I have such nice friends that love me. My upcoming surgery looks good for a much thinner body & a nicer face. Beauty shop appt. for Saturday for some electro, a facial & if time I may have my legs waxed.
Please GF's do not post negative stuff here, use some other thread. I care about you but no not impose on this happy news type thread.
I know you have some good things in your life, why not post some of them so we can all say good for you GF, that's great......, we are so happy for you. We all have troubles GF
Quote from: FrancisAnn on April 30, 2015, 07:00:57 AM
I know you have some good things in your life, why not post some of them so we can all say good for you GF, that's great......, we are so happy for you. We all have troubles GF
Nothing quite like the smell of condescension in the morning... ::)
It's my birthday & I really do not care. call me a bitch if you want. I've struggled since childhood with gender problems & endured more pain than you can imagine. I just get so sick of people always posting their problems, my reason to try & open a place for good/happy news.
Francis Ann we all enjoy the happy stuff way more than we do the sad stuff. I hope your doing well and I wish you a very happy birthday. I always believe we should live everyday to its fullest and like it's our last because we never know what is ahead around the corner. Anyway. I hope you have a very enjoyable birthday. Hugs
Mariah
Quote from: FrancisAnn on April 30, 2015, 09:49:55 AM
It's my birthday & I really do not care. call me a bitch if you want. I've struggled since childhood with gender problems & endured more pain than you can imagine. I just get so sick of people always posting their problems, my reason to try & open a place for good/happy news.
I never called you a bitch, nor did I post my problems. I posted that I was happy about my "haul" yesterday which completes almost a year of R & D for me, facilitating my intentions. Sorry if my transition agenda differs from yours, but Happy Birthday to you, FrancisAnn. :)
Lets keep this civil please. I understand this is a thread about what makes us happy and leave moderation to us moderators. If you feel something is derailing a thread please report the post and we will take a closer look at it Thanks
Mariah
Quote from: FrancisAnn on April 30, 2015, 04:18:31 AM
Please GF's do not post negative stuff here, use some other thread. I care about you but no not impose on this happy news type thread.
Quote from: Mariah2014 on April 30, 2015, 09:53:01 AM
Francis Ann we all enjoy the happy stuff way more than we do the sad stuff. I hope your doing well and I wish you a very happy birthday. I always believe we should live everyday to its fullest and like it's our last because we never know what is ahead around the corner. Anyway. I hope you have a very enjoyable birthday. Hugs
Mariah
Mariah, thanks, day 6 of Atkins diet with no carbs will make anyone a little bitchy, it does me. Life is good, thanks. Hope you are well.
I'm doing very well, Thank you for asking :) Hugs
Mariah
Quote from: Mariah2014 on April 30, 2015, 10:52:01 AM
I'm doing very well, Thank you for asking :) Hugs
Mariah
Good, my best to all of us with our struggles for a better life. Sorry if I posted anything nasty.
A cousin of mine that was close to me growing up told a friend on FB that they wanted to know that they were 100% ok with me and that they loved me. She couldn't get to me on FB because I changed profiles and deleted my old one. This really made me feel good.
Found out that I was selected in the lottery at work to get a parking spot at the new building we are moving to in the middle of June. I am going full time when we make the move so it is great that I won't have to try to find parking at another location and walk a half mile to the building. :D
I realized after reading some of my older posts that there wasn't anything glaringly shameful or embarrassing. Even some things I liked! I guess I actually like myself sometimes -- and in such a way that isn't lame and weird.
push the button on send for my email with my paper work for GRS
I went to microsoft's page for that age recognition software, and uploaded my latest picture.
It said I was an 18 year old woman. ;D
My surgery is set for May 26th. I'm having liposuction & a tummy tuck. My midsection should look so much nicer & thinner after this. And this morning a nice visit to my beauty salon, my electrolysis lady will remove some facial hair & give me a nice facial. Also after 10 days sticking with the Atkins diet I've lost 8 pounds. My current MBI is 29 & I so hope to bring it down to the 25 range. Life is good. It is just so nice to be a woman. I'm such a girly girl sometimes & love to look pretty.
Was going to post this last night, However I will post it now. I got Ma'amed on the phone for the 1st time. :) Went with it
Quote from: FairyHime on May 02, 2015, 02:18:11 AM
I went to microsoft's page for that age recognition software, and uploaded my latest picture.
It said I was an 18 year old woman. ;D
I got 44 year old woman with two separate photos. That's 5 years younger so I'll take it. Totally loving the computer tagging me as female.
I got to spend all day as Jessie. Went out to lunch with 2 of my daughters and my girlfriend and then did a little shopping. We all got our nails done (my first ever mani/pedi!). It felt good to look at some cloths and try them on. I got a couple pairs of pants and some blouses that I will be able to wear to work when I go full time next month.
Got a serious problem fixed at work today fixing some system code. Still have a lot to do to wrap it up.
It's not going to be much longer now.
Changes have been happening steadily and I do love it so much.
CINDY!!! Help.... :o
Went clothes shopping with my mom for the first time and she helped me pick out some nice things, so it was a good day :)
changed my high school photo on classmates.com should be a shocker
I did that awhile ago and it gets checked frequently. Congrats though on getting it changed out.
Mariah
Quote from: stephaniec on May 04, 2015, 05:30:04 PM
changed my high school photo on classmates.com should be a shocker
I took my mom to one of her doctors today and even though they have seen me in their twice since transition they didn't recognize me at all. It was like didn't someone else you could with her. Your the just the care taker right. When I told her who I was and she still didn't get it. I closed the door and that point she said she didn't need to know. I'm just so excited that they didn't have even the faintest clue who I was.
Mariah
Quote from: Jenny07 on May 04, 2015, 06:27:46 AM
Got a serious problem fixed at work today fixing some system code. Still have a lot to do to wrap it up.
It's not going to be much longer now.
Changes have been happening steadily and I do love it so much.
CINDY!!! Help.... :o
I'm here hon.
It's all pretty easy. You tell HR, close colleagues, put on a tailored female business suit and walk though the door with a smile on your face and a song in your heart. When people ask you say. "I'm Jenny, nice to meet you, finally."
Quote from: Mariah2014 on May 04, 2015, 05:40:14 PM
I took my mom to one of her doctors today and even though they have seen me in their twice since transition they didn't recognize me at all. It was like didn't someone else you could with her. Your the just the care taker right. When I told her who I was and she still didn't get it. I closed the door and that point she said she didn't need to know. I'm just so excited that they didn't have even the faintest clue who I was.
Mariah
[/quote Good for you Mariah.
I was in a bad way late last week. I stopped my estrogen as of Friday trying to remind Sweetie how much better I am since I began it. By Saturday evening she understood. She didn't, however, understand why I had done it. I told her that she was more important to me than anything else, and I would give it up for her, but I had learned that I couldn't not transition and it was only a matter of time. She told me it had already gone too far, it's hard for her to look at me naked and she knew that it's irreversible. She also told me that she loves me, would always support me and would never abandon me. All of that is background.
Today, during her lunch break at work we planned out my final coming out to the three people I need to tell personally. She's sad, still mourning, and that makes my heart ache, but she's not in denial anymore and things will move forward. Neither of us can say what will happen when my transition is complete, but for now we're good and for that I'm grateful.Neither of us wanted this, but neither of us blames the other and we both want the other to have the best that's possible under the circumstances.
Not, perhaps, the result I would have most wanted, but certainly a livable one.
Saw my doctor today and he was surprised at how quickly my breasts have developed. I am going to start a low dose of progesterone in addition to my estrogen starting in 2 weeks. I got my paperwork signed to file with the DMV to get my gender changed on my drivers license once
I get my court order changing my name. So in another month and a half I will legally be Jessie and female ;D
Congrats Hon
Wonderful, Jessie!
My roses are really blooming, 5 bushes & 100 or more pretty red roses. So many nice replies from my pic posted on my facebook page. Beautiful day today. Have fun GF's.
Quote from: Jessie Ann on May 05, 2015, 03:20:14 AM
Saw my doctor today and he was surprised at how quickly my breasts have developed. I am going to start a low dose of progesterone in addition to my estrogen starting in 2 weeks. I got my paperwork signed to file with the DMV to get my gender changed on my drivers license once
I get my court order changing my name. So in another month and a half I will legally be Jessie and female ;D
congrats
I was gendered correctly for the first time at a boutique i was in, which extra nice because i had just had my laser hair removal session and my face looked rough lol. As a bonus i also walked out with a cute Vera Bradley purse, hand bag and wallet for 40% off! :icon_joy:
I can't help but check on the progress of my girls several times a day. Every time I am alone, especially with a mirror I give them a peek. Today something seemed different one had a puffy ring around the nipple. So I ran into my room to get a measuring tape and found that my nipples have expanded by an eighth of an inch. Not much I know, but the rest of my day will be better because of it!
The Atkins diet really works well, I've lost 10 pounds in the first 2 weeks. And such nice women from all over planet that help each other with recipes & support. There are 2 nice FB pages that you can join. I'm so happy to lose some weigh even though my tummy tuck & liposuction surgery are less than 3 weeks away. :D
I finally made some space in my closet for my 'girl' clothes. It's nice that I don't have to hide them anymore.
I'm so hyped!!!
After going through an honest two or three weeks of extreme and constant dysphoria (as may have been visible by my whiney posts and rants in #chat...)
LAST NIGHT EVERYTHING CHANGED!
I met a guy who... Honestly made me feel something I've never felt before, for the first time.... (I'm not giving details, but let's say, that having libido again after years and knowing it's corresponded is... Amazing to say the least... )
AND I got a call from the Civil Registry today..... According to article 98 of the Civil Registry law my name and sex has been corrected on all records and I'm waiting on being called to pick up my new birth certificate!!!!
Could take months till they call... But it's been aproved!
My confidence and general happiness has gone up so much all of the sudden when I least expected it :D
I baked some oopsie bread this morning & it tastes great. It is made from eggs & cream cheese mainly & has 0 carbs
hey girls!!!! how are you lovely ladies doing? what makes me happy? is knowing that there so many great people in my life now and that they are truly concerned about my welfare. (damn these water works...) everytime i think about the staff that took care of me at laguna honda hospital-- i am reminded of the fact that without their outstanding care, patience and sympathy i would probably be dead, now.... but instead they have helped me so much so that i am going back to college and eventually begin advocating for bisexual transsexual females caught up in a wheelchair with substance
I've recently had several women compliment me on my fingernails! :icon_chick: I even had one I just met, grab my hand for closer inspection like we had known each other for years! Of course, I'm pretty much full the time all the time nowadays, and I'm not even sure if any of them realized if I was trans or cis. I am nearly religious about manicuring and polishing my own nails.
Quote from: Christine Eryn on May 09, 2015, 09:42:39 AM
I've recently had several women compliment me on my fingernails! :icon_chick: I even had one I just met, grab my hand for closer inspection like we had known each other for years! Of course, I'm pretty much full the time all the time nowadays, and I'm not even sure if any of them realized if I was trans or cis. I am nearly religious about manicuring and polishing my own nails.
That is so nice to see. A GF that takes care of her nails like I do. That makes me happy, try OPI, expensive but great polish, such nice hues.
What made me happy is seeing my little cousin because he's such a cutie chubby baby I want to hug all the times.
Well today I had my first facial and wore makeup for the 1st time. Also I got ma'amed at the drive through in person I believe.
I held mother's day lunch for my mother in law and her two birth daughters, one of whom is my wife. She said it was the first Mother's Day with her three daughters. That felt good :laugh:
Shopping and eating shrimps, crawfish and crabs to celebrate mothers day.
Quote from: wantobeagirl on May 10, 2015, 02:36:27 AM
Shopping and eating shrimps, crawfish and crabs to celebrate mothers day.
I know shrimp = prawns, but what are crawfish?
crawfish, cray fish look like mini lobsters but live in fresh water.
Being able to be Jenny all weekend.
I love those blue m&m's.
What happened to you LordKAT? Did you fall in a bowl of talcum powder?
Quote from: LordKAT on May 10, 2015, 03:21:29 AM
crawfish, cray fish look like mini lobsters but live in fresh water.
Yabbies?
Only 2 weeks or so until my surgery, I'm getting excited. I'm having liposuction & a tummy tuck. My body should look so much nicer with a very thin waist. I'm also having some surgery on my face to hopefully remove an older nasty scar that I've had since childhood. Happy mother's day to all & to my dear mother, RIP.
Quote from: Cindy on May 10, 2015, 04:25:37 AM
Yabbies?
Just looked it up. Yes, although yours appear to be endangered and our are ubiquitous. In keeping with the day my mother told me a story when I was little of how she and her friends, growing up during the Depression, would steal potatoes from their mother's bins. Then they'd go down to the creek and catch crayfish and roast both in a campfire and have a feast. The story usually ended with her telling me NOT to play by the same creek which was a short walk from our house. Cognitive dissonance!
Mm yabbies are not endangered by any means. Strange how we have different names for things.
Today my mum blew my mind with a reply to my message I sent her for Mother's Day.
This is the first time since my transition that she has said these words and I burst out crying in happiness when I read her text back to me.
This is the reply .
Oh thank you darling. My first mothers day with my special daughter. Will send a msg when leaving this arvo. Xxx
For the 9 months I've been transitioning she has been very supportive but struggled to say goodbye to her (son). But now it is very clear that she is and has embraced me as her daughter .
Then at dinner tonight the waitress asked if we were local she replied I'm not but my daughter is.
Love you mum xxoo
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Quote from: Cindy on May 10, 2015, 08:02:48 AM
Mm yabbies are not endangered by any means. Strange how we have different names for things.
I was going by Wikipedia. Glad to hear they're not endangered. Most likely "crayfish" is an Anglicization of a French word. Crayfish are very popular in Cajun cuisine. Mmmm! Maybe I'll make a crayfish poboy later in the week instead of fish tacos. How do you eat them in Australia?
Just checked, in French "crayfish" is "écrevisse". It's easy to see how the name was derived.
Quote from: Cindy on May 10, 2015, 08:02:48 AM
Mm yabbies are not endangered by any means. Strange how we have different names for things.
The British crayfish is fast disappearing as the American crayfish which is bigger is eating them.Despite being a wildlife watcher I've never seen a crayfish outside the supermarket
My friend told me she thought I have "womanly arms, in the good way". I was so touched as I feel like I look like a body builder. It helped me realize just how distorted my body image is. It was a much needed dose of hope.
I baked some very nice Oopsie bread yesterday. It's made from eggs, cream cheese, Psyllium husks, baking powder.... You have to seperate the white from the yellow & really fluff it up, then fold back together for it to have the right testure. It tasted great & has 0 carbs unlike any normal bread. My 3rd week on the Atkins diet & I've lost 10 pounds or so. I'm a happy girl.
Er yesterday.. :P
Spending the day at my daughters with all the family... Treasure these moments not knowing the very near future... So great day, lots of food and wine, chat and grandkids with noise ::)
Loved it... Ahhhhhh
L Katy :-*
Getting the ball rolling a little bit further for a referral to a gender clinic where I can get help working things out some more.
Quote from: Kimberley Beauregard on May 11, 2015, 06:20:40 AM
Getting the ball rolling a little bit further for a referral to a gender clinic where I can get help working things out some more.
Yay Kimberly :-*
L Katy
I have 2nd degree burns on my shoulder and neck/cleavage from a narly sunburn. The blisters are finally done as of today and the peeling started, so im feeling a lot better, itchy, but not in pain any more. and its my birthday and me and my girlfriend are going to go to Mongolian grill tomarow.
Cindy
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Lovely! And it is dinner time!
I started Spiro today ;D :)
Only 2 weeks to go until my liposuction & tummy tuck surgery. I so wish this surgery were for my GRS & a nice normal depth vagina. Beautiful day baking some more Oopsie bread that tastes great & also looks good.
Well today was the first time that I was called 'girl' in public! My SO and I were at the tennis club for an afternoon match with two other women. I was filling in for a woman who was injured. I had my sun glasses on and was wearing female tennis top, shorts and shoes. The receptionist came over and asked which group we were with. Made my day!
Congrats IslandGirl.
Today, on the IRC channel, was the first time I've ever referred to myself as female without feeling self conscious. I actually responded to a few other things before I realized I had done it automatically. I may not look so female, (cause I don't try just now,) but I know what I am!
Today I am happy that I got 2 pairs of black ladies jeans because guys black jeans are hard to find, wasnt planning on it but couldnt resist 2 for 1. I'm happy that the beautiful hair stylist at the salon where I got some shampoo realized I wasn't her average guy and flirted with me. I'm happy I got things done today.
Most of my work day was just me and the other ladies. The guys were in another room on a different project. Plus I got to work directly with the woman who had sent me an email offering to advocate for me at work. She had noticed our bosses slipping on the name and pronoun front and wanted to stand up for me. I get to work with her on a special project this weekend. Sometimes the littlest things can mean so much.
Saw a doctor whom I did not see since November and he thought he was in the wrong room. :)
Got my hair cut and styled today!
Quote from: ChiGirl on April 24, 2015, 06:29:26 PM
Starting a new thread. Such an honor. That makes me happy.
Also, I had my first laser hair treatment AND I got new glasses! I'm a happy girl! Although my face doesn't show it.
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And weirdly, the sales girl mentioned that something with my eyes was something "a lot of guys get. Well, a lot of people." it was so weird that like she was correcting herself. I was total guy mode, but it felt like I was giving something out there. I don't know, but it felt goooooood. [emoji1]
That's so awesome! I've had experiences as well in which I was presenting completely male, and it really seemed that people picked up on my identity due to femininity I must have exuded without trying. The thing that made my very own day today was that my friends and I got carded while buying alcohol at a local store. The clerk asked for all of our ID's, which is always hard for me, because "old me" is still on there (I looked hyper-masculine back in high school whenever my license picture was taken).
The clerk said -- in reference to me -- "I'm going to keep her license for a second to type in the date since she's the youngest." Then, she just gave it back to me. So, I totally didn't expect that. She was an older woman, so I wouldn't necessarily expect her to gender me as female upon learning that I'm "male", thanks to my ID photo. I'm kind of thinking that my effeminate appearance has become so overpowering that people can't control referring to me by feminine pronouns. It made my day so much.
Similarly, I recently had to provide my legal name for an employment training seminar, and the woman inferred that I must be "male" because of my name, and the fact that I checked the box on the application that said "male". So, whenever referring to me, she kept calling me "he", but it was only because she was correcting myself after accidentally calling me "she". I explained to her afterwards that I could essentially get murdered if someone learns I'm trans, so please always gender someone based off of their presentation. But, over all, this situation made my day too.
If any member needs to lose weight the Atkins diet works so well. And there are so many support FB pages with women all over the USA & Europe helping each other look better. I've developed such nice friendships with several women & it is so nice to all learn from each other to become nicer thinner looking women. I am so happy that I started & joined several support groups.
Finishing up my lunch in the breakroom at work the last male in the room got up and left. As he did the five or so women from another department continued to chat. After a couple second they started saying the kinds of things that women only say when there are no men around. It was wonderful to be includedin the girl's club without being a part of the conversation.
I'm officially done with laser!!! I went to the hair removal clinic today, and the laser tech gave me the good news. I was actually pretty surprised, since I've only had 5 treatments (3 full clears and 2 only on the upper lip). Now I just need to do electrolysis for 10-15 minutes every 2 weeks or so, to get rid of the stragglers and some white hairs.
I also got my new passport so now I can travel as me. :) It's been a really good day!
Quote from: DrummerGirl on May 15, 2015, 12:17:10 PM
I'm officially done with laser!!! I went to the hair removal clinic today, and the laser tech gave me the good news. I was actually pretty surprised, since I've only had 5 treatments (3 full clears and 2 only on the upper lip). Now I just need to do electrolysis for 10-15 minutes every 2 weeks or so, to get rid of the stragglers and some white hairs.
I also got my new passport so now I can travel as me. :) It's been a really good day!
That is good news indeed. A smooth face is so nice, lucky girl. My only really good news today is that Okra is an approved veggie for the Atkins diet, love Okra. My 3rd week on the Atkins diet & down 10-11 pounds. Plan to lose maybe another 20 pounds to have an almost perfect BMA number.
When I arived at work today the other woman I would be working with and I went up to the galleries to meet our contact for the event we were there to set up for. As we aproached our contact, who didn't know us, he turned and said "Hello ladies. Are you here to set up the art?"
It made my day!
My sister introduced me as her sister
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This massive burger I ate..... <3
I went out with my wife for the first time as a woman which is something I never thought would happen even this year. It's great how happy I can now feel. I never thought of myself as sad but, I never knew happiness like this either.
oh yea, and I got a new swim suit :-)
I just got a new bra that I ordered in the mail today. It actually fit and can say im into a full B cup. Been on HRT for 14 months. Happy Happy!!!!!!
Made it out for a ride finally.
Did 120km and felt good and dogged most of the damp conditions.
Been sick for 2 months and very busy with work.
Now back to work. :(
It was raining on my way to work this morning and a nice young lady offered me to share her umbrella while waiting for the bus. How sweet. Jx
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My middle daughter is graduating from college with her BA degree today. I am very proud that that she was able to get her degree even though it was during a period of time where her mother and I were going through a nasty divorce and I'm sure it was troubling for her. Not only did she get her degree, she worked as a nanny for a family that has been very good to her. I can't wait to see her get her degree!!!
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I got called a Siren at a party and I feel better than I have in a long time :)
Taking my daughter to the zoo today, we had a great time together!
Finishing the Bruce Jenner Interview.....made me quite happy. Except for one small notion of it that his daughter Chloe mentioned.
So I have held back posting here up until last Sunday because the whole trans women only part. I really don't understand why a topic like this is exclusively for trans women. I'm not saying it's is wrong. I am just curious about why "what made you happy today" needs a to be a gendered thing.
Quote from: amber roskamp on May 19, 2015, 08:38:37 AM
So I have held back posting here up until last Sunday because the whole trans women only part. I really don't understand why a topic like this is exclusively for trans women. I'm not saying it's is wrong. I am just curious about why "what made you happy today" needs a to be a gendered thing.
I honestly don't know. There's an MtoF and a more general one. I can only guess that this might be a place to be happy about things that might trigger an FtoM, although it doesn't always get used that way. I certainly wouldn't be offended by an FtoM only version.
Quote from: amber roskamp on May 19, 2015, 08:38:37 AM
So I have held back posting here up until last Sunday because the whole trans women only part. I really don't understand why a topic like this is exclusively for trans women. I'm not saying it's is wrong. I am just curious about why "what made you happy today" needs a to be a gendered thing.
Start a new one for whatever you think, I just started this kinda "for women only". All looks good on my plastic surgery in 7 days, facial, FFS I guess, delicate surgery for both my upper & lower lips to make them full & more balanced, liposuction & a tummy tuck for a very thin waist. Happy girl so far. After wearing I should look so much nicer. I wanted to kiss my doc yesterday but held back, he's very handsome.
Quote from: amber roskamp on May 19, 2015, 08:38:37 AM
So I have held back posting here up until last Sunday because the whole trans women only part. I really don't understand why a topic like this is exclusively for trans women. I'm not saying it's is wrong. I am just curious about why "what made you happy today" needs a to be a gendered thing.
There is a whole "what made you happy today" in the general section, and it's for everyone if you want something all inclusive.
I like reading and posting in both. This one helps with boosting my spirits in my experiences as MTF, the other simply helps me share the joy with everyone.
Quote from: iKate on May 19, 2015, 08:39:57 PM
There is a whole "what made you happy today" in the general section, and it's for everyone if you want something all inclusive.
I like reading and posting in both. This one helps with boosting my spirits in my experiences as MTF, the other simply helps me share the joy with everyone.
I always see this one and I never see the other one. Ok that is cool
I usually have these really tiresome dreams where I'm at work and don't know what my job is or what is expected of me, or I'm back in the Navy and I'm out of uniform while on base ("oh crap, where's my cover?"). And I'm usually male. Bleh.
Last night's dream was better - more of the "where am I and what is my job" stuff, but for once I was clear about my transition and explained it to a bunch of people in a work setting, and they were all friendly. Then I got mixed up about what I was doing, but turned to my assistant - where did he come from? - who very quickly got things sorted out. I felt happy and a little bit in control.
I want a repeat! :)
<<<<<<<<< Made a necklace with a matching set of earrings.
Moved up my full time date at work!!!
I kind of had to though. It was getting extremely difficult to hide to the point where there was a vendor there who "mistook" me for a woman for the first few days until we interacted in depth. I currently present male at work.
Congratulations Kate!
Quote from: iKate on May 20, 2015, 08:44:37 AM
... It was getting extremely difficult to hide to the point where there was a vendor there who "mistook" me for a woman for the first few days ...
You know you're really passing when this ^^
Quote from: Eveline on May 20, 2015, 08:51:47 AM
Congratulations Kate!
You know you're really passing when this ^^
Thanks!
Just to clarify though, it's next month as I wanted to give advance notice. But it was going to be July. So I moved it up a month.
I watched mad max last night and loved it. Furiosa (charlize theron) was one of the best female characters I have seen. It was definitely a nice change from the stereotypical women being rescued by a man and then falling in love with him plot.
Also there were like for different people that correctly gendered me. Though, funny story, one of those people I thought said man when he said ma'am, and I almost cried. Then he said "are you ok ma'am?"
then i realized he said ma'am the first time too, and I said "yes thank you I am fine!" And my face was like ;D.
He was probably like how what a strange women.
SRS consult day.
Quote from: Mariah2014 on May 20, 2015, 09:14:57 AM
SRS consult day.
That must feel nice. I'm 5 days away from my facial FFS surgery & liposuction & tummk tuck surgery. I want my body to have a much nicer more female curvy shape before my GRS maybe later this year. My local plastic surgeon may do my GRS later. That would be so nice. I trust him & his entire staff. Try are so nice to help improve my body & face into a very attractive woman.
Well, nabbed a sweet new Hat and Tank Top today! :D
Also I get a nice break tomorrow to hangout with my best friend and NOT worry about work xD I'm also counting the days down to seeing my Doctor, so all this on my mind keeps me in a peppy mood today xP!
Met for a couple hours with a news broadcast producer from one of the local (Big 3 Network) television stations. They are interested in doing a story on transgender issues and wanted to talk about my transition and what I would say to the world if I had the chance. Needless to say we covered alot of topics in two hours. I believe they are very interested in getting additional information out to the public on many of our isssues. They may even accompany me to court on Friday when I have my hearing on my petition to get my name and gender changed. This could be very benificial to our community and to many of the individuals who are struggling on coming to grips with their gender issues.
I'm getting my very first pedicure right now. And it was my daughter's idea. I know it's hard for her, but she's trying.
Quote from: Jessie Ann on May 20, 2015, 04:04:48 PM
Met for a couple hours with a news broadcast producer from one of the local (Big 3 Network) television stations. They are interested in doing a story on transgender issues and wanted to talk about my transition and what I would say to the world if I had the chance. Needless to say we covered alot of topics in two hours. I believe they are very interested in getting additional information out to the public on many of our isssues. They may even accompany me to court on Friday when I have my hearing on my petition to get my name and gender changed. This could be very benificial to our community and to many of the individuals who are struggling on coming to grips with their gender issues.
Oh wow, that's BIG news!!! Please keep us up to date on what ends up going on with not just your hearing (if you like to share) but the News story! :D How did they even approach/contact you?
Village People music videos ...
Quote from: Jessie Ann on May 20, 2015, 04:04:48 PM
Met for a couple hours with a news broadcast producer from one of the local (Big 3 Network) television stations. They are interested in doing a story on transgender issues and wanted to talk about my transition and what I would say to the world if I had the chance. Needless to say we covered alot of topics in two hours. I believe they are very interested in getting additional information out to the public on many of our isssues. They may even accompany me to court on Friday when I have my hearing on my petition to get my name and gender changed. This could be very benificial to our community and to many of the individuals who are struggling on coming to grips with their gender issues.
Good girl!
If you can ask them for a transcript before it goes to air so you can correct any errors that creep in. Found that out to my cost and I always ask nowadays.
Just got my hair done, it's gorgeous!
Quote from: Cindy on May 21, 2015, 07:06:20 AM
Just got my hair done, it's gorgeous!
Being able to get your hair or even outfit looking good is ALWAYS freaking awesome :3! What kinda style you rocking Cindy?
Quote from: Nickywhat on May 21, 2015, 07:12:05 AM
Quote from: Cindy on May 21, 2015, 07:06:20 AM
Just got my hair done, it's gorgeous!
Being able to get your hair or even outfit looking good is ALWAYS freaking awesome :3! What kinda style you rocking Cindy?
I started pre FT with a grey haired crew cut and a bald spot, it is now auburn with highlights down to my shoulders and shaped like a cowl from my cheekbones to the middle of my shoulders, and no bald spot!
Same team look after me after accepting me in their salon all those years ago as their first transgender client. They have been wonderful and so accepting. I usually end up with five hairdressers sitting around talking to me about life, acceptance, fun, how to do make up, boys (Hee hee) and relationships. Oh and my stylist keeps wanting to show off his tattoos!
Quote from: Cindy on May 21, 2015, 07:24:08 AM
Being able to get your hair or even outfit looking good is ALWAYS freaking awesome :3! What kinda style you rocking Cindy?
I started pre FT with a grey haired crew cut and a bald spot, it is now auburn with highlights down to my shoulders and shaped like a cowl from my cheekbones to the middle of my shoulders, and no bald spot!
Same team look after me after accepting me in their salon all those years ago as their first transgender client. They have been wonderful and so accepting. I usually end up with five hairdressers sitting around talking to me about life, acceptance, fun, how to do make up, boys (Hee hee) and relationships. Oh and my stylist keeps wanting to show off his tattoos!
Love how you own it hun! ;D sounds quite relaxing and buzzing of energy! Reminds me of the Salon I use to go to 9 my Mother also went) and I'd always be chatting with the women there :3 They loved me and enjoyed chatting away about anything and I often gave em flattering compliments. Looking back I wonder if that was the girl in me sneaking out and because I was in a Salon it was seemed as if I was just flattering women because "guy stuff"? Who knows, but feels like another puzzle piece put into perspective place!
Quote from: ChiGirl on May 20, 2015, 06:46:02 PM
I'm getting my very first pedicure right now. And it was my daughter's idea. I know it's hard for her, but she's trying.
Ah that's so beautiful :angel:
Love it
L Katy :-*
Quote from: Nickywhat on May 21, 2015, 07:28:47 AM
Quote from: Cindy on May 21, 2015, 07:24:08 AM
Being able to get your hair or even outfit looking good is ALWAYS freaking awesome :3! What kinda style you rocking Cindy?
I started pre FT with a grey haired crew cut and a bald spot, it is now auburn with highlights down to my shoulders and shaped like a cowl from my cheekbones to the middle of my shoulders, and no bald spot!
Same team look after me after accepting me in their salon all those years ago as their first transgender client. They have been wonderful and so accepting. I usually end up with five hairdressers sitting around talking to me about life, acceptance, fun, how to do make up, boys (Hee hee) and relationships. Oh and my stylist keeps wanting to show off his tattoos!
Love how you own it hun! ;D sounds quite relaxing and buzzing of energy! Reminds me of the Salon I use to go to 9 my Mother also went) and I'd always be chatting with the women there :3 They loved me and enjoyed chatting away about anything and I often gave em flattering compliments. Looking back I wonder if that was the girl in me sneaking out and because I was in a Salon it was seemed as if I was just flattering women because "guy stuff"? Who knows, but feels like another puzzle piece put into perspective place!
I did like how my stylist cut half a dozen hairs and I quipped that it would cost me $100, he replied that he was an an artist and I his muse. No he didn't charge, he did give me a kiss though!
Spilled the beans to my remaining close friends and I didn't lose any of them. So much fear for nothing.
Great advice Cindy, thank you!! I haven't had problems in the past with my media interviews but I've never had an interview on an issue as important to a community and as intensely personal as this one.
Quote from: Cindy on May 21, 2015, 07:05:32 AM
Good girl!
If you can ask them for a transcript before it goes to air so you can correct any errors that creep in. Found that out to my cost and I always ask nowadays.
I will let you all know what happens. I suspect that the story will take a little while to get put together. I hope that it will be fairly in depth and will discuss some of the brain based research that has been conducted. Also, I would like it to focus on the fact that being transgender isn't a choice and isn't something we "want" but a medical condition that is treated by transitioning. I have had dealings with the media for years in my job as an attorney.
Quote from: Nickywhat on May 20, 2015, 06:49:33 PM
Oh wow, that's BIG news!!! Please keep us up to date on what ends up going on with not just your hearing (if you like to share) but the News story! :D How did they even approach/contact you?
Went for an interview today, it's a dumb job, but it's a job and it looks like it will be pleasant. Also being interviewed for a dream job. I'm not sure if I can talk about it yet but it's working with one of my hobbies for a good salary. Nuts, now it sounds like a scam, please don't let it be a scam! Well, all they have is my contact info. No legal info, yet. Wish me luck! Both together would be about sixty hours, but I spend a lot of time every week doing the hobby part and NOT getting paid for it, so how bad can it be?
Just completed a major bit of code for a new product and it all been signed off and works.
Been working so hard on it. We launch it next weekend.
Many in the company globally are very exited by the new functionality and I am the expert.
Clients lining up for it now. Will have many client demos in the next few months. Feels good.
Also love now knowing that I am so far past the point of no return it is empowering.
Need some sleep.
I got called beautiful by the lady at the register at Starbucks in Target. I could get used to the complements I've been receiving lately :)
I am now legally Jessie and Female :-).
Had the producer and cameraman from the local network affiliate in court with me to document the event. They are making plans to do a lengthy sit down interview at my home and document my transition to full-time at work. I just hope that this will be able to help other transgender individuals and the public at large understand our issues.
Congrats Jessie! That is a big hurdle to get over! I am hoping that I, too, will someday get to that point. I do have my new middle name picked out - 'Eithne'. It is Irish. in English it is pronounced Enya.
Today I joined a new community. :-)
Also puppy kisses, soft blankets, and my juicer.
Knowing that I am taking positive steps and my new set of gel French Tip nails.
Dinner came out just right! Also, one of Sweetie's clients came in from Greece and brought us a nice Grecian rose. Can't wait to chill that and drink it.
Had my daughter and her best friend over for a sleepover last night. They are only 9yoa. Such a pleasure and a privelige to share this time with kids. I wish these moments could last forever. Jx
Traveling today and am in full Jessie mode and did not have any problem getting checked in and through security even though I have to use his ID. Going to be flying most of the day and I wanted to be comfy. Makes me a very happy girl to go this way.
Jessi - Awesome girlfriend!! :) Watch out when flying out of BUR - they gave me crap the last time I flew out of there. I've never had a problem at LAX.
A mutual friend of ours (Alana) and I went shopping today in Camarillo. I have an event to go to next weekend in San Diego that is "cocktail causal" and my usual skinny jeans weren't going to cut it. I own no dresses since I never pictured myself being a dress wearing kind of girl and wasn't considering buying one today but Alana was determined to put me in one :laugh: and dragged me into stores until we found a Ann Taylor Little Black Dress that was perfect and was ON SALE - normal price was $109 but I got it for $29 :-* :)
What an incredible week even.
1st I had a very successful work trip, which involved flying to Utah and back, and leaving any male clothes behind. I've been full time for the past three weeks.
2nd, our house has gone on the market to sell earlier this week and we already have one offer that's in the works. We'll find out tomorrow what it is. We're moving forward with separating our assets and getting a legal separation.
Finally, I went dress shopping with Eva... Glad we both came away with having spent too much, but had a great time. Got to have a shopping partner instead of my typical shopping alone. Anne Taylor has had some really great dresses, also Hanes Place, and Dress Barn are all some of my favorites. This was my first time to a couple of the stores in Camarillo. I'd been to Anne Taylor in Ontario and had picked up a nice black fit-n-flare dress with white piping and left a couple dresses behind.
Eva, I know you're really going to wow all your old friends in your new LBD, nude hose, new shoes, and other "accessories" ;)
Catching up on some sleep. SO underrated.
Throwing out many old shirts. Yuck.
Quote from: Jenny07 on May 24, 2015, 01:36:04 AM
Catching up on some sleep. SO underrated.
Throwing out many old shirts. Yuck.
Does this mean that a certain young lady is finally going to get some proper clothes for work?
Sadly no. I am still terrified by it all.
So much fear I hate it. :(
Clothes do fit so much better having all the proper squishy bits. :)
Did get another nice work skirt last week though.
OK I will have to take a trip to Sydney. I'm just trying to find the time with my weekend commitments.
Now Jenny's very afraid.
She needn't be. I'm a lovely person and all the people I pay bribe talk to, agree with me.
Almost time for surgery, 6 am Tuesday morning. Liposuction & a tummy tuck and also some facial surgery for my mouth & lips to hopefully have a much nicer body & fuller more sexy lips. My doc does excellent work & he is helping me so much to look so much nicer & more of an attractive woman.
Good luck and I hope all goes well. Hugs
Mariah
Quote from: FrancisAnn on May 24, 2015, 09:42:12 AM
Almost time for surgery, 6 am Tuesday morning. Liposuction & a tummy tuck and also some facial surgery for my mouth & lips to hopefully have a much nicer body & fuller more sexy lips. My doc does excellent work & he is helping me so much to look so much nicer & more of an attractive woman.
First full day home after a long trip to Phoenix where everything is a go for my SRS next year.
Mariah
I love the Ann Taylor store in the Camalrillo outlet mall. That's where I got the jacket that I wore for my court date. So glad Eva and Alana were able to find some good clothes there. Alana good luck with the house sale. I know it has to be a bit bittersweet.
I am happy today because I got to the Outter Banks in North Carolina to celebrate my birthday.
For the last 5 months I have been working hard on a new product for my clients.
Long hours and lots of stress.
Yesterday it was demonstrated to a new prospect and they yelled with joy!
Not quite the reaction I would expect but I will take it. They are very large in the many billions.
Today I demonstrated it internally with great feedback from senior managers and tomorrow to our biggest client.
This weekend we go live into production so it will be a very long weekend.
What do I get out of it? Nothing extra. :(
J
Pool time made me happy today :)
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Had a great long talk with my dad today. He admitted he's still having a hard time understanding this, but he realizes he doesn't have to understand, he just has to accept it. And since it clearly makes me happy, he accepts it. [emoji4]
He also talked about the idea to me and my brother as his kids instead of his sons. That made me smile.
Quote from: Jessie Ann on May 24, 2015, 05:54:09 PM
I love the Ann Taylor store in the Camalrillo outlet mall. That's where I got the jacket that I wore for my court date. So glad Eva and Alana were able to find some good clothes there. Alana good luck with the house sale. I know it has to be a bit bittersweet.
I am happy today because I got to the Outter Banks in North Carolina to celebrate my birthday.
Thank you Jessie, yes it is a little bittersweet and even surreal. I certainly had a great time with Eva. Sounds like you're enjoying your time on the Atlantic coast as well.
We're in escrowe: four days on the market plus we got more than our asking price. We were bracing for a low-ball offer, as people in the town are sooo cheap. We signed up for a 45 day escrow, but may move out earlier. My Jen is in the process of finding an apartment for her. She thought she had the perfect place... but it was a bust. Drop dead move out date is July 9th. I sure hope my Jen finds her place soon.
-Alana
Rolling out of bed this morning, catching myself in the mirror, and seeing a girl - dead set.
A bearded girl yes, but a girl nonetheless :~[)>
This might be weird, but wearing women's deodorant for the first time and smelling my armpit. I've been musky all my life so it was a wonderful sensation to smell a woman's scent.
What made me happy today?? Surviving ;D A long stressful day at the office where everything happened ended the way it is supposed to. The lady that helps me in the office who has known me yeard before my transition asked why I was PMSing ... that made me giggle ;D
Seen my endo today and he increased my meds, that made me extatic . I now should see some progress on body changes. Plus... It is not one of best pics Ive taken. Ive become one of the girls and added my pic to my profile. That is great , cause it is another step in self acceptance. I hope to post more as the days go by. As each day goes buy i feel so much better.
got a lace-top purple cami in the mail today. I love purple!
Picking up ambien prescriptions from the pharmacy for both me and my wife:
Tech - "Has (insert legal name) taken this drug before?"
Me - *Nods* "Yes."
Tech - "Have you taken this medication before?"
Me - *Nods* "Yes" *Grins*
Not the first time, but it makes my day every time. I really do need to change my name.
My surgery this past Tuesday morning went very well & I'm healing up kind of on schedule. I had liposuction & a tummy tuck. my mid section was not bad however now it is very thin & a very flat stomach. I also had surgery on my upper & lower lips to correct a scar & plump up my lips with my own body fat, they seem to be healing very nice. I was on the operating table for 3 hours. My second surgery with this Plastic Surgeon, he did a complete face life & upper eye lid surgery last summer. My face has always been feminine however now it's almost a very pretty face & nice lips & mouth. I'm a happy girl today. Good luck all GF's.
Francis Ann it's wonderful to hear everything went well. Congrats.
Mariah
As simple as it can be, a waitress at a local diner took my order without ever giving me a weird look or a double take! Even better, when paying for my meal, she complimented me on my hair (though I haven't a clue how my ratty split ends look good...perhaps she wasn't paying attention to my hair??? I digress!) It isn't so often these days where another girl won't make me feel alienated.
Another note: I'm reading all these replies to the main post and they're so beautiful, and that is another thing that made me happy today!
Found a couple pairs of shoes at a Nordstroms Rack in Northern Virginia where I'm visiting my brother and his girlfriend. When you have a woman's 13-14 you gotta love it when there are more than 1 or 2 pairs to try on let alone that you want to buy.
I got hit on today. The guy seemed to be a good conversationalist but a bit creepy. He gave me his number but threw it away once I got far enough away. I don't know why, but it felt good to get hit on and throw away the number. I guess I'm a bit cold... :)
Having a glass of Moet at 3am this morning.
The M&S SS15 collection made me happy!
I had my parents over to visit at my apartment today. We are working hard to reconnect.
Anyway, Mum brought me a little gift.
A handbag.
As you guys can likely appreciate I'm very affected by this little gesture. I'm not sure if Mum realises just how much that meant ...
five stars!
Quote from: Mariah2014 on May 30, 2015, 11:20:51 AM
Francis Ann it's wonderful to hear everything went well. Congrats.
Mariah
Mariah, Thanks. Becomming good friends with all the ladies & doc I've been there so much. 5 days since surgery still lots of swelling but look OK. It takes a long time to heal up from plastic surgery. I've had plenty of pain pills that's for sure, A tummy tuck is serious surgery. My mouth looks so much better, thicker upper & lower lips, that is sure nice. Doc uses your own body fat for injections so it works very well, very smooth. I hope life is good for you GF. Take care, Francis
I noticed this morning that my beard is receding. Everywhere but the center of my face is growing even slower. It takes 2 days for the middle to get horrible.
coming out to friend, who happens to be gay. He had no idea before, but he's pretty supportive.
I came out to a friend who said he had no idea and also said it didn't matter.
My wife continues to be supportive and got me a real cute hair clip for when my hair is long enough.
It's great to wake up and be happy. I didn't realize how little I felt happy before embracing who I am.
This morning while out at breakfast with my wife and son. The server brought out our food, looked at me and said "Wow, you look really pretty today!"
I've been smiling ever since. .... :D
I haven't looked at myself naked in a while. A little while ago, half an hour or so, I went in the bedroom to change out of sweats into something I can go pick up Sweetie from work in. I glanced in the mirror. I have a shape! I have a proper, feminine shape!
Quote from: Jessie Ann on May 30, 2015, 10:36:06 PM
Found a couple pairs of shoes at a Nordstroms Rack in Northern Virginia where I'm visiting my brother and his girlfriend. When you have a woman's 13-14 you gotta love it when there are more than 1 or 2 pairs to try on let alone that you want to buy.
I thought they only sold bras. *rimshot*
Quote from: Jill F on June 01, 2015, 04:40:55 PM
I thought they only sold bras. *rimshot*
Good one Jill!!!
I wished they sold racks, I could use a good one instead these mini mounds I've got going......
My mom bought me earrings for no reason at all
https://flic.kr/p/tZQLoX
After hard negotiation the government of Victoria in Australia is giving $6mill to the RCH gender unit to support kids with gender issues. The ABC 7.30 Report is using file footage of me to support that transgender people are normal and can be career successful. Haven't seen it as yet but hoping they don't butcher me.
After a chat with my line manager I'm going to go for a serious promotion to VP level in my US based company.
It won't be straight forward and is overly complex but that won't stop me.
Have done many impossible things while I have been there including recently launching a new product.
They always turn to me when things are hard. I get things done, do them brilliantly and survive.
I suppose that's what I am a survivor like the rest of us. GD makes us so determined.
Also more emails about PRIDE at my work place. This year I will be able to attend.
Yes we are normal and can be successful.
Butchers? Yes perhaps.
I got correctly gendered at dance last night. :) A little explanation is probably in order. As you might guess from the avatar I'm Celtic and happen to like Scottish country dance quite a bit. All the groups I've danced with over the years have been lots of fun people and, hey, you can present male and wear a skirt---er, kilt---with fun swishy bits. As with other country dances from the British Isles it's couples set dancing. So there is a men's side and a ladies side. Like most dance groups we have quite a few more presenting female than presenting male, meaning if you present male (yo) you're pretty well always stuck on what we've taken to calling the kilt side and never get to dance petticoat side. There are good reasons for this. If you change sides you have to mirror the dance mentally to do it properly, which gets confusing. It also can confuse other people as your changing position moves their mental landmarks. As a result, there's a bunch of presenting female androgyny going on since often people pick either kilt or petticoat side and stick to it for simplicity. I love the swapping of gender conventions even if I'm left out.
Without thinking about it last night one of the cis women who usually dances kilt side asked me to be her petticoat. The couple older gals in the group who frown on this sort of thing were in another set. So, for once, I didn't get kicked out of the petticoat side and sent back over to be a kilt. It was only one dance out of the evening but yay! :D
Quote from: Cindy on June 02, 2015, 03:37:33 AM
After hard negotiation the government of Victoria in Australia is giving $6mill to the RCH gender unit to support kids with gender issues.
Sweet! Hope the newscast was nice to you.
I was at a training class for work today. Apparently everyone there saw me as the real me. I male failed first thing this morning unexpectedly and was gendered female for the rest of the day.
I have two more days of this, may as well just give up pretending to be him.
I came out to my sister and in return she came out to me that she is gay
My therapist focused well on my self-consciousness issues and agreed that we will work on it. He followed up by saying that my participation in the forums here is very good thing for me. Thank you my sisters and brothers here. You and my therapist made me happy today.
I got the OK from my mother to go to a gender therapist once we get our own home! (shes got the drivers licenses because I'm blocked from getting one due to my migraines.) And She even asked a few non judgmental questions about what a transition entails. Small miracles, that's all I wanted, and that's what I got. Also
Quote from: Hailey zy on June 02, 2015, 10:39:04 PM
I came out to my sister and in return she came out to me that she is gay
Congratulations, Wish i had it that easy with my brother, I positively fear coming out to him.
I just arrived home after doing the week's grocery shopping before the heavy dark sky let loose a heavy shower of rain. I don't drive a car so I was riding my grown up girl's tricycle and I would have got myself soaked to the skin like a drowned rat if I'd arrived home five minutes later.
I regularly shop at an Asian supermarket run by a Pakistani family and this afternoon the store owner asked me if I would keep an eye on the store for him while he said his prayers out in the back room. He knows I'm Catholic, so I was quite touched to be asked to keep an eye on things for a few minutes while he was at prayer. When I was a social worker I worked with a couple of Muslim refugee families for a while and I learned a lot about simple faith in God from them.
Quote from: Marly on June 02, 2015, 10:44:07 PM
My therapist focused well on my self-consciousness issues and agreed that we will work on it. He followed up by saying that my participation in the forums here is very good thing for me. Thank you my sisters and brothers here. You and my therapist made me happy today.
You my not know it but in Australia it is recommended by the psychiatrists that you join Susan's for support!!!!
Backstory; So this morning (well yesterday), well afternoon, my mom woke me up for work, because I did not wake up from my alarm. Anyways, she mentions "Bruce Jenner story" is all over the news. So as I grab a cup of coffee I gauge some reactions out of her off asking what she thinks about it, and also correcting her on proper pronouns. After a quick five minute cup of coffee with her, and small talk. I toddle off to work.
After I get off of work, well close to the end of my shift, I decide to talk to a co worker, who is such an awesome ftm non op. Brought up that I haven't come out to my family, and such, and brief of my life story. I was recommended to try out throwing a hypothetical question.
Story; So after I get home from work, wash up, saddle on my girly pants (which by the way are so much more comfy than anything I have worn thus far in my life) I go sit and watch my mom's shows with her, and then since she brought Caitlyn Jenner into the picture this morning, I decided to start there, then throw out a, not so hypothetical, hypothetical question. Huge success, had to just about hide my smile from being too big, to not give it away that it was not really hypothetical. But with the results, since tomorrow is mine and my mom's day off of work, I will be officially coming out to her.
Next step past that would to talk to my father and brother, possibly this weekend, probably not a good idea Saturday since that's my half sisters 5th birthday, but maybe Sunday. Plans plans... going in motion, like the coals burning in the furnace of a locomotive to keep it moving on the path to happiness. :D
I was running behind this morning so I didn't pack a lunch, that meant I had to go get one from a convenience store. The male clerk looked me up and down and then only charged me for my chips and drink, I got the sandwich for free. Getting the "cute female" discount befuddled me enough that I couldn't ask him to charge me. I just gave him the money he asked for and skedaddled. He was staring me in the eye so I had to say "thank you". I laughed the whole way back to work. I hated getting the "atractive male" discount but this...I don't know what to do with this!
I got my work ID updated to reflect my new name and gender. (I love my new picture, so professional looking.) I was then able to use my work ID to update my Credit Union records so new checks, ATM/Debit and credit cards have been ordered. Next week is DMV and a new drivers license ;D Getting my doctors letter so that I can get an updated passport. Everything is moving along great!
Today, I had a second request to post full body pictures. I feel honored that some people feel inspired by my not giving an expletive what anyone else thinks and wearing what I want. I have plans to make a gallery here to showcase my outfits. This won't be an immediate thing but it's in the planning stages. If I'm going to do something, I'm going to do it right.
I was at a thrift store today and found nice-looking, comfortable summer shoes that actually fit, and it wasn't even why I was there to shop!
I shaved my legs and chest for the first time ever. I love the feeling and to my surprise my dysphoria has lessened ;D
Quote from: Sabrina on June 03, 2015, 08:03:54 PM
Today, I had a second request to post full body pictures. I feel honored that some people feel inspired by my not giving an expletive what anyone else thinks and wearing what I want. I have plans to make a gallery here to showcase my outfits. This won't be an immediate thing but it's in the planning stages. If I'm going to do something, I'm going to do it right.
Wish lived close to you Sabrina. I'm a photographer :)
I made my first appointment for laser on my beard today! I'm so tremendously excited as my beard shadow is definitely the biggest source of whatever dysphoria I have.
Started shaving arms, legs and chest it feels amazing now! Also found a really cute pair of flat Mary Janes that fit! Also got my first dress in the mail today. Was worried that it wasn't going to fit since it was only size but it does! It felt so amazing to try it on. Now I'm worried that my size 16 cocktail dress is going to be way to big. I'm just happy it fits and that I was able to size myself right.
Quote from: iKate on June 02, 2015, 09:00:39 PM
I was at a training class for work today. Apparently everyone there saw me as the real me. I male failed first thing this morning unexpectedly and was gendered female for the rest of the day.
I have two more days of this, may as well just give up pretending to be him.
So the past few days as I mentioned I went to a training class. Two of my colleagues also attended but it had around 10-12 students.
I'm a few weeks from truly being full time at work and my therapist basically said "don't hide."
So I've been literally letting my hair down.
Anyway I step into the place where we get the training, and I'm read as female. Until I show my ID to the doorman, that is... ugh. "Ok buddy, is this your ID? It don't look like you" Then I said yes. He let me sign in anyway.
i was wearing a polo shirt but really I didn't care to bind or anything so my chest was showing and these days I male fail sometimes.
Up the elevator, people hold doors for me... hmm.
Walk into the class, the instructor greets me with his sexy Australian accent, "can I help you, miss?" Whooaa.. Okay. Didn't expect that. I tried to raise my voice to get it passable, but I could only speak softly. Then my colleague motioned me to the back of the class. Good God, I hope I didn't blow it!
Then all day long I notice nobody genders me male at all. So anyway time for a break. I go to the men's room out of habit. I figure, hey I am technically at work. A guy coming out looked at me and said, "ma'am, this is the MEN'S room" and then pointed to the ladies down the hall. Okay! So I go to the ladies then.
The next day I decide you know what, enough of this crap. I wear more feminine/androgynous clothing. You could obviously see boobs and a feminine waistline, and I think my bra straps were printing too. Not a word from anyone. No stares, nothing. No problems using the women's restroom either.
And today I just let it all down. There was no mistaking who I was. Again, everyone acted normal. No restroom issues at all.
THANK GOD. I hate using the men's. You have no idea how distressing it is for me. Well, actually you probably do.
So, either I passed for those three days, or people were just really really nice to me. Yes?
Quote from: RavenL on June 04, 2015, 02:46:15 PM
Started shaving arms, legs and chest it feels amazing now! Also found a really cute pair of flat Mary Janes that fit! Also got my first dress in the mail today. Was worried that it wasn't going to fit since it was only size but it does! It felt so amazing to try it on. Now I'm worried that my size 16 cocktail dress is going to be way to big. I'm just happy it fits and that I was able to size myself right.
Wait until you get the hair removed via epilation, waxing, electrolysis or laser. It will feel AMAZING and the best part is, no more stubble!
Had my 2nd laser therapy today, but that's not the best part. I came out to my electrolygist and she was so understanding. She even gave me a hug after we were done. I can't wait to go back next month!
Plus, I got my first heels in the mail today. I ordered a 14 and 15 to check size. The 14s fit! SQEEEE! Plus while looking for gym shoes at Payless, I found a pair of size 13 sandals that I fit into! I'm a happy girl! [emoji4] [emoji4] [emoji4] [emoji4] [emoji4] [emoji4] [emoji4] [emoji4]
Follow up visit today with my plastic surgeon. (liposuction, tummy tuck & some facial surgery 10 days ago) I seem to be healing up OK, but just to be safe a second level of antibodics. My doc & his people take very good care of me, with any problem they are there for an office visit asap. Happy girl to be healing OK, that was some serious surgery.
I have a hot date next week :~]
He is into TS girls, and he is ripped with muscle. He has been wearing me down all week with his messages, and I have finally caved.
And now it's all I can think about!
Quote from: iKate on June 04, 2015, 05:02:54 PM
Wait until you get the hair removed via epilation, waxing, electrolysis or laser. It will feel AMAZING and the best part is, no more stubble!
I'm dreaming of that right now! Its funny I've always hated shaving my face. But I did not realize an hour went by when I was shaving my legs and chest.
Other things that have made me happy.
The bra I ordered fits. Now I do understand how they can be uncomfortable. But it really made me feel cozy on the inside. The pair of panties I got also fit great only bad thing I'll never be able to wear male underwear again. They feel so comfortable compared to what I used to wear. Also fully dressing made me super happy tonight I really love the feel of a skirt and not having pants binding me.
Quote from: SarahBoo on June 05, 2015, 12:22:57 AM
I have a hot date next week :~]
He is into TS girls, and he is ripped with muscle. He has been wearing me down all week with his messages, and I have finally caved.
And now it's all I can think about!
Ooooo behave!
Haa Good luck and best wishes for next week :-*
L Katy
Quote from: katrinaw on June 05, 2015, 02:35:11 AM
Ooooo behave!
Haa Good luck and best wishes for next week :-*
L Katy
hehehehehe thank you :~) I have no idea what 'behaving' is, though ...
Quote from: SarahBoo on June 05, 2015, 02:38:58 AM
Quote from: katrinaw on June 05, 2015, 02:35:11 AM
Ooooo behave!
Haa Good luck and best wishes for next week :-*
L Katy
hehehehehe thank you :~) I have no idea what 'behaving' is, though ...
Maybe you should change your name to Miss behaving :laugh:
Quote from: Cindy on June 05, 2015, 02:49:25 AM
Maybe you should change your name to Miss behaving :laugh:
I know, I am a terror. It is true :~D
I've really enjoyed the thrill of being pursued. Happy Boo!
Quote from: SarahBoo on June 05, 2015, 02:53:20 AM
Quote from: Cindy on June 05, 2015, 02:49:25 AM
Maybe you should change your name to Miss behaving :laugh:
I know, I am a terror. It is true :~D
I've really enjoyed the thrill of being pursued. Happy Boo!
Enjoy and have lots of fun (and be safe!!)
(Mother) Cindy
Quote from: Cindy on June 05, 2015, 02:54:56 AM
Enjoy and have lots of fun (and be safe!!)
(Mother) Cindy
Naw I will, thank you Cindy :~) x x
Quote from: RavenL on June 05, 2015, 01:53:13 AM
The bra I ordered fits. Now I do understand how they can be uncomfortable. But it really made me feel cozy on the inside. The pair of panties I got also fit great only bad thing I'll never be able to wear male underwear again. They feel so comfortable compared to what I used to wear. Also fully dressing made me super happy tonight I really love the feel of a skirt and not having pants binding me.
Agree with the Bra and Panties, I would never go back to male undies, yuk so course and uncomfortable...
Yeah dresses and skirts are wonderfully liberating, however getting cold here now in Aussie, so Jeans and sweaters out... with tops I just love the loose Hooded knits, love the way they just drap over body shape, also can enhance too... which is another tick.
L Katy :-*
Made it to the end of a super long stretch of work, 26 days in a row.
Finished off and launched a new product and had a lazy Friday afternoon celebrating.
Well earned weekend off.
Then I cracked a tooth. :(
I had an amazing day today. I had lunch with a former co-worker who had some nice gifts for me. I got back to my office to find that my state bar records had been updated with my new name. I had a dental appointment to get my teeth cleaned and the tech said I looked like I had a glow about me. (I was in guy mode at the time) I told her it must be the estrogen and I was transitioning and needed to update my records with my new name. We had a great talk and she gave me a big hug as I was leaving and said I looked like I was so full of life. I made it home to change of of my guy mode and went to Costco to get a couple of things and to get my membership changed into my new name. The ladies that helped me with the name change were super nice and seemed genuinely excited for me and my transition. What a great day.
I'm getting in contact with a therapist today. And hopefully I'll be able to get an appointment sometime next week. He seems really nice so far and understanding. I'll be really happy to get the ball rolling. Since right now I'm having to take sleep aids just to fall asleep. Since I'm starting to get really nervous thinking about going to my job.
Good luck Raven on this next step. Hugs
Mariah
Spending my first whole day out of the house without a hat on since February. Just a headband to cover my bald spot. The thin patch at the back has filled in a bit but my old hairline peeks out a bit too. I just don't care. I wanted to see more of my hair! The capper was when one of my female coworkers complimented the headband in the morning. I feel amost normal!
Had lunch today with Gabby, aka Gabrielle 22. It was awesome! That was the highlight of my day.
Quote from: SarahBoo on June 05, 2015, 12:22:57 AM
I have a hot date next week :~]
He is into TS girls, and he is ripped with muscle. He has been wearing me down all week with his messages, and I have finally caved.
And now it's all I can think about!
Good for you. I know you are excited. Why wait so long GF? I know I sure loved finding a new man & having a first date. I was always so excited & most men turned out very nice. Your strong man sounds like a hunk, enjoy.
Quote from: SarahBoo on June 05, 2015, 02:53:20 AM
I know, I am a terror. It is true :~D
I've really enjoyed the thrill of being pursued. Happy Boo!
Being desired by a nice man is one of the nicest things about being a woman. Enjoy GF, just let go.
Sorry, I had another one that I had to share. On break, a male coworker from another department misgendered me in a bicycling story. He then pleasantly introduced himself. I responded in kind and then whispered "...and I'm not a guy..." He looked taken aback and was looking me up and down so I added a quick "I'm trans, I'm a transwoman." And I gave him a little smile. He said "Oh, I'm...um..uh..." So I told him it was ok.
This was the first time that I stood up for myself with someone I hardley know. And it felt effin' awesome. It couldn't have gone better. I have loved coming out since I first typed the words on another forum. It is one of my fovorite things about being trans.
Amazon refunded me for the cost of a fake Coach Handbag that I bought from them and they don't require that I return it.
I got an appointment with a therapist! I could tell just by his voice he was kind and understanding. So now I just need to wait till 1PM on June 11.
Whoot! My neighbor and girl buddy, a black woman, just asked me if my bootay was from hormones or had I always had it? She was envious because she "never really had much"!
Quote from: Joules on June 05, 2015, 10:39:30 PM
Whoot! My neighbor and girl buddy, a black woman, just asked me if my bootay was from hormones or had I always had it? She was envious because she "never really had much"!
That made me smile!
Well I did a few things that made me happy. Shaved again tonight and it was nice it only took twenty minutes. And not the three hours like before. And putting lotion on was like heaven. Practicing makeup tonight and think I'm kind of getting the hang of it. Also I walked in a pair of wedges today. Kind of hard to get my balance at first but I'm getting the hang of it.
So at work with a 9 hour closing schedule with no lunchtime break. At first sounded very crazy. Then my supervisor came back from his first break, trader Joe's bags in hand with copious amounts of cupcakes. So, we both ended up taking about a break an hour, each break consisted of eating one of the magnificent foodstuff. I was so hyped up on sugar the whole night, having just about no cares in the world, but just to bounce around the store like a Jack rabbit on speed. Needless to say two hours past getting off of work, I am still high off of the sugar impact, not tired at all, posting this, and with 4 hours to go until I have to be at work, again.
Kate♥
I'm healing up very nicely from my liposuction & tummy tuck surgery 10-12 days ago. My waist is becomming smaller & smaller as the swelling is going down I guess, which is so so nice. I'll be wearing a corset for the next 5 weeks & it is very comfortable. Life is good, I'm a very happy girl today. Also I've had so many nice women friends check on me & wish me well with the surgery & healing up OK. I'm very happy for my girl friends that know me & wish me well becomming their sister & good friends for life.
One year since I stepped beyond just shaving my body hair and not cutting my hair to make more outward signs in regards to my transition.
Mariah
Quote from: Mariah2014 on June 06, 2015, 09:23:04 AM
One year since I stepped beyond just shaving my body hair and not cutting my hair to make more outward signs in regards to my transition.
Mariah
Awesome! Only a year! As you know I have seen you on Skype, you are already gorgeous and very natural. Goodness you are going to be one hot chick!
Thanks Cindy. So true and yes I know. Already having to beat them off with a stick, but since I'm taken it makes it even more interesting and necessary too. The body hair has been gone two years, but this is my second and for good go around. Situation wasn't right the first time and I wasn't fully mentally ready then. I still can't believe how far I have come in a year or even in the time since my true first post on this site. Hugs and thank you again.
Mariah
Quote from: Cindy on June 06, 2015, 09:36:58 AM
Awesome! Only a year! As you know I have seen you on Skype, you are already gorgeous and very natural. Goodness you are going to be one hot chick!
Quote from: RavenL on June 06, 2015, 12:27:52 AM
That made me smile!
Well I did a few things that made me happy. Shaved again tonight and it was nice it only took twenty minutes. And not the three hours like before. And putting lotion on was like heaven. Practicing makeup tonight and think I'm kind of getting the hang of it. Also I walked in a pair of wedges today. Kind of hard to get my balance at first but I'm getting the hang of it.
Congrats RavenL, sounds like you are making great progress. Good luck with the wedgies. I tried 5 inch heels once, I almost fell off them! You'll do fine with a little practice. I may give up on the 5 inch heels, I'm too old and fat! I'm sticking with a 3 inch heel for the near future, until I lose some weight.
A pedicure at my local nail salon, that was so nice.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on June 06, 2015, 11:31:59 AM
A pedicure at my local nail salon, that was so nice.
Congrats I just had my first one last week with a friend!! So fun.
Quote from: Joules on June 06, 2015, 10:26:46 AM
Congrats RavenL, sounds like you are making great progress. Good luck with the wedgies. I tried 5 inch heels once, I almost fell off them! You'll do fine with a little practice. I may give up on the 5 inch heels, I'm too old and fat! I'm sticking with a 3 inch heel for the near future, until I lose some weight.
I got pretty used to the wedges last night. And it felt weird when I finally took them off. There only about 3 inches but they made me feel super tall. And I'm already at 6'3. But from what I understand with HRT it kind of changes the ligaments just a little so I might or might not come out a little shorter. Which wouldn't be a bad thing! I really hate hitting my head on stuff.
Got my hair colored and styled. It was by someone who Eva Marie refered me to and she did a great job. My therapist said my hair piece looked great (she had given me the names of some places that make falls). She couldn't believe it was my own hair. The stylist also said that there were a lot of new short hairs that are coming in so in 6 months I will have a lot thicker hair.
Quote from: RavenL on June 06, 2015, 03:04:16 PM
I got pretty used to the wedges last night. And it felt weird when I finally took them off. There only about 3 inches but they made me feel super tall. And I'm already at 6'3. But from what I understand with HRT it kind of changes the ligaments just a little so I might or might not come out a little shorter. Which wouldn't be a bad thing! I really hate hitting my head on stuff.
We are almost the same height! I am a bit under 6'4" , maybe I've shrunk a little after 2 years on HRT. As has been said about HRT, YMMV (your mileage may vary). I've heard other transwomen claim a reduction in height of 2 inches or so. There is some shrinkage of ligaments in my feet, it has played heck with my plantar fasciitis and an old injury to my left foot :(
Last Halloween, I got to wear my go go boots for the first time. 6" heels with 2" platforms, they made me 6'10" tall. It was a lot of fun but those things weren't made for walking!
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I went to the local supermarket this evening dressed in my new unisex urban femme style, - no makeup, Boho knitted beret, hoodie jacket, boots, scarf, fingerless gloves and jeans, - and was 'ma'med by everybody. After years about town of dressing old fashioned religious modest I was a little worried about people's reaction to my sudden change, but so far it's all been fine. And I'm happier too because I'm no longer hiding myself behind a uniform and using it as a shield against the world.
Of course if anyone had called me 'sir' I would have had to bite them and infect them with the TG virus to teach them a lesson ;)
Quote from: Joules on June 06, 2015, 10:26:52 PM
We are almost the same height! I am a bit under 6'4" , maybe I've shrunk a little after 2 years on HRT. As has been said about HRT, YMMV (your mileage may vary). I've heard other transwomen claim a reduction in height of 2 inches or so. There is some shrinkage of ligaments in my feet, it has played heck with my plantar fasciitis and an old injury to my left foot :(
Last Halloween, I got to wear my go go boots for the first time. 6" heels with 2" platforms, they made me 6'10" tall. It was a lot of fun but those things weren't made for walking!
Ouch :o Sorry about you're left foot that hurts just reading. But if I can drop two inches oh my gosh that would be amazing! And double ouch those go go boots are making hurt just looking at them. But they look really good!
I put this in another post but I'm happy that I can wear just a large shirt now and not XL. I'm slowly getting rid of my remaining extra weight and only sixteen or eighteen pounds to go now. Also wearing a white shirt vs blue is making me happy right now.
I have a young stud courting me. I'm so excited & he is just dreamy, mid 30's, tall, smart & very well endowed. Oh me I can't wait for some summer romance with this man. I'm a happy girl today, life is great.
I finally shaved off rest of my arm hair. OMG, I thought shaved legs were amazing, it feels so good and silky smooth! My arms have always been really feminine looking so getting the hair off is the icing on the cake.
Also came out to my mom this morning. She was alright with it and supports me!
Quote from: RavenL on June 08, 2015, 10:00:02 AM
I finally shaved off rest of my arm hair. OMG, I thought shaved legs were amazing, it feels so good and silky smooth! My arms have always been really feminine looking so getting the hair off is the icing on the cake.
Also came out to my mom this morning. She was alright with it and supports me!
Don't rub yourself the wrong way, Raven. No seriously, I mean it. Until the hair on your arms diminishes rubbing against the grain after a few days will feel like rubbing a lint brush. Very dysphoria inducing, at least to me.
Just use hair removal cream, it's so much easier than a blade, smooth on, 5-10 minutes, take a shower, so easy GF.
Lucky you, Francis Ann. For some reason my hair seems to be immune to that stuff, even where it's thinned out.
Dee, if there's one thing I'm blessed with its my hair on my arms was never that thick. Also its always been really super light only bad thing now my freckles on my arms really show. Francis I'm going shopping tonight so I might pick some hair removal cream up.
Oh and something that me me happy. I started saying more goodbyes to the old me today. Sold off a lot of movies that I don't care to watch and music. This girl has a lot of spending money now.
I paid a visit to the DMV today. Needed my name and gender change on their records to make the changes official in the eyes of the government. Apparently they are not processing this paperwork every day so it took a little longer than your run of the mill name change. After an hour or so I walked out with my temporary California license in my legal name with a very beautiful F where it says sex!
It is amazing to me that it has only been 120 days from the time of my first counseling session to my being Jessie full time legally and professionally. I guess I didn't give my friends and family much time to ponder the situation. I have now changed my name and gender with the State of California, my employer, the Social Security Administration, my professional licensing agencies, some of my banks and some credit card companies. A few more banks and my utility and insurance companies and I should be mostly done. I still have to get my Passport changed and my Global Entry account with the Department of Homeland Security so I can continue to get TSA-pre when I fly.
Life has been very good the last few months!!!
Jessie, that's great and inspiring for me. And only 120 days wow!
120 days! That is amazing, girl! Congrats!
Quote from: Dee Marshall on June 08, 2015, 03:15:19 PM
Lucky you, Francis Ann. For some reason my hair seems to be immune to that stuff, even where it's thinned out.
It's funny I just did my legs from top to bottom, it's so easy & I just did not feel like shaving. Just put it on, wait 10 minutes, take a nice shower, wipe it all off & done, smooth skin & no shaving, Yuck.
Wow Jessie, no wonder you are always smiling in your photos. Congratulations :icon_bunch:
Having a guy check me out made my night!
Thanks ladies. I feel truely blessed to be where I am today. I have recieved so much information, support and validation from the people here that I could not be where I am without it.
I have meet some wonderful people here who have helped me every step of the way. Just being able to read the stories of others journeys has been an inspiration to me and made me realize that it is possible to be successful.
Part of what has made my transition go so quickly is the fact that I am in a state that has passed transgender friendly laws. Another thing that has helped is working for an employer that is transgender friendly and has a very good insurance plan. All of these things have made it possible to have what my girlfriend has called a world record transition.
A little girl at the store said to her dad, "Why does she sound like a boy?" While I still need to work on my voice, at least my looks are starting to get more passable :)
A nice hot lavender bath (so I'm girly) :D
Old gold Jamaica rum and raisin chocolate.
Many comments on my nails today at work, and for those who were in denial that my nails were painted, many comments on my watch. I usually have tons of people staring in amazement of my watch as it is(Relic kinetic, old fashioned brass with the inner workings visible), just for those that noticed my nail polish, and the fact that I was claimed as twins when my nails matched their own. Gotta love working retail sometimes.
Let's all climb aboard the choo choo train to happiness
Kate♥
Kate that's so cute!
Well my day was interesting to say the least. Got up got ready for work and whatnot. And decided well I might as well let Raven start coming out. And ended up going to work as a guy mind you but I didn't care if I was walking like the other gender. And you know what I was a lot happier then I've been in the past week at work.
During lunch I made up my mind one guy I work with I'm very good friends with. He's always eats inside his car during lunch and I've started doing the same. So I went over and said "Can you keep a secret" And he's like I'll never tell anyone" I knew I could trust him and have always liked him. Kind of tested the waters "Well to tell the truth my brain is not matching my body." To reach I get a reply "I've been having the same problems since I was young." My jaw about hit the floor." And I told him "You have to be pulling leg." To reach she then replied "I'm not" Oh gosh that made the night so much better for me! And after work me and her stood outside and talked. So I was able to really relax myself in the process and just be me. That's going to make my work life 100% easier now knowing that I have a friend. I mean what are the chances of the two of us coming together?
Oh and she told me that for the past year that I've been really bad about hiding female mannerisms. And she could tell that something was up with me. Also that I very much walk like a gal and shake my rear when I walk. So I guess my subconscious or something already knew what I was well before me.
Got a nice package this morning after some weekend shopping.
Perfect fit. :)
I love shopping girl mode.
Solved a problem at work that was bugging me.
My code is correct but a variance due to parameters specified by others for the build.
2 weeks off from this weekend. No rest for the wicked.
Had a nice day in Manchester and bought a pair of jeans and 2 t shirts that are a size smaller.And i can still walk and breathe in them,I've lost a bit of weight
Yea got medical clearance for surgery next week
Breast and Brazillian but lift and body shaping
My Kate Spade handbag was delivered today.
I took a nice long shower tonight that was nice. And used all girly products for the first time. Where has the gel shave cream been all my life?
Had my hair cut and was told I had beautiful hair. Life is good :)
My wife cuddled with me last night for the first time since I started HRT 4 months ago.
She also opened up to me about her feelings and thoughts so far about the changes from HRT.
(My developing breasts have been her largest concern and that they no longer feel or look like male pectoral muscles. :icon_chick:)
In the end we were able to get very intimate last night and it was clear that she was "in the mood"! :icon_love:
Just when I thought we were hopelessly growing apart and all was going to be lost, I do see some hope!
So this morning life is good! :icon_cute:
I worked out how I could afford the pair of shoes I wanted to buy yesterday but I was still debating if I should buy it or not. I barely made it to the store before closing hours and when I got there I went straight to get those shoes.
I stopped half-way to the cash register to find my wallet and a lady walked by me and gave me a 20% discount card for free. We both smiled and I thanked her again at the cash register.
She was really familiar, I think I saw her in the office one or two times but I'm not really sure. Secretly I hope that she works there as I'm really sick of hiding.
This was a little nudge in the right direction and I don't know why but it somehow gave me a little hope that everything will work out alright.
I might be able to start HRT in two months if everything goes right! Which is great because that will be before my birthday!
That is great Raven! Hope all goes well!
I hope that it does go right for you and you can get started as soon as possible. It is amazing what E can do for you, both physically and mentally!
Quote from: RavenL on June 11, 2015, 07:52:10 PM
I might be able to start HRT in two months if everything goes right! Which is great because that will be before my birthday!
Got my official insurance notification that my SRS is A*P*P*R*O*V*E*D!!
...Now the waiting begins... 8)
Quote from: Beth Andrea on June 11, 2015, 10:43:44 PM
Got my official insurance notification that my SRS is A*P*P*R*O*V*E*D!!
...Now the waiting begins... 8)
Wooot! Congratulations ;D :icon_bunch:
It's raining men.
That's what :~]
Congrats Girl!!
Quote from: Beth Andrea on June 11, 2015, 10:43:44 PM
Got my official insurance notification that my SRS is A*P*P*R*O*V*E*D!!
...Now the waiting begins... 8)
Thanks Islandgirl and Jessie! Its really made my mood go straight through the roof.
Beth, congratulations.
Couple extra things that made me happy. I found out I'm a size large in Misses shirts really fit me good now! Also found a pair of casual Mary Janes that are so comfy along with a pair of wedges that fit without hurting my feet! Now to get that balance down...
Just starting a two week break from work all time in lieu.
Have 42 days leave owing, two full months. Most people would love that. Not so sure.
It gives me some buffer if things happen.
What to do?
The girls are starting to poke peoples eyes out. Bras fit so well :o
Had a presentation to a senior manager M2R about the new system I built.
Clients are lining up to use it. Lots of $$$$ for the company.
Hopefully will result in a good promotion to VP level.
Took the bus home with a friend from work who lives across the road.
We get along very well.
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This is a great comeback for explaining an MTF voice! It made me grin.
Nice follow up visit with my plastic surgeon yesterday. I'm healing up quite well from liposuction & a tummy tuck plus some facial surgery. Such a small waist, oh my. I've never had this much of an hourglass shape. I'm a happy girl today & my waist seems to be going down even more. I'll be wearing a corset and or girdle for 6 weeks 24/7 per instructions from my doc for the best final shape. :) :) :) :) :) :)
I saw a random posting online today. someone said I was beautiful.
Man on street: Can I have a cigarette?
Me: Here you go.
Man on street: Thanks. Nice hair.
Oh me, if it makes you happy I guess.
I totally forgot I requested four days vacation three months back. Only have to work Saturday and Sunday and then off for four. It will be so nice since I can be girly and finally paint my finger nails. Also apart form having to go to a couple of places that know me as male all girly all the time for four days!
Love the early mornings when it's nice & cool. Life is good. Have a great day GF's.
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A good movie with popcorn with the blanket around me... when it is raining outside... Good Times...lol
I repaired a broken button loop on a leather coat I got. Felt good to get it fixed.
Well I outed myself on my Facebook. Kind of nervous right now seeing what comments I get.
Changed over from a corset to a girdle since all of my tubes have been removed after tummy tuck surgery. I'm not sure if I'm happy or not but that's what my plastic surgeon recommended for the best final shape. So much work to even take a pee. Oh me, what we women will do to look pretty.
Nothing's really made me happy today (see other thread), but this amused me.
I was coming out of the men's room at McDonald's and a woman and her young daughter were rushing towards the restrooms. The woman, in a hurry, started to push passed me to go into the restroom. Her daughter said, "moooom! That's the men's room. I was dressed kinda middle aged ladyish, but I haven't shaved in two days. Can't really call it a pass, but it makes me more comfortable with the possibility of going full time. Most people are so oblivious.
Working the drive through at work with a girl from my high school that I didnt know and commenting on nail polish and things like pretty dresses. We also saw a really cute guy with gorgeous blue eyes and we talked about him most of the night ;D
I've been wearing girls jeans for pass couple of weeks and have had no problems occur while wearing them in public, so I decide to take the next step and wear them to a family event today ( most of my family doesn't know that i am trans yet) so I was really nervous on my way to the get to together but within minutes of arriving i was given more complements then I could count on how good look!
Did a 2 hour 2 tech electrolysis session this afternoon. The local TV station that is doing a story on my transition was there for part of treatment and asked very caring and relevant questions. My main electrologist has been treating Trans patients for over 20 years and is very in tune with our issues. She did a beautiful job describing why she has been so helpful to our cause. They asked both of us a lot of questions and spent about 45 minutes filming. I think all of the filming was done with me laying on my back while they were working on my face and my eyes were covered to keep the bright lights out of my eyes.
The news crew will be at my job site on Monday to document my full time transition at work. I am moving into a new office building (actually it is a renovated very historical building in downtown Los Angeles) as the new me at work. Much like my bare office I am kind of a blank canvas upon which my true self is going to be transformed.
I have been nervous about whether I am passing sufficiently so as to not be obviously transgender. Tonight my son told me that when I was at my daughters graduation a few weeks ago, one of my kids friends who knows me, had no idea who I was and he was wondering who the lady that was with my kids was. That made me smile.
My Mom actually called me Raven today. Since coming out to her she hasn't called me anything. And it really meant a lot to me to hear her say my name.
That's awesome Raven! I can only hope and pray that one day my parents might accept me
Congrats Raven. I'm still waiting for some of my family to come around. I am willing to give it some time for them to adjust. I'm sure it made you feel really good to have her say that.
I'm very happy to have 3-4 close women friends during my process to become 100% female. They are friends indeed. We have all promised each other to be friends until our last days. All have helped me so much during the past 2 years. I so love to go shopping with one girl friend, she knows her stuff in a thrift store & what looks good on me. Happy girl this morning.
Congratulations Francisann, you certainly have it better than I :)
Quote from: Jessiegirly66 on June 14, 2015, 07:40:31 AM
Congratulations Francisann, you certainly have it better than I :)
Most women are very nice if you will be honest with them. I have a few that wish me well but do not want to talk every day but most enjoy having a new girl friend. Women care about each other very much & I care about my girl friends. I would do anything for them if they needed......Good luck, try being more open.
Quote from: Jessie Ann on June 14, 2015, 01:35:52 AM
Did a 2 hour 2 tech electrolysis session this afternoon. The local TV station that is doing a story on my transition was there for part of treatment and asked very caring and relevant questions. My main electrologist has been treating Trans patients for over 20 years and is very in tune with our issues. She did a beautiful job describing why she has been so helpful to our cause. They asked both of us a lot of questions and spent about 45 minutes filming. I think all of the filming was done with me laying on my back while they were working on my face and my eyes were covered to keep the bright lights out of my eyes.
The news crew will be at my job site on Monday to document my full time transition at work. I am moving into a new office building (actually it is a renovated very historical building in downtown Los Angeles) as the new me at work. Much like my bare office I am kind of a blank canvas upon which my true self is going to be transformed.
I have been nervous about whether I am passing sufficiently so as to not be obviously transgender. Tonight my son told me that when I was at my daughters graduation a few weeks ago, one of my kids friends who knows me, had no idea who I was and he was wondering who the lady that was with my kids was. That made me smile.
Congratulations Jessie. Layla and Jeanette are both so very good at facial hair removal. I'm looking forward to my next session. Also, I know you're going to have a great first day at work. I know it's hard, but just don't worry about the passing part. I have a friend that describes "passing privilege" not giving us privilege as we pass at being the prettiest women, but rather to give us the privilege to pass as a woman. You'll do terrific.
I'm happy that I've been given a green light to double my dose of Estrogen. I was seeing lots of effects from my low dose. Now, I'm ready for the next phase.
Hugs,
Alana
Congrats Alana on getting the green light to up your dosage. I hope you have a great reaction to the new dosage.
Layla and Jeanette do a great job and I have got my July date scheduled with the both of them to hopefully have a full clearance completed. We made that appointment open ended as to the stop time so that they can get a complete clearing done. Ive been averaging 5 hours of removal time for each of my 5 appointments. Hopefully I'm already about 25% completed with the process.
Quote from: Alana_Jane on June 14, 2015, 10:00:01 AM
Congratulations Jessie. Layla and Jeanette are both so very good at facial hair removal. I'm looking forward to my next session. Also, I know you're going to have a great first day at work. I know it's hard, but just don't worry about the passing part. I have a friend that describes "passing privilege" not giving us privilege as we pass at being the prettiest women, but rather to give us the privilege to pass as a woman. You'll do terrific.
I'm happy that I've been given a green light to double my dose of Estrogen. I was seeing lots of effects from my low dose. Now, I'm ready for the next phase.
Hugs,
Alana
Jessiegirly and Jessie Ann, oh thank you! She even called me Raven again this morning. So much nicer not having to hear "His" name now.
It was a cloudy day. No rain. Perfect day for me.
I like when it is gray. I also like fog.
Once I had golden fog here. Omg! Gotta share some photos this week.
Bright blue skies and sunshine, fine fine weather today.
Backup plans progress...in a wonderful way!
A great friend who is CIS and her boyfriend, both very open-minded, have offered me to be a roommate in their home if I need to leave my job here. It would mean moving to a different city and finding work there. But I would do anything- even working fast food if I have to lol.
I have a good job here, but I am realistic about how things may go even though they couldn't fire me just for being a transwoman.
Now comes the doctor appointment on June 30th to see about starting HRT. the lease on my apartment will end next year at the end of June, so hopefully I will be nicely down the path by then.
Congratulations Marly!
Quote from: Marly on June 14, 2015, 09:07:24 PM
Backup plans progress...in a wonderful way!
A great friend who is CIS and her boyfriend, both very open-minded, have offered me to be a roommate in their home if I need to leave my job here. It would mean moving to a different city and finding work there. But I would do anything- even working fast food if I have to lol.
I have a good job here, but I am realistic about how things may go even though they couldn't fire me just for being a transwoman.
Now comes the doctor appointment on June 30th to see about starting HRT. the lease on my apartment will end next year at the end of June, so hopefully I will be nicely down the path by then.
You go girl! Best of luck!
Some very weird guy walked up to me out of the blue today while I was at a renaissance faire and asked me if I was a boy or girl, "because your voice sounds somewhere in between and I can't tell." That hurt quite a bit. What didn't hurt was going to a Quicktrip on the way home and lining up with the other women. As I walked up to line there was zero reaction from the ladies looking in my direction. When the line moved up into the bathroom itself I used a paper towel to wipe some dirt off my leg (it was rainy today so the fairgrounds were super muddy). While I was doing it she asked me what happened or something like that and I made some small talk with her while I waited. As far as I could tell, even if anyone noticed I'm trans or unusual they didn't comment. I was also wearing a very short crop top and really tiny American Eagle short shorts. Frankly, not the most modest attire. :P
Somehow I put on my slip ons that have a three inch heel and can balance perfectly. And the other night couldn't balance to save my life weird.
Saucy man-talk with a female confidant in the tea room at work :~]
And her saying - ''ssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssstop it Sarah!'
Went to work as Kayla for the first time after taking a couple weeks off and everything went about as well as it could. Made it through the entire 12 hour shift with no conflict and even a few well wishes. And to think i was sending myself into a panic on the drive to work for nothing.
Congrats Kayla! It's an amazing feeling when you come to the realization that you can just be yourself at work. I have been into my office a couple of times as myself, but today is my official coming to work full time day.
Quote from: KaylaMadison on June 15, 2015, 07:31:32 AM
Went to work as Kayla for the first time after taking a couple weeks off and everything went about as well as it could. Made it through the entire 12 hour shift with no conflict and even a few well wishes. And to think i was sending myself into a panic on the drive to work for nothing.
This song. Cheered me up for no reason. <3
Lara Fabian – Quand Je Ne Chante Pas
Ipsy glam bag day is always fun. $10 per month cosmetic bag of fun things. You GF's should try it go to IPSY & sign up, $10 per month, you can cancel anytime, cool stuff.
First day on the job as Jessie full time! News crew was here to document my transition and move into our new office building. They interviewed my supervisor and another co-worker who has known me for a long time. I found out they are going to be interviewing the elected official we work for later this week. I will be doing a sit down interview this weekend.
My fiancee sent me flowers. I love her!!
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Jessie that's great I'm so happy for you! And those flowers are so pretty!
Well I took a huge step today. Went out in public this afternoon as "me" Went to a WalMart supercenter which was super busy and it was actually just fine. No one even looked at me twice. The only thing that was different for me is I'm not used to getting cut off when I'm shopping. But guys today had no problem rushing in front of me. Only bad thing was my shoes became painful after fifteen minutes and by the time I got home could barely walk.
I was walking with my wife in our neighborhood and had a t-shirt on which meant my curves were easily visible. This was the first time I hadn't worn multiple layers to try and keep things quiet since I still have to have The Talk with my kids. Since The Talk is coming up this Saturday I am trying to reduce the shock value by hiding less around the house, hence the t-shirt.
So as we are walking we see a neighbor up ahead and I naturally felt some fear and such. I asked my darling wife if perhaps we should cross to the other side of the street where it was shadier and I had a chance, slim albeit if somebody looked at me, of nothing happening. She looked at me and said simply, "Either piss or get off the pot." Coarse as it was it made me smile. Into the fray as it were and we went up the street.
Naturally the woman barely looked up from her gardening as she still chatted away like a m->-bleeped-<-ie to us. It wasn't noticed or cared about.
The happy for me here was the pseudo encouragement I got, the ambivalence of the neighbor and the hopeful anticipation that I'll be going full time soon.
Congrats also to Jessie. Good luck with the interview.
Shoes Raven are a big deal to being happy. If your feet are upset then you just won't have as much fun. Let me encourage you to get some Keds. They are cute too.
That's great CrysC!
As for the shoes think part of that was walking weird. My right leg is completely fine, oh well I was going to the mall tomorrow anyway. You are right Keds are cute might pick up a pair.
Got home from work to find my state issued drivers license photo ID had finally arrived. I now have my picture ID that lists me as F in the sex field ;D I am one happy girl to have had the day I've had.
All good Jessie :icon_rockon: :icon_biggrin:
I've just heard from the PHO (Public Health Organisation) for the district where I live that they've found a therapist for me who will be able to work with me on my issues with being a DES child. I should be able to get an appointment in around three weeks or so.
I feel so happy when I wake up now and see the changes that wonderful E has done.
I have to pinch myself sometimes as it feels like a dream.
Looking in the mirror I am starting to love what I see.
Not giving it back ever.
This is a long way from how I used to feel.
Going to start increasing the E back to the level I was on as my endo is happy for me to vary within limits depending on how I feel as I had cut right back.
I had a lovely weekend with my boyfriend of 8 months. We went to his family for the weekend for his grandmothers birthday. His extended family, who some I met for the first time this weekend. I felt very welcome and me and his grandmother really got on. I felt like I belong.. I know I will spend the rest of my life with him..
I discovered his mother is a closet smoker, i will keep her secret.. I even shared a smoke with her.
Quote from: noleen111 on June 16, 2015, 05:23:51 AM
I had a lovely weekend with my boyfriend of 8 months. We went to his family for the weekend for his grandmothers birthday. His extended family, who some I met for the first time this weekend. I felt very welcome and me and his grandmother really got on. I felt like I belong.. I know I will spend the rest of my life with him..
I discovered his mother is a closet smoker, i will keep her secret.. I even shared a smoke with her.
That is such happy news. That you for sharing GF. I'm healing up from some serious plastic surgery & so hope to find a new man to date later this summer. Several nice men are courting me from dating sites however most all live so far away, darn.
Today I got a new jacket delivered. Sports stuff. Colors black and violet. Crazy discount, 60%.
Fits nice, feels nice.
I actually started talking in public today and got told "Miss you need to speak up I can't hear you" I can't describe how happy that made me today. I'm so soft spoken right now it feels so weird when I use the "old voice"
After some contentious (and personally upsetting) arguments about some trans-legitimacy issues with an old friend on FB, I decided to come out to her in a PM explaining why I was going to have to leave the conversations. It was the first time I've really gotten anti-trans type attitudes from friends, so I really had second thoughts about whether to come out or just drop the matter and go silent.
The result was a really rewarding conversation in which she shared some pretty personal experiences that went a long way toward explaining her perspective (which turns out not to have been as anti-trans as I'd taken it to be) and she made it clear that she would be respectful and supportive when I do transition. I came out of our conversation feeling a closer connection with her than ever before, and it really felt good to feel at peace instead of harboring the stress of FB strife that had been with me for the last week or so.
It made me feel, once more, impossibly lucky, because even the "anti trans" people close to me are actually trans-friendly...
I can start increasing my Potassium intake even with Spiro in the mix now especially since I'm almost to low on potassium now.
Mariah
I'm happy today because I realized that the future now excites me and I am looking forward to it. I never felt like that before.
Finally my burden is put aside
I've faced the facts of who I am
My heart leaps as I look ahead
the future seems no longer grim
Redid my bathroom today its bright and pretty now, and not all sterile and cold feeling.
Off to see my doc today for a check up then lunch with a nice GF. We have know each other since 6 years old in the first grade. She is so cool, such red hair. We love to chit chat & she loves that I'm becomming her sister for life. We will be live long friends no matter what. I've found a new surgeon from the Raleigh NC area for my GRS. My local plastic surgeon will help with a referral to this surgeon which will be nice. Life is good. Have fun GF's.
Seems Auntie is doing a night on Gender.
Showing a doc Between a rock and a hard place. A 20 year celebration of Priscilla
From ugly Australia in the 70's and 80's, truly shameful to now.
There are some very disturbing scenes and attitudes.
Watch it if you can.
Next up is a Q&A panel all about changing social attitudes to sexuality and gender.
Seems all of a sudden we are getting far more exposure in the world.
Had my second appointment with my therapist today. Just went as me and he told me that all my mannerisms are very feminine and that I act just like a cisgender female, oh that really made my day.
Today i went to aerie and got fitted for a bra, I was really nervous about how the person working there or the other costumers would respond, but i was nervous for nothing no one seemed to mined a "guy" trying on bras.
During my planned 3-hour electrolysis session today they actually finished my face and neck early for the first time ever! We took advantage of the remaining half-hour to do some of the remnant little dark hairs on my chest. My electrologist said she's seen tons of much less-endowed cis women! ;D
Second time in a row I've shaved my legs without any cuts :)
My electrologist ran out a hair to remove before the timer went off :)
Quote from: Sydney_NYC on June 18, 2015, 10:02:35 PM
My electrologist ran out a hair to remove before the timer went off :)
You lucky girl. That would sure make me happy.
Quote from: Sabrina on June 18, 2015, 08:20:52 PM
Second time in a row I've shaved my legs without any cuts :)
Getting the point where I don't get cut shaving either. Now the first time shaving my bathroom looked like a horror movie set.
I worked the breakfast shift at work today and a sweet elderly gentleman asked if he could have salt and pepper. I wore my bangs down a little (I don't usually do this) and when I gave him the salt and pepper he said "atta girl!" I wasn't about to correct him(:
Today I got my first watermelon this year. I love watermelons. :)
Michelle I work in a grocery store I'd get you the largest one we got on hand atm
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Oh thanks, @akuma32.
They got quite big ones here, I took the smallest one that was 10+kg. That is like 22 lbs.
multiple things actually
found some epic posts on 9gag that made me laugh so much
finished filling the files for college[got accepted to the college i want last week]
and last night my boyfriend was feeling down a little and it was showing on me too because of it. because the fact we are in a long distance relationship it makes being there for each other so difficult but ive said it to him "i wish i could be litteraly there for you" i also told him my phone would be on all night so if he wants to talk im there even if it wakes me up. was happy to wake up to know hes alright and even feeling kind of happy as he had a college event that he was having fun at
one of my friends posted her "coming out to the old facebook" post and it made me realise thats a cool idea/way to come out to my old facebook too
Just love a new fb group I joined. For women that love natural long nails. My kind of group, no cheap false nails, only pretty natural nails & nice women. We all take strong biotin. So happy to find my kind of group of women/people.
I went out for dinner, and afterwards on the way out a group of 20 women or so, asked me to take a group photo. Which I did and they asked my name. As I was leaving they were all saying "Thanks Jess", as I was leaving :)
Huzar!
It didn't rain today. It's been very wet the last week, typical when on holidays.
Went out for a nice 90k bike ride today after it warmed up a bit. A very pleasant winters day 20C +.
Able to do some outside painting as well over the side of the balcony by dangling Cindy by her ankles.
She did complain a bit though. :o
Tomorrow is looking good as well so will get out again.
Girls are sore again after a while of not much.
They keep growing and growing. :)
Quote from: Jenny07 on June 22, 2015, 02:14:03 AM
Huzar!
It didn't rain today. It's been very wet the last week, typical when on holidays.
Went out for a nice 90k bike ride today after it warmed up a bit. A very pleasant winters day 20C +.
Able to do some outside painting as well over the side of the balcony by dangling Cindy by her ankles.
She did complain a bit though. :o
Tomorrow is looking good as well so will get out again.
Girls are sore again after a while of not much.
They keep growing and growing. :)
You cannot believe how much trouble you are going to be in when I get to Sydney >:-)
I had a day of housework. Steam cleaned the floors, washed the bedding. Cleaned the windows.
Lovely clean home again.
Feels nice.
And got my nails done again. Lovely purple shellac.
So what have I done now? >:-)
Perhaps something else to be happy about. ;)
Gypsy can open a book on your chances of survival.
50 to 1 and rising. :o
Quote from: Jenny07 on June 22, 2015, 03:40:33 AM
50 to 1 and rising. :o
1 in a 100 and decreasing ;D
One from left field.
I have been paying nursing home fees for the past eight years at the maximum level. An unbelievable $50,000 a year. (Yes, I'm now broke), I got a message today that I have been overcharged and will get a refund. Maybe, just maybe I will get enough to help people out.
I can at least dream ::)
Well I hope it is a big refund Cindy. And I thought I had enough money problems with getting my elderly Mum 24 hour care. $50,000.00 a year, - that is shocking.
Hugs Cindy, you are one of the kindest people I know and you deserve a break.
I'm trying to schedule an iniatial visit with Dr. MacPhee in North Carolina. She seems very professional & most qualified for my GRS corrective surgery. I'm so glad there is someone kind of in the southeast USA. No desire for long expensive trips to larger northern or western cites in the US & certainly no desire to fly to some country 1/2 way around the planet. I want a physician near by for long term support. I'm a happy girl today.
My mom is in town, and is heading with me to Dr Kim in Korea.
That alone made me happy.
<billy mays voice>But wait, there's more!</billy mays voice>
So I asked her how it went when she told my aunt about my gender issues.
So basically they met up my aunt when she went to WDW (my mom doesn't live far from there). She told my aunt, "Hey so you know (Kate's old name) and I are going to Korea, and that's because (s)he's having surgery." And my aunt was concerned and worried, and said, "oh my god..."
Then my mom went in another room and told my cousin and cousin in law. My cousin in law and cousin were a bit surprised but they said that it is important to support me 100% because this is a medical condition and transition is the treatment. She also told my mom to tell my aunt the whole story.
So back to my aunt, my mom telling her that (Kate's old name) has to get surgery in Korea, my aunt fell silent and becomes majorly worried. Then my mom explained the gender thing to her, how I am transgender and I'm going for a transition related surgery.
My aunt breathed a huge sigh of relief, and said, "oh, that's all it is??? You had me worried, I thought it was cancer."
My cousin who is a doctor also said the same thing. She was worried that it was cancer too but then when she heard that it was trans related surgery, she said, "oh that? That's small ting. We love her no matter what, and tell her we need to have a girls night out when she visits."
I've actually had a good couple of days which grew out of one horribly bad one. On Saturday Sweetie went out to spend the day with our best local friend and have a b@@ch session. She left without saying a word that morning and didn't come back until past dinner time. I hadn't made dinner because I didn't know when or if she would be back. We talked about my condition and how she doesn't believe it's real. During this the same friend messaged me and wanted to meet for coffee. This is the friend I had posted elsewhere about saying I thought she didn't believe me. Sweetie told me I should go meet her.
It seems I had misunderstood her. She believes me, just had said that I was the last person she would have expected. Then she proceeded to spend two hours pulling my head out of my butt for me and finished up by giving me a belated birthday present, a makeup bag with some polish (not my color I think.) And some other necessary pretties and lots of presentation advice.
I went home for part two with Sweetie feeling much stronger. She told me all the usual and invited me to move into the spare bedroom. She doesn't believe I'm trans and can't understand why this one time I won't defer to her judgement. She went into the bedroom and I actually felt better because she now knew this is happening and I don't feel I can stop it.
Yesterday our friend and her husband were coming over in the afternoon and we needed to do some shopping. We went to our favorite tea shop and got more tea, sampling some great new ones. Having fun together like we used to. Sweetie got it into her head to turn the visit into a belated birthday party for me. We got some fruit and an ice cream cake. It was a wonderful day and a wonderful party. Some time during the day Sweetie told me it was time to come out to my sister.
I had wanted to do that in person, but a 600 mile trip just isn't possible right now, so this morning I called her. I had trouble getting it out but finally managed and received only love and acceptance from my big sister, my only close living relative. She was like another mother to me growing up. We chatted about being transgender for a while and signed off with her telling me to call more often and me promising to be a better little sister than I had been a little brother. She denied that I had been a bad little brother at all and we ended the call laughing!
What a wonderful few days!
I was having a really crummy day off today, and finally convinced myself to go shopping. Ended up at Wal-Mart like I always do and had a lady say hello to me, and somehow managed a really soft hello (I'm really nervous about talking yet) Two minutes later I'm looking at the shelf and she comes up to me and asked me what my name was. I thought "Oh,no what I'm a going to do? I'm I going to get clocked now or what?" I was lucky I picked up a new phone today and had it on my list app. So I just pointed at my mouth like I couldn't talk. I Know I'm really silly but I'm super shy even on a good day around random people plus I started shaking. So then she said "Do you have a cold or allergies?" So I just nodded and wrote my name out on my phone. She told me I looked really cute and had a wonderful smile and just wanted to tell me that. I guess the glasses, light blue top and black skirt made me look like a really nerdy girl.
Once I finally got done shopping I had a weird feeling that I can't describe come over me. I've never had a person out in public tell me I was cute or pretty. I guess I kind of know what it feels like to be warm and fuzzy on the inside now. And I guess I kind of passed finally.
Raven, that was a definite pass!
[quote author=Dee Marshall link=topic=187053.msg1701598#msg1701598 date=1434997254
I had wanted to do that in person, but a 600 mile trip just isn't possible right now, so this morning I called her. I had trouble getting it out but finally managed and received only love and acceptance from my big sister, my only close living relative. She was like another mother to me growing up. We chatted about being transgender for a while and signed off with her telling me to call more often and me promising to be a better little sister than I had been a little brother. She denied that I had been a bad little brother at all and we ended the call laughing!
What a wonderful few days!
[/quote]
that's wonderful Dee! I'm scared to death of the day I have to tell my big sister. But hopefully it'll be as good.
For me..not into guys at all, but my avatar pic, posted on another site, got me hit on by an admirer... it still feels good tho:)
Saw my Doctor for my 3 month checkup and she added progesterone.
Well there were a few things that made me happy today, but one of these is a topic of a whole other thread, but the one I'll share here today was very simple:
Late in the evening as the sun was setting, sitting under the apple tree at the back of my backyard, with two of my dogs lying next to me as I sat in this very soft grass squishing it between my toes, feeling a soft cool breeze blow over my smooth legs while wearing shorts.
I totally coulda just lied down and fell asleep right there. It was so peaceful and comfortable. ;D
The last several days! I'm either asleep and dreaming or gibbering in a psych ward, it's too much like a wish fulfilment fantasy.
As I was cooking Sweetie was telling me about a post on her support group. After a year of me begging she finally joined one. During dinner she asked if I was going full time in the next several months because I should get my ID in order for our cruise.
I told her about coming out to my sister. I had also intended to tell her best friend, her brother and the couple who were our best man and matron of honor (we had been theirs.) She said might as well get it over with and we called all of them. Every call went well.
She also apologized that she's not yet prepared to take me wardrobe shopping and was OK with our friend going with me.
I don't know who or what turned her around but I'm extremely grateful!
Fiance accused me of using my girl voice with her, but I was just using a slightly higher than normal pitch that was elevated using my mouth instead of my throat. After recording it and playing back, I found the resonance was exactly what I've been searching for. So now I just need to practice certain words that sound more masculine. I would like to get the pitch higher though, but I seem to be at my limit for that type of speaking.
I called my grandma today and she thought I was my sister :o
Appt. in 3 weeks with a very nice surgeon for my GRS. She seems very nice & we communicate easily on my FB page. I look forward to meeting her & she looks forward to meeting. She already seems like another girl friend. I'm a pretty happy woman tonight.
FrancisAnn, Good luck
Mariah
Quote from: Mariah2014 on June 23, 2015, 08:28:51 PM
FrancisAnn, Good luck
Mariah
Thanks. I feel good & she seems very nice. The fee is a little high but I think she is going to lower it when she secures a new hospital to use for her surgeries. This should be relatively easy corrective surgery compared to all my previous surgeries, facelift, eye lid surgery, facial scar revision, liposuction & a tummy tuck. Nothing can hurt like a tummy tuck. I will finally feel like a normal person, a woman.
I've been having an absolutely phenomenal week, as I've been reporting here almost daily. Today I may have actually gotten a job! At least they sent me for a drug test and who does that if they're not intending to hire? It's not a great job but it's more than I've had these last sorry 8 months. Not coming out there right away but I can't see it being an issue given how famous they are for idiosyncratic staff and customers. Yes, siblings, I am about to be one of the People of WalMart!
I had my first face laser treatment 17 days ago. Today I was rubbing my chin and some hairs would remain on my fingers. Results!
That's great Dee.
Getting a manicure and switching away from acrylic nails while at the same time getting a French Manicure for the first time.
Mariah
My new therapist has been in contact and I have an appointment on Tuesday next week. Now perhaps I can start to work on some of the cr@p that's been knocking me around lately.
He had a very cute sounding English accent on the phone so I'm keeping an open mind. I've never been to a male therapist before and with my not entirely fairly grounded prejudice towards the male species I'm going to have to be on my best behaviour and try to make this work.
Feeling a lot better today and not being bothered by fatigue and narcolepsy symptoms (touch wood) so I might be able to get some things done.
I stood up for myself to an uncle that refuses to call me by my name and keeps using my old one. Even though he is very aware of me. It gnawed on me for a couple days and actually had me pretty upset. Finally shot of an email to him. I didn't try to act mean it was just tactful and I explained my situation. Haven't heard anything back and probely never will but I don't mind. And it made me a lot happier to get my emotions out.
I came out to my older sister tonight on the phone. I was kind of worried about what her reaction might be, but I was pleasantly surprised. She said she doesn't really understand but she supports my decision none the less. I haven't spoken with many members of my family for a while and I hope that this might be the start of a better relationship. She said she may be texting me more with questions and I really hope she does. I think she liked the idea of having a sister.
To be honest, I've been very scared of coming out and I'm really surprised at how well it's going with family and friends.
Now if I can get a decent paying job again (congrats to Dee on her new job) I can hopefully get my life back in order and progress towards the new, or at least improved me.
Ella
Quote from: RavenL on June 26, 2015, 12:49:20 AM
it made me a lot happier to get my emotions out.
Yes, mere writing it down should release tension.
I saw this on my mom's facebook wall.
She is not afraid to use the "D" word.
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@iKate
omg omg omg that is so heartwarming! <3
Quote from: Mariah2014 on June 25, 2015, 07:54:44 PM
Getting a manicure and switching away from acrylic nails while at the same time getting a French Manicure for the first time.
Mariah
Mariah, look for a FB page called Glorious Nails Naturally. Almost a miracle oil that makes natural nails grow strong. Women all over the world use & love it. It's inexpensive. Good for you to ditch false nails, hate false ugly cheap nails. I've always grown natural nails, you can do it!
I'm healing up very well from my tummy tuck surgery. The doc was most pleased yesterday & I'm sure a happy girl today. It was tough for a while, some infection, had to change antibodics,,such pain, oh me what a scare.
Got new white, heeled sandals. Crazy discount.
White and light gray are my fav colors. :) They go with black and pink accents.
Managed to walk over five miles. Only about twenty pounds and I'll meet my goal weight.
My lesbian cousin is going to get married.
Aaaaand I'm gonna be the maid of honor!!!
Great Kate! Have a blast doing that.
My sister is getting married today and because "he" was the one invited and not Jessie it was made clear to me that I was not wanted. Saved me having to buy them a wedding gift.
Quote from: iKate on June 27, 2015, 04:51:01 PM
My lesbian cousin is going to get married.
Aaaaand I'm gonna be the maid of honor!!!
I joined the Dyke March today in Toronto despite torrential rains all afternoon. The sea of umbrellas was just as colourful as all the brave people. We lesbians are a determined, hardy bunch - some might say fool-hardy! There wasn't a dry foot in the bunch. Mine still feel odd from hours of cold soaking and marching for the second day in a row.
Pride. Painted my nails for the first time last night. Rainbows of course :P
Even though I'm mostly stuck in the closet, I loved seeing everyone full of pride... Quite a few Trans* flags waving today. Loved it.
Got a pedicure today! All red nails :)
On three separate occasions today, I was in stores to buy something...and the men in front of me took a look (to see if they were the head of the line, or me; they were there before so I knew it was them) and then they deferred, and said variants of:
"Let the lady go first."
"You can help her first."
"She only has one thing, she can go."
Before today, such events were inconceivable even just once a day, let alone three!!!
:) :) :)
^-^
Just opened my female gmail account.
Getting to see and have lunch with someone in person who I have only talked to via Skype before today.
Mariah
Quote from: Mariah2014 on June 28, 2015, 06:47:30 PM
Getting to see and have lunch with someone in person who I have only talked to via Skype before today.
Mariah
Cool, meeting new people & making new friends is such fun really. I love it. Have fun GF.
Back at work
500 emails to deal with.
Saw a picture taken on our work bushwalk I organised a few weeks ago.
So obvious :laugh:
I spoke to my sister to tell her I'm working again. She told me she had told all her kids and grandkids (as I had asked her to) that I'm trans. My grand nephew responded with "cool!" Ah, acceptance! I feared you might be denied me. My family lives in Michigan, where they party like it's 1899. At least I know I CAN go home!
I got a private FB from my older sister. She has previously expressed her sadness of losing her brother, even though she has been openly accepting of her new sister.
She posted. Look out for my hard nosed sister, she gets things done and I love her.
I finally took the plunge and added another stud to each ear... I now have two earrings in each ear. :o I bought a couple self piercing kits from ebay a while back and finally had the courage to do it. The top stud is the starter gold stud and the bottom stud is a gold ball 5mm in size.
I'm starting to let go of a lot of obsessive thinking
Just be the positive light in life you want to be :D
Be the change
I received a number of compliments at work today about my outfit. I made my jewelry and I matched up the top to a fuchsia skirt that I had found at a thrift store. Made me happy that I had put it all together in a way that others found nice. I'm wearing it in my current avatar.
I had two conversations with IT & Business consultancy companies today, praying that one or the other will start to produce some financial relief for me... fingers x'd
(It's holding my transitioning up! massively)
Katy xx
Good luck girl!! I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
Quote from: katrinaw on June 29, 2015, 11:19:46 PM
I had two conversations with IT & Business consultancy companies today, praying that one or the other will start to produce some financial relief for me... fingers x'd
(It's holding my transitioning up! massively)
Katy xx
thanks Jessie xx
Quote from: Jessie Ann on June 29, 2015, 11:13:06 PM
I received a number of compliments at work today about my outfit. I made my jewelry and I matched up the top to a fuchsia skirt that I had found at a thrift store. Made me happy that I had put it all together in a way that others found nice. I'm wearing it in my current avatar.
You look nice & happy but maybe the earrings are a little much, they stand out too much it seems but if it makes you happy, life is good.
I had my first appointment with my new therapist today. My therapist is a man and I was very good and didn't take his head to hang on my belt or anything. He's a nice guy actually and it looks like I'll be able to work with him just fine. It's amazing how much the stuff that happened over the course of my 61 year long life got compressed into a tight little angry ball inside my head and now I've started unknotting it all I'm amazed just how much there is of it. Some small tears and sadness after my appointment, but I'd wisely obtained chocolate for myself earlier in the day.
I've got another appointment next Tuesday so everything's looking good :)
I went to Liverpool for the first time,spent the morning in the Walker art gallery,pizza for lunch and a trip on a sightseeing bus.I also got my compression bandage took off my leg,the ulcer has healed well enough to do without it.
Watermelon time again. :)
I talked to my sister and let a lot of stuff that's been plaguing me for years finally come out. Now stuff that was hidden for over ten years is finally gone. And do you know what? I was so much more peaceful and at ease with myself.
I weighed today for the first time in a week. I'm down like 22 pounds since starting the Atkins low carb diet. My BMI is now like 26-27 & my body has such a nicer hour glass figure after my liposuction & tummy tuck surgery. My stomach is so small & that is just nice. I'm a happy girl today.
I told my sister in law and her family. They were extremely supportive to the degree it really blew me away. At the end of the evening she gave me a huge hug and said, "Welcome to the fun side."
And just a couple of days later she asked if I would like to go for a mani/pedi with her. Talk about it going well. I'm still glowing.
I discovered that my hair has gotten long enough, and the balding area has come back enough, that I can move my headband back enough to give me something approaching bangs! I look so much more fem! Although it is clear I have lost hair still, I think I am pulling off the balding woman look, which I am fine with. Less and less will I feel like I have to wear a hat. I rarely do now anyway. Can't wait for more hair!
Sweetie has looked like that for years, Kellam. She's still beautiful!
Even if I don't have any more real regrowth in the thinnest areas I am still happy. The hair I have is plenty, more would be nice but I don't care if it doesn't When what I have is longer barrettes, bobby pins and product should be all I need.
Today is my birthday and I got the best gift I could've, feeling even more comfortable with who I am and how I look. I can feel my bewbs entering another growth cycle too!
:laugh: :D :P :) !
Happy Birthday Kellam :icon_birthday: :icon_bunch:
It's a beautiful fine Winter's day here today. I was out on my Hercules adult tricycle to do some grocery shopping and I started to notice that I was getting a lot of nods and smiles from elderly gentlemen. What surprised me was that I didn't mind in the slightest, in fact I liked it! It's amazing really, I've only had one hour and a half session with my new therapist and already I'm noticing a shift in my attitudes towards men. Somehow being able to say out loud to my therapist, 'This happened to me......' is enabling me to unknot my anger and throw it away a piece or two at a time.
This being a farming town where I live older men might look a little weatherbeaten, but they are in good shape physically. Listen to me! Is this the same Lady Smith who wanted send every man in the world to a prison colony on the moon?! But then on the other hand I've never been an old age pensioner 'Hottie' before.
So many good things happening to you ladies. Happy Birthday Kellam.
I am happy because I just deactivated my old Facebook account, you know the one "he" started and had all of his friends and family. I had notified everyone a while back that I was starting a new profile in my new name and I welcomed all of my friends who wanted to keep up with me to send me a friend request under my new name. I wasn't going to ask them to be my friend and make them feel obligated to accept me. So I have cut way down on the number of friends I have to keep track of and I have got rid of my step-moms Facebook presence and no longer have to read her condescending and ignorant "Christian" banter. That makes me really happy!!!
I actually painted my nails without messing up and they are even!
Quote from: RavenL on July 02, 2015, 09:13:11 AM
I actually painted my nails without messing up and they are even!
Terrific! Now you can watch them slowly get chipped (my favorite part next to having wild colors making my fingers pretty)! So happy for you. Enjoy them!
Thanks for the birthday wishes Jessie Ann and Lady Smith!
The thing that has got me happy today is that I finally got the nerve to call the electrolysis place I bought a groupon for. I have my first appointment next week! I don't know what to expect but I can't wait to start loosing my beard at last. I hope she will start on my goatee/mustache area.
Quote from: Kellam on July 02, 2015, 11:14:05 AM
The thing that has got me happy today is that I finally got the nerve to call the electrolysis place I bought a groupon for. I have my first appointment next week! I don't know what to expect but I can't wait to start loosing my beard at last. I hope she will start on my goatee/mustache area.
I would hope they would start wherever you wanted them to start. For me the upper lip, corners of my mouth and upper chin are the hardest to, ugh!, shave. That's what I want done most.
Quote from: Dee Marshall on July 02, 2015, 12:00:06 PM
I would hope they would start wherever you wanted them to start. For me the upper lip, corners of my mouth and upper chin are the hardest to, ugh!, shave. That's what I want done most.
Exactly! I also can't shave those areas perfectly smooth as they often come back ingrown. I don't mind other people seeing my facial hair. It is more that I don't want to feel it. I touch my face a lot and most of it stays smooth as silk all day long. It ruins my mood to feel the growth. I have often thought of it as a skin disease.
Happy birthday
Quote from: Kellam on July 02, 2015, 11:14:05 AM
Terrific! Now you can watch them slowly get chipped (my favorite part next to having wild colors making my fingers pretty)! So happy for you. Enjoy them!
Wish they would chip! But right now since I'm not out at work I have to remove it the night before work.
Another thing that made me happy. Now I really don't like guys that cat call and think its rude. But while shopping today a guy next to me said "Well hello there" It was aimed at me nobody else around. Just happy that I pass as a female. Also while walking out of the door a worker told me and another woman "Have a good day ladies."
Quote from: RavenL on July 02, 2015, 05:23:45 PM
Wish they would chip! But right now since I'm not out at work I have to remove it the night before work.
Another thing that made me happy. Now I really don't like guys that cat call and think its rude. But while shopping today a guy next to me said "Well hello there" It was aimed at me nobody else around. Just happy that I pass as a female. Also while walking out of the door a worker told me and another woman "Have a good day ladies."
Sorry to rub a sore spot. One day soon you will get to watch them chip to shreds over the course of a week. Yay though on the other! It is wierd that right now even sexism feels affirming in a way. They shouldn't treat wimen that way but at least they are showing that they see you as a woman. It is an odd experience.
Quote from: Kellam on July 02, 2015, 07:02:02 PM
Sorry to rub a sore spot. One day soon you will get to watch them chip to shreds over the course of a week. Yay though on the other! It is wierd that right now even sexism feels affirming in a way. They shouldn't treat wimen that way but at least they are showing that they see you as a woman. It is an odd experience.
Oh its not a sore spot all all. If anything I'm getting lots of practice repainting nails!
Right about sexism feeling affirming in a way. But it still kind of bothered me as well. I should also add that I could feel more then a few pairs of eyes on me today. Oh and forgot I did get a door held open for me today also! First time that's ever happend!
Had a kid ask his brother "Is that a boy or a girl?" when I was wearing the same shorts & t-shirt I wore to work! I guess this wouldn't be a good thing for most here... but it's a first for me. I usually can't even fool gullible children!
Also, I guess... I'm going to work in increasingly femme clothing, and no comments, so that's great, but the kid in the grocery store was the best. :D
Today was a good day. Didn't have work, got my nails done with my sister-in-law, met with my SRS surgeon on a consult and set my full time date.
Quite the busy day.
Wow, I just found out there is new Sylvan (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sylvan_(band))'s album -- Home. Curious-curious-curious. I like their works.
I finally got my ears pierced today!!! ;D In the past I'd made a lot of excuses not to do it even though I really wanted to. Fear of pain was one thing - I'd gotten hooked through the earlobe by a cat's claw when I was young and never wanted to repeat anything like that. Another was my mother's approval - I'm still paranoid of making her uncomfortable anytime I do something new to add to and improve my presentation. Using some carefully-crafted conversation points I led her to be the one to suggest that ear piercings would be a simple and effective way of increasing my passing percentage around new people.
The last thing that settled it was learning about the "Inverness" piercing system. It's more hygienic and less painful than any other method I'm aware of, using encapsulated piercing earrings in disposable cartridges. It's also used all the time on children and infants so I figured if they could handle it then I certainly could too. In my area the only major outlet I could find using it is Caryl Baker Visage. Their staff are well-trained in it's use and it seems to be on the whole a professional and respectable outfit. This is in Canada mind you - I don't know who is offering Inverness in the USA. If any of you have been hesitant to get pierced, I advise you to look into the Inverness System for yourselves. It should put your anxieties to rest.
Hopefully people like the starter earrings I chose because they have to stay in for six weeks. Apparently if they are removed sooner the inner part of the hole heals closed in seconds. Disinfecting has to be done twice a day and the earrings need to be turned in the holes occasionally to prevent the skin adhering to the metal stem.
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Quote from: Violet Bloom on July 04, 2015, 08:39:16 PM
I finally got my ears pierced today!!! ;D In the past I'd made a lot of excuses not to do it even though I really wanted to. Fear of pain was one thing - I'd gotten hooked through the earlobe by a cat's claw when I was young and never wanted to repeat anything like that. Another was my mother's approval - I'm still paranoid of making her uncomfortable anytime I do something new to add to and improve my presentation. Using some carefully-crafted conversation points I led her to be the one to suggest that ear piercings would be a simple and effective way of increasing my passing percentage around new people.
The last thing that settled it was learning about the "Inverness" piercing system. It's more hygienic and less painful than any other method I'm aware of, using encapsulated piercing earrings in disposable cartridges. It's also used all the time on children and infants so I figured if they could handle it then I certainly could too. In my area the only major outlet I could find using it is Caryl Baker Visage. Their staff are well-trained in it's use and it seems to be on the whole a professional and respectable outfit. This is in Canada mind you - I don't know who is offering Inverness in the USA. If any of you have been hesitant to get pierced, I advise you to look into the Inverness System for yourselves. It should put your anxieties to rest.
Hopefully people like the starter earrings I chose because they have to stay in for six weeks. Apparently if they are removed sooner the inner part of the hole heals closed in seconds. Disinfecting has to be done twice a day and the earrings need to be turned in the holes occasionally to prevent the skin adhering to the metal stem.
Good for you. I just took a clean needle in my teens & did my ears. Then used little studs. No big deal really.
I don't own a TV, and getting one isn't high on my priority list.
Today I established my TV channels on PC and tablet. Can watch it now if I desire so. ;D
Quote from: Violet Bloom on July 04, 2015, 08:39:16 PM
I finally got my ears pierced today!!! ;D In the past I'd made a lot of excuses not to do it even though I really wanted to. Fear of pain was one thing - I'd gotten hooked through the earlobe by a cat's claw when I was young and never wanted to repeat anything like that. Another was my mother's approval - I'm still paranoid of making her uncomfortable anytime I do something new to add to and improve my presentation. Using some carefully-crafted conversation points I led her to be the one to suggest that ear piercings would be a simple and effective way of increasing my passing percentage around new people.
The last thing that settled it was learning about the "Inverness" piercing system. It's more hygienic and less painful than any other method I'm aware of, using encapsulated piercing earrings in disposable cartridges. It's also used all the time on children and infants so I figured if they could handle it then I certainly could too. In my area the only major outlet I could find using it is Caryl Baker Visage. Their staff are well-trained in it's use and it seems to be on the whole a professional and respectable outfit. This is in Canada mind you - I don't know who is offering Inverness in the USA. If any of you have been hesitant to get pierced, I advise you to look into the Inverness System for yourselves. It should put your anxieties to rest.
Hopefully people like the starter earrings I chose because they have to stay in for six weeks. Apparently if they are removed sooner the inner part of the hole heals closed in seconds. Disinfecting has to be done twice a day and the earrings need to be turned in the holes occasionally to prevent the skin adhering to the metal stem.
Thanks for the Tip! I found a place that used the inverness system and got mine done today! They are very cute :)
Quote from: FrancisAnn on July 05, 2015, 06:48:58 AM
Good for you. I just took a clean needle in my teens & did my ears. Then used little studs. No big deal really.
Yikes!!! :o There's no way I would've had the nerve to do it that way, especially on myself! Even if I had tried I'll bet I'd have stopped after the first side.
Quote from: LovelyLuci on July 05, 2015, 05:10:01 PM
Thanks for the Tip! I found a place that used the inverness system and got mine done today! They are very cute :)
It warms my heart to know I inspired someone else - I'm so proud! I guess
that's what made me happy
today. ;)
Lots of teenage girls pierced each others ears back then, it was 30 + years ago. A clean needle with hydrogen peroxide. The tricky part was finding the best location so earrings looked their best. I was very feminine in school & girl friends helped me. Good luck with today's safer systems.
Life's been good lately and happy to say...
It's good to be a !
Holla!
Holla back atcha! gurly gO EaRly Gurl!
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Evelyn, I've already got a female to worry about. Her name is the Enterprise. You However Are All Woman Baby!
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Recorded my voice last night on my phone just to see what it sounds like. Its actually sounding alright now! I mean it needs a lot of work kind of sounds like I have a cold but its noticeably feminine sounding. And the best part is I didn't hate listening to it like my male voice! Also recorded that voice and you can't tell they belong to the same gal.
Resurrected my vacuum cleaner today. ;D Vacuum cleaned part of my home where I live and sleep. ;D It is too hot to give my home a full treat.
I found an old rice cooker, in perfect condition, that my folks likely got as a wedding present 40 years ago and it still works. I'm excited to do lots of cooking :)
Alright I got really excited about this and just needed to share. I'm literately going wow right now I've experienced feelings I've never felt before. Alright I know its silly but I was watching a Taylor Swift video and something just came over me. Its really hard to describe it just felt like something deep down awoke and made me feel happy all over and warm and fuzzy at the same time. And just a few minutes ago I was browsing YouTube and started watching some parts of a Phantom of the Opera musical, since I've always loved it. I had the same feeling come over me again however this one was like ten times as strong and has me on cloud nine at the moment. In twenty six years never felt anything like it and love it.
Quote from: RavenL on July 06, 2015, 10:22:24 PM
Alright I got really excited about this and just needed to share. I'm literately going wow right now I've experienced feelings I've never felt before. Alright I know its silly but I was watching a Taylor Swift video and something just came over me. Its really hard to describe it just felt like something deep down awoke and made me feel happy all over and warm and fuzzy at the same time. And just a few minutes ago I was browsing YouTube and started watching some parts of a Phantom of the Opera musical, since I've always loved it. I had the same feeling come over me again however this one was like ten times as strong and has me on cloud nine at the moment. In twenty six years never felt anything like it and love it.
Yea, it feels great when the walls we put up come crumbling down and we can be ourselves. Congrats :-)
Today, more than three years since I changed my name my mum started calling me Jayne, she did precede it with my old name but quickly corrected herself, later in the day she apologized for struggling to use my not so new name.
Having her make the effort is a shock, having her apologize is even more shocking lol
My first attempt at making sushi rice from scratch with a rice cooker was a success. Tomorrow, I'll make basic tuna rolls with canned tuna. I call it: Poor Man's Tuna Roll. I'm actually excited to be cooking :)
Eating 120 grams of kit kats in ONE GO :~D
Going over to a friends house tomorrow he asked me to come as female ;D It really made my day.
I got my letter from my doctor to get my passport updated to my new name and gender. I really need to get that changed because it is tied to my global entry account which gives me TSA pre with all of the airlines. My account can't be changed until I have my new passport. So I will be stopping by the mega passport office on my way into work today. :-)
My dad sent me a text yesterday and instead of using my male name, he just used C. Which I told my family is perfectly fine until I officially start transition. I just didn't expect him to do it! [emoji1]
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I got a lot of "WTF is going on here"-looks when I was out and about even though I looked pretty male today.
I'm 2-3 months on the Atkins low carb diet. Yesterday I was down 26 pounds, 12 more pounds to go until my target weight & a BMI of 25. Oh & all my rings are so loose so moving some to larger fingers. It feels so nice to be a woman with a nicer body. Life is good. Happy girl.
My first attempt at homemade canned tuna rolls was an absolute success. They taste exactly as they should. If a man's heart is truly in his stomach, then his heart belongs to me :) That is when I find him...
I saw my VA Psychologist today (I see him once a month, and have for around two years), and even though he is mostly involved in helping me with my PTSD, he also is a pseudo Gender Therapist for me as well. I came out to him late last year, and he has been very supportive so our sessions include my transitioning, and my PTSD.
Today the subject rolled around to how my wife and I are doing (roller coaster since we've been married 44 years, and I just came out to her April of last year). I told him that the first time since I came out to her she wanted to see some of my selfies (she has never seen me as LesleyAnne), and I told him she was shocked at how good I looked.
Well it just so happens that the selfies were taken on my phone, so I asked if he would like to see the latest.
What made me feel good was that when he looked I could see the shock on his face! He mouthed the word "Wow" under his breath. That made me feel amazing since I know it wasn't "wow are you ugly" kind of wow.
Then he said the most amazing thing.... he said "I've worried about you going out in public dressed as a woman, and worried that with your PTSD something bad could happen, but I have to tell you that you are totally believable, and lovely in these pictures." and then he said " If you don't mind me asking, did it take at lot for you to look that way?" "I don't mean to be disrespectful, I just am curious?".
When I replied that I have on very little make-up, and my clothes are my own, without any touch-up......
He then said "Well I am no longer worried about you passing, and now I hope you are working on your voice to sound more female." I told him I was, and that as soon as I really feel good about it I will start talking to him in my feminine voice. And then the most amazing thing he finished by telling me that he hoped that sometime in the future He would like for me to attend our sessions presenting as the real person he has been talking to.....and that's LesleyAnne.
I've been on cloud nine all day. After all I'm 66 yrs. old, and that makes an old lady feel pretty. :)
I got called ma'am today! And also had a lady tell me she loved my shoes!
Oh it feels like I might have met someone who is going to change my life :angel: Gosh I'm just so happy right now and have never experienced what I'm feeling right now ;D
Tried on my new pairs, one are ballerinas another are heeled sandals. :)
Had my second electro appointment today. Before I left the house, I looked at my stubbly face and realized how much the first appointment had changed what I saw. I cried a little. Just like when I saw my breasts for the first time. I just never believed I could really be me. Knowing that my beard, even if I were to stop hrt, will never be what it once was feels like a triumph. Watching it fade away over the next year will be marvelous.
Finally I am watching what began some twentyfive years ago reverse. And it is by my own will power too!
I started this thread a year or more ago as a place for Happy news about life. It makes me happy to see that so many enjoy sharing your life. Good luck to all of us for a nicer happier life. Life is good for me. So many new friends.
Well a quote from A Fault In Our Stars sums it up for me "I fell in love the way you fall asleep: slowly, and then all at once." I've never anyone tell me they love me till today and I'm so happy right now tears are rolling out. I did not imagine I could fall in love but somehow I did.
I come out to my mom last night, and she did not freak out or anything! In fakt she was realy supportive. :)
I'm so relived, i feel about a milion kilos lighter :)
You all have a wonderfull day now! love you all!
Nice quiet cool morning before another so hot day. Love day break.
Yesterday was my one year coming out as trans and today is my nine months on hormones. :D
Congrats Trini!
First time commenting, but here goes...
Today, I found out that this site has a forum.
I discovered that there were people like me that I could talk to at a moment's notice.
I learned that many people experience the same little troubles I do.
...and I got to work on my garden ^.^
Welcome Alereic. I can still remember when I had that same happy day a few months ago.
Good Luck to you on your journey of discovery.
Quote from: Alereic on July 12, 2015, 10:35:38 PM
First time commenting, but here goes...
Today, I found out that this site has a forum.
I discovered that there were people like me that I could talk to at a moment's notice.
I learned that many people experience the same little troubles I do.
I have been wanting to try to get back into running for a while. I haven't been out running for a couple of years and have really missed it. So I decided to do a light jog today to see how it felt. I was able to go three miles in a half hour. While 10 minute miles aren't fast, going three miles without stoping was a pretty good first effort. It felt great and I am looking forward to trying to do this every day. Here is my post run look.
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Well done Jessie, talk about a post exercise glow! I used to do distance running when I was younger and I really miss it. Though these days I might not be able to run anymore due to this illness I have, but at least I can still ride a bicycle (my freedom machine).
Today I got my first sports bra. Very excited to wear it even though i dont have anything there that needs it. I cant even describe the feeling i had today.
I'm still here. :'(
Waking up in my Mom's house in New Jersey is pretty good. I was then reminded of something yesterday that I hadn't been able to fully enjoy. Yesterday, at a familiar restaurant just outside of Massachusetts in Connecticut. I used the public women's room for the first time. I had been forced by circumstances to do so at work twice before, but only when I was certain that only my direct coworkers (people who have voiced support) would have access as well. It really helped that my Mom was back at the table. She has oddly enough been my "bathroom booster".
Going for a pee like a regular woman is just so valuable for me. I know it shouldn't be, it just is.
Quote from: Alereic on July 12, 2015, 10:35:38 PM
First time commenting, but here goes...
Today, I found out that this site has a forum.
I discovered that there were people like me that I could talk to at a moment's notice.
I learned that many people experience the same little troubles I do.
...and I got to work on my garden ^.^
Well welcome to the site then! It is a powerful thing to realize just how like other people we are. We are all just regular people. I'm looking forward to seeing you around the forums! And I am jealous of your gardening fun times!
Quote from: Trini on July 12, 2015, 05:34:18 PM
Yesterday was my one year coming out as trans and today is my nine months on hormones. :D
Congratulations!
For me, today, as I was pulling a rack through the store, (I'm one of the people who collects, packs and ships your order when you order from WalMart.com), an elderly lady called to me, "excuse me, miss, can you reach down this box for me?" When I came over she didn't revise herself! Also, the nail polish I put on last Monday has barely chipped at all. Tomorrow I'll remove it and put on fresh.
Tried on my new trench coat mantle. Wow, I am loving it.
I also told my best friend (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,192092.msg1712991.html), but that is far too big to be just news of the day.
today, while at a restaurant,when the waitress approached us she asked how us "ladies"were doing. This is the second time in a week this has happenned. so something is changing.
Landed a new job today. Walked in, sat down, talked to two managers, walked out with a start date!!!
Oh, and I got a free root beer. Caffeine free and diet, just the way I like it...and did I mention free!?
Got some new heels and boots in the mail today, unfortunately the boots are too big so back to the store they go! Hopefully they can exchange them cause they are really cute!
Congrats GF!! Wonderful news. Oh and you have a package on the way :-)
Quote from: StrykerXIII on July 13, 2015, 10:06:30 PM
Landed a new job today. Walked in, sat down, talked to two managers, walked out with a start date!!!
Oh, and I got a free root beer. Caffeine free and diet, just the way I like it...and did I mention free!?
Quote from: StrykerXIII on July 13, 2015, 10:06:30 PM
Landed a new job today. Walked in, sat down, talked to two managers, walked out with a start date!!!
Oh, and I got a free root beer. Caffeine free and diet, just the way I like it...and did I mention free!?
Look who's a happy girl. :)
I came out to my second real-life friend today who I see every day at work. He was really supportive and apparently was smiling the entire time (messaged him on Skype from home). He was really happy for me and actually asked if he could tell his wife (who I've met) because he knew she'd be happy for me too.
Considering I'm an incredibly shy person in real life and I'm horribly afraid of rejection due to a small pool of people in my life because I'm shy, it made me pretty happy to not lose a friend. I need to go to bed now, but I'll probably be excitedly fidgeting in bed till like 2am. Going to be hard to get up for work tomorrow, but it was worth it.
I managed to put eyeliner on today finally!
Realized high waist skirts look really good on me.
Had a little girl bugging her mother asking her "What her name?" Directed at me and the mom said "Leave her alone she's shopping." I still worry about passing but it seems like I shouldn't.
Oh donated all my old clothes apart from my work stuff. So there is really no turning back for me now!
I went to my new GP today, the lovely man who had been looking after me has just retired, I requested a female GP and had this delightful elderly Doctor.
She went through my file and said I hadn't had a Pap test recently as far as she could see and I should book in for one.
When I explained why, her eyes were on stalks. But she was lovely and wanted to know about my journey.
Oh and my BP was 117/70. before I started my journey it was 178/90 (very bad).
I'm a happy girl!
Today I have a day off. So eating breakfast at home. A small breakfast. One ingredient is a tomato. Eating it like an apple, and I seem to haven't done that in a while.
Because now I have that new feeling when I wipe my lips. No beard under hand. Only smooth skin*. It made my breakfast very happy to sense no hair there anymore.
* - At least on touch; I've only had one laser treatment and there are stripes of missed hair.
Talked to my therapist today. It always makes me happy talking to her about anything.
It all makes me happy (there are some things I am not happy about but that is in the process of being changed).
My stubby ugly fingers make me happy.
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My stubby ugly toes make me happy.
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My earrings make me happy. I have a matching set on the other side. My ears suck however.
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi725.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fww252%2Fwishfulgurl%2Fearrings_zpsr0klzxi3.jpg&hash=923a71a69e7e16c7bf88a45f84ee98674b127971) (http://s725.photobucket.com/user/wishfulgurl/media/earrings_zpsr0klzxi3.jpg.html)
I saved the best for last. My favorite t-shirt makes me happy. Some things I just can't get rid of.
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In general what makes me happy? Just being me!
Just got off the phone with my doctor who said to go ahead and up my HRT doses, so far the week is coming up Kayla!
I saw my face in a dream last night, and read it as female!
Yesterday night I went out to dump trash.
There was one of my neighbors on the gallery, having a phone call. She is hard to meet and she only knew me as a man.
I walked past her with my trash shoulder-to-shoulder. She just greeted me and I greeted back. I was uuh... oh-kay... :) that was a stoic one.
On my way back, bound to be shoulder-to-shoulder again, she perhaps realized it is me after seeing I'm coming back. And she started to stare while still having the phone call.
Only when we were at silent talk distance, surprise popped up on her face.
Hey, it looked like she liked what she saw. Another supporter.
So, yes! Success. I definitely pass at night.
I had to go to a team building session today,
The focus of the meeting was singing, Yipes!! After some rather silly breathing exercises the group leader broke us into male & female groups, he taught each group their part and we sang an African song, the sound of our voices mingling was spine tingling.
I ended up in the group singing the highest pitch and the woman next to me complimented me on my ability to reach higher notes, she said I have a beautiful singing voice.
Raise your voices and lift your soul sisters
Nice visit with my plastic surgeon yesterday, I'm healing up just fine from liposuction & tummy tuck surgery. He said see me in a month but you look very well to me. Also he said maybe 2 more weeks & you can stop wearing your corset, oh happy day, summer time my way & hot. My mid section does look so nice. It was a lot of pain & stress but such a nicer body. I'm a happy girl today.
Saw a doctor! She's totally on board with WPATH, didn't act like a gatekeeper! Two weeks 'til hormones!
Walking through a grocery store with my Mom today, as we headed for the registers I overheard a very little kid say "See! Here he comes again, and look he's wearing lady pants!" Then the parents went into a discussion with him. Two days before, a different grocery and a different child. A little girl asked her Mom as I passed them "Is she a woman?"
I pass in general but those kids are so perceptive and lacking filters. I can't fault kids who are trying to parse the meaning of gender for asking questions, however loudly.
So to cope with the conflict of being misgendered but loving the inquisitive minds of children I reached a conclusion that made me quite happy. Instead of taking it personally and letting myself get upset and down I realized that I had just made a teaching moment. Even if the parents say nothing to their child but "shush" that child has experienced someone who is confident, happy and gender variant. The next time I overhear a child asking such a question I am resolved to look in their direction and at least smile, perhaps wave. I will be the change I want to see in this world!
Quote from: sparrow on July 15, 2015, 07:34:25 PM
Saw a doctor! She's totally on board with WPATH, didn't act like a gatekeeper! Two weeks 'til hormones!
Hip hip hooray for you sparrow!
Well yesterday and today was a roll coaster for me. But my going full time has been pushed forward a lot. And I started crying from being so happy tonight looking in the mirror, and realized I'll be seeing me everyday soon. I'm going to get the ball rolling Friday and hopefully won't have many more weeks left to present as male.
Playing with new shades of polish, that's fun. Such a nice group of women & new friends on the Fair Maiden FB page. We all have such fun with our nails. Trying to soon start using pellets, so so tired of pills & itchy patches, yuck. Life is good.
Yes, playing with different shades of polish is always fun. Beautiful nails. I'm hope all goes well with the HRT changes your hoping to start soon. Hugs
Mariah
Quote from: FrancisAnn on July 16, 2015, 06:23:30 AM
Playing with new shades of polish, that's fun. Trying to soon start using pellets, so so tired of pills & itchy patches, yuck. Life is good.
I had my first consultation with an electrologist, and was glad to learn they are trans friendly. I felt very welcomed and they were completely non-judgemental, even though I'm still 100% presenting as male. Looking forward to losing the hair, not looking forward to the pain hehe.
Quote from: Mariah2014 on July 16, 2015, 06:30:52 AM
Yes, playing with different shades of polish is always fun. Beautiful nails. I'm hope all goes well with the HRT changes your hoping to start soon. Hugs
Mariah
Mariah, Join a FB group called I Love Natural Nails, it's great & also there is an oil everyone uses to strengthen their nails. I so hope pellets soon, so tired of itching, damn patches. TC GF
Quote from: amoeba on July 16, 2015, 06:35:16 AM
I had my first consultation with an electrologist, and was glad to learn they are trans friendly. I felt very welcomed and they were completely non-judgemental, even though I'm still 100% presenting as male. Looking forward to losing the hair, not looking forward to the pain hehe.
Hair is just hair to elctro women, they see & kill it all day long. It's gonna hurt, be ready to cry.
I'm really working on bettering my life.
and i'm going to meet so many awesome people:)
I'm going clothes shopping with a girlfriend today! I'm really looking forward to it since I haven't shopped with anyone yet.
Just a quick update about today. This is probably the happiest I've ever been today even if my boots were killing my feet. My cis female friend took me to a kind of high class mall in the city. I was really nervous at first since this I was way out of my comfort zone since I've just gone shopping at grocery stores so far. Right after getting out of the car and walking to a restaurant a lady past by me and told me she loved my bow that I had in my hair! Walk into the restaurant the server said good afternoon ladies. I was really really super nervous to use my voice while ordering but my friend reassured me that I was doing fine. I worked up the courage and the waiter did not look at me weird or anything. After eating we did some shopping in some stores and I got treated just like a female and my friend kind of had my back and said the entire time not one person gave me a second glance or a weird look.
The best part was I went into a really high end purse shop and the guy at the counter went straight for me and started telling me what would look perfect with me. And I worked up enough courage to even talk to him and he was super nice and also commented on the bow in my hair.
It was an all around great night and I feel that now I can pass pretty well, and shouldn't be so hard on myself and my appearance,
So I posted a comment on FB about Caitlyn Jenners Espy award last night. My uncle responded with something about "who is this sensitive female alien ". I responded with a simple "things change". I then got a reply from an aunt on how my new sensitive self was welcome anytime at their house. I felt confident, so I outed myself to her and told her to feel free to tell those she thought would be good.
God that felt good. She then pretty much gave me the rundown on where a lot of my cousins fall in the lgbt spectrum. I'm not alone and I'm accepted as me.
I cried last night watching Caitlyn and I cried again today, but all happy tears.
Ella
Today I was at a support group meeting (where I am out) that I attend regularly. A member (cis female) who I knew, but not very, well approached me after the meeting and handed me a package wrapped in a brown paper bag with a pretty pink bow on it and said this is for you. She asked me to open it which I did and inside was a wonderful book called "About Face" which is a manual on how to apply make-up. I was shocked and elated by this gesture. She asked me to be sure and read a note that she had written on the wrapping paper. It said: To Joi: "You are a a Brave Woman & a credit to our Sex" Love, Sheila. I almost melted. This really touched my heart and soul. I'm going to cut out the inscription frame it and save it. What a beautiful and thoughtful woman Had to share this.
Hugz,
Joi
I set my schedule for SRS today. It's all the way out in November 2016 but at least it's scheduled.
;D
What a wonderful moment! Thanks for sharing. I too had a gift like that it ment so much to me to be accepted like that.
Quote from: Joi on July 16, 2015, 10:51:20 PM
Today I was at a support group meeting (where I am out) that I attend regularly. A member (cis female) who I knew, but not very, well approached me after the meeting and handed me a package wrapped in a brown paper bag with a pretty pink bow on it and said this is for you. She asked me to open it which I did and inside was a wonderful book called "About Face" which is a manual on how to apply make-up. I was shocked and elated by this gesture. She asked me to be sure and read a note that she had written on the wrapping paper. It said: To Joi: "You are a a Brave Woman & a credit to our Sex" Love, Sheila. I almost melted. This really touched my heart and soul. I'm going to cut out the inscription frame it and save it. What a beautiful and thoughtful woman Had to share this.
Hugz,
Joi
Congrats girl!! It may seem like a long time but at least your set. Good luck. Any chance you can get the date advanced?
Quote from: CrysC on July 17, 2015, 12:37:57 AM
I set my schedule for SRS today. It's all the way out in November 2016 but at least it's scheduled.
;D
I was able to run another 3 miles tonight. That's the 3rd time this week. I am so happy that even after laying off running for so long I was able to pick it back up again. While I'm not particularly fast I did maintain a steady pace. Nothing like those running endorphins!!
Quote from: Jessie Ann on July 17, 2015, 01:10:19 AM
I was able to run another 3 miles tonight. That's the 3rd time this week. I am so happy that even after laying off running for so long I was able to pick it back up again. While I'm not particularly fast I did maintain a steady pace. Nothing like those running endorphins!!
That's awesome! I could never really run anymore due to bad knees, but I love to hike when they aren't acting up. There are amazing hiking trails almost literally in my backyard (OK, like 3 blocks away) and I'd love to hit them again. Seriously, anyone in LA who wants a fun little hike in a tucked away canyon, please come over and be my guest.
What made me happy ...
It was a single phone call, from a much-older man, who I am quite infatuated with.
He said come over :~)
Pray for me ...
Quote from: Zoetrope on July 17, 2015, 01:51:31 AM
Pray for me ...
Be careful Hon and let us know you are OK when you get home.
Quote from: Cindy on July 17, 2015, 04:06:21 AM
Be careful Hon and let us know you are OK when you get home.
Aw gee ... it's fine :~) I've seen him several times now. He encouraged me to try other guys, which I did ... but they haven't compared :~o
Sorry hon, sometimes I feel I have to be everyone's mum! :laugh:
Now go and clean your room or there is no dinner for you young lady ::)
Love my Fair Maiden polish, "Don't be shy".
Today's my first birthday since coming out. It was actually on my birthday last year when I decided to transition.
Happy Birthday Cheska!
Thank you. :)
Quote from: Jessie Ann on July 17, 2015, 01:02:06 AM
Congrats girl!! It may seem like a long time but at least your set. Good luck. Any chance you can get the date advanced?
Thanks Jessie Ann! I might get it sooner but even Fall 2016 is pulling it in some. There are some financial considerations also where that time works out better even if I wish it was tomorrow. Still, I love me a pile of hope in the future.
BTW, love the nails Francis Ann. Nice pink
I am home safe and sound the day after.
He is incredible. And a lovely guy too. I am so glad he pursued me ...
Good to hear Zoe!
He must be almost 30 years older than me.
But oh-my-god does his experience pay off.
I will be floating around the cornices for the rest of the day ...
Also - I'm pre-everything, still stuck in the closet for now, but I'm growing my hair out and keep clean shaven so I may start to look femme... I keep getting double takes at least...
But today at the store, I was with my preschooler son, and the lady at the checkout asked if he was my little brother... I'm 22 years his elder... But I thanked the lady and told her that no, he was my child....
So, apparently I'm giving off the teenage boy look rather than the woman look.... I'll take it I guess...
Quote from: Zoetrope on July 17, 2015, 10:07:41 PM
He must be almost 30 years older than me.
But oh-my-god does his experience pay off.
I will be floating around the cornices for the rest of the day ...
Awesome... Now to figure out what a cornice is...
A nice run, shower and a couple glasses of wine to prepare for tomorrow's marathon electrolyis session. Going at least 6 hours with two techs, maybe longer. Going to go until they run out of hairs to zap or I get too tired to continue.
I'm getting my referral this thrusday from my therapist that I am transgender!
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Congrats Raven.
Congratulations Raven, another step along the way :icon_bunch:
Thanks ladies! Its weird everything is falling in place all the sudden. like I said in a previous post I think life is finally giving me a break.
Another visit to the pain monster yesterday and many less hares than before.
I really don't find that electro hurts at all. Hope its working.
I feel so good being me all the time at home now. Almost time.
Today found the colour I needed as I have been doing some painting to fix up the common areas of the apartments.
Been repainting using the original colours and it looks so much better.
I looked up my states laws regarding changing my legal name along with drivers license. And wow New Mexico is really liberal. I'm going to have to post a notice in the newspaper for two weeks that I'm changing my name and then go to court and fill out the paper work. And the usual turn around time is only a month to get it changed.
My drivers license is pretty cut and dry. I'll wait till I get the name change but my therapist is able to sign the forum identifying me as female.
So hopefully by mid September my old life will be pretty much behind me.
Well it happened yesterday, but now is when I can enter it: Our son got married yesterday! Very simple ceremony with a small group of family and friends, but what food! Both son and daughter in law looked wonderful! I was thrilled to be able to wear a very pretty coral coloured top, butter/cream straight leg pants and open toed sandals (I wanted to be able to show my new pedi). I have come out to our son and his wife so this was quite the outing.
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I gave a try to a food store at new location today. It rocks.
Chivalry is not dead! The gas station attendant helped me fill up my gas can (for yard work) and even loaded it in the van for me. All without asking. And he was patient while I typed on my phone (still can't talk)
Finally finished a crafting project for a coworker that's been in limbo for a long time. I posted a picture in the gallery.
I went out in public for the first time today! And the world didn't end! SQEEEE!
I joined some girls from my support group at Panera Bread for the first time. It was only for about 10 minutes, but it felt so good. I hated leaving and going back to boy mode.
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Yay ChiGirl! You have taken some big steps towards freedom!
I am staying with my Mom at the moment and my Pop comes by every Sunday. I was dreading it and got no sleep because while massively supportive he had hardley tried with the pronouns. I never heard him use the right ones and he still uses my full birth name. So instead of running away I had a long heart to heart. He understands more fully now and is ok with me correcting him. Not an hour ago we were all three joking around and he said my old name. Before I could say a thing he corrected himself! Every little thing...every little thing....
I'm happy for SF JELLO that has no carbs, the heat index is 110 where I live & I love my cool jello. On atkins low carb diet, down 26 pounds in the past 3-4 months.
Successfully completed my motorcycle refresher course,rode a bike for the 2nd time in 29 years.
Managed to do my best makeup yet today! Also shaved and not one little cut!
Third day off coffee. It is not needed to keep me awake; was drinking it out of boredom.
I've recently reconnected with an old friend and she's proving to be a very positive, balanced, pragmatic support: neither cynic, nor cheerleader.
Getting a new pair of ear rings and am wearing them now :)
well today i received a positive reply from farmers insurance, it seems that my x had them change an accident report to reflect that I was the driver not her, I have been fighting this for a few weeks and getting nowhere so I sent a complaint to the state insurance office and HRC. Farmers called today to tell me that they have changed them back they said that they would file the responce to the HRC and insurance commission. it feels good to have protected myself
Got my FFS bandage off my head to see what my upper face looks like with a smaller nose and flat forehead! :icon_inyourface: My black eyes and bruises are almost completely gone after only 5 days. Face is still swollen, forehead still hurts like hell, but this is truly the first day of the rest of my life.
Making preparations to conduct a deposition inside a prison later this week. I get to walk through the prison and spend four hours asking questions of a convict.
Quote from: big kim on July 20, 2015, 03:59:50 PM
Successfully completed my motorcycle refresher course,rode a bike for the 2nd time in 29 years.
Well done Big Kim! I seriously miss being able to ride a motorcycle.
I unpublished my self published memoir today. Now I can take out the fluff and misdirected self loathing that padded out my story of coming to terms with being asexual. I am going to fill that in with more of the gender confusion that I had blocked from my day to day until only recently. It was eating me up having a fully closeted version of my life out there for everyone to read. Writing it helped me separate my sexuality issues from the gender stuff though. It took me a while because I knew it had helped other asexuals feel more normal and I didn't want to take that from them. I finally realized that if I told the whole story I might be able help even more folks.
Now I have a hundred thousand words to comb through! Yay!
Got a letter from my therapist today for starting HRT! 1 more month till my doctors appointment...cant wait! :)
Quote from: Lady Smith on July 20, 2015, 08:57:27 PM
Well done Big Kim! I seriously miss being able to ride a motorcycle.
Thanks,have you tried a trike or sidecar?
It is nice cold morning here.
Quote from: big kim on July 21, 2015, 12:23:56 AM
Thanks,have you tried a trike or sidecar?
I drove a sidecar outfit for some years during my 30s and I'm thinking about the possibility of doing that again.
I'm seeing my counselor today and plan to open up again, come what may. I'm happy to be stripping away the self-denial and self-deception.
Quote from: Christine Eryn on July 20, 2015, 07:13:57 PM
Got my FFS bandage off my head to see what my upper face looks like with a smaller nose and flat forehead! :icon_inyourface: My black eyes and bruises are almost completely gone after only 5 days. Face is still swollen, forehead still hurts like hell, but this is truly the first day of the rest of my life.
Good luck healing up. I had a full face lift & upper eye lid surgery last summer. I look nice now but oh me, 2 months of wearing a facial support mask 24/7 was not fun but it worked. OH yea I had such black & blue eyes. I feel your pain. TC & good for you.
Had an endo appointment yesterday, and finally bumped up from my low starting dose. Wheee!
There were a couple hours of preparing for things to get ugly with my insurance company because the pharmacy sent an email update that they were unable to fill that prescription, so for some reason filled an old one instead. Eventually went in and sat around the pharmacy and they found it was apparently some problem with how they'd submitted it, so it worked out. I think it had to do with the 4 different permutations of dose and quantity estradiol prescriptions they had on my account. (I had them delete all but the most recent one, so hopefully this doesn't happen again...)
Just relieved that insurance didn't decide they don't cover this, or that I can only have that original tiny dose...
cuddly pets
Congrats girl!!
Quote from: jeni on July 22, 2015, 07:13:57 AM
Had an endo appointment yesterday, and finally bumped up from my low starting dose. Wheee!
I got a kitty ;D :D
Today I came out to all my new coworkers. We spent the morning in an impromptu seminar on what it means to be transgender as we packed boxes. It was a lot of fun. One coworker told me his friend is a transman and talking to me helped him understand him better. He also asked me how you know. I told him, "the doctor says to you that he needs to cut off your testicles. How do you react?" He responded, "no way in h&!!" I said, "you're not transgender".
I was feeling low, insecure and dysphoric but my Mom wanted to go out for lunch and to run some errands. I agreed to go as my visit is almost over and I want to spend some more time with her. So glad I did. We had a lovely time and the weather in her part of Jersey is so nice today. Also, a waitress said "Here you go girls." when she dropped off our menus! The whole rest of our trip out was just icing on that cake.
Quote from: Dee Marshall on July 22, 2015, 02:40:30 PM
He also asked me how you know. I told him, "the doctor says to you that he needs to cut off your testicles. How do you react?" He responded, "no way in h&!!" I said, "you're not transgender".
Ok, I put my previous reply up before reading about y'all's joys. Sorry. But then I read this and guffawed. I am still chortling as I type this! So happy for you Dee but darn if that isn't the funniest test for transness I have ever seen! Effective too! This'll be the cherry in the icing on the cupcake of my day!
Quote from: amber roskamp on July 22, 2015, 12:29:15 PM
I got a kitty ;D :D
Awwwwwww, yay! How old? What "sex"? (Lol, feels uncomfortable asking that in here.) What color? Fur length? Spayed/Neutered? Declawed? YAY! I love kitties, haha. I have 3. Two orange tabby boys and a Siamese girl. They are our babies! Well until the real one shows up in the next 2 months, eek!
Last night, was, fan-farking-tastic. I went out with a girlfriend that I just met a couple weeks ago. She's absolutely wonderful to hang out with, we get along so well. I got all dressed up in my girl clothes and we went dress shopping, picked up some stuff at Target and then went out to dinner afterward, ALL WHILE DRESSED AS A GIRL.
Nobody said anything negative that I heard, the world didn't stop spinning, and I didn't burst into flames.
It really helps having someone there to reinforce that you belong though. She's so awesome. I hate using that word, but it's true.
More info here if you'd like to read it: https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,192705.0.html
Quote from: KristinaM on July 23, 2015, 07:35:04 AM
Awwwwwww, yay! How old? What "sex"? (Lol, feels uncomfortable asking that in here.) What color? Fur length? Spayed/Neutered? Declawed? YAY! I love kitties, haha. I have 3. Two orange tabby boys and a Siamese girl. They are our babies! Well until the real one shows up in the next 2 months, eek!
I beg to differ. I've been where you are. When the human baby arrives the furbabies continue to be your babies. My one human baby is long grown up and we have no current furbabies. We'll start looking after our trip in October. Can't before then because our potential sitters are going with us.
Quote from: KristinaM on July 23, 2015, 07:35:04 AM
Awwwwwww, yay! How old? What "sex"? (Lol, feels uncomfortable asking that in here.) What color? Fur length? Spayed/Neutered? Declawed? YAY! I love kitties, haha. I have 3. Two orange tabby boys and a Siamese girl. They are our babies! Well until the real one shows up in the next 2 months, eek!
she's a girl. She is spayed. She is 16 weeks old. Still has her claws.
This is her! She is a little devil >:-)
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi.imgur.com%2FqqB6mVQ.jpg&hash=8490bca8b559a7924bdf8572f335edf274ca2417)
I got my note from my therapist saying I do identify as female he wrote it so well! Its still sinking in for me yet and I don't think it's hit me yet.
Now I can start changing legal things next week!
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Quote from: amber roskamp on July 23, 2015, 03:19:03 PM
she's a girl. She is spayed. She is 16 weeks old. Still has her claws.
This is her! She is a little devil >:-)
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi.imgur.com%2FqqB6mVQ.jpg&hash=8490bca8b559a7924bdf8572f335edf274ca2417)
D'awwww, such a cutie pie.
Quote from: Zoetrope on July 23, 2015, 08:52:35 AM
Your profile pic :~D
Aww, thank you :)
Yours ain't so bad, yerself. :P
Congrats Raven! Feels great doesn't it. Hugs.
Quote from: RavenL on July 23, 2015, 03:29:45 PM
I got my note from my therapist saying I do identify as female he wrote it so well! Its still sinking in for me yet and I don't think it's hit me yet.
Now I can start changing legal things next week!
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New gel polish and a fresh manicure makes everything happy! :D
Patience, patience, stress, stress. Was very disappointed with my E level (33.1) and the degree of feminization I've experienced after 3 mos. Sent a note to my Endo last week expressing my feelings. Expected push back. (Stress) Received a response from him today saying his goal was < 200. Will test again next week (5 mos.) He indicated that if the level was still low he would increase my dosage accordingly. Patience, patience. Now the stress is gone. I'm so in a hurry, but if having waited so long for this makes me so so anxious! You know the feeling!
Quote from: Jessie Ann on July 23, 2015, 08:37:37 PM
Congrats Raven! Feels great doesn't it. Hugs.
It feels wonderful its starting to sink in tonight. I've looked at the letter at least thirty times tonight and started crying just a few minutes ago.
Breast development made me happy today!
At my therapist appointment this morning, based upon development which is starting to become noticeable [emoji4], my therapist told me that this is definitely my last summer going topless at the beach.[emoji4]
Mick Jagger - specifically, Mick Jagger.
playing the fiddle (badly)
went to the chemist to collect My Wifes prescription just giving her name and the pharmacy assistant said we do not have the brand that you normally have but have replaced it with an alternative is that OK . She obviously thought the prescription was for Me Yay talk about a pass LOL ;)
After getting tires on the car this morning I went to the dollar store and got a pair of feminine sunglasses and some LA Colors "Twinkle" lipstick/gloss combo. I then went home, did my hair with the new clips I bought at work, ate lunch, refreshed my shave, put on makeup in an attempt to hide my beard shadow and the new lipstick, did the dishes, refreshed my nail polish and dressed to go out.
I'm wearing cute pink boyshorts with black lace edging, a sports bra, a tight orange tank top, mom style denim shorts and my "creamsicle" orange kicks.
As I write this I'm sitting in a cafe. This is my first time out with the whole package and the only interaction I've had was a neighbor in my complex who smiled and said hello when I stopped for the mail. I haven't noticed even one strange look.
Next week after I get paid I plan to get my hair done and my eyebrows shaped.
The shorts are the only thing I'm wearing that dates from before I realized I'm trans and that wasn't bought with transition in mind. I will never buy men's clothing for myself ever again!
This was actually from yesterday but I had no time to post anything because of work and travel. I was meeting with a lawyer working on the defense of a company we are suing and the lawyer for the deponent. I am very open about my transgender status and decided to show them my before and after picture. They were both amazed at the difference and wanted to know where I got the professional head shot that I used for my after picture. they couldn't believe that it was an iPhone selfie. Additionally, the defense lawyer said I created some confusion in their firm when they noticed that the correspondence had changed from my old name to my new name. They thought that maybe there was a husband and wife team in my office and it wasn't until I sent an e-mail to them to correct their proof of service documentation to reflect my correct name because of my name and gender change did they figured it out. I had a good laugh with that one.
Today a pro did my make up. Oh my gosh, people just kept walking past me, including one colleague from work. Men would of course have a look but no clocking. That is just confirmation only clean face is between me and passing at daylight... wow
I was in a book store just minding my own business when I saw a really beautiful girl (mtf). She was tall and thin, very narrow at the hips, virtually no breasts, but had really amazing skin and face. She was beautiful and was passing way better than I could right now. Mischief filled me as I tried to get her attention without causing any embarrassment. I just walked past her and said a very quiet "hello". If I see her again I will introduce myself and maybe give her a card. :) :)
I got my new birth certificate! YAY!!! It's a girl :)
I did a bad thing and adopted some forest plants. >:-)
Relaxing bubble bath and shaved my legs.
going to Fort Wayne Pride (yes, for some reason we have pride in July, not June) for the first time.
I had dinner with my aunt from my father's side of the family. (The only one that is accepting of my father's 3 sisters.) It was positive and she's been talking to the other two and my father on acceptance. We may all meet when we come back in TN next month for another visit.
I slept pretty much through the whole day. Gosh that feels good.
I ripped up the last of the disgusting carpet in my basement!
Spent the day out and about with some girlfriends yesterday. Everybody was nice and properly pronouned me, etc. Felt great. This morning I went out while not trying to dress female, no makeup and was still called a lady several times. That also felt great.
and I found some boots that were on clearance.
Went to our local pride event yesterday and really enjoyed being out and not too worried about being judged.
Bought some bras today and then posted a photo of myself from yesterday on Facebook. Still feeling good. Hopefully I feel that way in the morning. I guess I've officially outed myself. Happy and nervous
Ella
I realized that, even though I don't pass at all, the women in my department treat me as one of the girls and so do other women in the store who are aware I'm trans. The men treat me with the same respect as they do the other women and I'm always included. I enjoy my job, it gives me plenty of exercise and stimulation. I could stay forever if it wasn't for the lack of insurance and the fact that I only make $9.15 an hour. :(
Oh, and today, one of them made a mistake and called me Diana, (my name is Dion). I told them, "no, Diana is my cousin, but you can call me Dee!" Now most of them do.
OMG, my counselor/therapist said at the end of our session today "So when do you want the letter to your endocrinologist?"
I was gobstopped. I told her "maybe in a few weeks, I want to continue losing weight and getting in shape... because I have one chance to do this, and I want to do it right."
but OMG! So happy and nervous at the same time!
I have a "make you sad" story, but that's for another thread.
I went to my GP today for the firSt time as Jennifer. I was nervous as hell as the waiting room was packed. Not one look or comment was made until I walked into the Drs room where she immediately said 'hello Jennifer' . I was surprised as I did not know she new my name. Consultation went as normal with further investigations into by bowel issues. And then off. I strode out of there head held high like I had won some kind of prize. Never felt so confident and happy. Drove home smiling all the way. Can't wait to go full time. J
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Discovered that I have lost about an inch and a half of height. I've gone from being 6'2" to 6' 1/2" tall.
There are days when thoughts of self orchidotomy come. I am happy to be sane enough to not go there. :)
I realized that my voice raises at least one octive if someone addresses me as "Dee" rather than my full name.
I've been learning to play a song that I've wanted to figure out for a long time and finally nailed it. It's full of unorthodox jazz chords, modulations, and the vocal phrases starting on non-chord tones. Tough stuff. ;D
Made my first appointment at the Howard Brown Center in Chicago to start HRT. Less than 3 weeks from now, I'll be starting another part of my journey. Well, 3 weeks, plus 2 more appointments, but still...
I gave them my insurance info, and then she asked for my preferred name. I told her, and replied, "Charlotte? OK, that is how you will be referred as here." SQEEEE!
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I got my ears pierced! The best psrt was that the guy that did it was born on the same day and same year as me. He was cute too! It was the capper to a wonderful day.
Got home from work to discover that my passport was here. Tomorrow I can go to Dept of Homeland Security and get my Global Entry account updated with my new name and gender.
I looked in the mirror tonight and saw a woman starring back at me. I am amazed at how fast I have been able to get so much done and changed with my life. Sometimes I think is this all a dream?? But then I realize it's not a dream and I am becoming the woman I have always been afraid to acknowledge I am.
Going to celebrate by going for a nice 3 mile run.
Jessie that's great!
I got an appointment with an endocrinologist! Not till November 4 but I'm lucky since she's the only trans friendly one near by. I really didn't want to have to make a hundered mile round trip for the next one. Really its not that long only about three months plus in the mean time I can just make myself healthier!
Had my first conf call today with my new voice. It did not get tired and it passed completely. I sounded great.
Got my new work ID with my new name and a new picture. I made it happen too, I told the security guy what was going to happen, he tried to make me keep my old picture. I told him in no uncertain terms that I needed a new one. I am really proud of myself.
Loving this whole transition thing, I have never been happier!
Well this is an odd story, but I should share it.
Yesterday I met up with a well known person who is publicly anti LGBT anything, especially with regard to marriage and trans bathroom issues. Quite by accident. But hey, it's New York and stuff happens in NYC. But somehow I managed to keep my cool through all of this until... well, it gets better.
So we struck up a conversation. We talked about where I live etc. Then he said, "so Garrett is your congressman?" I said, "yes, and he's pissing me off to no end."
He said, "how come?"
I said, "He says the GOP shouldn't look to recruit gay candidates. Why won't they get it? The democrats are killing them with this."
He said, "well, you can't really deny the bible and the word of God, you know. This country was founded on a strong pillar of faith."
I said, "Well, I'm a Christian, and I believe that God said we should love one another - and that includes gays and transgender people. Everyone. "
I said, "you know, what really pi**es me off? The fact that people can't get over the fact that transgender people can't use the proper restroom. I mean what is that about?"
Then he says, "Listen. Let's say you're in the bathroom, doing whatever. Then all of a sudden a big strappin' dude like, oh, I dunno, Bruce Jenner walks in. How are YOU going to react?"
And I literally stopped, stunned... I said, "okaaaaay have a nice day, sir." And I walked off.
Filled my spiro scrip yesterday! Still a bit anxious about it all, but I'm excited. :D
Nice job, Kate! It's a shame his mind is closed.
Today, for the first time, I told my hairdresser to do my hair girly. She showed me how to handle my bangs without hacking them off and how to get the most out of my curls. Just left there and my hair is still damp, so I haven't gotten the full effect. Also, I have a coworker I only know well enough to smile and nod to in passing. I've been pretty sure the coworker is trans. Today they were in a pencil skirt and maryjanes, so I walked up smiling and said I'd been meaning to ask them a question. The coworker smiled shyly looking a little nervous. I asked, "what are your preferred pronouns?" Her face lit up as she said, "I use 'she'." I replied that she could do the same for me in a month or less.
Well I've been really self conscious with my speaking voice this week. Even if a lot of people have told me it sounds fine. But my therapist made my day today since i asked him about it. And he said while it is deep it doesn't sound male its a sexy feminine voice and that I kind of sound like Demi Moore! So now my confidence has gone way up and now I'm not as afraid to talk now.
Quote from: RavenL on July 30, 2015, 04:38:41 PM
Well I've been really self conscious with my speaking voice this week. Even if a lot of people have told me it sounds fine. But my therapist made my day today since i asked him about it. And he said while it is deep it doesn't sound male its a sexy feminine voice and that I kind of sound like Demi Moore! So now my confidence has gone way up and now I'm not as afraid to talk now.
That's wonderful! I can attest to how a good voice is a game changer. I have zero confidence issues now. Zip, zilch, nada.
Congrats Dee. I just did the same today with my hair. I had to get it shorter for a new job, male dress code, so I got bangs and a cute short cut. I showed her a picture from the book and she did the best she could with my widows peak. I'd been frightened of asking for what I want, but since work is making me cut it, I figured I'd get it in a way I could still present female. I'm hoping that I can change to female at work, but not just yet.
Ella
Well this made me happy but also kind of creepy at least to me. I went over to a friends house today since we were going to the mall. As I was walking across the street to her house I noticed a truck at a stop sign was just sitting there and not moving. Kind of made me nervous but I was really close to her house and didn't worry. Well got home tonight and noticed I had a piece of paper on my windshield and it said "Tall & Sexy Love to buy you a micro beer Text me" Followed by his name and phone number. Well I guess if that's not passing and don't know what is.
Got a new arm brace for Francine, and tried her out in the desert.
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Quote from: Sigyn on July 30, 2015, 11:37:08 PM
Got a new arm brace for Francine, and tried her out in the desert.
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Nice!!!
Is it wicked of me that this amuses me so?
Yesterday, after my other post I went into the Panera restroom to fix my hair before I left. I still use the men's as I haven't changed my ID yet. As I came out an older man was coming in and, simultaneously, a woman was about to enter the ladies'. They both stopped dead, looked at me, nearly crashed into each other trying to switch places, then looked at the signs on the doors and went in.
Today, after a horrid morning dealing with bills, I went to Sephora to get a recommendation on foundations to cover my shadow while still looking natural. This is the result:
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On the left is a lighter one, on the right a heavier. I think the heavier is better close up. She didn't go all the way down my neck. Now I need to wait until I get paid again to afford the ~$60 for the foundation and brush, let alone the optional powder that will make it last longer. (All shown)
Finally made use of the stuff they sold me at mac. Little to no clocking. Ppl stop me to ask questions as i look like a native (tall blonde). With a pretty face i don't need to work hard on a great voice. I am enjoying it.
You're looking good Dee. :)
Told my aunt and my redneck and military nephew. My nephew surprised me in that after he got over his shock he was like, whatever, you're family and that's all that matters. I was never sure how he would take it.
My aunt was pretty shocked but didn't hang up and said it was good I was happy. We are pretty close and it is going to take a bit of time for her to process.
Just 3 people left to notify before it goes into the "just say it on Facebook" level. So far nobody has pushed me away even if some pulled back a little. Several are having some challenges with it, like my kids, but are overcoming it.
The last two on the list, my brothers, are almost certain to never talk to me again. They are both extreme homophobes and I'll now have two colors on the pride flag (trans and lesbian... is that transbian?)
Still, this should be what made me happy and what made me happy is that somehow people are being far cooler about this than I expected.
Thanks, Lady Smith!
That's wonderful, CrysC! As of last night all I have is one cousin to talk to and I haven't lost any either.
My lips & mouth have healed up very nice after plastic surgery. I have much thicker more normal lips now & my tummy tuck surgery is also healing very nice. I'm so glad, it's taken 2 months or more to heal up. Life is great.
Today I noticed that HRT has adjusted my body to the point that my hips just naturally do that feminine "tick-tock" hip sway. I actually have to work to walk like a man! I also realized I've been posting to this thread a lot.
Had a great day of vacation in the eastern PA countryside with my Mom. We stopped for lunch at one point, at a hokey diner. When we walked in we got a "be with you in a minute girls!" Felt so good my day wasn't spoiled by digestive troubles later on. The troubles were from a bad dietary choice the day before, I have a sensitive tummy.
This whole past week has been amazing and today was just the capper. I don't get glared at any more, I get gendered correctly. That all started this week. It began when a pharmacist called out my birth name and looked right past me. I had to catch her eye, smile and nod. The stuff that happened today was just more confirmation.
I have reached my tipping point! The world finally sees the woman I have always been!
Came out to my one of my ham radio clubs today. Everyone was more or less cool with me. Questions of course but nothing disrespectful.
Went and bought veggies from the farmers market. Passed easily. An older gentleman helped me with my basket, he was like, "let me help you with that, miss."
Went to Roy Rogers to get something quick to eat. The person had his back turned, said,"I will be with you in one minute sir" and then I said,"excuse me?" And he was red in the face turned around and said,"oh sorry, ma'am!"
I've been looking into the rabbit hole and am teetering on the edge of falling in.
I love hove I feel now but hate him.
So close to male fail now.
Scared and alone but wow do I feel good inside about everything and all the changes over the last 2 years.
I have given up at home and am Jen which is nice.
Deep breath now....
My fave lube was on sale, so I bought 2 bottles. Hopefully didn't look too much like a deviant at the checkout. Perfect chai latte at mcafe. Also wore my mac makeup and miss myer outfit today for a treat.
Spent the weekend at my denomination's LGBT-affirming group's Assembly this weekend. While I went in male mode, and older gay guys thought I was a little twink... I had a good time, was able to let loose some of my masculine barriers and I came out to important people in my denomination who will help me later on when I finally go full time. Affirming and life-giving. Told some Trans* men about Susan's, and they said they'd check it out.
Good weekend all around.
Just got tucking right. Meaning it works and is not painful. Sitting in a tram right now.
Wearing a skirt and tights for the first time right now. Feeling comfortable, and a slight bit more feminine than usually.
Well, little steps make the journey, I guess.
Went to Pride! I was in the closet yesterday morning. I went dressed fairly femme, and I was holding a banner in the parade, and got seen by some "hundreds of thousands" of people, and certainly some that I previously didn't want to know. I guess I'm out of the closet now?
Also, after almost a week on spiro, I've felt great every day! I was right at the top range of 'normal' testosterone for males, so I'm really starting to think that ->-bleeped-<- is poison. Down with the internal patriarchy!
Quote from: sparrow on August 03, 2015, 01:48:05 PM
Also, after almost a week on spiro, I've felt great every day! I was right at the top range of 'normal' testosterone for males, so I'm really starting to think that ->-bleeped-<- is poison. Down with the internal patriarchy!
Isn't it great? It's not poison for our trans brothers, though. I'm really sensitive to it. I was 100 points BELOW the bottom for men and it made my brain a wreck while leaving my body without enough sexual hormone. Much better now!
I know my voice is passable and has been for awhile, but today when I went to the dentist. The office manager who checked me in said that my voice sounded higher and that she had noticed on the phone recently too. I was very happy to hear that.
Mariah
Yay Mariah! Also, your new profile pic is gorgeous, so double win :)
I had my first electrolysis appointment a few days ago. The transition from laser to electrolysis is going to cause me no ends of dysphoria. I stopped laser a few weeks ago in preparation for electrolysis, and the non permanence of laser is now coming back to bite me as I grow more and more facial hair almost daily. Until I've put in enough time with my electrologist, it's welcome back to the thick shadow that I though I'd left behind :(
On the "what made me happy" side, I didn't find electrolysis to be painful at all, and the swelling went down quicker than I was expecting. The scabs are the only annoyance. I hope I'll be able to put in some serious time towards this over the coming months.
Totally agree it is a double win. Thank you. It was a picture I took just before leaving for the dentist office. I'm glad that Electro wasn't too painful for you. Laser helped me, but didn't help me. I suspect my being on HRT eventually affected how affective it was to those hairs hit after HRT. Hugs
Mariah
Quote from: amoeba on August 03, 2015, 09:28:54 PM
Yay Mariah! Also, your new profile pic is gorgeous, so double win :)
I had my first electrolysis appointment a few days ago. The transition from laser to electrolysis is going to cause me no ends of dysphoria. I stopped laser a few weeks ago in preparation for electrolysis, and the non permanence of laser is now coming back to bite me as I grow more and more facial hair almost daily. Until I've put in enough time with my electrologist, it's welcome back to the thick shadow that I though I'd left behind :(
On the "what made me happy" side, I didn't find electrolysis to be painful at all, and the swelling went down quicker than I was expecting. The scabs are the only annoyance. I hope I'll be able to put in some serious time towards this over the coming months.
Today me and three other trans women from our support group were interviewed on camera for a news story for FiOS1 News here in NJ. It went really well and the questions were well thought out. It will be a very trans positive story (at least I hope it is) and will air sometime between mid to late August. The article with video will also be online and I'll post it here when it's available.
I have tomorrow off work to go skiing-yaaaay powder day(I'm in NZ) and I had a great catch up with one of my girlfriends that I haven't seen for ages.
I relaxed on the sofa all day:-)
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What a strange day, after a tiresome week. My internet access is finally back - damn Aussie NBN. Long lurid conversations with my female staff about a guy who has just started in another lab, so cute ::)
And I caught up with a friend who is Prof of Marine Biology at my Uni, he knows I am trans and over a coffee he asked me my long term work plans I told him I was thinking of retiring as I have a wonderful life I want to live (finally). He said 'Oh no' 'I can pay you for two days a week as a senior post doc, it is lower than your pay scale, but you could look after my students when I travel OS and I think a female Prof would be a steadying influence on the students.'
My first B.Sc (Hons) was in marine biology, maybe I will come full circle!
One favorite skirt, size 14 was so loose on me, added some pleats & took in the waist 5 inches, now it fits perfect. I'm healing up very well from my surgery. I so look forward to my GRS later this year for finally a normal body. Oh me, it's taken so long just for me to be a normal woman. Life is good.
This actually happened last night. My ex and I had tickets to go see a band we both really like. We get to the show and they go to scan the tickets and the machine made a not so good sound, well it turns out the tickets were for tonight and not last night. As we're leaving my ex says that she wont be able to make it tonight and the security guy hears her. He asks us what happened and we explained and says "stay right here ladies" he comes back a couple of minutes later and lets us in for free! That never would have happened when I was presenting as a male.
I went to the range with the women's group, of which I am now a full member. :)
I had a good time and zero discussion of anything trans was made with me, only with the group leader who encouraged me to join and who knew me from before I transitioned.
I add diversity in two respects, one being trans, and another being of South Asian ancestry. I don't really make a big deal of those things but sometimes it's nice to change up things a bit.
Haven;'t found anything as of yet.
Quote from: michelle666 on August 04, 2015, 11:11:26 AM
This actually happened last night. My ex and I had tickets to go see a band we both really like. We get to the show and they go to scan the tickets and the machine made a not so good sound, well it turns out the tickets were for tonight and not last night. As we're leaving my ex says that she wont be able to make it tonight and the security guy hears her. He asks us what happened and we explained and says "stay right here ladies" he comes back a couple of minutes later and lets us in for free! That never would have happened when I was presenting as a male.
That's great. I love all the things that we can enjoy as being a nice woman. Once long ago a woman friend of mine was having a wedding shower for her daughter. She said you can drop by if you want. I baked a really nice cake, dressed as nice as possible, before long a fit right in with all the women there. I was just one of the girls & that felt so nice. It's great to be a woman, feels so normal for me & always has. Have fun at the concert.
Lost enough weight to wear stretch jeans again.
I wrote down my femme name for the first time. Chills.
I got "ma'am'ed" at the store today, and I wasn't even presenting. :D
I'm still a bit in shock. I never expected this outcome. I just got off of the phone with my cousin. She was the last person I felt the need to come out to personally. Everyone else I love dearly, but they aren't people whose rejection would devastate me.
I DIDN'T LOSE ONE IMPORTANT PERSON TO THIS CONDITION, NOT ONE!
Everyone has been accepting. All of my family are looking forward to me coming back for a visit. My face is covered with tears of joy. Now I have to craft a Facebook post to tell the more distant friends and family, a simple announcement gently telling them this is what is and I won't accept argument or criticism. And, of course, offering to answer politely worded questions, but not loaded ones.
I tied my record for how many days it's been since last getting misgendered! (12)
:D
I was having quite the down and out kind of night due to just feeling, well lonely really. I have always coped by having a female presence online via MMORPG's for the most part. It has however over the past couple years increasingly become an emotional doubled edged sword that triggers equal amounts of dysphoria vs relief. Simply expressing my female self virtually is no longer enough. (it never really was)
I would very much love to meet other Trans people in my area. Find some new friends that I can really relate to with the hopes of making this journey more endurable. Arkansas is proving however to be a hard place to find that, sadly. Yet moving isn't much of an option currently. As such I was chatting with a close online friend. She has been and is my biggest supporter also the first person I came out to. She just always seems to know how to cheer me up so I thought I would share what she said to me tonight.
"...but YOU, who YOU are on the inside, who you are GOING to be on the outside...you're amazing. Why do you think countless people are drawn to you, in any game or virtual environment that you find? No matter where you are, when you feel safe in your virtual self, you explode with confidence. You are just now starting the real life track to match that feeling, even a little. Other people have felt the same, and the fact that you can see that, and see those feelings in YOURSELF, is just proof that you're doing the right thing. I know you can cope, I know you can deal, because you're...you."
A few kind words can go so far. =)
Quote from: Aubrey1day on August 05, 2015, 03:09:06 AM
I was having quite the down and out kind of night due to just feeling, well lonely really. I have always coped by having a female presence online via MMORPG's for the most part. It has however over the past couple years increasingly become an emotional doubled edged sword that triggers equal amounts of dysphoria vs relief. Simply expressing my female self virtually is no longer enough. (it never really was)
I too used to think that playing MMOs as my real self would satisfy the dysphoria enough to manage a 'real-life' existence, but eventually it just doesn't cut it. The big issue that I had was to convince people that knew me more than a collection of bits and bytes that I wasn't catfishing. I totally understand where you're coming from there. My coming out in 'meatspace' was a relief that I couldn't have imagined when I made my first character.
I got my ID changed finally. It's got to be the worst dmv picture ever (I look super strung out) but it says female now. I've been trying to get this done for years. I'm so happy!
I am happy now that flax seed have such immediately calming effect on me. :)
Just returned from a visit with my Endo. E levels still checked out low (low 40's). He agreed to dbl. my dose. I'm so glad. Now maybe I'll begin to experience some of the real effects of HRT. Tingling and sensitivity - bring it on!
Congrats girl! Feels great doesn't it. Nothing like taking out your license and seeing the F on it.
Quote from: Oriah on August 05, 2015, 11:48:37 AM
I got my ID changed finally. It's got to be the worst dmv picture ever (I look super strung out) but it says female now. I've been trying to get this done for years. I'm so happy!
I saw a gender therapist for the first time today. She is a total rockstar. She is a member of the state trans mental health association. She also works in the local high school and one of her best friends that has an office next door to her is trans. She started an adolescent trans support group in the area. She is well versed in the subject and I'm on like totally cloud nine. I'm going to figure this out once and for all and this petite Jewish lady is going to be there the whole way.
That is great Katelyn! Finding a therapist who you connect with is so important.
After not feeling so well for the past few days I went out for a walk tonight. Clear night, not too cold and no rain in sight; - a good night for a walk. Tired and sore when I got back home, but it was lovely to have been out and about on my own two feet again.
Living with a chronic illness as I do I embrace the small pleasures in life whenever they come my way. :D
Quote from: Jessie Ann on August 05, 2015, 03:46:50 PM
Congrats girl! Feels great doesn't it. Nothing like taking out your license and seeing the F on it.
Thank you! It really is a fantastic feeling! :)
Yesterday I was at the VA Hosp. for appointments. As I was getting ready to get on an elevator, a fellow veteran held the door open for me and said "Go right in pretty lady" Really made me tingle and glow!
I was heading out for the day and just happened to glance at my shadow and thought..."well she's cute" Made me happy today :)
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Quote from: Joi on August 06, 2015, 10:14:45 AM
Yesterday I was at the VA Hosp. for appointments. As I was getting ready to get on an elevator, a fellow veteran held the door open for me and said "Go right in pretty lady" Really made me tingle and glow!
How sweet is that! :)
Quote from: Michelle G on August 06, 2015, 12:26:36 PM
I was heading out for the day and just happened to glance at my shadow and thought..."well she's cute" Made me happy today :)
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Wow! That reminds me. I got out of the car last evening and looked down at my shadow. Definitely not a male shadow.
Quote from: Michelle G on August 06, 2015, 12:26:36 PM
I was heading out for the day and just happened to glance at my shadow and thought..."well she's cute" Made me happy today :)
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Damn girl.
Thanx Kate :)
What really makes me happy everyday though is how long my hair is getting for the first time in my life! And I always dreamed of what my natural color would look like grown out...now I know :)
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Quote from: Michelle G on August 06, 2015, 12:57:00 PM
Thanx Kate :)
What really makes me happy everyday though is how long my hair is getting for the first time in my life! And I always dreamed of what my natural color would look like grown out...now I know :)
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The answer to that question is "beautiful"!
I put pink hair ties around my pony tail
Quote from: jessica32 on August 06, 2015, 04:03:58 PM
I put pink hair ties around my pony tail
All I can do is smile at this. Somthing so small, and yet its these small things that I find so amazing. So insignificant to others and yet a small thing like this has to power to make one feel good :) even me the simplicity of it, you hear stories of people climing mountins and yet do they realy feel any better then you after you put pink hair ties in your pony tail?
Well that said seeing what you wrote made me forget what I came here to write, thinks...
Oh yes thats it,
Today my bofriend (who is two years down from me) said I looked so young he felt bad about being attracted to me ;). And Being 28 and just passing another bday I felt like I got a year younger instead of older.
Flying out of Burbank airport as Jessie for the first time and did not have any of the issues like I did the last time I flew out of there. It was uneventful :)
When I got home I discovered that I had received my Law School and Undergraduate diplomas in the mail today. They have my new name. WoooHoooo!!!
Chiselled my nails, tried to combine this blouse with a plain skirt but didn't really feel great untill I added a piece of jewelry.
Scared ->-bleeped-<-less when I noticed my parents came back home. Immediately put back on my normal clothes.
Totally forgot about the makeup xD.
I guess that's good.
They didn't freak out.
Yay.
Quote from: Jessie Ann on August 06, 2015, 06:06:21 PM
Flying out of Burbank airport as Jessie for the first time and did not have any of the issues like I did the last time I flew out of there. It was uneventful :)
When I got home I discovered that I had received my Law School and Undergraduate diplomas in the mail today. They have my new name. WoooHoooo!!!
Congratulations!! I can only imagine how great you feel :)
Quote from: Jessie Ann on August 06, 2015, 06:06:21 PM
Flying out of Burbank airport as Jessie for the first time and did not have any of the issues like I did the last time I flew out of there. It was uneventful :)
When I got home I discovered that I had received my Law School and Undergraduate diplomas in the mail today. They have my new name. WoooHoooo!!!
Yay! Congratulations Counselor.
I went to see my GP today, and she ordered, and I got my blood drawn for baselines to start HRT in October! So excited and scared. I was in tears sitting in the lab waiting room. I tried not to make a scene!
Quote from: Jessie Ann on August 06, 2015, 06:06:21 PM
Flying out of Burbank airport as Jessie for the first time and did not have any of the issues like I did the last time I flew out of there. It was uneventful :)
When I got home I discovered that I had received my Law School and Undergraduate diplomas in the mail today. They have my new name. WoooHoooo!!!
Congratulations Jessie :icon_bunch:
A Sephora employee told me my eyebrows looked fabulous. Means a lot to me since I'm an autodidact and only started plucking a couple of months ago. :)
Thanks ladies. Yes it was so cool to see my new name on my diplomas. I got them framed and took them into work with me today.
Congrats Sigyn. I bet you can't wait to start HRT.
Got home tonight and it was a perfect night for running. I was able to go 6.55 miles in a little over an hour.
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So much good news! Congrats ladies, one step at a time and we get to the end of a journey.
lovely!
Skiing my legs into exhaustion in very wind affected pretty funky powder.Oh and getting the car back from a frisky sideways slide on the access road.That was fun! At the end of the day I looked terrible(hair a mess,snotty face,general effects of the cold but I had the stupidest grin on my face and it didnt even matter when I reversed my car into someones bull bars at the end of the day.
Took back an awful hairpiece a friend got me as part of the starter girl package she bought for my birthday and got a nice foundation brush and powder brush. Not her fault just not my thing or hair color. Can't wait to try them! Beauty 360 bamboo handled with synthetic bristles. So soft!
Haven't had a lot of dreams for the past month but two nights in a row in my dreams I'm female in them.
I had a couple small steps the past few days. I've decided to get my ears pierced hopefully in the next two weeks. I also bought couple pairs of girl pants in person at the store. Just casual/comfy stuff! Pink with Heartbreaker down on leg and another pair that is leopard print. =D
The thing that made me happy today though was that I had a "I don't give an eff!" moment and went out in my pink pants to the store while in guy mode. It was just a little thing but I'm still taking little steps and it made me smile!
Quote from: RavenL on August 08, 2015, 10:41:53 AM
Haven't had a lot of dreams for the past month but two nights in a row in my dreams I'm female in them.
Female dreams are the best.
Forget the new brushes, Sweetie just blew my mind! I told her about them and she said to take them back, she wouldn't let me use cheap brushes.
We were on our way to the outlet center because she needed foundation from the Bare Minerals outlet. Taking the brushes back bummed me out, but I understood her point. We got there and she got help for what she needed. When she was done she told the saleswoman, "this is gonna hurt, but do you have anything to hide his beard shadow." I never expected that from her, this bothers her so much!
Quote from: KatelynBG on August 08, 2015, 01:00:33 PM
Female dreams are the best.
Only bad thing I was going on a trip to India in it. And woke up right as I arrvied.
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Went out for lunch with my mother today. A warm sunny day sitting outside a cafe. Then we went shopping for a few things for her garden in the nursery... at the checkout the woman said to us "have a nice afternoon, ladies".
It's been 18 months since I've been presenting as female in public and that never gets old.
I took my daughter out to buy back to school clothes this afernoon. We went to the store where my oldest son is one of the managers. Most of the employees know my daughter because she has been there many times. It was only my second visit. One of the employees saw us walk in and said hi xxxxx's sister. She asked if I was xxxxx's mother. My son kind of nodded yes and she goes hi xxxxx's mother. She was quickly told that I was actually his father and I am transgender and she was shocked because she was sure I was his mother. Made me feel great and feel like I am passing pretty well in public.
I am fighting urges to eat ice cream.
Successful for some time yet... it feels like a week but might be one and half.
And besides, it is Sunday... every weekend I have two days to be full time.
(https://www.susans.org/forums/gallery/0/42517-090815104150.jpeg)
Had a great time at the Rebellion punk festival, met some old mates, made some new ones, discovered new bands, ate and drank too much. A few other transgendered people there, a girl on a stall,Jenna Talia(!), the singer with Glitter Trash who is awesome(I met her after her show and she's really nice and got a photo). Another girl I met while watching UK Subs, and a very attractive F2M skinhead with his mates who fully accepted him and me. Met Vice Squad and Charlie Harper again and Jenna from Glitter Trash.
As it's my birthday today (36th) I did a pedicure on myself (https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi58.tinypic.com%2Fr1zo09.jpg&hash=3b681c2f8dc582a835c2ddf4327d81b50aa27afa)
It's the 3rd one so far and rather sloppy but at least it's something.
My parents hate this (my dad hates me doing feminine things; my mother told me last time "why do you need to put these chemicals on you").
Edit: today my Mom told me: "I'm ok with you painting your nails (toenails obviously) but please cut you fingernails".
What made me happy?
I got my blood test results today... my liver and kidneys are in the mid-normal range, and I'm no longer pre-diabetic. That means I can eat normally again! (However, because of a bad bad breakup after a torrid love affair with my old boyfriends Jim Beam and Jack Daniels, I think I'll stay away from them though.)
It is amazing the body's ability to heal with proper diet and exercise.
I will celebrate by heading to the gym... ta!~
Quote from: Sigyn on August 10, 2015, 11:45:57 AM
What made me happy?
I got my blood test results today... my liver and kidneys are in the mid-normal range, and I'm no longer pre-diabetic. That means I can eat normally again! (However, because of a bad bad breakup after a torrid love affair with my old boyfriends Jim Beam and Jack Daniels, I think I'll stay away from them though.)
It is amazing the body's ability to heal with proper diet and exercise.
I will celebrate by heading to the gym... ta!~
Good girl.. you will find you don't need that to be happy.. I used to love hydrocodone.. now if I have surgery throw away what I don't use... I used to self medicate.. way to go.. enjoy the gym and the ride.
Dodie/ AKA Keri
Women getting made because of the attention guys give me makes me happy.. as long as they don't hit..
LOL
Dodie/AKA Keri
Today I was in court as an expert witness for a case with one of my software clients that I also do IT work for. My testimony was the tipping point for him to win the case by proving the validity of an E-MAIL that the defendant (the person he was suing) claimed wasn't his. My testimony proved that he lied under oath that discredited his claims. Besides helping my client rightfully win his case, I didn't even think about wether I passed or not or if my voice was good enough. My confidence has been so good that I was only nervous about the testimony itself. My voice stayed feminine (I don't even have to think about it anymore as it just comes naturally) and the judge and attorneys just saw me as a professional woman that I am.
Just recieved my Cali ID in the mail today.
It's very empowering to finally see that little "F" there on that card. *3*
My hair still looks like s**t though in the pic, but YAY F LETTERS!
Way to go girl! Congrats!
I love seeing that F on mine when ever I have to show ID. It is very empowering!
Quote from: Trini on August 10, 2015, 04:59:01 PM
Just recieved my Cali ID in the mail today.
It's very empowering to finally see that little "F" there on that card.
Way to go Sydney! It must make you very proud to have done that. Did your status ever come up as part of a defense tactic to try to discredit you? Having testified only a couple of times before I like asking the questions much more than answering them.
Quote from: Sydney_NYC on August 10, 2015, 04:50:29 PM
Today I was in court as an expert witness for a case......the judge and attorneys just saw me as a professional woman that I am.
Affidavit of publication for my name change arrived in today's mail. Gets copied and I mail the original to the court tomorrow.
Quote from: Jessie Ann on August 10, 2015, 07:17:00 PM
Way to go Sydney! It must make you very proud to have done that. Did your status ever come up as part of a defense tactic to try to discredit you? Having testified only a couple of times before I like asking the questions much more than answering them.
It did not come up at all, they didn't even know I was trans. (Only my client knows and I blend really well.) I did all my document changes over a year ago, so there was nothing to out me to the court or defendants attorney. One of the other witnesses on the defendants side hit on me afterwards while we were waiting on the ruling. He was a creep with some anger issues and when the judge was giving her summary about the ruling, he flipped out (it was his friend that being sued and he was involved in the business arrangement that went really bad) and was thrown out of the courtroom.
It's nice to see so many people using this thread. Life is good & healing up from tummy tuck surgery. I'm looking forward to seeing my new doc in a couple of months to discuss my GRS. I kinda fell off the wagon on my Atkins diet & gained a few pounds but not too bad, I'll start back with low carb good foods soon. I've lost around 25 pounds & look pretty goood really. I'd love to lose another 15-20 pounds for a MBI of 25.
We won a multi billion dollar client today officially.
Big part was the new product I have been working on which clinched the deal.
Talk about a big win
Another client saw it and got very excited by it, called it gold.
It's been very hard work but nearly there in more than one way. ;)
Had my intake yesterday as myself at lgbt clinic and was told by my physiatrist there that as soon as I had couple appts with my therapist that they would recommend me for hormones and that she fully would support my decision for them
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The planned surgeon for my GRS is very nice. We talk quite a bit on out FB pages. She has moved to a new hospital for her GRS surgeries & all seems to be going very well. She has several patients scheduled for surgery soon. Appt. Friday for check up on my tummy tuck surgery & hope I'm healing up nicely, it's been around 3 months since surgery. Both docs think I should wait until around 6 months before any more surgery since the areas are so close. They both seem to care very much about my health & not in a hurry to preform surgery unless my body is ready. I feel good & pretty happy today.
I'm 10 months on hormones today. YAY!
I got my "letter" from my counselor today!
I went out for the first time "en femme" and got ma'amed twice today.
I had yummy Indian food!
It was a Siggy day....
I love all these great "happy girl" stories, so proud of all of you :)
Being so happy to see my guy, that his snoring didn't bother me one bit :~)
Finally got my makeup routine down and it looks great! Now just to master the dark art of eyeliner!
There was heavy traffic on my way to work today so I was riding a bit dangerously on my bicycle, weaving through the stopped cars. I decided to do a particularly stupid maneuver while running a red light and cutting off two pickup trucks. As I rode off, thinking about how foolish I had just been, I heard the customary honk of anger in my wake. Then I heard "...you crazy bitch!" Made my day!
Got a "thank you, miss!" out of an older lady I held the door of a store for. When you get "thank you, miss" while holding a door for a lady, THAT'S a red letter day!
Got my second laser on the facial hair. Stood at railway station with beard and moustache shadow enhanced with purpleness below the skin. Was not giving a damn. Notably, once they clocked me, most people move about their business. And it doesn't take long to clock me when I am like that. Sigh...
Legal name change adjudicated in court this morning at 08:40 CDT. Hooray!
Quote from: Joi on August 13, 2015, 03:34:06 PM
Legal name change adjudicated in court this morning at 08:40 CDT. Hooray!
Yay! Congratulations!
I'm having surgery with Dr. Z next month; finally getting my jaw and chin done, along with a bilateral lower blepharoplasty. :)
I'm the only guy at my level in my workplace (a bank setting) and my boss thinks he's giving me a hard time when he comes in in the morning and says "Hello ladies." He has no idea that this is sometimes the highlight of my day. (I present male and in a pretty masculine way)
My notice of name change is posted in my local paper! And only twenty six more days till court!
Came back from my doctor today, took some pre-pics for posterity, made a spreadsheet and recorded a ridiculous number of measurements to keep a running log, and finally applied my first transdermal at exactly 1600 local time.
Very, very happy girl ;)
This week I got long wanted two leather jackets and two pairs of badass pants. First time I possess female leather jackets.W00h00...
Now come the first world problems... won't wear them maybe for months because it is so hot and humid outside... but discount is what matters! ;)
Anyhow, can't wait to see end of the 'short' Amsterdam summer. I hate summers.
Coffee with honey and a chocolate croissant! First time I felt girly all day.
Scheduled FFS and breast augmentation with Dr. Lee for the end of the month. Made me one happy lady.
Voice keeps getting clearer and stronger. And undeniably feminine. I couldn't make a male voice to save my life now!
Quote from: iKate on August 14, 2015, 06:36:24 PM
Voice keeps getting clearer and stronger. And undeniably feminine. I couldn't make a male voice to save my life now!
What techniques are you using? So far mine is half coming in naturally. I know that won't get me all the way, but it's nice!
Quote from: Dee Marshall on August 14, 2015, 07:57:55 PM
What techniques are you using? So far mine is half coming in naturally. I know that won't get me all the way, but it's nice!
I had surgery
Basically everything in my life makes me happy these days :)
Quote from: Jessie Ann on August 14, 2015, 05:08:38 PM
Scheduled FFS and breast augmentation with Dr. Lee for the end of the month. Made me one happy lady.
Good luck with your facial surgery, it will take time to heal up so be patient after surgery. I had a complete face lift & upper eye lid surgery last summer. Now I look very nice now however it took 2 maybe 3 months for all swelling & nerve feelings to return. Take care.
Watching Cloverfield movie again. :) I like that movie.
Trying 7 day Climara patches again today, I so hope they do not itch since I have such a supply. Learning to cook better, such nice FB pages & women friends that follow the Atkins way of eating. It's such a great "diet" to lose extra fat & eat very good low carb foods. Life is good for me today, happy girl.
Thanks Francis Ann. I'm only doing hairline lowering, brow lift and orbital bone shaving. I know it will take some time to heal which is why I scheduled it for now so I will be ready for the holidays. The downside is I will not be able to run for a few weeks while the BA pocket heals.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on August 15, 2015, 05:24:55 AM
Good luck with your facial surgery, it will take time to heal up so be patient after surgery. I had a complete face lift & upper eye lid surgery last summer. Now I look very nice now however it took 2 maybe 3 months for all swelling & nerve feelings to return. Take care.
My hair is long and thick enough in the back for a ponytail. :)
Watched If I Stay. Such a sad movie, had a good cry, but still really enjoyed it.
Quote from: AmandaMarie on August 15, 2015, 11:19:28 PM
My hair is long and thick enough in the back for a ponytail. :)
OMG, you lucky girl. Mine is so thin I'm going to have to join Hairclub for Women & have transplants. Thanks for your post & good luck letting it grow long & pretty.
Went outside for first time as me
Scared as heck
Quote from: Jenny07 on August 16, 2015, 06:14:19 AM
Went outside for first time as me
Scared as heck
Brave girl. :) Just relax, it is good for your health.
Quote from: Martine A. on August 16, 2015, 06:37:52 AM
Brave girl. :) Just relax, it is good for your health.
This +1 :)
Quote from: FrancisAnn on August 16, 2015, 03:36:55 AM
OMG, you lucky girl. Mine is so thin I'm going to have to join Hairclub for Women & have transplants. Thanks for your post & good luck letting it grow long & pretty.
My is thin too, however what I do have in back is enough for a baby ponytail and is enough to stay in place. I probably will wear it in a ponytail at home but not out.
Quote from: AmandaMarie on August 16, 2015, 08:34:43 AM
My is thin too, however what I do have in back is enough for a baby ponytail and is enough to stay in place. I probably will wear it in a ponytail at home but not out.
I'm sure you do but take lots of biotin, 5,000 level that may help you. It's just not fair sometimes, I would love thick long hair! Oh me. Otherwise I look pretty good & I'm so glad to be female. Good luck.
My AS level results aren't as bad as I first thought they were so that's a bonus
Quote from: Jenny07 on August 16, 2015, 06:14:19 AM
Went outside for first time as me
Scared as heck
Congratulations! :) :) :) ...How do you feel now?
went to Target , hit the clearance sale rack, above the knee thin strapped dress. Psychedelic colors.
Lovely anniversary dinner, celebrating 7 years with my wife! Her first anniversary with her wife, and we're both happy! :D
Quote from: sparrow on August 16, 2015, 09:44:52 PM
Lovely anniversary dinner, celebrating 7 years with my wife! Her first anniversary with her wife, and we're both happy! :D
This makes me smile so much.
Happy Anniversary to you both!
This should really be "what made me happy yesterday" but I'm still smiling about it.
My wife and I went to the State Fair here yesterday and all day it was "How are you today ladies?" "Can i help you ma'am?" "Excuse me ladies" etc etc. .....
What a wonderful day spent with my best friend in the whole world, plenty of sunshine and just being us. :D
Lovely Emjay, such a wonderful post xx
Happy Anniversary Sparrow xx
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OK now for me...
At last a positive outcome for me on the income front! Yay
Just received the second and preferred role offer package from a multi-national IT co... which I will accept!
My journey is re-started, will need to serve the 6 month probation as before (drab MM :'() but hey 6 months and a couple of big wins will set me up there and will fly past... :eusa_dance:
There is now one more personal obstacle to get over... more on that later!
Katy (a very, very happy one) ;D ;D ;D
Follow up appt. with my plastic surgeon today after lipo & tummy tuck surgery 3 months ago. I'm healing very well. Face lift & some facial FFS surgery last year & this summer. I think it's time for dermabrasion for my face to have a much smoother completion. My doc has mentioned it to me a couple of times when I'm ready. Now I seem ready. I'm so happy to be a much nicer attractive looking woman. My doc & all his nurses & staff have helped me so much.
Saw a woman I worked with when I first started this job at the beginning of my break. Sat down to chat a bit and see were soon joined by two other women I work with. We had a wonderful chat about one's new handbag. It's wonderful to be accepted!
Hi I went to the Theatre to see a show with the Wife at the interval I needed the Toilet stood there in a Queue of about 40 ladies no makeup only in slacks and a shirt type blouse and not one funny look I think I am Passing hurray ,especially as my wife asked me to tone things Down as We where there with Her Friend from work that she has not told her about my transition HE hE He
Had my 3 month post srs check up today, everything went well
Quote from: Jenny07 on August 16, 2015, 06:14:19 AM
Went outside for first time as me
Scared as heck
Finally!!!!
Well done young lady. Congrats.
Quote from: Jenny07 on August 16, 2015, 06:14:19 AM
Went outside for first time as me
Scared as heck
So, purple hair and a white cami? :D
Seriously though - well done, brava!
Saw my endo. We're both reasonably happy with my progress. He was willing to up my dose, but I told him not yet. I want to give Sweetie a little more time to adjust. Boob are busting out all over won't help her with that and I get gendered correctly often enough to soothe my ego. Asked for my letters. He said driver's license and passport are easy enough, but the birth certificate needs a notary. I told him I don't need that one. My birth state has more stringent requirements. I asked him what I needed to do to get the letters (I hear that some doctors charge) and he said "you just did it, you asked."
Having pancakes tonight, so I stopped and got sausages. I got them for free! The package was labeled $3.49, but they scanned at $4.39. Someone has dyslexia!
after months of arguing with my father he finally let me start taking estrogen
Congrats Haily
Quote from: Hailey zy on August 18, 2015, 03:34:32 PM
after months of arguing with my father he finally let me start taking estrogen
Manicure and pedicure.
A bit cold but a nice day, got the bus to Poulton, had a look around, pigged out on junk food, got the next one across the river to Knott End and ferry back to Fleetwood and tram ride home. had a great Chinese and an early night
My mother finally told me that I am pretty. Wow . It was a power punch in a good way.
Cindi
Congrats Cindi. Nothing feels better than that. Hugs
Mariah
Talked to HR at work today about me... Went well, but he seems to understand why I was planning on not transitioning there on the job. The place has the descrimination atmosphere that rivals the 1950s. He sounded excited about the whole thing though and seems very supportive and optimistic.
Half the people at work could probably knock out a rhinoceros with a left hook and then carry it home. It felt good to know I have an advocate at work.
Quote from: katrinaw on August 17, 2015, 05:08:58 AM
OK now for me...
At last a positive outcome for me on the income front! Yay
Just received the second and preferred role offer package from a multi-national IT co... which I will accept!
My journey is re-started, will need to serve the 6 month probation as before (drab MM :'() but hey 6 months and a couple of big wins will set me up there and will fly past... :eusa_dance:
There is now one more personal obstacle to get over... more on that later!
Katy (a very, very happy one) ;D ;D ;D
Woot! - congratulations Katy! You've been waiting for this to happen for a while now with everything at a pause, - so the very best of luck for the future and your continuing journey :icon_bunch:
Congrats Katy. Hugs
Mariah
Quote from: katrinaw on August 17, 2015, 05:08:58 AM
Lovely Emjay, such a wonderful post xx
Happy Anniversary Sparrow xx
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OK now for me...
At last a positive outcome for me on the income front! Yay
Just received the second and preferred role offer package from a multi-national IT co... which I will accept!
My journey is re-started, will need to serve the 6 month probation as before (drab MM :'() but hey 6 months and a couple of big wins will set me up there and will fly past... :eusa_dance:
There is now one more personal obstacle to get over... more on that later!
Katy (a very, very happy one) ;D ;D ;D
So I honestly had a crappy day yesterday, bringing my daughter to different ERs. But I did have a dental cleaning and the conversation I had with the hygienist was just lovely. One of the ways I used to deny my dysphoria was by being a total slob. Chew fingernails, eat everything in sight, lack dental hygiene. I figured if I was grotesque enough, I'd lose all hope of becoming a woman. Well 10 months ago I beat the fingernail thing, then 8 months ago I changed my nutritional and exercise regimen and have lost 80 lbs. These last few months I've really concentrated on my dental health (for a pretty smile, right?)
Well I discussed this with the hygienist and she said that she is a nail biter and she hates it. So I showed her my nails and she goes "OH I want nails like yours!!!" I, of course made a gender joke about not wanting to hear that as a dude (hi defense mechanism, nice to see you again), but on the inside I literally swooned. It was the highlight of my week seriously.
Quote from: katrinaw on August 17, 2015, 05:08:58 AM
Lovely Emjay, such a wonderful post xx
Happy Anniversary Sparrow xx
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OK now for me...
At last a positive outcome for me on the income front! Yay
Just received the second and preferred role offer package from a multi-national IT co... which I will accept!
My journey is re-started, will need to serve the 6 month probation as before (drab MM :'() but hey 6 months and a couple of big wins will set me up there and will fly past... :eusa_dance:
There is now one more personal obstacle to get over... more on that later!
Katy (a very, very happy one) ;D ;D ;D
Working in Sydney, Katy? Or a roving role? I'm sure you do much more than say - "have you tried turning it off, then on again?" ;)
Had my first full face laser session today, and was surprised to find it wasn't nearly as bad as I had imagined even though they zapped me at a moderate-to-high power setting.
Also found that two spots on the chin and jawline were worse than the upper lip, which after what Ive read of other people's experiences made me very happy indeed!
Did my pre-surgery facial x-ray and EKG today. Picked up my post surgery prescriptions which I will get filled tonight. Looks like everything is a go for my FFS and breast augmentation surgery a week from Monday. I have another 2 tech 6 hour electrolysis session scheduled for Saturday. I am happy to be getting these items done and putting me closer to the time when all I have to do is live my life.
Today had went out with my mother shopping and went to beauty salon after buying some girl clothes that really made my day :laugh: Had my eyebrows plucked.
Eating eggplant for the first time. Loving it!
I stopped in Portland for lunch on my way to visit my brother in WA, then I noticed more and more people looking at me like more than normal. Before I got too paranoid I went to the bathroom to double check that I didn't have something embarrassing going on. I realized it was positivish (from men not women) attention after double checking. I'm well put together with a new skirt, sensible heels and simple v-neck, sans makeup so I didn't expect attention. I guess I'm not used to the looks you get for wearing pretty skirts. :-/
Hugs,
- Katie
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I met some friends for beer this evening and they want me to start showing up as me. They also wanted to to know when they could properly pronoun me, which is of course forever ago.
Still, it felt sweet to have friends both encouraging and supporting me. Next week when I see them I'll be me.
I also set up appointments to get my name/gender change work underway. Very exciting times for me.
I sent my first email to HR about an hour ago to start the process of coming out.
Made me happy today: Check!
Scared s--tless? CHECK!
Much more happy than scared though. . :)
Well, today I got to arrange a time to hang out with a friend and dress how I wish I could in public! Really exciting, can't wait till the 'date' ehe.
Got my labwork back and found that my testosterone is only at 20 pre-hrt. I guess I can stop worrying about it destroying my body now.
Quote from: Emjay on August 19, 2015, 11:07:09 PM
I sent my first email to HR about an hour ago to start the process of coming out.
Made me happy today: Check!
Scared s--tless? CHECK!
Much more happy than scared though. . :)
Congratulations- it's a really exciting time......even with the butterflies!
Quote from: Obfuskatie on August 19, 2015, 03:28:22 PM
I guess I'm not used to the looks you get for wearing pretty skirts. :-/
Pretty skirts are just about the best thing in the whole world. Hee hee
Had more eggplant today.
Quote from: Martine A. on August 20, 2015, 01:31:51 PM
Had more eggplant today.
I'm actually not sure if I've ever had eggplant. Would you suggest it for someone who doesn't like kale or squash? (Best two things I could think of that I don't like that are similar to eggplant as far as I know lol :icon_dance: )
Today I had WAY too much candy and now I feel slightly sick and am having a sugar crash. Crap.
A day full of win.
Called "ma'am" by everyone without even asking, it's just automatic now for people.
Yesterday I went to visit a friend who owns an auto repair shop and he was not there. The other guy who owns the place and has another auto repair business there told him today,"this skinny Indian girl was looking for you."
One of the camp coordinators at my kids summer camp told me that I always wear the nicest outfits. However I had recently explained the trans thing to them.
And I'm 2 months post op from Yeson.
Went to a community meeting this morning - no make up or " shaving", and no stress out. Truth is I look generally more female now, so no one's doing that "working out" business when they look at you - not so much that I notice anyway.
Getting another mega session of electrolysis done today. Somewhere between 6 and 7 hours with 2 techs. That will make a total of 45-47 hours done. Half way point?
Oooooo eek pain! You're a braver woman than I am Jessie :o
I had a much better tennis game today. It has not been going too well in the last few weeks. My serve was hot! Still playing with the men, but I don't know for how much longer. If my breasts start to develop, I will have to make a decision. Not out at the club!
At the mall a gentleman held the door for me and did the "ladies first" gesture for me. It's such a small thing but made me feel really good.
Quote from: Jessie Ann on August 22, 2015, 09:50:56 AM
Getting another mega session of electrolysis done today. Somewhere between 6 and 7 hours with 2 techs. That will make a total of 45-47 hours done. Half way point?
One word: Ouch! !!!
I'm about 85 hours in but you're going to pass me in no time with sessions like that, I can't take more than an hour at a time. I've tried two hour sessions a few times and just can't lay there that long!
Awesome work, keep it up! :D
Yesterday I got in touch with so many new people. After a highly dysphoric week, it felt so soothing to talk to new people and reaffirm connections with those I already knew.
This past week has been really nice, nothing super eventful really, just my girlfriend moved into a new place she'll be staying in for the next 6-10 months (She'll be moving in next summer/February! So excited!) and so now she FINALLY has actual internet. We're in a LDR, but we still communicated by messaging on Facebook and stuff, but now we can Skype and play games together again and it's such a wonderful privilege.
I also went to see my dentist and he gave me some stuff so I could fix my tooth pain (He also told me i'll need to get all my wisdom teeth removed when they grow in because my mouth is too small but I digress.) And I get to meet my new HRT endocrinologist this tuesday (old doctor retired :( ) So yeah I had a pretty awesome week. :)
This week, and last week I've been getting out in my community and socializing. Apparently, I have a lot of good things to say, and have been invited to help run the local chapter of PFLAG here in austin, and also to help with TENT(transgender Education Network of Texas) although that latter one isn't any kind of official stance, I feel really good about getting out and hopefully making an impact for Trans people in my area :D
I'm sure happy for liquid polish removal stuff even if it is non acetone based which is nicer for my nails. I tried again some gold glitter type Fair Maiden polish last night & this morning, yuck. Such ugly polish. I'll be a happy girl for a nice pretty color simple nail polish.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on August 23, 2015, 06:04:57 AM
I'm sure happy for liquid polish removal stuff even if it is non acetone based which is nicer for my nails. I tried again some gold glitter type Fair Maiden polish last night & this morning, yuck. Such ugly polish. I'll be a happy girl for a nice pretty color simple nail polish.
I like "Paint the town" from maybeline. I get complimented alot on it too.
You can't tell i'm MTF but yesterday a transwoman ticked me on the shoulders and said everything will be ok. :)
(omg she and her hubby were too cute also)
I have an idea for leaving the house so i'm going to call a therapist on monday and get this thing kicking before I realize how much of my life i've wasted!!!!
Learned today that my new name & gender are now official at the Veterans Admin. Going Tuesday to get a new pic. & official U. S. Government ID.
Got my new eyebrow scissors today. I was in such a trouble after I lost ones I had before. Now I can decently work on my eyebrows again!
Didn't realize that today has been thirty days since I've gone full time. Seems just like last week I was walking into work for the first time. Only now do I realize I don't look into a mirror every so often or worry as much.
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And today is my last day of work. Off until the end of Oct. w00t!
After trying to get Verizon to change my name for a year, they finally straightened out my name and have it corrected everywhere. Someone higher up finally got it done after they messed it up for so long. The issue was that they have 3 different systems for billing and accounts plus the wireless division. (I have the all-in-one billing with Internet/TV and wireless on one bill with a bundle discount.) They also had outsourced parts of their system as well. The was the last thing with my old name on it that's active.
Awesome on the name change Sydney. I am starting that process now myself. Lots of paperwork.
Today I notified HR that I plan to go full time at the start of November. For some reason they need 3 months notice though the HR person didn't know why either. Everything went cool and so far management has been supportive.
What made me happy? Opening the mail after 18 months of having to explain myself, and sending my Fifth Amended Packet of Information to some nebulous 'moral character committee', and reading the first paragraph:
"The Committee on Character and Fitness has concluded the review of your application and determined you have satisfied admission standards. Accordingly, the Committee has recommended you to the practice of law in Arizona, and membership in the State Bar of Arizona."
From a couple of weeks ago now but getting new boobs. My old breast forms were bought about 20 years ago and are a bit too small for my build.
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That is incredible news!! Congrats girl!!
Quote from: Sigyn on August 24, 2015, 09:44:35 PM
What made me happy? Opening the mail after 18 months of having to explain myself, and sending my Fifth Amended Packet of Information to some nebulous 'moral character committee', and reading the first paragraph:
"The Committee on Character and Fitness has concluded the review of your application and determined you have satisfied admission standards. Accordingly, the Committee has recommended you to the practice of law in Arizona, and membership in the State Bar of Arizona."
This guy in front of me in line at a coffee place told the cashier he'd buy her orange, I was standing next in line with my orange.
Just realized that my FFS and breast augmentation scheduled for next Monday will be on my HRT 6 month anniversary date. I can't believe that the time has gone by so quickly and that I have changed so much in that time. Every morning I look in the mirror and I can hardly believe it is me.
I was Watching a Cameron Diaz film and noticed I had bigger BOOB'S then her that made me happy LOL
I sold 2 expensive bottles of glitter type nail polish to a nice woman in Nebraska, far far away from my State. Payment from her that I asked was for her to do something very nice for someone she meets, completley at random.
A little late but Sunday I went swimming in a one piece swimsuit and just that, nothing covering the top or bottom for the first time. :)
Hi AmandaMarie feels nice in a one Piece cossie though doesn't it one day I would love to try a bikini LOL.I was in a Pool with quite a few of our extended family weekend and for Many of them this was the first time they knew about my Transition but Luckily it went OK
Got myself new scarf and new sweater. Grayish-siverish combination. Tried multiple sweaters before I choose one, no probs going into ladies space to try them on.
Gained 6kg weight. Happy about it because my B.M.I was always underweight. Was just too skinny for my taste. Now I can't stop cuddling myself in bed, playing with my extra soft fat. LOL.
I have some spare fat for you, can I ship it international? ;)
Quote from: KatelynBG on August 25, 2015, 06:28:07 PM
I have some spare fat for you, can I ship it international? ;)
Seriously! If you've recently lost weight, let me know, I think I found it!
I was kind of joking around with a couple of the ladies I work with and I told them that this all hasn't been working out as planned and I was going to go back to being male. They both emphatically cried out "oh no your not" and "don't you dare." I got such a warm feeling knowing how much they love the female me and how well I have transitioned and become one of them. They told me that I am a more complete individual and have a glow and happiness about me that has been a joy to watch develop.
It has been a wonderful birthday! I look at as my 1st! My wife bought me a beautiful 'pink' card and pink carnations as well as a pair of beautiful ear rings! Made me cry when she gave them to me. I have never given my birthday any notice before. Now, I a very positive about the future.
It's not raining and I got a cute backpack :D
Laughed myself silly when my wife said "After your surgery how am I going to get the Christmas Tree out of the loft?"
My child has been in the hospital all week and I finally got out for a morning run. I poured all my frustrations and stresses into this run and ended up going at a faster pace over 5 miles than my fastest 2 mile pace. Made me very happy. Everytime I run, I am running towards Katelyn.
Hi Jemfry, welcome to Susan's. I look forward to seeing you around the forums. Good luck and hugs
Mariah
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Quote from: jemfry on August 28, 2015, 01:57:51 PM
Laughed myself silly when my wife said "After your surgery how am I going to get the Christmas Tree out of the loft?"
Within this hour I scheduled appointment with my GP to discuss and take first steps regarding my gender dysphoria. Such a small step, but now it is rolling.
ITSSSSSS FRIDAY and i passed my first test for my "A" school
Completed all my pre-op consults and paid the Dr and surgical center bills. Everything is a go for FFS and BA on Monday morning. For FFS I am getting a hairline advancement, upper eye lid blepharoplasty, brow bone reduction, forehead contouring and brow lift. For BA I am going with Mentor Memory Gel Moderate Plus Profile smooth shelled in 500 cc size. With my frame and build that should give me a small C cup. So getting everything but the waiting done made me happy.
Jessie Ann, Good luck.
Thanks Mariah! I'm starting to get nervous. This is going to be a long weekend for me. I only hope Dr. Lee can do for me at least a little of what he did for Caitlyn Jenner. At least I hope I won't feel self conscious about wearing lower cut blouses and shirts and worry if my fake boobs are going to fall out onto the floor.
Quote from: Mariah2014 on August 28, 2015, 07:03:45 PM
Jessie Ann, Good luck.
Bought a lace wig a week ago. Not happy with it, but the fact is when I wear it & the make up, nobody is clocking me. Now and then I'd get a glance or a check out, but that is not clocking!
Just stood in the middle of a market and posted on FB to share how it feels to pass. I can only dream what hrt and better wigs will do for me. In addition to persistent lasering.
Went in to "The city" (Phoenix) to do some errands.
Went to the Aveda Institute in Phoenix and got a cut, style, and mini-facial. I was thinking they would have to cut off about 6-8 inches, but they only had to cut off 2 inches for my hair. It felt SOOOOO good, I can see why spa days are so addicting.
My coworker just said, "Wow you are really fascinated with gender, aren't you?"
If she only knew.
Also, maybe time to bro it up a touch. Sigh
Managed to partially figure out my jeans size. I've got the waist down, now I just need to figure out inseam.
Male fashion was drab, dull, and depressing... but it was at least the measurements made sense.
So I asked my daughter if she had seen the I am Cait show yet. She said "why would I watch that when I am living in the I am Jess show." Gotta love my kids.
So this one is very personal for me and I'm tearing up from joy while typing
I have several family members that are reacting fairly negatively and I am worried about how one of my friends went silent. I was talking to my wife about it and she looks at me and says,
"Don't worry, you will always have me."
So yea, I'm crying right now.
That is so sweet :icon_hug:
Quote from: Jessie Ann on August 29, 2015, 10:04:05 PM
So I asked my daughter if she had seen the I am Cait show yet. She said "why would I watch that when I am living in the I am Jess show." Gotta love my kids.
That is so delightful Jessie ;D
My wife and I were at a party last night and a woman I had not seen in 10 years walks in but knew my wife and I very well. She had been battling cancer but right now it's in remission and the doctors think they got it all. Anyway, I was in the kitchen helping out our hostess with prepping food and my wife was in the back yard talking with others. She didn't recognized me and walked backed towards the yard after talking to several other people. She goes to the back yard and sees my wife wondering where I am because we are always together at these types of parties. She knew I had transitioned and then it dawned on her who I was.
She then comes back into the kitchen and apologizes for not recognizing me as she just thought I was one of our hostesses girlfriends and I looked familiar. I told that it was a compliment and not to worry. She commented on how good at looked and asked if I have voice surgery because it was so good. I told her I had not had any surgeries yet and she was shocked. Plus it was a great party :)
Quote from: Sydney_NYC on August 30, 2015, 10:13:58 PM
My wife and I were at a party last night and a woman I had not seen in 10 years walks in but knew my wife and I very well. She had been battling cancer but right now it's in remission and the doctors think they got it all. Anyway, I was in the kitchen helping out our hostess with prepping food and my wife was in the back yard talking with others. She didn't recognized me and walked backed towards the yard after talking to several other people. She goes to the back yard and sees my wife wondering where I am because we are always together at these types of parties. She knew I had transitioned and then it dawned on her who I was.
She then comes back into the kitchen and apologizes for not recognizing me as she just thought I was one of our hostesses girlfriends and I looked familiar. I told that it was a compliment and not to worry. She commented on how good at looked and asked if I have voice surgery because it was so good. I told her I had not had any surgeries yet and she was shocked. Plus it was a great party :)
I think you look and sound great, based on the last time I saw you.
I normally get Indian food from a place 2 blocks from work. They know me. They don't know I transitioned.
I went there to order, and I was instantly greeted with, "yes, ma'am." They didn't recognize me at all. Then I asked them at the end if they knew who I was, and then it clicked, they said, no way! Congratulations!
Honestly though, being gendered female now is the default. I haven't been called "sir" or anything male in a long while. The only people who make mistakes are those familiar with me such as my colleagues but they tend to make fewer mistakes now. And passing is pretty much a given. Nobody really seems to tag me as anything but a woman. Even without makeup and my hair pulled back. Strangers at work (TV and other guests) treat me like they would any other woman, usual ladies first, holding doors open etc. And that's something given where I work and the guests we have!
At 9 months on HRT though, I don't expect any less.
Costco. Went to pick up some pads (for my wife). A parent and his kid were getting diapers.
Kid: "Daddy why is that lady buying those diapers?"
Dad: "Those aren't diapers, honey. They're for mommies so they can stay clean."
Put a smile on my face.
Finally went to a gender therapist the other day... It was truly amazing to be able to share my thoughts and feelings with a therapist and not be mocked. She was very understanding, and is setting me on the path to HRT...
The last therapist I had thought I had an amazing imagination...
It felt so good to be taken seriously
I've been home for a few hours and I think the surgery went well. I have a follow up tomorrow so I should get a better idea of how my FFS went. I can see improvement even though I am brushed and swollen. So happy to have done this
A friend took me bra shopping since my old ones weren't fitting well anymore, I bought a 38D and it is actualy comfortable, so looks like I am really out of the C cup territory now, which is amazing to me, I never really expected the results I have got so far.
My wife and I went out to dinner tonight to celebrate our 41st anniversary. All evening, from the time we were shown to our table to paying our bill, our server referred to us as 'ladies' - 'How are you ladies this evening? 'Are you ladies ready to order?' etc. It was great. When I toasted my wife, I was in tears. All I could think of is - 'I sure hope this continues!'.
38D? Nice!
My happy thing for today was after I went up to a bar where my wife and son were waiting. Even though I was dressed as a male the bartender looked at me and said, "What can I get you ma'am?"
I love it when that happens... Guess the hormones and facial hair removal have been working.
Quote from: Jessie Ann on August 31, 2015, 09:37:56 PM
I've been home for a few hours and I think the surgery went well. I have a follow up tomorrow so I should get a better idea of how my FFS went. I can see improvement even though I am brushed and swollen. So happy to have done this
Rest up Jessie, - I'm glad everything went well :D
9 months HRT today.
36A kinda still fits, but the band hovers over my chest. 34B is better. May be time for a C soon.
So after my therapy appointment today I drove to Target and got the cutest Marron dress (my favorite color). I have tacit approval from my wife to dress in private. I'm just sitting here wearing my new dress and I haven't been this happy in months. It fits perfectly and it's just too cute.
Had a nice conversation over lunch with an ex-pat Israeli woman whom I met when I asked to join her at her table about our children, spouses, careers, hopes and dreams.
Quote from: Jessie Ann on August 31, 2015, 09:37:56 PM
I've been home for a few hours and I think the surgery went well. I have a follow up tomorrow so I should get a better idea of how my FFS went. I can see improvement even though I am brushed and swollen. So happy to have done this
Congratulations! I'm glad everything went well; take care. :)
Had another! (In some ways it's been a good day.) I noticed some AFABs who seemed to have about the same build as me, including the shoulders. Even if they're really trans they pass completely, so I'm happy. I needed that today!
Quote from: iKate on September 01, 2015, 09:50:58 AM
9 months HRT today.
36A kinda still fits, but the band hovers over my chest. 34B is better. May be time for a C soon.
Awesome. I'm starting to get there. 38C's are starting to fit me better then 40B's but my under chest measurement is 40 and a B cup so sister size seems to fit be better.
Quote from: Sydney_NYC on September 01, 2015, 06:23:08 PM
Awesome. I'm starting to get there. 38C's are starting to fit me better then 40B's but my under chest measurement is 40 and a B cup so sister size seems to fit be better.
Also, passing is so effortless now I even surprise myself. Even on my worst days I'm never called sir or referred to as anything male.
To be honest the excitement of passing is all gone, and it's just life going on as usual now. This is fine. I always wanted to reach the stage of not worrying.
So many things I can say went well today. First went to gender therapist to discuss plan of attack for coming out at work , change of birth cert and drivers lic. Second got a manicure and a pretty peach color on nails.... first time I got pampered and let some one else do it. Finally went for dinner with sister and aunt, was mam'ed and ladied to my hearts content by the more than friendly waitress, and had a man smile and open the door for me. It was a day I will remember till the next time I get Sirred. lol
I spontaneously decided to come out to my mom last night, and she didn't completely lose her mind. I can't say she's going to be supportive of it, but she's not disowning me.
Oh, and she just had to try on my wig. Lol...
Here is a few post FFS pics. I can already see the changes Dr. Lee made to my forehead and brows. I can't wait for the swelling and bruising to go down, I'm sure I will love the final results.
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Oh you poor thing Jessie, you look like you've been in a fight :o
Heal and rest up and keep on smiling, - I'm sure you are going to look great once the bruising fades away.
Mother just decided to give me some of her less-used clothes, including a skirt and even a freaking bra.
And then taught me how to make it all into a proper outfit. Added some make-up, and some hair-care, and....
Result: Feeling (and looking!) like a total hottie.
Easily the best I've ever felt.
Listening to some good music. When ever i am down and blue or just want to get lost for a while, i listen to music, it always brings me around. One of my favorite lyrics is
"its only castles burning, find someone thats turning, and you will come around".
Wow, Jessie, I liked to see the other person in that fight. Seriously, the work looks good and I think you're going to look great when you heal. Congratulations!
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Yesterday, as stated in another thread, I got my hormones. But another good thing happened. My dad got to meet Charlotte for the first time. I was nervous, but he gave me the biggest hug he's given me in a long time. It felt so good. He's going to be able to accept me as his daughter. And as I'm writing this, I'm about to cry.
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Quote from: FreyasRedemption on September 02, 2015, 10:01:39 AM
Mother just decided to give me some of her less-used clothes, including a skirt and even a freaking bra.
And then taught me how to make it all into a proper outfit. Added some make-up, and some hair-care, and....
Result: Feeling (and looking!) like a total hottie.
Easily the best I've ever felt.
It is so awesome to have that kind of support from your mom. :)
Congrats girl. My dad still hasn't met Jessie and he's still calling me by my birth name. At least he called to see how I was doing after surgery. I'm very happy that your dad is supportive. Hugs!
Quote from: ChiGirl on September 02, 2015, 10:34:44 AM
Yesterday, as stated in another thread, I got my hormones. But another good thing happened. My dad got to meet Charlotte for the first time. I was nervous, but he gave me the biggest hug he's given me in a long time. It felt so good. He's going to be able to accept me as his daughter. And as I'm writing this, I'm about to cry.
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Ditto.
Quote from: kittenpower on September 02, 2015, 10:57:52 AM
It is so awesome to have that kind of support from your mom. :)
Quote from: Jessie Ann on September 02, 2015, 12:18:29 PM
Congrats girl. My dad still hasn't met Jessie and he's still calling me by my birth name. At least he called to see how I was doing after surgery. I'm very happy that your dad is supportive. Hugs!
Well, I did first come out to him when I was 19, so he has had 20 years to digest it.
It's good your dad called. Shows that he cares.
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Had a checkup with my endo today, I haven't seen him in six months and this was the first time he has seen me with makeup on.
When he walked into the room he took one look at me and said "WOWWWWWW! You look great!" Always a good sign, I guess I've changed some.
We also talked about having my gender marker changed since he will have to write a letter of recommendation for it here. He looked at me and said that it would "certainly be appropriate now" to do so!
I was having kind of a down day today but that was an awesome affirmation. Thanks Doc! :D
Wonderful, Emjay!
I received a note from my son today. He wants to take me to lunch tomorrow. That's a big deal for me.
Cindi
Today I had positive conversations with both of my parents that did not turn into uncomfortable discussions about my transition or gender identity. This is a first since I came out.
I reached 15 posts so I get to have my picture right...
<==== here.
Sometimes it's the little things. :)
I found out today that I'll have my second letter for surgery a week from tomorrow! ;D
Finally being able to see how I can confirm my being trans, and coming up with a convincing-my-parents plan.
I'm happy knowing i help three people going through emotional stress. Also that my puppy has been so kissy today and energetic and the cute face my kitty's give me. I'm happy that i can make others smile and laugh.
First day of hormones!
Congrats Emileeeee! Enjoy the journey!
Woooohooo welcome to the E class of 2015!
Quote from: Emileeeee on September 03, 2015, 02:44:02 PM
First day of hormones!
Tomatoes transplanted in the garden, let's see who lives... the pests or the plants!
My first formal holding the door open for me today. Kind of funny it happened on the same day as coming back here. I was getting out of my truck dressed pretty nice and I noticed a guy standing on the outside of the business door, but not going in. I noticed he was looking in my direction but I guess I must have thought he was looking past me toward someone else. As I approached he opened door and as I walked up to it I said "Why thank you", and he said "Your welcome my lady". I uh, well I think I just said thanks again and walked in, but my mind was all over the freakin map ;D. Guys are not my thing so it was not that type of sensation, but it did feel good in a couple ways. Interesting experience.
Going clothes shopping in Cardiff ;D
3 days post FFS and I got to put some makeup on. It kinda hides the under eye bruising.
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I found a really cool beauty tip: Sea water is the ultimate hair untangler!! My hair takes 20 minutes to untangle with a brush and conditioner sometimes in the shower (haven't found a better way yet). After working out, I went to the ocean today. I went home and brushed my damp hair with a normal brush right before I jumped into the shower. Not 1 single snag. I love it lol
I went by the Collen-Lorde Pharmacy today to pick up the vial of Delestrogen they forgot last time. Normally they give you two vials at a time and when I got home last time I had only one. It was also my last refill that would have lasted me until October (my next HRT appointment in late September) if I had two, but I only received one last month so I only enough till this weekend. I called and was told the policy had been changed to one vial at a time. (Which lasts me 5 weeks.) I was upset because the receipt indicated all my refills were used when I should have had one vial left. So they told me they would update my account and one would be ready when its time.
Today when I picked it up, they gave me the 2nd vial free of charge since it should have been included with my co-pay last month. So now I have plenty to get me through till my HRT appointment and it didn't cost me anything extra like I thought it was going to. :)
At my art evening class yesterday I was printing some woodcuts and linocuts that I had done and they just came out really well.It really is such a pleasing medium and I'm learning lots.
Getting a makeover! http://imgur.com/QTGyeVV
I got wolf whistled in the mall parking lot.
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Was contacted by a agent for a new Job. Am perfect for the role.
They have been looking so 6 months plus. Saw it advertised late last year but was too busy.
Now after the recent shenanigans at work I am now interested.
Going to push for top dollar as I am so worth it nothing less.
Will be interesting next week.
Since a few days ago, I reached point of being confident about my voice.
Now I am able to start talking with it without preparation. It is at a pitch that is still comfy so I can talk as much as I like.
It is of course still work in progress, and I hope to rise the pitch with time. But it is certainly not a male voice anymore.
I went out dressed as the really me for the first time! ;D
Quote from: Hailey zy on September 04, 2015, 05:17:18 PM
I went out dressed as the really me for the first time! ;D
Congratulations Hailey! It's an amazing feeling isn't it?
My wife is coming home early from work today so we can spend the evening together!!!!!!!
We work different shifts and our time together is so limited, every moment is precious...
Can't wait to see my best friend! :D
Did a solid 38 minute run today on the treadmill. kept my heart rate just under anaerobic level.
"It's just not the life I want to live..."
"Then do something about it!"
<3
Best day in I don't remember when. Let the girl I've kept locked up for decades out of the box and went to therapists in full on girl mode ! Therapist was overjoyed that I did that and asked me why. Told her I thought it was about time she met the real me. She was super complimentry of my appearance and we had a good laugh when I told her "she was just saying that because I'm paying her" It felt so good being me and the session went super well. May be hard putting the "genie" back in the bottle.
Found large size colorful Fitbit bands for my Fitbit. Now I have great fashion colors to go with just about any outfit.
Quote from: Jessie Ann on September 04, 2015, 10:13:09 PM
Found large size colorful Fitbit bands for my Fitbit. Now I have great fashion colors to go with just about any outfit.
OMG, dish! I need a gold-tone band for my fitbit Charge HR.
Quote from: Hailey zy on September 04, 2015, 05:17:18 PM
I went out dressed as the really me for the first time! ;D
Congrats!
I posted this on my FB page but I shall do so here as well.
Strange life I live. I'm never in stealth, no way is that possible and to be honest I don't want to be. I'm rather proud of being me. I'm proud of my fight.
I gave a seminar today, a girl; no, she is now a woman, I use to employ came to me afterwards. She gave me both hands to hold. Open palms.
Loving.
Accepting.
She said something, 'you look wonderful' it wasn't what she she wanted to say - I could tell. She paused 'You don't have the pain in your eyes, I always saw your pain, and I never knew.'
Thank you Olivia. Love you.
Step by step we are accepted
Quote from: Cindy on September 05, 2015, 04:14:30 AM
I posted this on my FB page but I shall do so here as well.
Strange life I live. I'm never in stealth, no way is that possible and to be honest I don't want to be. I'm rather proud of being me. I'm proud of my fight.
I gave a seminar today, a girl; no, she is now a woman, I use to employ came to me afterwards. She gave me both hands to hold. Open palms.
Loving.
Accepting.
She said something, 'you look wonderful' it wasn't what she she wanted to say - I could tell. She paused 'You don't have the pain in your eyes, I always saw your pain, and I never knew.'
Thank you Olivia. Love you.
Step by step we are accepted
How very nice Cindy, thanks
Got a fairly cold day, and tempted to go out third time for today.
Will do so.
Too bad it is too much effort to keep the make up on, so I am walking my beard shadow outside...
What made me happy today was, leaving the clinic after my SRS and BA, returning to my hotel room where I'm staying alone, and discovering I am stronger than I thought.
I'm also super happy and grateful for the offers of help from other girls and their families staying in the same area :) I shall return the favour in as many ways as I can when I'm able!
I lost my 90th pound somewhere near mile 3 of my morning run this morning.
Quote from: Isabelle on September 05, 2015, 01:31:59 PM
What made me happy today was, leaving the clinic after my SRS and BA, returning to my hotel room where I'm staying alone, and discovering I am stronger than I thought.
I'm also super happy and grateful for the offers of help from other girls and their families staying in the same area :) I shall return the favour in as many ways as I can when I'm able!
Congratulations; I'm so happy for you. :)
Quote from: Cindy on September 05, 2015, 04:14:30 AM
I posted this on my FB page but I shall do so here as well.
Strange life I live. I'm never in stealth, no way is that possible and to be honest I don't want to be. I'm rather proud of being me. I'm proud of my fight.
I gave a seminar today, a girl; no, she is now a woman, I use to employ came to me afterwards. She gave me both hands to hold. Open palms.
Loving.
Accepting.
She said something, 'you look wonderful' it wasn't what she she wanted to say - I could tell. She paused 'You don't have the pain in your eyes, I always saw your pain, and I never knew.'
Thank you Olivia. Love you.
Step by step we are accepted
Beautiful Cindy.
Thank you for sharing! :)
I went out for the third time today. Alive among people.
I also just tested the quick make up... basically two layers of concealer and then powder foundation. Also the primer first. Does the trick, ppl keep going about their business.
Passing with just mascara and chapstick xo
Tested this with my bf as we went to the annual fair and I just pass yay!
Fantastic girl! I hope I can do that in a few months after my FFS work and BA settle into their final positions.
Quote from: carmenkate on September 06, 2015, 12:01:23 AM
Passing with just mascara and chapstick xo
Tested this with my bf as we went to the annual fair and I just pass yay!
Congrats Isabelle. Good luck with your recovery.
Quote from: Isabelle on September 05, 2015, 01:31:59 PM
What made me happy today was, leaving the clinic after my SRS and BA........
Congrats Martine. Feels great to be out and about doesn't it.
Quote from: Martine A. on September 05, 2015, 03:00:17 PM
I went out for the third time today. Alive among people.
I also just tested the quick make up... basically two layers of concealer and then powder foundation. Also the primer first. Does the trick, ppl keep going about their business.
Got myself Avocado. Got myself ice cream. Ready to spend the evening indoors.
Quote from: Isabelle on September 05, 2015, 01:31:59 PM
What made me happy today was, leaving the clinic after my SRS and BA, returning to my hotel room where I'm staying alone, and discovering I am stronger than I thought.
I'm also super happy and grateful for the offers of help from other girls and their families staying in the same area :) I shall return the favour in as many ways as I can when I'm able!
Isabelle, That is such great news. It sounds like your surgery went well & I'm sure you feel so much better about life. My sincere best to you on healing up & getting used to your new body. I've had quite a bit of plastic surgery & I know it takes time to heal up. I'm so looking forward to my GRS later this year & I'm so excited. How nice it must feel to finally have a "normal" body & hopefully for you a nice depth vagina. My breasts have grow OK so I do not plan on any BA for now. Please heal up GF & let us all know how you are doing. I know we are all so happy for you.
My wife and I were at Home Depot to look for some shelving. The female associate called me an Amazon Woman, (in a complimentary sort of way.) She commented that she wished she was my height. When I told her I was 6'7", she was totally shocked.
Nice quiet afternoon, coloring my hair with Keratin, Berry Brown shade. I'm sure it will look great!
I went to lunch with my mother. That is wonderful.
Cindi
On my way home tonight spotted a turtle stranded in the middle of a busy street. Stopped put on my emergency flashers and put her in a safe place. (I think the turtle was happy too, but she didn't say! ;) )
Day 3 of returing to my Atkins woe & happy. I had lost 26 pounds & looked great then fell off the wagon as they say, now back on it & hope to stay. My body looks very nice after liposuction & tummy tuck surgery & I want to keep it that way.
Quote from: Joi on September 07, 2015, 09:56:19 PM
On my way home tonight spotted a turtle stranded in the middle of a busy street. Stopped put on my emergency flashers and put her in a safe place. (I think the turtle was happy too, but she didn't say! ;) )
Good karma level up! ;D
Only twenty five more hours and I'll have my new legal name.
Congrats girl. The waiting is the hardest part. Hope you have a celebration planned!
Quote from: RavenL on September 08, 2015, 10:31:08 AM
Only twenty five more hours and I'll have my new legal name.
Quote from: RavenL on September 08, 2015, 10:31:08 AM
Only twenty five more hours and I'll have my new legal name.
Wow, congrats.
Friday I'll have the order in hand but it will likely be effective 30 days from the hearing...
Wow, I just made it through a horrible day. It started with GD yesterday, and continued on today. Today I also had professional problems that added to it and I sank really deep.
I am surprised I reached the surface, and wonder if my watchdog (https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,191704.msg1709138.html) will leave me in the future.
Had a very serious therapy session today but my therapist called me Katelyn several times without hesitation and it was absolutely amazing, I felt so comfortable talking about hard things knowing she supported me like that.
Found some great deals at Kohl's in their clearance section. I got a couple tennis dresses for $15 each and a couple of nice dresses for work for $20 and $30.
<<<<< one of my new dresses
I will be ready to up my exercise routines as soon as I am healed up from my FFS and breast augmentation surgeries. I think I have my wardrobe just about completed.
Quote from: RavenL on September 08, 2015, 10:31:08 AM
Only twenty five more hours and I'll have my new legal name.
Congratulations Raven, - there is nothing like the thrill of having your real name on your legal paperwork. ;D
Quote from: RavenL on September 08, 2015, 10:31:08 AM
Only twenty five more hours and I'll have my new legal name.
Congrats, it will be like a 2nd birthday to you and a day you'll never forget :)
I officially got my first therapy session scheduled with a good and proper specialist. I'm pretty excited, even if I'm stuck waiting nearly a month!
Congrats Raven! I'm jealous.
For me, just 7 days to get the name change form signed by my doctor
1 month and 7 days to do the FB announcement and announcement at work
1 month and a half to use the court order to get a new driver's license and begin the name change paperwork
1 month and 23 days to be living full time
I'm so happy I barely feel scared.
Quote from: Delaney on September 09, 2015, 12:09:15 AM
I officially got my first therapy session scheduled with a good and proper specialist. I'm pretty excited, even if I'm stuck waiting nearly a month!
The website of Amsterdam VU states there is 17 weeks between making an appointment and first meeting with a therapist. Before that goes what looks like more weeks of waiting for intake. I don't think I get to chose a therapist.
Just saying... that sounds like 4 months of wait or so. Might be 6. Before mandatory 18 months evaluation. No private sector, no quicker procedure that could be bought with money. No informed consent. If there are, anyone, share!
Quote from: Martine A. on September 09, 2015, 12:14:03 AM
The website of Amsterdam VU states there is 17 weeks between making an appointment and first meeting with a therapist. Before that goes what looks like more weeks of waiting for intake. I don't think I get to chose a therapist.
Just saying... that sounds like 4 months of wait or so. Might be 6. Before 18 months evaluation.
Ugh! That's really unfortunate...
Updated post with more. Yea, that is why I have mood issues lately.
I learned an important lesson tonight! Confessions of love are not done for the other person, or because you need them to love you. They are done for you! And when you know that it makes life a little easier. I feel so good because I confessed to someone how I really felt, and the ache went away with this confession. I haven't known them that long, and was scared to go that far, so I made sure they understood that I expected nothing from it. I feel free now. I could fly!
I really do feel that good!
I came out to my best friend today. She claims she already suspected as much, but was also a little bit sad, because she finds me a "hunk" as a male and used to have a crush on me me years ago. Anyway, she still loves me all the same, so I'm happy.
Well it's been over 3 months since my tummy tuck surgery & I'm healing very well. Soon I can my visit my expected GRS surgeon for her examination & perhaps to schedule my GRS later this year. That will be such a nice day to finally have a normal body & hopefully a normal appearance & normal depth vagina after I heal up.
I am going on a Cruise with My Wife that was booked before my Transition. She is finding it hard but has agreed to me going on holiday totally en-fem and to not Call Me her Husband to all and sundry as she tends to do now. this will be a test of how She will handle being seen out as a same sex couple .Hopefully it will be a good experience and not a disaster LOL . I did have fun buying a complete cruising wardrobe He He He . I even got a great Jumpsuit for the Formal Dinner . And of course a new pair of Heels. Well wish Me luck I hope I don't need it but You can never tell LOL
Ooh, Toni! What's the itinerary? Sweetie and I are cruising next month. It would be a hoot if we're on the same ship!
We're on Carnival out of Tampa for the western Caribbean, October 12 through 16. Unfortunately, I'll be in drag (as a man) most likely.
Ooh, Toni! What's the itinerary? Sweetie and I are cruising next month. It would be a hoot if we're on the same ship!
We're on Carnival out of Tampa for the western Caribbean, October 12 through 16. Unfortunately, I'll be in drag (as a man) most likely.
No Sorry we are doing the Adriatic the 24th of September to the 8th of October On the Thompson Celebration
I had jaw and chin recontouring, neck & lower face lift, fat transfer to my lips & laugh lines & lower cheeks, plus a lower bilateral blepharoplasty on Tuesday; the surgery went well, but I am so sore. I get the big bulky dressing off tomorrow, and I'm very happy about that.
Quote from: ToniB on September 10, 2015, 08:25:32 AM
Ooh, Toni! What's the itinerary? Sweetie and I are cruising next month. It would be a hoot if we're on the same ship!
We're on Carnival out of Tampa for the western Caribbean, October 12 through 16. Unfortunately, I'll be in drag (as a man) most likely.
No Sorry we are doing the Adriatic the 24th of September to the 8th of October On the Thompson Celebration
Have the best time ever! I hope it's the start of a new time of love, understanding and security for you and your partner.
Something did. I am just fine today. Can't speak about tomorrow.
Ouch girlfriend. Take it easy and rest. Don't try to do too much too soon. I'm sure you will look stunning when your all healed.
I just got my FFS stiches out today (still have 2 screws in my head that will be taken out next week) and I am back at work for a part day today. I think I may be pushing it a bit since it has only been 10 days post surgery. I am really liking how I'm looking now. You can't even see the incisions on the upper eye bilateral blepharoplasty I had done. Dr. Lee's work has been amazing. People can tell that I look different but it doesn't look like I had work done. Just what you want to hear about this type of surgery.
Quote from: kittenpower on September 10, 2015, 09:18:05 AM
I had jaw and chin recontouring, neck & lower face lift, fat transfer to my lips & laugh lines & lower cheeks, plus a lower bilateral blepharoplasty on Tuesday; the surgery went well, but I am so sore. I get the big bulky dressing off tomorrow, and I'm very happy about that.
Brought my other harley home today. They liked it.
*
To put this in reverse, I post that it is what I'm doing to make a friend happy.
A dear friend got himself into very big trouble at work and with the law - I am his only visitor from the outside world. I give him moral support.
I kinda owe him. He was among a few at work who was ever kind and polite to me. Weekly visits are the least I can do for him in his time of need. They make him quite happy; that makes me happy.
*
Quote from: kittenpower on September 10, 2015, 09:18:05 AM
I had jaw and chin recontouring, neck & lower face lift, fat transfer to my lips & laugh lines & lower cheeks, plus a lower bilateral blepharoplasty on Tuesday; the surgery went well, but I am so sore. I get the big bulky dressing off tomorrow, and I'm very happy about that.
Good luck on healing up. It takes time. I've had a complete face lift, eye lid surgery, work on my lips/mouth, fat injections, liposuction & tummy tuck surgery 3 months ago. Just go slow & try not to get upset when it goes slow for all the swelling to go away.
Today I spent 3 hours at the RMV and got my new license with my new name and a cute little F under gender.
Serena
Congratulations Serena, - feels good doesn't it :D
Really good just got my car insurance fixed today going to mall things out fire health insurance later today. Sadly when I finish the name change things I will sorta be out of transition related things I can do....well except for watch my boobs grow :-)
Serena
Quote from: Valwen on September 10, 2015, 10:17:48 PM
Today I spent 3 hours at the RMV and got my new license with my new name and a cute little F under gender.
Serena
Congratulations!!
I'm looking forward to the same. I'll have more transition points after that though including social security, birth certificate, passport and of course SRS. I think when those are done I've finished all the event items.
Maybe I can get FFS someday which would be another, but not sure if that will happen.
Also Jessie Ann, congrats on your FFS. It has to feel great to have that over and done.
I got social security done on Tuesday add well as my bank. Got my phone and car insurance done too still need to get my work places to change over going to try to get that done today to. And I am mailing out stuff to get my health insurance changed today. Sadly mass won't let me do birth certificate till I complete grs which is at best years off I figure. I have only been living as me for almost 3 months I think hormones for like 6-7.
Serena
Seeing how long my hair is getting! four years without cutting it :)
<< See new profile pic
Got a nice little F on my driver license today.
Definitely a momentous day for you; congratulations, Raven!!!
Way to go girl! Feels great doesn't it. Congrats!!!
Quote from: RavenL on September 11, 2015, 04:32:09 PM
Got a nice little F on my driver license today.
Quote from: Jessie Ann on September 11, 2015, 07:32:07 PM
Way to go girl! Feels great doesn't it. Congrats!!!
Thanks it does feel great! Even if the DMV was pure torture and the clerk was horribly rude. Also she used the flash on the camera so I already know my picture is going to be horrible. Oh well
Congrats Raven, you are an inspiration. Keep it up. Us tall girls need to root eachother on.
The outdoor shop is closing and had a sale. Got a £63 pair of walking boots for £43 and a £179 waterproof windproof anorak for £71
I'm 11 Months on hormones today!!! :D
I went to Costco today to pickup my monthly prescription of Spiro and they switched back to the mint flavored Spiro :)
They have mint flavour!!!! :o
All these years of taking yuk flavour spiro and finally some one has answered our prayers ;)
A lovely warm day and driving around with the roof down on my car - and having every guy ogle me at the traffic lights! You mean to say you have never seen a cute woman, wearing a mini dress in a sports car before? :laugh:
My brother who I thought had written me off reached back out to me and said that he wasn't going to close any doors.
I also told my neighbor about my change and going full time at the start of November. Her reaction was to smile widely, say, "That's awesome!" and give me a big hug.
I may have a cold but those two events made it a good day.
Quote from: Cindy on September 13, 2015, 02:07:29 AM
A lovely warm day and driving around with the roof down on my car - and having every guy ogle me at the traffic lights! You mean to say you have never seen a cute woman, wearing a mini dress in a sports car before? :laugh:
Yo rock that sportscar Cindy ;D
Two things yesterday, and an associated one the night before made me happy. The night before I came out over Facebook Messenger to an old friend from college whom I haven't had much contact with in 30 years. I asked if he wanted to see a recent picture. When he saw it he told me that I'm pretty.
One of my new coworkers, (a straight woman) also told me I'm pretty and likes my hair. I guess if other people with nothing to gain tell me so it must be true but I don't see it personally.
This last one... Well, I have to admit that under the wrong circumstances this kind of thing can upset me greatly. A customer approached me, (I wear no makeup to work), "excuse me sir... I mean ma'am!,... I mean sir...", his jaw dropped and he looked confused. I guess I clearly sit in the middle when I make no effort.
All in all an amusing and gratifying day if you discount poking myself in the eye with a hair pick. (It feels better this morning.)
I started the day off with the welcome relief of a pain pill, the swelling is going away a little each day, the drain in my neck is coming out later today, I'm having face time with my husband later this morning and I also get to see our kittens [the youngest is 4, but they'll always be kittens to me :) ]
I mentioned to My Wife that I needed some sort o Nightwear to wear on our Cruise expecting her to get Me something fairly masculine looking as she usually does but no instead I got a set of very Pink very girly pyjamas I am so chuffed But just a little disappointed that it was not a nightdress LOL. But I suppose that is a step too far .Maybe one Day
Always love Self injection day of today is the injection that will be in affect over my one year of HRT mark so I can just glide past that mark. Hugs
Mariah
Got my file on license computer changed to F, now they don't show gender markers on licences in Australia but at least the police will see the correct gender if they look up my license details.
Congrats. Because my birth certificate got updated quicker do to a mail snafu here. The person who updates driving records the made the change in the computer before sending the letter out that I need to take in to get the ID updated. So like you, if the police had looked me up they would have seen it showed female already. Anway Congrats. Hugs
Mariah
Quote from: Serenation on September 14, 2015, 09:21:55 AM
Got my file on license computer changed to F, now they don't show gender markers on licences in Australia but at least the police will see the correct gender if they look up my license details.
I have the afternoon off and I have another 3 hours wearing my favorite dress before midnight strikes and I have to leave the ball.
Got yet another avocado today.
They are rather expensive these days, so taking time to enjoy each and every one I get.
Starting back to work today full time post FFS and BA. I've received a number of very positive comments and am so lucky to work in the environment that I do.
I got my new licence today. Yay also wow the picture is bad I know I always look bad in photos but this one is extra bad. But still yay.
Serena
Quote from: Valwen on September 14, 2015, 03:01:16 PM
I got my new licence today. Yay also wow the picture is bad I know I always look bad in photos but this one is extra bad. But still yay.
Serena
My licence came out horrible as well.
I got my name changed at work. So when I swipe in its says welcome Raven. And if anyone looks it up in the system it's Raven.
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I can claim a pension from a previous job, the life of a retired lady looks great!
Congrats on getting the license. I'm sorry that the pix didn't turn out good. Just concentrate on the positives. For me it's the fact that I like nothing better than knowing that anytime someone asks to see my license that there is an F next to sex line. It makes me so happy that I really don't care what the picture looks like.
Quote from: Valwen on September 14, 2015, 03:01:16 PM
I got my new licence today. Yay also wow the picture is bad I know I always look bad in photos but this one is extra bad. But still yay.
Serena
My drain (AKA the bane of my existence) was removed today, and I got out for some fresh air and a little exercise. I'm definitely making progress. :)
Great to hear girl. Get better soon!
Quote from: kittenpower on September 14, 2015, 07:14:56 PM
My drain (AKA the bane of my existence) was removed today, and I got out for some fresh air and a little exercise. I'm definitely making progress. :)
It will just keep getting better and better as each company, business or agency gets their records updated to reflect the new you!!
Quote from: RavenL on September 14, 2015, 05:43:47 PM
My licence came out horrible as well.
I got my name changed at work. So when I swipe in its says welcome Raven. And if anyone looks it up in the system it's Raven.
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I posted this in the other thread, but I'll just share the excitement here too:
Quote from: Venus on September 14, 2015, 11:51:59 AM
I saw my therapist for the first time today. I'm so excited I could explode. He's already ready to write me a letter for HRT and I can start it whenever I'm able to afford it!
He even suggested a few places I could work locally that cover everything - it turns out Starbucks and Capital One are great places to work if you're transgender.
Tomorrow morning I officially start HRT. Shave my butt and slap on those patches!
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Congrats
Quote from: ChiGirl on September 15, 2015, 08:36:24 PM
Tomorrow morning I officially start HRT. Shave my butt and slap on those patches!
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Today I got my ears pierced. So far so good, will be following instructions, hope for the best, and get pretty earrings end October.
flew home from Chicago today; when I was checking in at O'Hare for wheelchair assistance, I was offered a seat on an earlier flight (2 hours earlier), so by the time I got to my gate the plane was already boarding.
It is so awesome being back home with my husband and our fur-babies. :)
Got a nice surprise in the in the mail my new social security card! Surprised how fast it came only four business days. Now just waiting on my drivers license. Really hope I get it today because I might go to the zoo tomorrow and if I have my state drivers license I get a discount.
Yay Raven, everything is coming together for you!
It feels so good being back home; totally safe and secure, which allowed me to get a full nights sleep for the first time in several days.
When I changed my gender marker on my DL, the pic came out meh because NJ doesn't want you to smile.
However it's OKish, and I am afraid it will come out worse so when I do my name change in October at NJMVC I may just opt for the old pic.
However they let you see the pic before it goes in and let you re-take it.
Considering my upcoming birthday and trip that I'm taking my mom on I thought It would be nice for us to get manicures together. We thoroughly enjoyed the opportunity.
Saw my doctor today which is always fun, got my new debit card too which is fantastic, people rarely need to see your license but your debit card you hand to everyone. I also had a guy say to me "you look like betty boo" I thanked him and his wife scolded him and I heard him defending himself as they walked away saying "but she looks like betty boo!" so that sorta made my day.
Serena
Quote from: iKate on September 17, 2015, 11:44:06 AM
When I changed my gender marker on my DL, the pic came out meh because NJ doesn't want you to smile.
However it's OKish, and I am afraid it will come out worse so when I do my name change in October at NJMVC I may just opt for the old pic.
However they let you see the pic before it goes in and let you re-take it.
When I did mine at the NJMVC I couldn't keep from smiling because I was so happy to get my name and gender changed. They were super nice about it and I think they took about 8 pictures and there was hardly any customers there, so there was no rush. The picture was taken at 6 1/2 month HRT and my face has changed since then but it still looks feminine. It's not horrible, but when it comes time to renew, I'm definitely going to have a new pict made.
I'm so glad that you were able to get home and get some sleep. Rest up girl and don't try to do too much too soon.
Quote from: kittenpower on September 17, 2015, 11:38:58 AM
It feels so good being back home; totally safe and secure, which allowed me to get a full nights sleep for the first time in several days.
Quote from: Jessie Ann on September 17, 2015, 07:28:51 PM
I'm so glad that you were able to get home and get some sleep. Rest up girl and don't try to do too much too soon.
Thanks Jessie. :)
My first month on estrogen :)
A peaceful place to work today. Pleasant interactions with everyone. The way the air was after a light rain. Horses grazing in the distance. The shade of oak trees and barns. My loving and happy canine sidekick with me. It was a very nice day.
I spoke to a complete stranger on the phone, calling for roadside assistance about jump-starting my car this afternoon--and I got ma'am'ed, even before he began collecting my personal information. When you freak out so much about your voice that you delay phone calls or avoid going to social events out of fear, that fleeting gesture of someone who has never before seen or heard you calling you ma'am means so much.
It's so good to get gendered correctly on the phone, especially if your like me and sure your voice is your worst enemy. It's happened twice that I noticed both time it made my day.
Yesterday was something new a uniquely feminine experience though not necessarily a good one. A man I had never met and did not know felt it was ok to make a comment about my appearance. Ok normally that's just awful his comment though was priceless he said. "You look just like betty boo." I thanked him smiling (hoping my voice wouldn't out me) then as I was walking away I could hear his wife scolding him and he was defending himself with "but she looks like betty boo!"
Later I looked in a mirror and well check my profile pic there is a resemblance.
Serena
If you love nice strong natural nails you should try Natural Nails Naturally, FB page. this oil that has some biotin in it does wonders on your nails. Mine look great & are so much stronger & longer. Love nice nails. Feeling happy today.
Getting ready to have another multi-hour multi-tech electrolysis session. This should get me to about the halfway point. I hope that they will be able to get a complete clearing done this time.
Ooooooo Jessie, - pain! :o
Having had electro myself during my transition I know it's pain that's worth it.
I have moved far from everyone I knew few months ago. Today I just opened my eyes and realized that my life has never been so happy, simple and good as now. The feeling of simplicity, being just me and living without any social pressure.
Today* I walked a lot through Amsterdam. It is a total of 10 hours. More to come tomorrow.
* - Technically yesterday.
Quote from: Gabrielle_22 on September 18, 2015, 09:59:21 PM
I spoke to a complete stranger on the phone, calling for roadside assistance about jump-starting my car this afternoon--and I got ma'am'ed, even before he began collecting my personal information. When you freak out so much about your voice that you delay phone calls or avoid going to social events out of fear, that fleeting gesture of someone who has never before seen or heard you calling you ma'am means so much.
That is just awesome!!!
Sucks about the car though.
I use the app to call for roadside, but I am usually prepared with a jump starter, cables and other stuff. ;)
blahh i just watched kiki's delivery service and i hadnt seen it since i was five and im just having so many thoughts about being a virtuous person and the value of solitude and how everything will be okay
Through the magic of recent laser hair removal on my face which took care of the evil hairs left behind by years of electrolysis, I can now go out and about makeup free. :icon_walk:
I feel pretty great. Finally finished my eleven months HRT update. This covered two months. I talk conventions, makeup, maintenance and random stuff. Check it out if you like. :3
https://www.youtube.com/embed/x6JXxp6xRmo
Recovered pretty good from my 10 hours of electrolyis and did not have as much swelling as I have had in the past. I was able to go out today and get my nails done and am now enjoying a dirty vodka martini. Feeling very happy right now. Cheers ladies!
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1 year on hormones today.
Happy anniversary Mariah!
Looking good there Jessie Ann :)
Congratulation to you too Mariah :D
You've made great progress Trini :icon_bunch:
My boss found out about some of my past on the weekend.
He was genuinely in awe of what he saw. Was trying to help him with some tips.
I bet he though I was just full of it but no he was wrong, very wrong. It was real.
I try not to think about it and have moved on many years ago.
It was fun though.
I used to love it so much but not anymore.
In general I try to only post the positive things. Sharing things like none of my brothers will interact with me except through email or letters just doesn't help others. It sucks but my bad things are survivable. It's more fun if I can be positive.
This evening, after I asked if he needed a hand proof reading his homework, my younger son showed me his college application essay. I was blown away. I mean, my son has a problem with my change but still. He gave me credit for so many wonderful aspects about himself that... well, it's kind of hard to explain. What I am trying to say is, my son knows I'm turning into a woman and still loves and respects me very much. It gave me a lot of hope I didn't know I didn't have for my family.
And, Lady Smith.... I love your avatar. Forging is pretty neat.
Quote from: CrysC on September 22, 2015, 12:43:57 AM
And, Lady Smith.... I love your avatar. Forging is pretty neat.
Thanks :D
Quote from: Jessie Ann on September 19, 2015, 09:28:57 AM
Getting ready to have another multi-hour multi-tech electrolysis session. This should get me to about the halfway point. I hope that they will be able to get a complete clearing done this time.
Good luck girl friend. Don't we all hate those nasty hairs. Appt. myself for this Saturday for my lady to zap away! She does all she can to make me as nice as possible but I still have a way to go until all are dead. Ugggggg
Last day at Work before leaving for our Cruise .just to get my Hair done and some last minuet shopping .That really makes me HAPPY !!!!
Today at work i was out on the plant floor and came up on a group of newly hired employees. While trying to navigate my way around them, one young man said "Hey guys, get out of this ladies' way!"
Such a simple thing to say, except work is the one place left where I still present as male. I'm in contact with HR and we're planning but it hasn't happened yet so that was a huge boost being in guy clothes, no makeup. ...nothing! And i needed it tonight especially.
Thank you new people, you made my day! :D
My roommates went out last night so I had some time to myself. I needed it so badly. The cis world was getting to be too much! So I spent the whole night watching "My Genderation" vids. When I realized this morning how much calmer and happier I felt as a result, I jumped with joy. I watched a few more vids before work, just for a trans top up!
Yay for Birthday goodies this week!
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I just love this cute skirt I got,
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I got my annual performance review at my job today.
My boss and I had an interesting chat. As you may recall, I went full time in June. I had VFS in June and started speaking in July.
He said that he noticed that my attitude completely 100% changed since I went full time. He also acknowledged that my gender dysphoria may have played a part in me basically messing up in the beginning of the year, so he put that aside. He said since I started back talking I am 10000% more confident and dedicated to the job; so he gave me a good (not great, just good) review. He also said he noticed me being more proactive and innovating more.
I'm happy with that as I got a decent raise too.
And it's true. Gender dysphoria was killing me to no end. I transitioned to save my life and I have NO regrets about doing it.
I also definitely think I will do GCS in late 2016 or first half of 2017 whenever I can get a surgery date from whoever and the funds together.
But yes I'm happy.
Did I mention passing is really just automatic now? I really don't worry about it at all. It just happens.
Any employers watching this is what happens when you support your transgender employees. Their life will improve and the quality of their work usually does too when they have a supportive environment. I cannot thank enough the (female) director who went above and beyond to make sure I felt supported and welcomed. Not just as an employee but as a woman. She made it absolutely clear that I can come to her anytime for anything and she will not judge me and that I am just one of the ladies in the office and nothing less.
That is sooooo wonderful Kate, - congratulations :icon_bunch:
My boss used my name in a meeting.
Kate, I am very happy for you.
That's so great to hear Kate, I'm so happy for you!
That's awesome Kate. Raises are always a good thing, makes the commute more enticing.
Oh and I almost forgot. Even though I have a court order for my name change, it isn't effective until October and I can't change it at work until I change my social security record.
But my boss talked with HR and used my new, preferred name in my review and said it's fine, that HR said I could use it since I had the court order in hand.
Congratz Kate! You deserve this. You're an example of great strength & perseverance. More good things will be coming your way. Promise!
This actually happened to me Sunday but whatever. Had a grocery truck that needed the back door open so I let management know over my radio. I got told just to come to the office and pick up a set of keys. The first manager started looking for the keys when the shift manager came in the office. I guess the first manager was worried he would get in trouble giving me the keys. Since he asked the shift manager. "Is it alright if I give him the keys, so he can open the doors." Before I could say anything the shift manager said "Who is he?" The first manager's face turned bright red when he realized his mistake.
Kate, thank you for such a nice update, I'm very very happy for you :)
Started 2nd week of HRT, my patches stayed on all last week, AND I got to have a real Egg McMuffin for LUNCH! What a world we live in!
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The swelling is starting to subside in my jaw and neck, and my lower lip is almost back to normal.
Fantastic girl! I can't wait to see the results.
Quote from: kittenpower on September 24, 2015, 05:21:36 PM
The swelling is starting to subside in my jaw and neck, and my lower lip is almost back to normal.
Thanks Jessie; I'm having a slower recovery than I'm used to, due to all of the work that was done, but I'll post some pictures when the majority of the swelling goes away. I hope you are doing well. :)
It sure feels good to finally see your body improve & become more normal. After 2 years on HRT my breasts are filling in nicely, body hair is going away, more of a curvy body, less & less facail hair........ Oh me what a relief to kind of have a normal body & face. I so hope for later this year to finally have a normal depth vagina. That will also be such a relief after all these years of suffering with the wrong body. I'm a happy woman today. Good luck fellow mtF ladies.
Quote from: Jessie Ann on September 24, 2015, 05:32:49 PM
Fantastic girl! I can't wait to see the results.
This +1 :)
O M G how has it taken me this long to buy long tshirts? I got two yesterday and it's all I ever want to wear for the rest of my life. It's a tshirt! It's a dress! It goes with everything in my closet, even boy clothes! It dresses up and down! When they get old, they're gonna be the comfiest jammies ever!
This single article of clothing should not bring me so much joy... but it does and I'm loving it!
Quote from: sparrow on September 25, 2015, 11:46:01 AM
O M G how has it taken me this long to buy long tshirts? I got two yesterday and it's all I ever want to wear for the rest of my life. It's a tshirt! It's a dress! It goes with everything in my closet, even boy clothes! It dresses up and down! When they get old, they're gonna be the comfiest jammies ever!
This single article of clothing should not bring me so much joy... but it does and I'm loving it!
There is sort of dress called strickkleid in German. I love those in the winter version. Then I can coat myself in that one thing and wear just a pair of leggings. If it is snow, just add bots. Otherwise ballerinas or sneakers work. Perfect.
http://www.amazon.de/dp/B00LCS13K0
My turn. Today I might have found real pros for wigs. Might have fitting and good ones as soon as end of the next week.
I didn't break any bones in the accident that probably totaled out my car today. Someone pulled out in front of me, either by running a stop sign or pulling out without looking, while I was going about 40 MPH. The air bag deployed into my face. I was worried that it might have done some damage to my recent FFS proceedures but so far it appears ok. So i am happy it wasn't worse.
I had a very eventful night that went on for a good while. I'm very tired, and so I won't go into a lot of detail. What made me happy was that a relatively new cis-friend told me that I really look like a woman, and that felt so damn good to hear.
Came out to my best female friend. Got back ... 'so, now we can talk about boys?'. She got it right!
Quote from: Jessie Ann on September 26, 2015, 02:17:55 AM
I didn't break any bones in the accident that probably totaled out my car today. Someone pulled out in front of me, either by running a stop sign or pulling out without looking, while I was going about 40 MPH. The air bag deployed into my face. I was worried that it might have done some damage to my recent FFS proceedures but so far it appears ok. So i am happy it wasn't worse.
I'm glad you are ok; sorry that happened to you.
Quote from: Martine A. on September 26, 2015, 08:24:34 AM
Came out to my best female friend. Got back ... 'so, now we can talk about boys?'. She got it right!
Hahahhahha nice!!!
Took a big bold step with a little blue-green pill :)
Good for you!
Today I realized my waist shrank a lot in last few months. Together with the weight.
So, I got courage to try on high heels. Wow, I can still walk in them just like that. W00, will walk them at first occasion.
I also was able to get nicely into a dress that was just a no go before. I ordered it by mistake, but it is a nice warm dress and now I can get in it! W00!
A bubble of happiness. :)
Quote from: Jessie Ann on September 26, 2015, 02:17:55 AM
I didn't break any bones in the accident that probably totaled out my car today. Someone pulled out in front of me, either by running a stop sign or pulling out without looking, while I was going about 40 MPH. The air bag deployed into my face. I was worried that it might have done some damage to my recent FFS proceedures but so far it appears ok. So i am happy it wasn't worse.
Oh yuk! I hope you are OK
Quote from: Martine A. on September 27, 2015, 03:58:40 AM
Good for you!
Today I realized my waist shrank a lot in last few months. Together with the weight.
So, I got courage to try on high heels. Wow, I can still walk in them just like that. W00, will walk them at first occasion.
I also was able to get nicely into a dress that was just a no go before. I ordered it by mistake, but it is a nice warm dress and now I can get in it! W00! Enjoy GF, it's just normal clothes & shoes..... I remember well at 5-6 years old playing dress up with my mothers heels, red lipstick, jewelry.... like any little girl would. It felt so normal for me. I still love to dress up nice sometimes. Shopping with girl friends may be fun for you. They can help suggest the right colors & shapes for your body & face. Just enjoy being a woman & female, no need for courage, just have fun.
A bubble of happiness. :)
I'm doing pretty good. Just some bruising on my arm from the air bag deployment and swelling on my right foot/ankle from pressing down on the break pedal trying to stop before the collision. I guess I'm pretty lucky that I didn't break any bones in my foot/ankle.
Quote from: Cindy on September 27, 2015, 04:05:45 AM
Oh yuk! I hope you are OK
Congrats Marlee. Welcome to the "E" class of 2015. Kick back and enjoy the ride
Quote from: Marlee on September 26, 2015, 02:16:47 PM
Took a big bold step with a little blue-green pill :)
Call it a very small step, but it is a great step. I changed my Costco I.D. pic to female. No questions asked, he just took my photo was friendly and said have a nice day. I love the photo, I like it better than the male looking (yu got kids?) card I had before. Much enjoy the look and am happy with photo, as good as id photos can get.
Congrats Brie. I know what you mean. I did the same last year. Hugs
Mariah
Quote from: Jessie Ann on September 27, 2015, 10:40:33 AM
Congrats Marlee. Welcome to the "E" class of 2015. Kick back and enjoy the ride
This +1, Congratulations Marlee :icon_bunch:
I went shopping for male clothes that I needed and discovered that I'm now a size L. I've never been an L in my life. Also 96 lbs lost as of this morning from when I started in Dec '14.
Sweetie apologized for something cruel (and trans related) she said to me last night during an argument. What she said wasn't untrue, just not the complete story and irrelevant. Nonetheless she apologized and that's rare. She realized how badly she hurt me.
I went out in a cute tank and not cut jeans and some trashy eyeshadow and went out presenting female for the first time. Just bought some snacks at the store... But i pushed myself and the world didn't explode! It felt phenomenal and i walked with confidence!
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Quote from: allinAllison on September 27, 2015, 08:56:45 PM
I went out in a cute tank and not cut jeans and some trashy eyeshadow and went out presenting female for the first time. Just bought some snacks at the store... But i pushed myself and the world didn't explode! It felt phenomenal and i walked with confidence!
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And God didn't hit you with lightening bolts, the Earth did not open to swallow you up and a plague of locusts did not appear!
Nice post Hon. It gets easier each time, just have a nice smile and be confident.
It's so nice to have lots of cis women friends that understand how I feel going throught my "second puberty" I even have one nice woman friend that completed her grs some 25 years ago. She is happily married to an attractive man that loves her & enjoys a very nice life. We share so much about life, cooking, hair, nails, men..., just life in general being nice women. My best to all of us girls or women.
I'm so happy I had the courage to take a picture of myself with attire that matched my gender. I never felt beautiful on the outside and inside before. I can't wait until the day I can live full time. A girl can dream for now haha.
I'm also going to make my first call seeing if I can schedule an appointment to start HRT soon and am really happy and excited! :)
Quote from: Punzie on September 28, 2015, 06:21:24 AM
I'm so happy I had the courage to take a picture of myself with attire that matched my gender. I never felt beautiful on the outside and inside before. I can't wait until the day I can live full time. A girl can dream for now haha.
I'm also going to make my first call seeing if I can schedule an appointment to start HRT soon and am really happy and excited! :)
Right there with you, Punzie. Race you to HRT! [emoji14]
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Quote from: allinAllison on September 28, 2015, 09:32:46 AM
Right there with you, Punzie. Race you to HRT! [emoji14]
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That's amazing! I hope you get everything all settled. I just got back from the call and after a few mishaps and voicemails, I finally got a hold of this wonderful lady who explained the whole procedure and helped me schedule an appointment for next Friday! (not this upcoming one) I'm so excited! :) I'm really happy because it fits my crazy college schedule lol
Quote from: Punzie on September 28, 2015, 10:56:32 AM
That's amazing! I hope you get everything all settled. I just got back from the call and after a few mishaps and voicemails, I finally got a hold of this wonderful lady who explained the whole procedure and helped me schedule an appointment for next Friday! (not this upcoming one) I'm so excited! :) I'm really happy because it fits my crazy college schedule lol
Awesome! Should hopefully be easier with your schedule... I have to go to docs at line 7am... [emoji37]
I'm a week out from getting set-up with an endo and stuff, at least i think so, sometimes hard to know what hoops still need jumping through.
Wooooo!
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Quote from: FrancisAnn on September 28, 2015, 05:36:34 AM
It's so nice to have lots of cis women friends that understand how I feel going throught my "second puberty" I even have one nice woman friend that completed her grs some 25 years ago. She is happily married to an attractive man that loves her & enjoys a very nice life. We share so much about life, cooking, hair, nails, men..., just life in general being nice women. My best to all of us girls or women.
I know what you're talking about, I have a few friends who I can talk to about almost anything.
Saw the good doctor today for a regular check up.
Oil levels good and engine purring like a kitten.
5 months to next oil change. Will I last that long?
Girls keep growing and growing. :o
Got in touch with a friend in London today. Been a while but good to chat online from work.
Quote from: iKate on September 28, 2015, 12:20:11 PM
I know what you're talking about, I have a few friends who I can talk to about almost anything.
My favorite girl friend was my electrolysis beauty salon lady, we could talk girl talk & men all day. We both love men. I'm open to all my friends, some respond & some do not want to know all my details however I share most everything. It's just nice to be a woman & more open about life. We'll all in this together you know. Good luck to you.
I petitioned to have my name legally changed! ;D
Another hour of electrolysis! Yay!
Both my wife and my boss admonished me for feminine mannerisms this morning. I totally didn't care either way. I am who I am and I am ok.
Nice Hailey on the name change! That's a big step.
Katelyn, you are not alone with the mannerisms. My wife and therapist laugh at my hands now having a life of their own. I try to keep it in check but they really don't seem to care what I want anymore :-)
My happy thing was today I teased my wife on something and her response was to look at me, smile and say, "Bitch!" In days of yesteryear she would have said, "Dick!"
Oh me, a "wife". I cannot even imagine how that feels. I had one for maybe 6 months long long ago, kind of a lesbian relationship, we had fun together being "girls", I loved her nail polish. Now we both use the same plastic surgeon & are kind of friends. We both look very nice. Love the fall weather, time for some darker red nail polish & plan some thrift store shopping today for a few new fall items. It feels great to be a woman & enjoy my second puberty.
Quite a small thing but my new PJs arrived today and they are the most comfortable thing I've ever worn! I regret not trying satin before now.
Want to just curl up in bed with them now despite it being the afternoon. Certainly made my day today.
I went to Target this morning and went shopping for beauty supplies. I ended up getting foundation, concealer, eyeliner, and lashes. I also got Mockingjay Part 1 on DVD because why not lol. I looked for Viviscal but had no luck. I'm still happy I bought the makeup though. It was my first time buying girly things in public! :)
I also had my second session of therapy and it went great! We accidentally went overtime because the conversation was going so well. I'm really looking forward to the next one and my upcoming HRT appointment. ^^ So excited!
Quote from: Punzie on September 30, 2015, 07:07:05 PM
I went to Target this morning and went shopping for beauty supplies. I ended up getting foundation, concealer, eyeliner, and lashes. I also got Mockingjay Part 1 on DVD because why not lol. I looked for Viviscal but had no luck. I'm still happy I bought the makeup though. It was my first time buying girly things in public! :)
I also had my second session of therapy and it went great! We accidentally went overtime because the conversation was going so well. I'm really looking forward to the next one and my upcoming HRT appointment. ^^ So excited!
Good for you, young girl. You seem very happy & that is so nice to see.
Had a full body waxing for the first time ever. I love the feeling of my smooth skin.
I came out to the last of my family today...the one brother who is really hard to catch and in part his reply was....
" I wished I had been able to hear this from you face to face or been able to help you at your darkest moments, but acknowledge I was busy.
I am always here for you all and you need to understand if you need anything or I can help I am here. "
What a sweetheart
Quote from: Jessie Ann on September 30, 2015, 11:48:56 PM
Had a full body waxing for the first time ever. I love the feeling of my smooth skin.
Had it done myself yesterday...don't know why I waited so long...I actually had "sugaring" rather than wax but the result is the same only better for your skin I am told. I don't care it feels fabulous
Oh me you lucky girls. I've only had my legs done before & you are right how smooth it feels. I've had all my facial hairs removed using the NuFree system numerous times & also how smooth with no regrown at all for maybe 10 days or 2 weeks. I just ordered my own NuFree system to help with my facial hair some & maybe do my own legs some. My beauty salon electrol lady is nice but I'm going to do more of my own hair removal. My body hair is slowly dissappearing anyway which is so so nice.
NuFree is the best system for hair removal. There are salons all over the US & even Europe I'm sure. It is so much better than any "wax" system. It's a warm gel that opens the pores & any hairs with the roots completely slide out so so easy. Their website gives all the locations of their approved salons. It's feels great, good luck girl friends.
I wore makeup for the first time in public. I didn't get any strange looks, so I think I pulled off the "natural glow." I even went to my college class and no one stared at me or pointed something different about my face, so I'm really happy! I know I'm not supposed to get too obsessed with wearing makeup, but just having a teensie bit of makeup made all the difference to boost my confidence and feel beautiful. :)
Punzie, You sound a lot like me in high school & college long ago. If I may suggest, enjoy being yourself, wear makeup, do your nails, earrings, dress nice..........Just be yourself & enjoy life. Some people will like you very much & a few will not, who cares. You will meet lots of new good friends, male & female. Enjoy life young girl.
Quote from: Punzie on October 01, 2015, 04:41:44 PM
I wore makeup for the first time in public. I didn't get any strange looks, so I think I pulled off the "natural glow." I even went to my college class and no one stared at me or pointed something different about my face, so I'm really happy! I know I'm not supposed to get too obsessed with wearing makeup, but just having a teensie bit of makeup made all the difference to boost my confidence and feel beautiful. :)
Why not? Remember, you're doing this for yourself. So forget what other people think. If you want to like makeup then by all means you should do so. I think makeup is a chore and imposed by the patriarchy because I'm supposed to look pretty and fragile and perfect as a woman. I use a little here and there to blend out stuff I don't like but I don't wear it every day either and I don't wear a lot. But that is MY choice. If you want to glam yourself up each day by all means feel free to do so and you shouldn't worry what others think of you because you are doing this for you and you only.
Realized over the past couple weeks that it doesn't take much effort for me to pass now. I've been referred to with the proper pronouns by random strangers now. I guess I've gotten my voice to the point where it doesn't sound male and get called ma'am even after speaking. Also got compliments from one lady that I was lucky to be tall and how my clothes looked really good on me.
Quote from: RavenL on October 02, 2015, 10:21:46 AM
Realized over the past couple weeks that it doesn't take much effort for me to pass now. I've been referred to with the proper pronouns by random strangers now. I guess I've gotten my voice to the point where it doesn't sound male and get called ma'am even after speaking. Also got compliments from one lady that I was lucky to be tall and how my clothes looked really good on me.
Very nice Raven!!!
I filed my name change petition today!
Today is a total win :)
WooHoo girl! It really feels great when you are just accepted for who you are. I've got a few of those tall girl comments also.
Quote from: RavenL on October 02, 2015, 10:21:46 AM
Realized over the past couple weeks that it doesn't take much effort for me to pass now. I've been referred to with the proper pronouns by random strangers now. I guess I've gotten my voice to the point where it doesn't sound male and get called ma'am even after speaking. Also got compliments from one lady that I was lucky to be tall and how my clothes looked really good on me.
Congrats girl! Keep us posted on your status.
Quote from: Emjay on October 02, 2015, 11:10:54 AM
I filed my name change petition today!
Today is a total win :)
Amazing feeling isn't it. When nothing happened to me the first time I went out I kind of knew that I was going to transition. It took a little bit more soul searching but that was one of the key things that helped me decide that I was going to be OK transitioning.
Quote from: Punzie on October 01, 2015, 04:41:44 PM
I wore makeup for the first time in public. I didn't get any strange looks, so I think I pulled off the "natural glow." I even went to my college class and no one stared at me or pointed something different about my face, so I'm really happy! I know I'm not supposed to get too obsessed with wearing makeup, but just having a teensie bit of makeup made all the difference to boost my confidence and feel beautiful. :)
It's great when your family members are supportive of you. You have a special brother.
Quote from: sarahtokes on October 01, 2015, 02:20:45 AM
I came out to the last of my family today...the one brother who is really hard to catch and in part his reply was....
" I wished I had been able to hear this from you face to face or been able to help you at your darkest moments, but acknowledge I was busy.
I am always here for you all and you need to understand if you need anything or I can help I am here. "
What a sweetheart
Quote from: RavenL on October 02, 2015, 10:21:46 AM
Realized over the past couple weeks that it doesn't take much effort for me to pass now. I've been referred to with the proper pronouns by random strangers now. I guess I've gotten my voice to the point where it doesn't sound male and get called ma'am even after speaking. Also got compliments from one lady that I was lucky to be tall and how my clothes looked really good on me.
That's wonderful Raven, - I'm so pleased for you :D
Quote from: Punzie on October 01, 2015, 04:41:44 PM
I wore makeup for the first time in public. I didn't get any strange looks, so I think I pulled off the "natural glow." I even went to my college class and no one stared at me or pointed something different about my face, so I'm really happy! I know I'm not supposed to get too obsessed with wearing makeup, but just having a teensie bit of makeup made all the difference to boost my confidence and feel beautiful. :)
Nothing wrong with wearing makeup, millions of women (and metrosexual men ;D) wear it daily.
Oh me, Oh my Oh wow. ;D
It's been two years on E. How I love the changes on a low dose.
Seems E loves me as levels are quite high which is a surprise.
I never thought about it and just did it one day at a time.
Still hiding in plain sight. It's amazing how not even Captain Obvious has noticed.
Work, Seems management want to create a new high profile role for me
Mentioned I am one of the best speakers/presenters in the company and expert on what we do.
Anyone else like pubic speaking?
Quote from: Jenny07 on October 03, 2015, 03:21:19 AM
Oh me, Oh my Oh wow. ;D
It's been two years on E. How I love the changes on a low dose.
Seems E loves me as levels are quite high which is a surprise.
I never thought about it and just did it one day at a time.
Still hiding in plain sight. It's amazing how not even Captain Obvious has noticed.
Work, Seems management want to create a new high profile role for me
Mentioned I am one of the best speakers/presenters in the company and expert on what we do.
Anyone else like pubic speaking?
You young lady need to do something sooner than later!
I love public speaking.
My last talk to the ANZ Occupational Medicine conference was fun.
I started " Who here rolled the bed covers back this morning and checked to see if their genitals had changed into what they wanted them to be?"
No hands went up.
"Well I did and I have done so for over 50 years"
I had them in.
Better pack the branding Irons and the whips.
I will need help.
Quote from: Jenny07 on October 03, 2015, 03:51:08 AM
Better pack the branding Irons and the whips.
I will need help.
Now lets see. Grace transitioned on the job, Gypsy transitioned on the job, I transitioned on the job. We all had fear, we all expected to lose.
None of us did.
Jenny is a high profile professional regarded by her company as being a star. They cannot afford to lose you. My company couldn't afford to lose me.
You don't need branding irons or whips, you need the same courage you have shown in every aspect of your life. I have a personal inkling of what you have been through, it would destroy most men and women - it didn't destroy you. It didn't destroy me.
You have a choice. Sometime, somehow, somewhere, you call it and decide to be happy.
You above many know how to face fear. The fear of loss, the fear of losing all, the fear of fear.
Time to let fear go.
Oh my. I was cleaning out my closet & getting ready for winter then I came across a waist chincher that I bought 6 months ago. It is really nice. Oh my such an hourglass figure wearing it. After my liposuction & tummy tuck surgery my waist is small but now with this I look great. And with my maybe B cup breasts growing nicely my body looks very nice if I do say so myself. Happy Dance!!!!!
I still need some work Cindy
Do your worst ;)
After six years, went shopping for hours in high heels.
Definitely able to walk in them, and am enjoying towering over people. While among tourists, I tower in flat shoes anyway. :)
I would also appreciate having 10lbs less for this. So will wait, unless it is a really short walk, or unless I need elegance tone.
Ladies if any one wants or needs to lose weigh the Atkins system works! Basically eat all you want however no more than 20 carbs per day. Your system burns up your stored fat. It's very safe & millions of mostly women use it. Tons of FB pages for support. It's kind of like "Nothing tastes as good as being thin feels". Today had pancakes made from eggs & cream cheese. delish & no carbs...Lots of great foods to eat just no stuff like bread/corn.... loaded with bad carbs.
Well it has been a eventful week for me! We went on our first cruise, three nights, and it was not bad. My SO and I had lots of time to talk. We talked about me filling out the papers for my name and gender change this coming spring, and setting in motion the process for surgery, gender correction surgery or here in my province, gender affirming surgery.The wait is due to the fact that we are going to be spending the winter in the sun, leaving in 2 weeks! This is so exciting for me. As I am 62, I want to make the most of this stage of my life!
Today, I for the first time applied some colour to my finger nails, a blush pink. I usually had used a base and top coat for a clear finish. Love my nails! This is only the beginning.
It's so nice to see another woman that cares about her nails. Join a FB page called "I Love Natural Nails" it's great with so many nice women members & there is some oil you can use to strengther your nails, it's natural & soaks in the cuticles. Also 5 or 10,000 mcg of biotin per day is great. Or go play rugby.
So today is a good day to talk about Rugby?
2003 RIP
Quote from: Jenny07 on October 04, 2015, 03:53:29 AM
So today is a good day to talk about Rugby?
2003 RIP
I think we need a comment from Matt!
Yes I think so.
We need to find out how an English player got man of the match?
Only one side turned up and the score was flattering to so the least.
I demand an Inquisition. :police:
So wake Matt up.
Quote from: Jenny07 on October 04, 2015, 04:01:29 AM
Yes I think so.
We need to find out how an English player got man of the match?
Only one side turned up and the score was flattering to so the least.
I demand an Inquisition. :police:
So wake Matt up.
He owes me a poem!!
I thought it was a 50' high statue el natural. :o
>>>>just quickly on the above posts: why would anyone want to talk about a boring little town in Warwickshire???
Managed an 11km walk before it got too hot, met a girlfriend for a relaxing coffee and cake thingy in the afternoon. Bought two cute tshirts.
Having a "getting to know you better" conversation with a new coworker we discovered that we had worked together seven years ago. She reminded me of her time by mentioning her sister who had worked with me much longer than she had. So to jog her memory I said "I used to go by (male name) more often back then." She puzzled for a second then her jaw dropped and she looked at me dumbfounded and mouth agape. She nodded a big "oh yeah!" But didn't say a thing about it. We just carried on with the conversation.
I love dropping jaws!
Massage appointment today 😊
I got asked by a nurse today when my last menstrual cycle was. Also, I got a very unhesitating "ma'am" and very friendly service from the server at lunch today.
Just the last week or so I've been inundated by little signs that I'm "there" as a woman though. A trans friend commented that in a recent photo I looked way more comfortably feminine than she remembered me last. Weekend before last I ran into several old friends at a convention who didn't even recognize me at first. Yesterday I had another trans friend on a Skype chat say she forgot momentarily that I was trans and asked me if I'd had vocal training (I haven't!).
My dreams of being seen and accepted as a woman are coming true and although I'm sick with bronchitis, flat broke and deep in debt, and suffering from a severe writer's block at the moment, I'm about as happy as a girl could be given the circumstances.
First stage of FFS surgery (upper eyelids) this morning at 0700. Feeling great & a little giddy!
Hope its a great success
THz Sarah! Bruises be gone!!! - Then it'll be time for a new profile pic: Tee Hee!
I had an emergent visit to dentist. Wore my beard shadow. Clockable under veil of night.
On my way home, there was no end to waiting for a tram. I spent half an hour on a station with two women. Muslim women. They were looking at me with such kind smiles, that even hours later I wear that same smile. Acceptance is so heartwarming.
I bought myself a piece of nice jewellery which is something I have never done before in my life.
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Gorgeous Sarah
I decided to go full time today after speaking with my family in great detail about RLE and that for me it would be more comfortable being 100% even though I'm on the long waiting list for the GIC ( I am in the UK )
They turned around and told me they fully support it and that they will help me with the journey. I already printed out my deed polls and going to sign them in a week!
I'm so excited things are moving forward. Going to celebrate with some shopping :D
Congratulations that is a big step and I wish you all the best
I turned in my dissertation! It was yesterday, not "today", but whatever.
Congrats Sparrow.
Ordered a 34C bra since my 34B now looks ridiculously small. The band has like a 1/2 inch gap over my chest.
I got my ears pierced tonight, I feel fantastic....
With love, caring and understanding, Melissa Marie
On my flight from LaGuardia to Ft Lauderdale this morning, I went through the body scanner without my "abnormalities" setting it off thanks to good tucking and HRT making them so small. The female agent did have to check my hair in the back because thick hair can set it off. Then I got asked the "how tall are you" and "do you play basketball" questions, so just tall girl issues and no trans issues.
Engaged in an email exchange with Dr Sinclair today. It's looking like I'm one year out from finally getting the whole shebang.
Joined Twitter.
I got brand new teeth last week and got my stitches out today! O M G I don't honestly think I've ever been this happy!!! I really didn't know that I could smile this much! That's one bump in the road behind me, umpteen more to go....
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Traveling with Sweetie, my bestie and her husband and my bestie is giving me girl lessons at appropriate moments! She's also giving me all kinds of support and encouragement.
Hooray! It's finally "official" I'm alive! & likely to still be alive after my GRS with Dr. Chett. is completed on Jan 21, '16. Received my medical clearance this morning. Wire transfer sent! And all of this on my 18 month Clean Date. Thanks to my "Goddess" and all of those pullin for me!
Hugz to All!
Joi Michelle
Good luck on your surgery that is HUGE news! You go girl :D
Quote from: Joi on October 08, 2015, 05:37:48 PM
Hooray! It's finally "official" I'm alive! & likely to still be alive after my GRS with Dr. Chett. is completed on Jan 21, '16. Received my medical clearance this morning. Wire transfer sent! And all of this on my 18 month Clean Date. Thanks to my "Goddess" and all of those pullin for me!
Hugz to All!
Joi Michelle
Cheers, whistles and flights of balloons and doves!
Today is the happiest I have been for a while. Thanks to some members on here who were very helpful with information - I have made the first tentative steps towards surgery with an initial consultation with the surgeon next month! I was also very happy to find out that my current health fund (insurance) will cover the costs it needs to without me having to go through a 12 month waiting period !
so happy!! ;D
Grace
I booked my appointment to come out to my Doctor next week!
My trans journey starts here I guess :)
I can't believe how natural it is to be a woman for me.
Today I was talking with some friends about if I would be married again, if I'd take my husband's last name.
Then it dawned on me - this is a real thing I'd have to consider.
Not that I have eligible bachelors lining up (yet) but I have a few guys that I get along with and one I can see myself getting serious with... but honestly I am very skittish about dating pre-op and I don't want to rush into SRS. I also don't want the first thing that decides he wants to be with me. I want something meaningful.
I may end up keeping my name to keep the same name as my kids. I love them more than anything, and men pretty much come and go.
Anyway this made me happy because none of my conversations with myself about gender have to do with "do I pass?" because it's totally NOT a consideration anymore. I pass and even if I am read, meh.
New shoes!!!!!
After throwing all my shoes out to the charity shop (very sad face) back when I used to lie to myself about who I was I haven't bought myself a pair of shoes in over six years.
My newest pair of size 7 (9 1/2 US size) heels arrived today! It's also Friday so I'm having a Gin and Tonic and getting all dolled up and sitting in front of the TV tonight rather than trying to exercise this awful tummy away.
It's been a tough week but nothing like new shoes to cheer a girl up!
XX
Jennifer
Losing the waistline. Last week I was buying skirts size (EUR) 40. Today I was kind of more comfortable with one in size 38. I better not purchase 38s and wait until I am comfortable with size 36.
Supposedly I should be happy about this. I am happy for my body, I'm not that much happy for my wallet.
Called my elderly aunt on the phone to see how she is doing. She answered with hello Jessie. She helped raise me and is the first of my elderly realtives to use my new name. Her acceptance has made me so happy. :)
Life is well with me. My nails are so long after using an oil called GNN & taking my biotin for a couple of years. It's nice to see that everyone is happy & this thread is not being used to post rugby scores, hahahha. Oh I'm using Efudex on my face, 10th day, for a nicer completion later. For now it's very red however that is part of the process as the cream kills all sun damaged skin, then new skin grows back. 2 more weeks of treatment then just relax as new nicer skin grows. I spent way too much time in the sun in my earlier years while living in Florida.
On my morning weigh in I discovered I had lost my 100th pound since December. God how losing weight helps my dysphoria.
This is more of what made me happy this week. First I was shopping for sleepers in a local drugstore, when a sales lady came up and asked if i needed help finding some thing I liked. I was a bit stand offish and cold in my need for her assistance. She then added she liked my little pooh bear earing in one ear ...I then told her "ya it matches the other one.. get where im going" in a curt tone. She leaned closer to me , and whispered you are transitioning right ? "Yes I said with a warm smile. She reached out with open arms and gave me a hug... "you are so OK to me I have a f2m son and I'm here for you we talked for a bit exchanged e mail addys I feel so happy for the acceptance of a stranger I get a lil welled up thinking about it.
Yesterday I was at my endo I got great news from him which I will talk about in another thread.On my way out I needed to get change for parking, picked up a coffee and muffin and sat across from a help podium for the building. A young girl was helping a senior with something and the senior was very thankful to the girl for her help. She was so happy from the compliment that yu could see her shedding a tear. As a spectator, I beamed with a big smile looking at the young girl. She then stoked up a conversation with me and we talked untill I finished my coffee. At no point did she mention my gender, I later made reference to my mouth and lip area ( growth for electro). she told me that did not matter to her I got up to leave, she extended her hand to shake , I said girls dont shake hands and opened up my arms to hug. She returned a warm hug and told me that I would be fine. Some times strangers, can be better than people we have known for 30 years. Im still beaming over my week .
went too the Social Security office to change my gender and name.. A young lady behind the desk reviews my paperwork with a stern face.. after several minutes of this she looks up with a smile and said congratulation with a warm smile and shook my hand... It renewed my faith in humanity
Waking up! Nothing is better than waking up feeling refreshed and feeling awesome!
Kate <3
Confirmation date from Chettawut for my STS surgery.. 4 months and counting..
Keri AKA Dodie
I just finished my first full month of HRT. I'm so excited. Plus everyone know about me. So I am happy. Time to buy the right cloths.
Got out of bed and remembered that I painted my toenails a super cute baby blue!
Painted toe nails are great! They pop up when you least expect to remind you how awesome everything is.
Quote from: Sspar on October 10, 2015, 12:25:07 PM
went too the Social Security office to change my gender and name.. A young lady behind the desk reviews my paperwork with a stern face.. after several minutes of this she looks up with a smile and said congratulation with a warm smile and shook my hand... It renewed my faith in humanity
Good for you! Yes people are puzzled sometimes but after a little time most understand & are very nice. I've had the same experience so many times. Enjoy life girl friend.
My court order to change my name goes into effect at midnight. I'm happy. Tuesday is when I change DL and SS.
Congratulations ;D :icon_bunch:
That's great Kate, congratulations.
Enjoy!
It is cold. I like when it is cold.
I received my NuFree hair removal system yesterday. It's a very professional hair removal system. I'm going to give it a try on some of my remaining facial hairs to have a completely smooth face. My beauty salon electrolysis lady was always so busy so I thought I would try to see if I could do it myself. So I'll be a happy girl if all goes well. I'm trying to find a new electrolyisis lady but no luck yet.
Quote from: Keri - formerly known as Dodie on October 10, 2015, 03:01:31 PM
Confirmation date from Chettawut for my STS surgery.. 4 months and counting..
Keri AKA Dodie
Great for you. I just know you are so excited. I'm not sure if you like men or not but I always have & so look forward to having a normal complete body to enjoy a nice man. Maybe I can finally save enough $ for my surgery next spring. I have my surgeon picked out & she is very nice. Good luck girl friend.
Comming out to my mother, that i was born in the wrong body.
And she replying: So im finaly getting that daughter i always wanted. and then fully accepting it ^^
Quote from: FromAtoZ on October 11, 2015, 04:37:13 AM
Comming out to my mother, that i was born in the wrong body.
And she replying: So im finaly getting that daughter i always wanted. and then fully accepting it ^^
Close to my story. So happy for you!
Mothers know. I was always a girl to my mother, she was very happy & tried to help with HRT years ago however back then there were very few docs that would help with HRT. Today you can, so enjoy & be proud to be your mothers daughter. Please start your HRT early in life to help develop a more normal attractive body.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on October 11, 2015, 06:38:05 AM
Mothers know. I was always a girl to my mother, she was very happy & tried to help with HRT years ago however back then there were very few docs that would help with HRT. Today you can, so enjoy & be proud to be your mothers daughter. Please start your HRT early in life to help develop a more normal attractive body.
wel im not that young any more im 32 :(.
but im done hiding, a lot of people near me now know, im going to the doctor on wensdag to break the news and see if i can get sent to the Vumc in amsterdam as thats the only gender clinic in netherlands i think.
My epilator arrived today! Scared and excited to try it out this evening.
It was 86° Fahrenheit yesterday at Epcot. I couldn't take it so I asked Sweetie if she could take me walking around without my shirt. She asked if I meant completely topless. I said, "good grief, no! I have on a sports bra." So I did! Red sports bra, shorts and sandals. One or two looks from kids, some wag wolf whistled, but on the whole, a positive experience. Later, in the shops at the China pavilion I mentioned my dissatisfaction with the unrelieved black of the shirt and pants I planned for elegant night on the cruise. Sweetie picked out a beautiful red and black hair band for me to wear that night! What a wonderful day. (Except for wanting to plot the demise of our friend's husband who is being incredibly childish and inconsiderate to the rest of us, but I'm over that,... Sorta! ;) )
I worked a table for work at the OutFest in Philly today. It was a good time. When leaving the parking garage ticket paying machine was not working. The guy in front of me called for the attendant for help. There were 5 or 6 guys in the lobby waiting to pay with a ticket and me. The attendant reset the machine and asked that I process my ticket. I did and it worked. She then said to the guy the machine worked for her so it must be your ticket. :)
Honestly I don't know whether to be happy about this or not.
I am the spitten image of one of my aunts, I swear to God. Put us side by side and I look like her younger sister. I really hate to say this though, I wish I resembled my mom who is more attractive...
Combing my hair. Makes me happy every day.
It's getting so long now, and I'm using a new shampoo and conditioner that makes it lovely and soft and smooth.
I'm looking forward to about ten months time when it's down to my shoulders :D
It was my birthday today and when I got home my friend had brought me the fanciest of cakes. I told him he shouldn't have and he said
"You've done more than anyone I know this year, you deserve it. I'm proud of you"
So feeling pretty good right now!
Quote from: Frae on October 12, 2015, 01:59:55 AM
It was my birthday today and when I got home my friend had brought me the fanciest of cakes. I told him he shouldn't have and he said
"You've done more than anyone I know this year, you deserve it. I'm proud of you"
So feeling pretty good right now!
Happy Birthday Frae
I bought a new sports bra today. I haven't had one since I purged last year and I'm hoping this new one will fit better than the last one anyways. I want something I can wear under my work clothes without being noticeable and will help me feel more feminine. Now just for the waiting... shipping takes too long :P
Quote from: Amy85 on October 12, 2015, 06:41:00 AM
I bought a new sports bra today. I haven't had one since I purged last year and I'm hoping this new one will fit better than the last one anyways. I want something I can wear under my work clothes without being noticeable and will help me feel more feminine. Now just for the waiting... shipping takes too long :P
Hey Amy I am about to do exactly the same thing! I threw out all my boys undies and stuff last week in a purge of all that stuff now i'm out but would be nice to have something up top to help me feel like I am really moving on. Seems silly but things like new pyjamas and new underwear really have an impact for me.
I ran 4.8 miles at my fastest pace ever. Steadily approaching "best shape of my life." Not the shape I want but better than before and physically I feel great.
Contacted some people about name changing now that I have the documents. Things are in motion!
Also gave the epilator a good go last night. It took me over an hour for the first session but should be easier in future. Today I wake up to the smoothest legs ever! It feels amazing.
Can't be sure what this is about, but today I see a bracelet I couldn't wear before fits fine on my wrists. How nice. It must be months of not lifting any big weight, since I am not on E. Can't wait for it to take its effects too.
I could leave work relatively early today so I had time to change into some nice clothes before going to today's IPL session. I wore black stockings, skirt and scarf, long gray top, brown blazer and medium heeled ankle boots with a brown bag.
It was a great session, hopefully one of the last for my face and this month I had money for getting my forearms treated as well.
I decided to walk home as I need the excercise anyway. It was a little windy at times but I had a nice one hour walk.
What made me happy today? going to work knowing that everything that i could was feminine. Some things i can't change cause they are generic uniform. Also checking out the stuff i bought at the weekend, retail therapy works! lol.
Sophie
Long hair selfies make me very happy ;)
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Quote from: Michelle G on October 13, 2015, 01:36:35 PM
Long hair selfies make me very happy ;)
Show off, lol, i can barely do short haired baldy bloke.
Sophie
Just got back from the courthouse with my new name on a name change court order!
:D
Congrats! That must feel terrific! I am hoping to start the process in the spring.
Got a date with a young lad of 49! Not past it yet!
Way to go girl!
Quote from: CrysC on October 13, 2015, 04:01:24 PM
Just got back from the courthouse with my new name on a name change court order!
:D
Changed my DL and SS cards today. Re registered to vote under my new name.
Quote from: CrysC on October 13, 2015, 04:01:24 PM
Just got back from the courthouse with my new name on a name change court order!
:D
Woot woot!
Quote from: iKate on October 13, 2015, 10:11:51 PM
Changed my DL and SS cards today. Re registered to vote under my new name.
Awesome!
Way to go girl!!
I still haven't changed my voter registration yet. I'm not sure if I need to change it or just reregister under my new name. I've also got to get my NRA life membership changed. I'm tired of getting stuff from them addressed to him.
Quote from: iKate on October 13, 2015, 10:11:51 PM
Changed my DL and SS cards today. Re registered to vote under my new name.
My first dress arrived today, I wish it were a bit more fitted at the waist but it feels sooo good when I wear it.
Quote from: iKate on October 13, 2015, 10:11:51 PM
Changed my DL and SS cards today. Re registered to vote under my new name.
Awesome and congratulations. Did you have to register to vote again or do a name change on your voter registration? I've sent mine twice by mail (as a name change), yet I still get ballot information under my old name.
My mother just told me that she has been taking some money out of her pay every month and adding it to my unofficial SRS fund. Not only that, but she also said that she will be helping me out with becoming fully female, no matter how much it will cost her.
I've had trust issues with her for years. Now those issues are gone.
Finally got around to updating my voter registration record. Jessie is now registered to vote.
I finished my psychology paper was it ever a killer but it done submitted and the professor should be happy. I sure am...
With love, caring and understanding, Melissa Marie
About to walk in to my therapy appointment. The only hour of my week that someone calls me my true name.
Got to resume running post FFS/BA. I was able to go 3.25 miles at a 11 minute mile pace. Not bad for being away from running for a month and a half. Now to start really training to lose some of the weight I gained by not being able to run for so long.
Go for it girl! Just remember to take a lot of water breaks!
Hugz!
Best day EVER.
Comming out to my normal doctor, and him fully accepting it with a nice long talk full of information and getting me into contact with another mtf in my neigbourhood for support ^^.
and that all my friends except 1, excepted who i realy am.
now the wait for my appointment at the Vumc ^^.
Quote from: Jessie Ann on October 14, 2015, 12:45:41 PM
Way to go girl!!
I still haven't changed my voter registration yet. I'm not sure if I need to change it or just reregister under my new name. I've also got to get my NRA life membership changed. I'm tired of getting stuff from them addressed to him.
Haha nice. I changed all of that (NRA/GOA/SAF/ANJRPC) already :)
I'm down at the hospital with my mother, long story. I look super passable today and everyone thinks I'm her daughter! Also when I wax walking down a hallway I had a guy coming from the opposite direction with a medical cart. The dress/shoes I have on really make my legs look good. So I noticed he was looking at my legs and not paying attention to where he was going and he ran into a wall!
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Goodness Raven, what's going to happen once your on HRT??? I was hoping my new boobs would do something like that but so far everyone just talks to my face, or they run in the other direction....
So today I wrote an anonymous email to the head of our HR department. I pointed out how we have a non discrimination policy that forbids discrimination based on gender identity but yet in our certificate of coverage it specifically lists all transgender treatments except for hormone therapy. I told her that this is medically necessary treatment based on the DSM-V and that excluding transition treatment is just as discriminatory as excluding gynecological treatment to women. I added a few other anecdotes as well and let her know that I am planning on changing jobs to pursue my gender transition and that the point of the email is so that maybe sometime down the line another closeted trans employee won't feel like changing jobs is the only way to be able to afford their medically necessary health care.
Had a visit to my GP today to ask some questions and what kind of support I can get while waiting for the referral to the GIC.
Luckily they have a counselling program local to me that can help me out as I work on my transition. It feels amazing to have some extra support!
Another thing was I went out in some of my new clothes and I noticed someone checking out my butt/legs! I don't feel really passable yet but I do have quite a feminine body shape. Didn't really have anyone looking before xD
Quote from: CrysC on October 13, 2015, 04:01:24 PM
Just got back from the courthouse with my new name on a name change court order!
:D
I love it!!!
Big congrats :)
Strangely enough I was happy that I overheard somebody call me a whore when I walked by today. I thought that they knew that I was trans but apparently not. They obviously don't like me but I passed.
Quote from: Michelle G on October 16, 2015, 01:36:41 PM
I love it!!!
Big congrats :)
Thanks!
I'm in the final stretch.
I found out the leggings are the most comfy thing ever!
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Nice day in Sydney, almost perfect.
Now cooling off with a light shower. Nice.
2 more hours done with the pain monster.
So many to go...
Got a new CD of New Order yesterday and love it.
I like the song Superheated with Brandon from the Killers. Classic New Order.
Getting harder and harder now. Mail fail not far
I decided a few months ago that I'd never wear pants willingly. But after watching a how to dress video last night I got the urge to wear jeans and just a plain v neck. Wow I love the look and feel to say the least and don't have to worry about keeping my modesty like when I wear skirts.
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Quote from: RavenL on October 18, 2015, 12:43:27 AM
I decided a few months ago that I'd never wear pants willingly. But after watching a how to dress video last night I got the urge to wear jeans and just a plain v neck. Wow I love the look and feel to say the least and don't have to worry about keeping my modesty like when I wear skirts.
Yeah, with proper tucking pants should be just fine. :) Women's pants of course.
About me, on my way to dentist, I passed near a store that had small watermelons, imported from Brazil.
Got one. May be a feast for me today.
Quote from: Martine A. on October 18, 2015, 12:50:49 AM
Yeah, with proper tucking pants should be just fine. :) Women's pants of course.
I'm so below average that I already don't have much to tuck. I can already almost get by wearing leggings without doing anything. Once I'm on hrt I imagine I won't have much to speak off.
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I got a new job!!! And this time next month i will be living full time as a woman!!!!!! :D Xxx
Quote from: RavenL on October 18, 2015, 12:43:27 AM
I decided a few months ago that I'd never wear pants willingly. But after watching a how to dress video last night I got the urge to wear jeans and just a plain v neck. Wow I love the look and feel to say the least and don't have to worry about keeping my modesty like when I wear skirts.
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Even the straightest of jeans looks curvy on me now. When you get on HRT you're gonna love it.
Quote from: Zoe Louise Taylor on October 18, 2015, 02:32:56 PM
I got a new job!!! And this time next month i will be living full time as a woman!!!!!! :D Xxx
Now THAT is worth a woo hoo!
Cindi
Congrats Zoe. That's two very big accomplishments!!
Quote from: Zoe Louise Taylor on October 18, 2015, 02:32:56 PM
I got a new job!!! And this time next month i will be living full time as a woman!!!!!! :D Xxx
I ran 4.51 miles today, then when buying a bottle of Vodka at a store the clerk carded me. Now I know the store must have a policy of carding everyone but it still gave me a little bit of laugh to have to show my ID to get some vodka.
I'm legally Sophie now! Filed the name change this afternoon.
Quote from: SofiN on October 19, 2015, 01:29:25 PM
I'm legally Sophie now! Filed the name change this afternoon.
Congratulations on the name change Sophie! That's so wonderful. =)
Quote from: SofiN on October 19, 2015, 01:29:25 PM
I'm legally Sophie now! Filed the name change this afternoon.
Rock it girl!!!
Quote from: SofiN on October 19, 2015, 01:29:25 PM
I'm legally Sophie now! Filed the name change this afternoon.
That's 2 Sophie's on here, could turn ugly, lol.
Sophie
I challenge you to a duel! Winner gets the name :D
To avoid confusion you can use my username spelling to refer to me it's fine!
Seriously though thanks guys :3 I'm in the process of alerting my bank and such now, it feels great!
Congrats girl! It feels great doesn't it!! Good luck with all work that comes with making all the changes at all of institutions that have records in that old name. It takes a while but it is sooo worth it. Hugs.
Quote from: SofiN on October 19, 2015, 01:29:25 PM
I'm legally Sophie now! Filed the name change this afternoon.
It has been a very good last few days for me. On Thursday, I had my endo appointment, hormone levels very very good, ad my E was doubled.We discussed timeline for Gender Affirming Surgery and name and gender change application in the spring. Yesterday, as we are heading south for our winter vacation, just under 6 moths long, I passed everywhere. I was wearing my new wig, nice top and jeans, and sandals. I, for the first time, was able to use the women's restrooms. It was really something when my wife and I both went in at the same time!
Work updated my name, gender and ID picture today.
Well, I got 2 out of 3. The ID picture looks terrible!!! But still genders female in how-old.net.
Oh well!!!
I'm officially 5 days into being on Prozac, haha! As the daily drone of persistent anxiety slides away, I find myself finally looking forward to making all of these changes in my life instead of dreading them. Today antidepressants, tomorrow hormone replacement therapy! Figuratively speaking, that is. I have no idea when I'll get on HRT.
Quote from: SofiN on October 19, 2015, 06:13:14 PM
I challenge you to a duel! Winner gets the name :D
To avoid confusion you can use my username spelling to refer to me it's fine!
Seriously though thanks guys :3 I'm in the process of alerting my bank and such now, it feels great!
Handbags at dawn, could be dangerous to spectators though.
Congrats on being way a head of me though, it'll be a while before i take on the bank with name changes, i have over a hundred pounds worth of driving licence changes before that because i have A vocational licence i have to replace three parts, plus training certs.
Sophie
So today was a real big day for me.
I came out fully at work. In two separate meetings I told two different groups I work with. I also sent out mail to multiple groups. On top of this I announced everything in FB.
I'm out.
I'm really out. My first day full time at work is November 3. I gave folks a week and a half to get their head around this.
What blows me away is the outpouring of support. Nothing negative so far. It's so incredibly humbling it's hard to describe.
So today is really like my birthday again and I'm happy as heck.
oh yea, serious congrats Sofie, both Sofie's :-)
Grats on being out at work, its a fantastic feeling, especily when people are better about it than you though.
For myself the last week has been good, great even. Better than any I can remember in a long time, that is aside from getting very frustrated about how hard finding clothing is. which would not be a issue if it was not late october and my warmest clothing consists of a knee lenght skirt and a t-shirt. Might be the stress of needing it now that is really driving things up. But aside from that ongoing battle things have been good and as far as I can see all it took was adding a little Faith, Trust and Pixie Dust to the mix.
Serena
I finally worked up the courage to get my ears pierced last night. Its weird I've been putting it off worried about it hurting even if everyone says its just a pinch. But I finally decided it was time and got it done at my work last night. The two ladies at the counter kind of debated for a minute who should do it as I am supervisor and they didn't want to mess up.
Anyway the nice lady who did it was awesome and they came out great. It was just a really weird feeling getting a hole punched in my ear. They kind of hurt for a few minutes but after awhile nothing. Now I have to keep them in for six weeks and religiously take care of them during that time.
Congrats at coming out at work CrysC, Must be a weight off your shoulders.
What made me happy yesterday was finally coming out to my doctor, and today was being able to put up with one of the bosses moody sessions without wanting to go back to the yard and murder him. All this transition stuff must be mellowing me, lol.
Sophie
Thanks everyone for the support! It was really heartwarming to read all those positive responses.
Today I got my bank name change done! It was as simple as walking into the branch with a recent statement and the deed poll and signing a form. Took me 10 minutes! I get my new bank card in 6-10 days. The clerk who saw me even addressed me as Miss it was really nice. It's these small things that really push me to not give up.
The important things are all done now, just need to wait for a call back from my local GP's office confirming my medical records have been updated.
Honestly I thought this would be a pain but it's been quite easy to change everything so far. I guess they are used to transgender people doing that in this country as no one gave me any trouble at all.
Not so much making me happy just annoying. I was pumping gas into my car and had a guy pull up in the next stall. And and told me "Hello how are you?" I wasn't in the mood and waved him away I don't think he expected that. He went into the gas station store and he asked the next to gals the same question.
I feel like I'm getting hit on twice a week at this point now.
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Just talked to my Pop, his 70th birthday phone call. He told me he has been keeping my Coming Out Day photo that I posted on FB in his bag for work. He shows it to people whom he feels comfortable sharing my transition with! He seems to be proud of me!
One recent coworker, a lesbian, asked if I was his daughter...in law, and was I pregnant again?! I had my hands on my hips in the photo with my torso thrusting forward a bit to emphasize the "True Trans" part of the Against Me! shirt I was wearing.
I am just so touched, I always was a Poppa's girl and now I know my Poppa loves me and is proud that I am his child.
I am absurdly happy!
That's so awesome Kellam
Found out today I have been responsible for adding 1 million dollars in revenue to the bottom line this year with the new product I have built. Not counting the new clients I won with the other revenue from other products.
Boss indicated rating of 5/5 for the year.
Shame my manager will not give it to me. >:(
Saw a sister yesterday who looked good.
Another on the bus today.
Quote from: Jenny07 on October 23, 2015, 03:04:37 AM
Found out today I have been responsible for adding 1 million dollars in revenue to the bottom line this year with the new product I have built. Not counting the new clients I won with the other revenue from other products.
Boss indicated rating of 5/5 for the year.
Shame my manager will not give it to me. >:(
Saw a sister yesterday who looked good.
Another on the bus today.
Dear Jenny,
I am a poor girl from Adelaide, I am happy to give you my account details to
steal ,
siphon, deposit funds. I am utterly trust worthy as I am a public servant and will share the proceedings with you.
Yours
CindyBill ShortenMalcolm
ps I have an offshore account that we can use.
Quote from: Jenny07 on October 23, 2015, 03:04:37 AM
Found out today I have been responsible for adding 1 million dollars in revenue to the bottom line this year with the new product I have built. Not counting the new clients I won with the other revenue from other products.
Boss indicated rating of 5/5 for the year.
Shame my manager will not give it to me. >:(
Saw a sister yesterday who looked good.
Another on the bus today.
Amen to that.
I got a decent perf review this year because my attitude has been 100% better since I went full time and I am very much more productive.
What made me happy today? I got up in the morning.
Nothing trans to celebrate. Why? I kind of feel like it's so old hat now. I can finally just get up in the morning and go about my business.
Quote from: iKate on October 23, 2015, 11:57:17 AM
What made me happy today? I got up in the morning.
Nothing trans to celebrate. Why? I kind of feel like it's so old hat now. I can finally just get up in the morning and go about my business.
Yay! Freedom!
Slept for 7 hours last night. :)
I got my first dress today!!!
There is one thing - my health insurance updated my name and gender. So my prescriptions are in my correct name now and the E is covered for $5 copay.
Saving money is good!
The collograph I'm working on is coming together nicely, I drained the spa pool and I'm learning Yesterday Once More by the Carpenters.
Deer poor girl from Adelaide
Come and help me spend it. >:-)
Having bike problems this morning.
Took it to the shop and fixed in minutes
Grease had solidified and all it took was a good flushing out and all good again.
To easy. :)
J
Started HRT today. That's... that's pretty happy :D
In my native language, I don't call wig a wig. As a hairless woman, I hate the word. Today I finally bothered to translate the word I use to English.
I call my hairs manes. :D E.g. 'I just got my new mane'.
So that word sounds good and feels nice. :)
As for me it was E day and I gave myself my shot this morning :)
Quote from: Hailey zy on October 23, 2015, 03:39:22 PM
I got my first dress today!!!
I hope you wear it well....
Quote from: iKate on October 23, 2015, 07:32:54 PM
There is one thing - my health insurance updated my name and gender. So my prescriptions are in my correct name now and the E is covered for $5 copay.
Saving money is good!
Yes it is girlfriend. Congrats on getting that changed.
Quote from: Tamika Olivia on October 23, 2015, 10:55:37 PM
Started HRT today. That's... that's pretty happy :D
Way to go girl. Welcome to the E class of 2015.
Quote from: Kellam on October 22, 2015, 08:05:48 PM
Just talked to my Pop, his 70th birthday phone call....I always was a Poppa's girl and now I know my Poppa loves me and is proud that I am his child.
I am absurdly happy!
That is so great Kellam!
May seem like a small thing, and it was actually last night but still counts I think!
I roleplay(D&D 5e at the moment) with a group of friends and last nights session was the first time they've gone a whole session without slipping on name or pronouns even once!
Its a small thing but made me very happy :)
My wife bought me a really pretty dress and it perfectly too
Just finished weekend work. 10 hours of system testing Oh joy.
I can get dinner and go to bed.
My breast growth keeps on surprising me.
When will it stop?
definitely moving to tanner stage 4 now. :)
Sndz like good things are happening for all of us girlz!
I booked my flight to Bangkok! Departing Jan. 16! Hooray!
Quote from: Joi on October 24, 2015, 11:05:54 AM
Sndz like good things are happening for all of us girlz!
I booked my flight to Bangkok! Departing Jan. 16! Hooray!
How wonderful! It's not that far away! It will go by very quickly. I wish you a happy journey and success.
Cindi
I finally decided to give rawhide bones to my puppy today. Now she's attacking one with vengeance. Perhaps she'll be less likely to want to pull apart my furniture.....
Cindi
Last night my wife and I were snuggling in bed and she said to me something like: 'i had never been atracted to women before, but I love you'
my heart melted.
Another day today I made 20k+ steps on. Like when that happens.
I had been giving my department manager gentle hints that I didn't appreciate him calling me dude and sir. I thought everyone there knows I'm trans but had forgotten that he was out on bereavement leave when I came out. At one point when I was away from our area two of my coworkers explained reality to him. He apologized and vowed to do better and is, of course, good with it as is our corporate culture.
I asked him what he thought my boobs meant (without actually being that crass). He said he just thought I was fat. I gave him such a look and everyone cracked up! We're such a merry crew!
Today... I took my camera for a walk in Amsterdam.
Oh my dear, it is too heavy for me now. I lost much weight this year, including some muscle mass.
Considered whether that with the camera is a good or a bad thing, but it ended up here. :) Priorities.
Today I weighed myself and I am officially 10 pounds lighter than I was last month! :)
Also I am currently 11 days post-op for voice surgery and the results are coming along.
I came out to my mom and the world didn't spontaneously combust. She was incredibly gracious and loving. Lots of tears, smiles and hugs.
Picked up an estradiol prescription yesterday. It had my correct name on it. YAY!
Now I need to figure out why insurance isn't covering it.
Two from yesterday, first was from my son who's not fully been told yet but is working it for himself, held a door open for me and said" Ladies first".
Second was when i visited my ex turned mentor, dressed in my best tights, t-shirt and hotpants, said something along the lines of"For f**ks sake!! I can't c**ting well wear stuff like that but you can with legs like that, you're taking the p*ss." She's the third person now that commented on how good my legs are. Excuse the swearing but she was mighty unimpressed, lol.
Sophie
Quote from: Sophieraven on October 26, 2015, 02:25:03 PM
Two from yesterday, first was from my son who's not fully been told yet but is working it for himself, held a door open for me and said" Ladies first".
Yeah, I love this. At my work they really make sure to exercise it.
Quote from: Sophieraven on October 26, 2015, 02:25:03 PM
...I can't c**ting well wear stuff like that but you can with legs like that...
Yeah, my wife got pissed at me for wearing skinny jeans one morning. I was like "um, yeah, but curves are sexy and I have zero." Really, it was impossible to say anything in this situation that couldn't be interpreted as calling her fat. :( I did my best to take her anger as a complement.
Today, the dumb undergrads in my lab went for a walk outside the lab rather than giggle about my clothes within earshot. Um, progress!
I got to make my first work related court appearance as a female today. It was a great experience. I ran into two lawyers I have know for years and they had no idea who I was when I said hello. I guess the changes have been pretty drastic over the last 8 months.
Second apptmnt for hrt tommorow first one was difficult because of health care adress/service problem nurses promised everything is sorted out should have estrogen in my body tomorrow at this time. So what made me happy is the help from the staff in dealing with the government billing issue as I dont have trans compotent clinics in my "catch basin"
Sounds like congratulations are in order for both Jessica and Jessie Ann :D
I literately jumped four feet in the air. I've been super nervous about my endocrinologist appointment next week and if I'd get a prescription on the first visit and if I needed my therapist to write a letter of recommendation. So I finally called and they don't see any reason I shouldn't get a prescription on the first visit since I've already been presenting as female for so long. I don't care if its even just spiro that I get just to be able to kill the male stink will be enough. Only eight days to go!!!!
Finally got injection of Lupron so maybe can get the T under control - see where things are in 3 months
be well
jenifer
What an amazing day! I met with a professor at a college nearby about possibly attending his school next school year. I connected with him through my therapist, who had said that he could be a valuable resource to me. He was so kind and open that I kind of poured my heart out to him about being trans and planning a transition while also possibly going to school. He was very supportive and encouraging and inquisitive. I should note he's a Social Work PhD and is also a leader in the local LGBTQ community. He encouraged me to apply and write down my story in my personal statement and that from what he said, I'm just the kind of candidate that they would like to have.
In addition to that, when I got home I had some Katelyn time for myself, so for the last 2 hours I've been wearing my favorite dress while cleaning up the house. It just feels amazing and right to be in a dress, even while just puttering around the house. I am a very happy girl at the moment.
I had to Do a site induction talk today for a new Contractor on site .My boss introduced me as this is Toni she will do your induction today .What a rush I feel on top of the world that is affirming my gender as I feel inside and I love it
Toni
Toni- Thanks for the early a.m. reminder for me be to be grateful for the small things in this long journey. Mine came in the form of an email when a person with whom I had ties to from the military started with, "Dear Sheila-". Small things make a great difference in the quality of my life as a woman. Blessings, Sheila Grace
This morning as I was getting ready to leave work (I work an overnight shift right now), one of the guys I know from day shift stopped to chat for a few seconds. I'm still presenting male there, my official coming out day is next Thursday but for now still guy clothes.
Anyway, while we were talking he said: "You know, you remind me of someone." I was thinking oh wow, here we go...... Then he continues : "Um..... ok so this is a woman so don't get mad at me ok?"
My reply: "You have no idea how NOT mad I am about that." :D
So apparently I look like a chef on QVC. I'll take that, especially in guy mode!
Today I went home earlier. Was at my home isle and shops around 17.30. It was already getting dark.
I love when it is getting dark that early. This is my part of the year.
My wife came home from work and she wanted to see the real me, a women, for the first time. She liked my wig, and said my dress was very cute ;D Big step for us, and it felt great being me for the rest of the night with her and my daughter. She even mentioned after we put our daughter to bed she was going to help with my makeup.
A fantastic day!
For the past two months I've been drinking spearmint tea almost every night. Nothing special just the one that you can get at any grocery chain. Since studies had suggested that it slowed hair growth. I'll admit I didn't believe it but thought well for a couple of dollars what can it hurt?
I always feel my soon to be gone facial hair every morning and noticed something is different. Every morning my face feels rough and I can really feel and notice the stubble. But today it's not as rough by far big difference. This is almost twenty hours since my last shave as well.
So I'm hoping my body is going to take to estrogen like a duck to water if I'm getting results just from a very weak anti androgen.
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Quote from: RavenL on October 29, 2015, 07:49:19 AM
I always feel my soon to be gone facial hair every morning and noticed something is different. Every morning my face feels rough and I can really feel and notice the stubble. But today it's not as rough by far big difference. This is almost twenty hours since my last shave as well.
So I'm hoping my body is going to take to estrogen like a duck to water if I'm getting results just from a very weak anti androgen.
Hi Raven
I hope You can be as lucky as Me in that My beard growth has virtually stopped altogether as I live full time as a Woman I still quickly run a razor over my face to be safe but I don't really need to but I then moisturise before doing My makeup
Quote from: Emjay on October 28, 2015, 02:08:20 PM
This morning as I was getting ready to leave work (I work an overnight shift right now), one of the guys I know from day shift stopped to chat for a few seconds. I'm still presenting male there, my official coming out day is next Thursday but for now still guy clothes.
Anyway, while we were talking he said: "You know, you remind me of someone." I was thinking oh wow, here we go...... Then he continues : "Um..... ok so this is a woman so don't get mad at me ok?"
My reply: "You have no idea how NOT mad I am about that." :D
So apparently I look like a chef on QVC. I'll take that, especially in guy mode!
Good luck next Thursday!!!!!
Quote from: ToniB on October 29, 2015, 08:59:32 AM
Hi Raven
I hope You can be as lucky as Me in that My beard growth has virtually stopped altogether as I live full time as a Woman I still quickly run a razor over my face to be safe but I don't really need to but I then moisturise before doing My makeup
I'm keeping my fingers crossed! I'm having good luck with weak anti androgens and proto estrogen in food and my body seeks to like it. Over the past few months I've dropped muscle mass and feel calmer. Just could do without being tired and cold. Of course it could be in my head who knows?
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I came out to my grandparents and they supportive and happy for me and even tried using my new name ;D
most of my facial hair is gone, just a few patches left under my jaw this really brightened my day because i haven't shaved in 3 days and still can't see the hair just feel it, hopefully after my 3rd laser session it will all be gone :)
Two things for today:
- Even after skipping 3 weeks of electrolysis, my electrologists was able to clear my face in under 50 minutes.
- She pulled this slightly long ingrown hair out
(https://farm6.staticflickr.com/5709/22395152010_e47bd8ed48_b.jpg)
Even though I exfoliate regular and use TendSkin, it just happens. She said that it's the longest one she has ever pulled out.
The most amazing thing happened today. I got a call from the manager of my local surgery saying my name has been updated on the NHS records (I started the process last week) but as I was the first transgender patient there, I learnt she had gone back and forth with a hospital to work out the process.
What came out of it was my old medical file was unregistered, I got a new NHS number with my new name on it for my protection. (Records were transferred to it but it basically kills the old name)
The best part? She had gotten my gender marker changed to female without me even asking! And I am not even on HRT yet since I'm waiting for my initial appointment. It seems she went to extra lengths to get that changed for me and when I saw the new blood test forms for December with my new details I nearly cried.
Had my hair done, took some photos and undated my avatar!
In trying to figure out a Halloween outfit to wear to work tomorrow, I tried on one of my old guy suits. I think I am to the point I'm not going to get mistaken for a guy. It's amazing what a little bit of estrogen, a little bit of time and a little bit of surgery can do. :)
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Quote from: Jessie Ann on October 30, 2015, 12:43:43 AM
In trying to figure out a Halloween outfit to wear to work tomorrow, I tried on one of my old guy suits. I think I am to the point I'm not going to get mistaken for a guy.
You are completely right! No way anyone would mistake you for a guy. :P ;)
Estrogen isn't supposed to work this fast... right? I filled a prescription for a higher dose yesterday. Breast volume doubled overnight (um, from tiny breast buds to half-as-tiny breast buds), I noticed that my facial fat distribution has been changing for the first time last night. I'm wearing zombie makeup, and i got ma'am'd for the first time ever -- makeup isn't supposed to do that... right? And a friend asked me what pronouns I prefer!
Quote from: sparrow on October 30, 2015, 06:21:52 PM
Estrogen isn't supposed to work this fast... right? I filled a prescription for a higher dose yesterday. Breast volume doubled overnight (um, from tiny breast buds to half-as-tiny breast buds), I noticed that my facial fat distribution has been changing for the first time last night. I'm wearing zombie makeup, and i got ma'am'd for the first time ever -- makeup isn't supposed to do that... right? And a friend asked me what pronouns I prefer!
Maybe, maybe not. Within a few days of starting P for me I definitely noticed volume increase as measured by bra tightness.
I love gentlemanly older men, bless their nearsighted hearts! (Yes, even though I'm a lesbian.) I wasn't particularly trying to pass today. I was trying to get through a particularly tiring day at work. I was looking for items for a shipment in an isle in Walmart today when an elderly gentleman excused himself and moved past me to get some medicine off of the shelf. He knocked a bottle of something else off of the shelf doing so and creakily bent to pick it back up. I said (not trying to used a feminine voice), "please let me get that for you." He responded, "oh, no, I'll get it. If I let you my father will be spinning in his grave, he raised me better than that." We chatted a short while, me concerned for when he would finally clock me. He never did! I passed with no makeup, what had become my typical voice and in the peculiarly androgynous "uniform" of a Walmart employee. Older people seem to accept me more often than younger ones. I think the younger ones are just more apt to look critically at any woman who isn't "pretty".
Quote from: Jessie Ann on October 30, 2015, 12:43:43 AM
In trying to figure out a Halloween outfit to wear to work tomorrow, I tried on one of my old guy suits. I think I am to the point I'm not going to get mistaken for a guy. It's amazing what a little bit of estrogen, a little bit of time and a little bit of surgery can do. :)
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Oh me please lose the tie!!!! You are a woman, please no ties. I so enjoyed some 20-30 years ago with boxing up all my yuck male suits & ties & giving to Goodwill. I still get the willies even thinking about wearing a neck tie, Yuck. You look great otherwise, have fun woman.
Agreed on necktied, they are the bane of my existence. I'm happy because I came out to my uncle and he wrote me a really supportive message back. I figured he would be supportive, he's gay and lives in San Francisco. He immediately went to work describing how I can expand my support network. It was also really nice when he immediately referred to me as his niece, without questioning.
Good for you. I never liked wearing any male clothes since childhood, they always felt stupid. Only did it some to make others happy, my father.....yuck with that long ago. Give me a pretty dress anyday!
I'm doing well on my Atkins diet & have lost 20 to 25 pounds. I sure know how to bake oopsie bread. It just feels so good to be a woman.
Congrats Francis Ann
Let's just say that this was a missed opportunity to have been really, really happy. Giving out candy tonight for Halloween, a lady brought her two children to the door for treats. I was dressed head to toe en femme. Just as she was leaving she commented "What a nice costume!" I politely replied: "Thank You" As I was walking away from the door, I thought to myself: You really blew it! You should have followed up your thank you with, but it's not a costume.
Still pretty new at this. Guess I'll have to wait till next Halloween to make it good.
Hugz,
Good for me. I finally got the nerve to use my NuFree hair removal system (kind of a wax hair removal system) & it works great, happy dance. Now I can keep the remaining facial & other so ugly hairs under control. Rip those nasty things off my body!!! NyFree is a great system used by professional salons. If you have unwanted hairs give it a try you will love it.
Quote from: Mariah2014 on October 31, 2015, 07:34:55 PM
Congrats Francis Ann
Thanks girl friend. I hope you are well, hugs & take care, Francis
Today I fixed my neck wallet that got torn up a bit. I also had a great day. Was 12+ hours outside home.
I went out en femme for Halloween, which is of course not really a costume for me, but it was the only night I could be sure that nobody would give me guff.
Anyway, I had a sort of startling realization that I'm fairly sure I was passing. First, without even having any makeup on I got carded at the grocery store when picking up a bit to drink. When she saw my picture with short-cropped hair and a beard, she gave out a good giggle. There was just something about that giggle... I didn't have any makeup on yet so I had a visible facial hair shadow, but I think she read me as female initially, then it clicked when she saw my ID.
Later on, with makeup on, I ducked into a bar to use the restroom and to avoid complications I just went to the men's room. Hardly odd on Halloween. So, when I came out of the restroom I heard a guy go, "Whoa! That chick just came out of the men's room!" That felt pretty good. :)
My driver's license update is done!
My social security update is done!
I need the proper stuff to make to me in the mail but it's done and all that. No more discomfort when the clerk asks to see my id when I pay with credit card. No more worries with random encounters with police or some such thing.
Not only do I have permission by the government to be me but I really can't be anything else.
Yes, I'm babbling and I haven't even had anything to drink. Wow, I had no idea this moment would feel so good.
I had a long convo with mum about other things and she let it slip that shed always love me no matter what and i was super super close to come out to her. Once i do, and if she accepts me, i will go full time female.
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Have spent a month working on a defect at work on my code.
Very difficult and much head scratching or is that nits?
Turns out not built correctly by the developers.
Solved and signed off for production first go.
Amazing how without crippling GID I can get stuff done so much better.
Today I wore my girl jeans down to the laundry room in my apartment. I'm still not out to anyone, and nobody looked at me much at all, but I guess this was technically my first time wearing women's clothes in public.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on October 31, 2015, 08:50:22 AM
Good for you. I never liked wearing any male clothes since childhood, they always felt stupid. Only did it some to make others happy, my father.....yuck with that long ago. Give me a pretty dress anyday!
Clothes I'm indifferent about. I pass in male clothing and I sometimes throw something on quick when I'm going to the store. But it's not like I make a habit about it.
today is my last work day as I prepare to leave for my grs surgery next monday the 9th I plan to be off site a month at least and so excited I can not stand it, the down side I am now totally in man o paus from my absence of hormones but it is worth the discomfort knowing this should be my last time for this to happen.
YAYYYY!!!!!
Jerri
I just used a public women's room for the first time I'm a little shaken from making such a big step but it felt so right!
I normally avoid public bathrooms because I feel super awkward in the men's room.
Quote from: Jerri on November 03, 2015, 03:05:10 PM
today is my last work day as I prepare to leave for my grs surgery next monday the 9th I plan to be off site a month at least and so excited I can not stand it, the down side I am now totally in man o paus from my absence of hormones but it is worth the discomfort knowing this should be my last time for this to happen.
YAYYYY!!!!!
Jerri
Jerri, Good for you girl friend. I know you will feel so much better about yourself soon. It will feel strange being off our normal hormones but you will be OK. I've had to stop for surgeries before. I'm sure you will feel great with a vagina. I wish my surgery was next week. My body has always looked & felt so strange with extra stuff attached, I've always been female since childhood. I really like men & so hope somehow I can finally complete my GRS, then heal up & hopefully enjoy a normal sex life. I have a well endowed nice black man courting me now. It would be so nice to enjoy him completely if my body were correct & ready. Good luck to you. Post later on this thread to let us all know how you are doing, please.
Got a letter today from "Breastscreen New South Wales" inviting me for a mammogram. And I hadn't even asked for one?!
The other week we got a letter from the council addressed to "Mses" - ok, they wNt money, but still........ :)
I had to cancel my electrolysis appointment for tomorrow because I have hardly any facial hair for my electrologist to zap ;D
The only thing I have is a few small ones trying to come through under be chin, but they are thin and soft and not long enough. Next week she might have something to zap.
I had a god awful early morning flight from LAX to Philadelphia. Up at 3:15 to get ready and drive to the airport. What made me happy was the flight was not very crowded and I got a row of seats to myself so I could lay down and sleep for 3 hours. I get to spend 4 days in Philadelphia and explore one of the USA's great places and hang out with some great people.
Had my first endo appointment this afternoon. She was great and very understanding and did not act like a gatekeeper. She even thought I was already on HRT. She went ahead and gave me a prescription for estradiol. From my research it's a larger dose then usual for starting.
I was surprised she didn't pit me on spironolactone first. But she said she usually doesn't prescribe spiro and likes finasteride better. And she will add that during my next appointment in January. So now blood draw tomorrow then she said I'm good to go.
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I've been really lazy with my morning workouts. I finally got off my butt and get back to my routine again, and it felt wonderful. Plus it allows me to rock my favorite tank top ;D
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I work in NYC, and today after work I went to a group at the LGBT center and it made me feel so calm and so visible and so accepted even though I never say anything. It made feel connected and not alone with this. I imagine it is unlikely that someone from the group is reading this, but I can't thank you enough for allowing me to be part of this group. If anyone needs something like this in NYC, I'd recommend going. First Wednesday of the month.
Dori.
Way to go Miss Raven!! Welcome to the 2015 E Class. Now just sit back and enjoy the ride.
Quote from: RavenL on November 04, 2015, 04:11:25 PM
Had my first endo appointment this afternoon. She was great and very understanding and did not act like a gatekeeper. She even thought I was already on HRT. She went ahead and gave me a prescription for estradiol. From my research it's a larger dose then usual for starting.
I was surprised she didn't pit me on spironolactone first. But she said she usually doesn't prescribe spiro and likes finasteride better. And she will add that during my next appointment in January. So now blood draw tomorrow then she said I'm good to go.
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If many of you girls love men there is a dating site called "7 or better". Only men with 7 inches or more are allowed. There are some really handsome well endowed men there. Such studs & all seem so horny for a woman. Not many cis women are bold enough to respond so all the men are really hungry for a relationship, sex. Good luck girl friends. As they say you have to kiss some frogs before you find a prince & a real man that will treat you like a lady. There are lots of men searching for a lady.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on November 05, 2015, 05:14:44 AM
If many of you girls love men there is a dating site called "7 or better". Only men with 7 inches or more are allowed. There are some really handsome well endowed men there. Such studs & all seem so horny for a woman. Not many cis women are bold enough to respond so all the men are really hungry for a relationship, sex. Good luck girl friends.
Wow. Um. ::blush::
Quote from: RavenL on November 04, 2015, 04:11:25 PM
Had my first endo appointment this afternoon.
That is awesome Raven! The world just grew a little :)
Had my first Endo appointment on the 20th of last month and it was the same experience, she is accepting and after some discussion, intent and understanding was established...scripts issued. Your Endo has a method and should answer any questions you might have about the 'why' of how they approach HRT.
As to what made me happy today? Being a glutton for punishment...the girls are sore and that made me happy :D
Today I passed and I don't know how.
I'll preface by saying I have some ideas. A few days ago someone I came out to told me that my voice was already in the gender ambiguous range and I speak and annunciate in a feminine fashion. Another told me that my physical mannerisms, how I stand and hold myself, were not masculine but not "camp" either.
I was walking my Nana's dog Penny, around the retirement village, when we ran into a new person also walking a little dog.
A little old lady walking with the aid of a stick, bent with age and as I would learn later limited vision.
Penny went to greet the woman and her dog and I did so too.
We got to talking about this and that and that she thought she recognised my dog. I told her about how my granddad used to walk her, this jogged her memory and she asked after him so I told her about his passing and how I had come up to help out.
The next thing she said surprised me: "Aren't you a good girl, looking after your Nan."
I was dressed in man-mode and had been thinking I was light years from passing in any sense. I thanked her for her compliment, not knowing what else to do and we walked together for a time talking, which is when she mentioned having limited vision.
So that's my first moment of passing. Now if only I could make my body match the rest of me... Or blind everyone! But I think I'd get in trouble for that.
Hugs,
Sarah
Quote from: KatelynBG on November 05, 2015, 05:24:30 AM
Wow. Um. ::blush::
Katelyn, Why blush? Most any woman enjoys being with a man. I'm a hetrosexual woman & always have been. Take care.
Went shopping for some new tops and got some skirts for the first time!
The best part of this is my mum seemed to enjoy seeing what I took home and even gave some fashion advice. It makes me realise she is starting to accept it which makes me warm inside.
Also I might be getting a new job soon. I have been doing some learning at a local centre and they offered me work experience! If all goes well I might get a permanent role there.
Such a great day today I could sing :D
I was "excuse me darling"'d, whilst in boy mode. Which is promising. On the other side, the Dr messed up my appointment so I didn't get my triptorelin injection >:(
I know this is an oxymoron. I just returned from 2 hrs. of electrolysis (Arggh) How could one be happy about that. Upper lip clean and cleared. No more moustache!
I went shopping today dressed very nice & passable as any cis woman would look, better than most really. After 2 years of HRT & plastic surgery for liposuction & a tummy tuck I have an hourglass figure. However for my butt to look nice I wore my 4 padded girdle to add some shape in tight jeans. Oh me I so wish my bull would fill in. My breasts are so nice however my butt is just too flat. I may have my plastic surgeon do something. I know he can do it. He has helped me so much to have a nice female shape. I'd be a happy girl with a normal nice bull to show off.
had my first Laser test patch for my beard removal today...went off perfectly, can hardly even see any redness on the test patch and certainly no discomfort, Having it done was far less pain full than I first thought it might be, however I suspect having a test patch as opposed to a full face and neck treatment is a bit easier to take. But even so I found a couple of my pain management techniques worked really well and I hardly noticed it at all...I feel like I have finally started in a small way the physical part of my transition.
It just feels good to be a woman. My body is finally looking somewhat normal & I'm doing a happy dance. Good luck fellow ladies. Please enjoy being yourself, a woman.
Today I got a call from my friend's girlfriend, wanting to go clothes shopping and do makeovers! Totally out of the blue and I've never visited them other than in guy mode. She happened across some old Halloween pictures, and offered to help me pick a Halloween costume via text (they live 2500 miles away). Now she wants me to come visit, dressed to thrill. She really likes my style, and called me her Bestie! It made me feel amazing!!
My voice practicing goes well. Yesterday and today I was using it full day with services and all. I got back to cursing while keeping the high pitch. Also making jokes about stuff that is going on while pretending to be on call. That is me. Actual me. I was feeling so chained while voiceless outdoors. Not anymore.
But other than the voice, this day was a disaster.
My endo's office called yesterday just to see how I was doing, and also that my blood work came back great. So I went ahead and asked if I could jump on spiro as well since everything was all clear. My endo called back about thirty minutes later and told if I really wanted to it was fine with her. So in about an hour I had my first prescription ready for me its the starting dose from what I've researched.
Anyway today is day three on estradiol I made a post about this yesterday before the crash that I thought I had some minor changes already but it might be just placebo. But this morning I feel different just a lot more calm and relaxed. Usually on my first day of work I'm worried about the mess I'll walk into but not this morning. It might be placebo but even if it is I love it. And if its the estradiol I really love it!
I took an inventory of my self, of how far Ive come, who I am,and where I am going. Spending almost all my life being buried , and miserable is now in my rear view. I am happy with the direction my life has finally taken. For the most part of my life ,being trans was my dirty little secret. Now I can be in public as my true self with out shame. I now am out to all those important to me, My next hurdle is at my employment. I am grateful to the few trans friends and allies that I have. Also to Susan and all the girls here. Without this site alot of girls would still be suffering , or worse. I also thank Susan's Place For letting me post here in that my typing skills have greatly improved over the years. I wont win any awards but I can do a lilmore than a short paragraph now. Life will offer its ups and downs,and ->-bleeped-<- on me . I believe that transition has made me stronger to handle some of that.(but not the bad hormonal days lol). For the most part life is good.
Yesterday I set my consultation up for FFS. I also got an outfit and handbag in the mail from my mother. The best part is feeling her support and excitement for having a daughter. (:
Last night I went out for a girls night with my cousin and sister in law. It was awesome! To be called ma'am, ladies, was so good to hear. I noticed a few looks early on, but once we started talking, everything else fell by the wayside. I wasn't even self conscious about my voice. Well, not very often. [emoji39]
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It got out in the site crash but my 2nd daughter Elena was born yesterday. Yay!
Quote from: KatelynBG on November 07, 2015, 03:36:51 PM
It got out in the site crash but my 2nd daughter Elena was born yesterday. Yay!
Congratulations Katelyn
Quote from: KatelynBG on November 07, 2015, 03:36:51 PM
It got out in the site crash but my 2nd daughter Elena was born yesterday. Yay!
Such a joyous day! Congratulations Katelyn ;D
Quote from: Nattiedoll on November 07, 2015, 01:05:03 PM
Yesterday I set my consultation up for FFS. I also got an outfit and handbag in the mail from my mother. The best part is feeling her support and excitement for having a daughter. (:
I almost have a little tear. I'm so happy for you & your mother. Please enjoy your mother all you can & learn from her about life & becomming as nice of a daugher to her as you can be. Mine passed away 3 years ago. She loved me so much & always knew I was her daughter & very proud of me.
I received my first breast forms today, I was hesitant at first buying them (not sure why.) My wife pushed me to buy them. So glad I did ... they feel pretty real. I'm enjoying the jiggling when I move around, and the more natural breast look in my clothes :D
well a day late cause of the crash, but got to spend the whole day friday as the real me ( yeah ). had a therapy appointment . was kinda of funny my therapist was running a little late and I was waiting out in the hall trying to look natural ? a good number of men passed me by , most smiling at me and saying hello! several women go buy didn't give me a second look ! after my session spent the rest of the afternoon doing some shopping ( what else ). actually had to respond to several salesgirls that spoke to me.. eeeek . bought some nice sweaters and tops , saleslady that checked me out didn't give me a second glance ? have to say a GREAT day ! side note is I'm pre everything and would guess I couldn't pass on a bet. guess I'm doing something right and suppose I blended in with the other old gals out shopping. Hooray!
Moving out of my parents house so I can move along with my transition.
Congrats on freeing yourself from being under their roof. Hugs
Mariah
Quote from: rachel89 on November 07, 2015, 10:44:39 PM
Moving out of my parents house so I can move along with my transition.
Quote from: rachel89 on November 07, 2015, 10:44:39 PM
Moving out of my parents house so I can move along with my transition.
Very good luck to you! Have strength. Plan carefully.
Quote from: rachel89 on November 07, 2015, 10:44:39 PM
Moving out of my parents house so I can move along with my transition.
Congratulations Rachel, take care now and best of luck.
Today I went to my cousin's daughter Ava's seventh birthday.
A few hours before I left the house I asked if she wanted me to attend in man-disguise or as myself as Ava had not met me as Sarah yet.
My cousin told me that she had tried explaining to Ava what it means to be transgender but that Ava didn't understand most of it but would love to meet Sarah.
It was a fantastic day. All my extended family here, even the in-laws, are so accepting of me and I had to tell them not to beat themselves up when they used my old name and pronoun by accident as they were trying so hard.
They made me feel so loved and so happy.
Hugs,
Sarah
I'm 6 months into HRT.
Last week I told my close friends that I'm transitioning. Six friends, six terrifying confessions.
I was scared to death telling the first two, I was so afraid I was going to lose my friends.
Surprise, surprise, they are all very accepting. The guys are asking questions and showing an interest in how this works. The girls are being supportive beyond anything I could have hoped for. They want to take me shopping and teach me makeup!
So anyway on to the happy part... I was driving to my morning coffee place the other day and started crying. Took me a couple of minutes to figure out why, but I was thinking about a conversation I had with one of the girls the night before and it made me happy.
I was crying because I was happy, that has never happened to me before. I guess that was my first "girl thing" moment. It made me happy.
Quote from: gamerchic_kaylee on November 07, 2015, 05:45:12 PM
I received my first breast forms today, I was hesitant at first buying them (not sure why.) My wife pushed me to buy them. So glad I did ... they feel pretty real. I'm enjoying the jiggling when I move around, and the more natural breast look in my clothes :D
Thanks for mentioning. I may need to get some at some point :( as I am aware they also have the weight factor and thus are helping one's body balance. I got averse to purchasing the items because the first time I heard of them it was mention of persons who wear them for sexual gratification. What I have got is pair of socks in a hard shell bra. B cup. Oh well, I guess I can run like this for some time, I am saving up for surgeries.
Yesterday was a disaster day for me. So far I am happy nothing overly disturbing happened to me today. Didn't go out. What I did is eat and sleep, that's it. But having fun calls, I shall get dressed and just go out tonight.
Quote from: Martine A. on November 08, 2015, 08:47:51 AM
Thanks for mentioning. I may need to get some at some point :( as I am aware they also have the weight factor and thus are helping one's body balance. I got averse to purchasing the items because the first time I heard of them it was mention of persons who wear them for sexual gratification. What I have got is pair of socks in a hard shell bra. B cup. Oh well, I guess I can run like this for some time, I am saving up for surgeries.
I did the socks stuffed into a push up bra as well, and I have to say breast forms are the best way to go if you can afford them. I bought my off Amazon for $31 ... I'm not sure if that's considered cheap or lower quality, but they were my first and didn't want to go crazy.
I would recommend them for the fact they are more natural looking, and give the weight and movement of natural breasts. I think they are a good stop gap until I get onto HRT and hopefully develop my own breasts. They have a good wiggle when you walk, go up stairs, etc... Really feels like you have real breasts. I would give them a second look.
I haven't heard about people using them primarily for sexual gratification. The stories I'm mostly read were from breast cancer survivors that had mastectomies, and wanted something that can be as close to natural breasts.
Simple things for me.
I have two littke girls and they slept all the way through the night last night.
It is amazing the difference a full night sleep makes on your daily outlook.
Take care
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So many wonderful things happening, it makes me smile. I was sitting in an airport lounge today waiting to head back to Los Angeles when a young woman walking by smiled at me and told me that she really liked my sense of style. :)
Done another photo session. This was a night one.
Made many pictures of Amsterdam.
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Quote from: Martine A. on November 08, 2015, 04:27:14 PM
Done another photo session. This was a night one.
Made many pictures of Amsterdam.
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Beautiful photograph!
Quote from: Martine A. on November 08, 2015, 04:27:14 PM
Done another photo session. This was a night one.
Made many pictures of Amsterdam.
(https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/v9QmF2hx35IvmOOii2FPQj_QvbBPd9VXbU5ecDN-vQrP-VE9ca4luXWhloRu_zZ10pwdGWbHgMhycjUyIPR2DC9OICRSwcC7iE4Cuuv1yQ-qhNaFC8BNHRLE-IVihcraBAaN3_O23piZix0SQJ_iNIwUDCOedGjyp4uzebZ40K6KS_8kNQgrrEgxmw6VaYZSpC6A02EKKZYTejbyVfkZRdgRFIZlrWHN6FK_FyqWEEUNx6m90ILqFyJIgPYtgbJwdkAjYEwcy4nszYaIqjZfReqkxlrH6PYL1CHlLNE-DsrpaBukMgS3u1iWnRxEtKNstdtTf3mbcVCbA6HVq83f0KZiWB-MaH2ArrTLZM5_WLxjerS0Fot_4xDhToI9uMgCgCXdDb46oxZ3HJPggaEsLGN-9q4tsFyonQjKkC80HQ7grfqsMCcf1S7ftLGwOPRCmQ2JD9XFlcdpw3f95gx_FWQwjYUbNm8OfVFqVgCj-BDZsesJm1ZnY6MUE8RR3nwYx_wQQyIYN2jhMOkByPx_vhKnYLahJxaOWk12q2rDETA=w1605-h1071-no)
Gorgeous! Wow, that's a fantastic shot.
Sticking with my Atkins way of eating/diet to lose another 15 maybe 20 pounds. I have so many women friends in the same boat eating better to lose extra fat & that is so nice. I'm just one of the girls trying to cook better low carb recipes. Love to cook, it's so much fun. I've always loved to cook a really nice dinner for my man that I'm in a relationship with.
Spent my day getting to know a really awesome sister! It felt so wonderful to just relax together.
Today I put on makeup and did my hair for the first time since my facial surgery with Dr. Zukowski in September, and I left my apartment without a compression garment on (before today I have been wearing a facial compression garment when I go out, so my hair was in a ponytail, and no need for makeup). For the first time in 2 months I am feeling optimistic about the results I'm going to have; I still have more swelling on the right side of my face, than my left side, but it is resolving. And my hair has gotten longer, so that's another plus. :)
After being on a restricted diet for a week related to having GCS, my nurse gave the all clear to return to my regular diet. Yay!
Quote from: brie33 on November 07, 2015, 12:43:42 PM
I took an inventory of my self, of how far Ive come, who I am,and where I am going. Spending almost all my life being buried , and miserable is now in my rear view. I am happy with the direction my life has finally taken. For the most part of my life ,being trans was my dirty little secret. Now I can be in public as my true self with out shame. I now am out to all those important to me, My next hurdle is at my employment. I am grateful to the few trans friends and allies that I have. Also to Susan and all the girls here. Without this site alot of girls would still be suffering , or worse. I also thank Susan's Place For letting me post here in that my typing skills have greatly improved over the years. I wont win any awards but I can do a lilmore than a short paragraph now. Life will offer its ups and downs,and ->-bleeped-<- on me . I believe that transition has made me stronger to handle some of that.(but not the bad hormonal days lol). For the most part life is good.
Hi Brie,
Your post resonates with me big time! I'm just starting transition and finally feel liberated! The suffocating is over! When my alarm went off this morning I was excited about my day and that's not something that has happened too often in the past. That may seem small but it's huge when compared to where I've come from......oh and....I ha electrolysis today too.....yaaaay!!!😳lol
Hugs
Dianne
xo
Quote from: kittenpower on November 08, 2015, 09:51:51 PM
Today I put on makeup and did my hair for the first time since my facial surgery with Dr. Zukowski in September, and I left my apartment without a compression garment on (before today I have been wearing a facial compression garment when I go out, so my hair was in a ponytail, and no need for makeup). For the first time in 2 months I am feeling optimistic about the results I'm going to have; I still have more swelling on the right side of my face, than my left side, but it is resolving. And my hair has gotten longer, so that's another plus. :)
I know your pain & wish you the best. I had a complete facelift & upper eye lid surgery last summer. Your face will return to nomal in time trust me. All the nerves will heal for a normal feeling face. The swelling will go away in time. I also wore a compression facial mask for 2 months almost 24/7. Good luck girl friend. You will be OK. Stay strong.
Quote from: Clara Kay on November 08, 2015, 11:32:21 PM
After being on a restricted diet for a week related to having GCS, my nurse gave the all clear to return to my regular diet. Yay!
OMG Clara. I know you are so excited. That's great news & thanks for sharing. Watch those nasty carbs. they add fat to our bodies so easy...If you ever need the Atkins way of eating is a great system for life to always stay thin. Good luck & take care girl friend.
I have Just had the most awesome weekend .On Friday I had a 20 year long service award presentation at a posh Hotel with 4 course Meal free bar a Disco and Casino .I took My wife with Me she was a little concerned when I wanted to get really Dolled up for it .But did allow me to in the end .She was really not sure when I wanted to wear My Heels as she did not really understand how accepted I was at Work and thought I would make a spectacle of myself .But when We got there and everybody greeted Me and treated Me as any other woman she started to understand and come round to accepting Me even more .To the extent that she was Very happy (and keen) to dance with Me all night even to the smooches (big step as she had always been worried about being seen as a lesbian) .Then Saturday she wanted to get intimate for the first time in many months .She also asked if she could borrow one of my cardigans I had just bought so I said You can have it if You like it and she was pleased as punch .Later she came back from her Day out with a beautiful pretty and very feminine top she had bought for Me saying this is your style and I thought it would suit You ,this from the woman that always tried to steer me towards blouses that look like Men's shirts LOL. So I think she has suddenly realised that nobody is shocked or concerned about my transition or think anything bad about Her so she has no need to feel worried about other Peoples reactions as there has not been one single bad reaction from anybody (I think it Just means that they can all See that I have always been a Girl inside LOL) so we where talking about the future and I was talking about future Plans and Said that's if You want to Keep Me she said I definitely want to keep you silly .So that was a good sign as at one time she was very unsure if she could cope with my transition .So hopefully We have turned a corner and there is no going back (not that there was any possibility of that with Me)
I'm so happy for you, Toni! What I wouldn't give for that resolution!
In the last week, my skin has suddenly gotten soft, and I have a subcutaneous fat layer! I've been quite happy about that, but I was a bit nervous about how my wife would react -- she's never been with a woman, so she was a bit tentative as well. We tried things out last night... she likes the softer, squishier me! YAY! This was a huge relief to both of us.
As further reminder/confirmation that my entire body is changing on HRT, when i was getting dressed this morning, i went to check my bottom in the mirror (hey don't we all?) and i noticed cellulite on my upper thighs is definitely there. I saw hints of it before but no doubt this morning.
..and yep that made me very happy ;D
Well somehow I'm passing really well today, even after speaking. I gotten gendered correctly twenty times today. And usually the dreaded looks from young kids are comments that she's really tall. I didn't do anything to change my appearance today just zero eyeshadow. Plus my estradiol is making me feel nauseous since this morning and I didn't look my best. Oh well I'll take it just wish my mood would change.
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Quote from: RavenL on November 09, 2015, 07:40:49 PM
Plus my estradiol is making me feel nauseous since this morning and I didn't look my best.
My pharmacist warned me that estradiol might make me nauseous, so that I should take it at night right before I go to bed. I've generally got an iron stomach, so I didn't heed his advice. I've heard a few people say that dissolving the estradiol tabs under your tongue gives more immediate effects... so of course, I've been doing that even though I figure it's psychosomatic. I do wonder if dissolving the tabs under your tongue might cut down on the nausea. So: I've been dissolving the tabs under my tongue first thing in the morning, right after I take my spiro. No nausea, but like I said, iron stomach.
Taking the estradiol sublingualy allows the medication to enter the body without dealing with the stomach and digestive track. It allows more of it to effect you.
On a personal note I rarely have anything to add to this conversation, I have a nearly supernatural power to see the worse in life and myself, something I am trying to work on. For a while I have been trying in vain to find a coat that fits and I need to see a dentist too, and for the last week or so I have had a sore throat that turned into a full cold. I consider my voice my weakest link and adding the hacking cough and sore throat kills what little I can do making it even worse. Dressed in sweat pants and hoody, no make-up, no cute cloths, no breast forms, it makes feeling like myself tough.
All that said I was laying in my bed on my stomach (a position that has gotten a bit sensitive sense I started hormones, if you know what i mean) so I am watching tv and I look down and notice rather clearly that the hormones are doing there thing, nothing major and I really hope it keeps going but things have definitely changed. I mean I am still sure that given how fat I am no one would think anything of it, but still it's something and it puts a smile on my face. I even took pictures and may be a bit obsessed with them. :-P so I guess taking picture of my tater tots is what made me happy today despite everything else that's getting me down.
Serena
Of late I've been feeling down, I guess wondering where I am going to get $ to take further steps in my transition (I've had a rather unfortunate series of financial events happen all at once). I even thought of doing the unthinkable.
These days I'm so broke I can't even buy clothes and what I have is literally falling apart. So it's hard to feel happy these days.
I turned on my iPod and played just a random song. I got this on my playlist:
(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fi1188.photobucket.com%2Falbums%2Fz403%2Frjairam%2FD65F939E-C61A-4287-9CCD-9C237DBDD520_zpsd9r2y8ox.jpg&hash=dc5e089c153042e6967d11fe8c28ee30719db7aa)
So I guess I know what to do now. Someone is watching over me?
Sparrow and Serena I've been taking the pill under my tongue since day one. I'm thinking it might be the spiro messing with me.
At any rate I don't know how but all the sudden I started getting guys trying to talk to me in the past couple of days. One friend said I might be producing female pheromones already but that seems highly unlikely. Along with that I've had women comment that my makeup/clothes look nice. So maybe who knows? But I did notice that this morning that my guy smell is going away which is nice.
Today Sweetie and I went to the outlet mall to go to L'occitane and Bare Minerals. I saw myself reflected in a window and realized how good I looked in my creamsicle kicks, jeans, orange shirt, a brown coat I just lost enough weight to wear again, and my orange, brown and cream infinity scarf. For contrast I had on my bright blue sunglasses. In L'occitane I got some new face wash and found a scent that Sweetie and I could both feel comfortable wearing, Cedar and orange. It works for either gender and smelled wonderful!
In Bare Minerals we were approached, "do you need any help, ladies?" All in all a great day until the waiter in Outback kept calling me "sir".
Quote from: RobynD on November 09, 2015, 03:14:54 PM
As further reminder/confirmation that my entire body is changing on HRT, when i was getting dressed this morning, i went to check my bottom in the mirror (hey don't we all?) and i noticed cellulite on my upper thighs is definitely there. I saw hints of it before but no doubt this morning.
..and yep that made me very happy ;D
You lucky girl. I wish my butt would fill out more.
My first instance of knowing that I can pass out in public happened today!
Someone asked me a couple questions about the centre I was waiting at and then she turned to her partner and said "that lady just let me know that they are still in a meeting"
I honestly don't know what to say I'm just kinda numb with happiness. I'm just doing my best to blend in while waiting for treatment. I have been trying to practice my voice also but didn't know it was paying off.
iKate, - I think the universe is trying to tell you something ;)
Got my letter for hormones and a referral to an endo...I'll be making an appointment today and will finally be on HT which I've only ever dreamt about!!!💋💋...one of you ladies will have to help me figure out how to get the little ticker thing going which counts the days since HT started!!!! Happy happy!!!
Hugs
Dianne
xo
Congratulations Dianne :D It's a wonderful moment that never gets old. Enjoy ;D
Thanks Lady Smith.....I'm thrilled about this and can't wait to start.....
Hey Dianne!
Congratulations and welcome to another step on an awesome journey. <3
I will try to find the link for the post that got my ticker working. The site is 'ticker factory' and I used EVENT as the type. It will generate a BBCODE that you can embed in your signature area. There are a lot of options, so you can personalize things a lot.
Thanks Katylynn....im so excited... The link woulobe great if you can find it meantime I'll see if i can figure it out....im not to good at those things tho so hopefully i won't end up displaying some kind of penis growth chart or something lol.....
Hugs
Dianne
xo
Well I woke up this morning and two good things. My facial hair growth and body hair growth is slowing big time!. I could almost get by not shaving my face if I wanted but sure as heck am! But the arm and leg hair there isn't much to speak of at all hardly.
Plus I'm obsessed with checking my chest every few hours. Nothing has changed but I noticed my nipples are feeling more sensitive then usual.
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Another trans girl paid me a high compliment and told me I could go stealth if I wanted to based on my voice and appearance. That made me feel good. But I don't believe them. My voice still needs a ton of work and I don't think I am fully passing yet. But it was a nice gesture.
Quote from: Lady Smith on November 12, 2015, 04:15:20 AM
iKate, - I think the universe is trying to tell you something ;)
yes, indeed it is. :)
Honestly at this point I can't even see myself ever going back to being him. He just seems so foreign to me.
I agree iKate. It may seem like a small thing from someone who only knows you through the internet, but I kind of look up to you. You've talked about transitioning in your 30s like I am looking to do and seeing your success keeps me going on some harder days.
Had my triptorelin injection today. My E is sky high but my T is still too high (and my doctor prefers estrogen only treatment to suppress the T) so I've had to have the injections to get that T level down finally. Bad part is except for the E I have no other AA to counter the dreaded "spike" so I'm really not looking forward to the next week!
I also managed not to faint during the injection! Yey me!
Had to smile today, while trying to climb up the side of the Lorry to hook a chain on, one of my friendly builders gave me a hand by placing a hand on my back to stop me falling, it took a few seconds for him to realise that what he could feel under his hand was a bra strap. You'd have thought he'd been electrocuted the way he removed his hand, lol. Wonder how long it will be before he asks why.
Sophie.
Quote from: KatelynBG on November 12, 2015, 11:42:16 AM
I agree iKate. It may seem like a small thing from someone who only knows you through the internet, but I kind of look up to you. You've talked about transitioning in your 30s like I am looking to do and seeing your success keeps me going on some harder days.
Thank you!
Believe me I couldn't have done it without my support network, as in you fine ladies, guys and other people. And I really believe that little things make a difference.
Today I went to a lunch and learn with a vendor and I not only passed with flying colors, I also made friends with another woman who was there.
Confidence abounds now. The world is my oyster.
I do want to get my house in order, complete FFS and GRS. Just not sure on what order. Maybe FFS first but I'm getting so much male attention I'm thinking GRS may be wiser, lol.
Anyway feel free to reach out anytime...
Depending upon my clothing choices I'm beginning to hit male fail periodically. I do wear mostly female clothing but more toward the androgynous side. Besides my wife, therapist and local T group I'm not out yet and still have to present male-ish as much as I can anyway. The only article of clothing that is typically male that I wear on a regular basis is my outer shirt (under neath I'm wearing bra and cami everyday now to protect my A cup breasts and to try to cut down on the visible profile).
Last weekend I got ma'am at the grocery store several times.
Today, I went out to lunch and then shoe shopping with my mtf transgender friend (she's more like my big sister at the moment). We had a great time and were called ladies, miss and ma'am the whole time.
All without realy trying to pass - no make up, no breast forms. Just me au natural... :icon_chick:
I'm still on cloud 9 :icon_joy:
I had an acupuncture appointment today ❤️
Had another really surprising passing incident this morning. Someone noticed I was close to tears and tried to cheer me up and while we were talking he asked if I was a boy or girl.
I actually ended up telling him I was a trans woman and then he told me some stories of his brother who is going through something similar. He was such a sweetheart it really made me feel better.
I hope incidents like this keep happening it really does boost confidence.
Cold weather, it's fun to cook new low carb recipes, watching my figure & just enjoying being a woman.
4 day break in London on Sunday
My nipple decided tonight while cleaning up dinner was the perfect time to start awaking. Oh my gosh for a moment I just wanted to cry out when I felt them. Needless to say cleaning up wax interesting. And even now I'm feeling them just breathing. I imagine tomorrow morning it's going to be worse or I guess better!
Oh and my male small is pretty much gone. I sweat a lot with a bra on and it smells sweet now.
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Glamour magazine has a very nice article about Catilyn Jenner, woman of the year award. She knew at age 10 that she was a girl.......It's a very nice pleasant article, try to read it if you can.
I am happy I found some time today to buy some of it.
Garlic. It is low calories and helps a lot at this time of year.
Not ladylike to eat it raw but hey, no wet nose keeps my make up in place. How ladylike is to wear half visible beard shadow!
Remember - I'm just starting this journey. I've had one therapist session.
Tuesday: My wife asked to join me at a therapy session. (A HUGE step for her. Scheduled for this coming week)
Thursday: My wife told me that she will support me and stay with me as long as she can.
Friday: She recommitted her support and suggested that I go shopping to get some clothes.
Saturday: She handed me $$ and said that I'm not allowed to buy a $500 dress.
She also commented today that I was the most relaxed she has seen me in YEARS!
I FEEL WONDERFUL. That's what made me happy today!
Quote from: FrancisAnn on November 13, 2015, 08:29:42 PM
Glamour magazine has a very nice article about Catilyn Jenner, woman of the year award. She knew at age 10 that she was a girl.......It's a very nice pleasant article, try to read it if you can.
I read it. I'm not a Jenner fan but I thought the article was well written.
Also the cover on the newsstands is different from what we subscribers get. The subscribers' cover mentions Jenner. The newsstand copies cover doesn't.
Tonight I had to make an emergency trip to the pharmacy in boy mode. I was wearing my running tights, a long tight fitting t-shirt and a fitted sweatshirt with the hood up. When I walked in, the woman didn't see my face and she ma'am'd me from behind. What a thrill.
OMG I am so so glad that have never had any confusion about myself. I've always been a girl & female since early childhood. And I've always loved to be with men. I am so thankful for that & love being a nice pretty attractive hetrosexual woman. Physical improvements to my body have been so easy to do & I continue to enjoy correcting my remaining problem areas so that I can finally enjoy a normal physical life as a normal complete hetrosexual woman. I am so happy to be a woman. My heart goes out to other members here that are struggling to find their true identity. That must be be so unsettling to be caught somewhere in the middle. I wish each one of you only the best.
My girls are filling out nicely. Seem to be growing rampantly even on reduced E.
Able to easily fill a c cup and getting nice form.
Seem to be in Tanner stage 4 and growing.
With a bra they look wonderfully feminine and are now very hard to hide.
Will it take a visit from my fair godmother?
Quote from: Jenny07 on November 15, 2015, 02:42:29 AM
My girls are filling out nicely. Seem to be growing rampantly even on reduced E.
Able to easily fill a c cup and getting nice form.
Seem to be in Tanner stage 4 and growing.
With a bra they look wonderfully feminine and are now very hard to hide.
Will it take a visit from my fair godmother?
(crawler; flattery will get you..........Hee Heee)
Quote from: pj on November 14, 2015, 08:43:33 PM
I FEEL WONDERFUL. That's what made me happy today!
Feeling wonderful is what life is about! Congrats PJ!
Day 5 champix to stop smoking still feeling decent was worried never thought I could quit smoking also have had time to contemplate Halloween first full night out as a girl all night long didn't dance but I am not a great dancer anyway been a great couple weeks now to find more
Ps some days this thread is every thing
Love to everyone for sharing
I enjoyed looking in the mirror today actually and took some selfies I liked. I'm starting to see less and less of a guy looking back at me when I look in the mirror and this weekend I got gendered female by strangers several times. It's finally happening!
Today I received some bras I ordered online.
I had tried buying in stores but 20B is apparently hard to find.
As I nervously opened the packaging I was afraid that they would not fit or wouldn't be comfortable.
Thankfully they fit and feel fantastic. They are not minimising though so, I think at least, that they make my breasts look bigger... Probably wishful thinking.
Thank you boob-fairy!
Finally got a complete clearing done at my electrolyis session today. Today's session was with two techs for 6 hours and with one tech for 3 hours for a total of 15 hours. I was really feeling it by the end of the session. I'm just happy that I am that much closer to getting those dang facial hairs gone forever.
Congrats Jessie Ann. Hugs
Mariah
Yesterday, I got up the courage to change my Facebook picture. I am in female mode 24/7 now, and so I decided to make the change. I was out shopping, yesterday, with my SO and while holding a door open for another woman, while entering a store, she commented on how much she liked my hair.
(can't figure out how to import the picture)
Yesterday was an interesting day, and, yes, that made me happy. Everyone I work with has the opportunity to know that I'm trans. I thought they all knew but, evidently, some don't. Customers Amy or may not gender me correctly, the circumstances of the job make that hard. Our company uniform is unisex, we work so hard that foundation is hard to maintain and my hair is nearly always a wreck two hours in, so except for saying "don't call me sir", under my breath, I'm not making special efforts with them.
My co-workers are another, more interesting story. All of the women, even the ones who may not know, treat me like one of the girls. The guys, when it's only guys around, treat me like one of the guys. Regardless, they're all nice to me. I kinda like that.
One of the women is a tiny thing and seven months pregnant. Without a thought she grabbed my hand and put it on her belly to feel the kicks! Correct me if I'm wrong, but every woman I've ever known would never do that with an unrelated man. It's nice to be included. I don't mind the guys, because they never seem to know how to relate to the women anyway.
If they paid better I would never leave.
Quote from: islandgirl on November 16, 2015, 07:43:06 AM
Yesterday, I got up the courage to change my Facebook picture. I am in female mode 24/7 now, and so I decided to make the change. I was out shopping, yesterday, with my SO and while holding a door open for another woman, while entering a store, she commented on how much she liked my hair.
(can't figure out how to import the picture)
Put it on a photo site, like photobucket, then get the link from there.
So I just went to the dentist there has been some pain in a tooth. They took a x ray and the dentist couldn't see any cavity or other issues and given it started a few weeks ago after eating ice cream he thinks it's a developing cold sensitivity and just recommend toothpaste hopefully that resolves it. But the real positive thing was his assistant asking if I am pregnant before they took the x ray, that was wonderful. I was like no chance, it's tough to get pregnant when your a lesbian. :-P
Serena
Quote from: Sarah82 on November 15, 2015, 11:24:59 PM
Today I received some bras I ordered online.
I had tried buying in stores but 20B is apparently hard to find.
As I nervously opened the packaging I was afraid that they would not fit or wouldn't be comfortable.
Thankfully they fit and feel fantastic. They are not minimising though so, I think at least, that they make my breasts look bigger... Probably wishful thinking.
Thank you boob-fairy!
I was thinking wth? 20? Then I saw you were in Australia which means 20 is 42 in USA size.
Our 4 month old son fed himself today!! He is way to clever and has held his own bottles for a while now but today he took the spoon from my hand and fed himself proper food!! My baby's a big boy now :)
Quote from: iKate on November 16, 2015, 04:28:19 PM
I was thinking wth? 20? Then I saw you were in Australia which means 20 is 42 in USA size.
Oh yeah, completely forgot about that conversion :)
Quote from: Sarah82 on November 16, 2015, 05:40:47 PM
Oh yeah, completely forgot about that conversion :)
I did a double take when I read that too, lol
Would be nice if we all had the same sizing systems, and more importantly that everyone worked to them. I have stuff here that ranges from 16-20 and all seem to be the same size. It's a conspiracy i'm sure.
Sophie
Today I got my name legally changed to Hailey ;D
Quote from: Hailey zy on November 18, 2015, 04:32:05 PM
Today I got my name legally changed to Hailey ;D
Awesome! That even makes me happy top hear :)
Quote from: Hailey zy on November 18, 2015, 04:32:05 PM
Today I got my name legally changed to Hailey ;D
Congrats Hailey....
Hugs
Dianne
xo
Quote from: Hailey zy on November 18, 2015, 04:32:05 PM
Today I got my name legally changed to Hailey ;D
So awesome. That joy is coming for me i think this year.
Today my therapist asked me if she should start using female pronouns and addressing me as my girl name, and i said...Yes that would be great! We had not really talked much about it, but that made me happy.
Also she told me i have been looking a lot more feminine in the last several months, and that i was "glowing". Double happy!
So a couple weeks ago I showed my therapist a picture of me dressed and she asked if I would want to bring the outfit with me and change at her place (her office is at her house, she lives alone). I told her at the time that I would think about it. Today I had the opportunity to sneak my bag of things out of the house for my appointment and changed at her place. I was on cloud 9 the whole time. It's been 16 years since someone else has seen me in person in a dress. When the appointment ended, I made a joke about midnight striking and it being time for the coach to turn back into a pumpkin. Then she offered to store my clothes at her house for awhile, so I can present at each appointment.
Pangolins walk like a T-Rex. This makes me happy :)
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Quote from: Hailey zy on November 18, 2015, 04:32:05 PM
Today I got my name legally changed to Hailey ;D
Awesome!
I'm a bit late, but on last saturday I went out for shopping for the first time. My GF accompanied me. There were a few people who would stare at me but I was called 'Madame' twice by employees (women) from the stores I visited. It made me very happy ! :-)
I got hit on by a strait guy. He was cute even.
Quote from: Oliviah on November 19, 2015, 11:00:53 AM
I got hit on by a strait guy. He was cute even.
Go girl....!!!
I can only dream of that.....for now that is....lol
Hugs
Dianne
xo
Haha Oliviah... that has been happening to me often these days. And you know what? It feels awesome.
My areolas are getting darker. Nipples get super erect when I'm cold now. Just waiting for the itching and pain to start.
Also my skin is clearing up big time. For whatever reason is hit my feet the most now and they look so much better. I'm looking forward to wearing saddles next year.
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It is time for celebration. First month of FT at work. First month of FT was a few days ago. :)
It feels like those dark days before FT are years ago.
Had some kiwis yday in that name. Tomorrow is the transgender remembrance day.
I was running some errands with my Mom and she talked me into going shoe shopping. I was finally able to confirm that I have dropped a shoe size! I bought a cute little pair of sneakers. I remeber when my feet had grown to their old size back in high school. It had made me so depressed. But that's all over now! :D
Quote from: Hailey zy on November 18, 2015, 04:32:05 PM
Today I got my name legally changed to Hailey ;D
Congrats girl!! Feels great doesn't it.
Try a nice purple polish sometime girl friends. I bet you will just love it! Fair Maiden is such nice polish & made in the USA.
I know I already posted today but my nipples are staying poked out. They have been doing it off and on for the past week but always go down after a few minutes. They have stayed out for almost two hours now.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on November 19, 2015, 09:09:16 PM
Try a nice purple polish sometime girl friends. I bet you will just love it! Fair Maiden is such nice polish & made in the USA.
It is a pretty color; OPI is my favorite brand.
Quote from: iKate on November 19, 2015, 12:44:00 PM
Haha Oliviah... that has been happening to me often these days. And you know what? It feels awesome.
I really didn't expect it to feel so validating.
Tonight a friend told me my eyes look beautiful and asked what makeup I was wearing... I wasn't wearing any, I have bought some but it won't be delivered until next week.
It made my night though :)
Hugs all,
Sarah
I was having a really bad day. I've been at work so in a suit and shirt and tie, and of course as a result sir'd time and time again. And every one was like a dagger going into me. And then, I go into one shop, and "afternoon ma'am" says the security guard. I could have kissed him I was so happy! Getting ma'am' in such obvious boy attire just increases my confidence so much for when I am Emma. And suddenly all was right in the world. So I bought shoes.
This is a weird one. I've been distraught over a lost employment opportunity. My wife suggested that I back off on the estrogen until I've defended my phd thesis (a week from monday!) as I've been so depressed and crying so much of the time. Why did this make me happy? Because we've gotten to the point where I feel fully, completely, totally accepted by her. A few months ago, I'd have flipped out because she wants me to delay my transition or something... but that doesn't even remotely seem like something she'd do anymore. She's thinking about my needs and my feelings, and looking out for me. <3
Quote from: emma-f on November 20, 2015, 12:44:58 PM
I was having a really bad day. I've been at work so in a suit and shirt and tie, and of course as a result sir'd time and time again. And every one was like a dagger going into me. And then, I go into one shop, and "afternoon ma'am" says the security guard. I could have kissed him I was so happy! Getting ma'am' in such obvious boy attire just increases my confidence so much for when I am Emma. And suddenly all was right in the world. So I bought shoes.
That's a nice story. I like it. I wish I'd be called Madame each time I enter a shop...
Really good day today. My new shoes arrived today and they are really comfy. Finally I can say bye to my boy shoes!
To celebrate I took on a challenge of going out all dressed up with skirt, tights etc and I was super nervous the whole time but it felt so good to be free. No one said or did anything negative which hopefully means I pass at a reasonable level. I even went in a store to buy some snacks and had no issues or weird looks.
I want to do this more often it feels amazing!
Had a mini lunch date today. Cute guy, seems like fun. There is a definite possibility of a second date but honestly I don't know how far I want to go with this.
Quote from: iKate on November 20, 2015, 08:11:40 PM
Had a mini lunch date today. Cute guy, seems like fun. There is a definite possibility of a second date but honestly I don't know how far I want to go with this.
Ahhh Congrats girl. Just take it slow and one day at a time.
Reading about happy living trans women made me happy today. I started my day with a TDOR video (couldn't get to a ceremony) and got really down. I wasn't doing the final step "remember, honor then act". I needed some joy and the cis world couldn't give it to me. You ladies and your joys really made my day. Thank you! :-* *hugs*
finally got my nail polish to set lol
Had a margerita for the first time ever tonight. It was really good. Unfortunately, later on in the evening, after I'd sobered up, I got up to take care of my newborn and got a headrush and passed out in the bathroom. I may have hurt my neck in doing so. But I had a great date night with my wife.
My sleeping today totaled to about 12 hours. Suppose I should be happy about that. :angel:
Well, not today but last night...
My wife and I did our yearly tradition of going to the LA Auto Show and following it with dinner at Drago. We wanted an especially nice bottle of wine, so the sommelier was summoned to our table.
And... OMG, it's Mark. As in Mark who used to be the sommelier at BLT Steakhouse several years ago. As in Mark,with whom we shared our nice Cabernets and had long conversations about wine. As in Mark who only used to know me as Greg...
"Hi, I totally remember you guys from BLT. Let me get you each a complimentary glass of Dom Perignon."
Way to go, Mark! Not only did you handle the shock of my obvious physical transformation well, you did so with extreme class.
I think free Champagne should be mandatory for us.
So, turns out my wife was right, my estrogen dose was too high. Knocked it in half and I can keep a level head and I'm not crying 2 hours a day!
Quote from: sparrow on November 21, 2015, 11:53:20 PM
So, turns out my wife was right, my estrogen dose was too high. Knocked it in half and I can keep a level head and I'm not crying 2 hours a day!
That's an important lesson. My endo wants to raise my dose, and I'm gonna let him, but with your example I'll be sure to pay attention to how I adjust. I love my Sweetie, but if she were to suggest that to me I would be suspicious of her motives. She's not reached acceptance yet.
I was at a Karaoke bar last night with a cis female friend of mine and some dude came up to our table and started asking if us "ladies" wanted to dance. Of course we said no - we both were making fun of this guy. But I think I passed?
Quote from: RachelsMantra on November 22, 2015, 09:29:36 AM
I was at a Karaoke bar last night with a cis female friend of mine and some dude came up to our table and started asking if us "ladies" wanted to dance. Of course we said no - we both were making fun of this guy. But I think I passed?
Yay!
I got Madam(ed) twice today! :D
ok, the first time was by the really effeminate gay guy at the clothing store I shop at who flirts with me and totally knows I'm trans, but the second one was the homeless guy who opens the door to the liquor store, and yes he got some change on my way out! :)
xox, Candi
Painful nipples!
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Went to Victoria's Secret to get fit for a bra. Turns out I am a 38C post breast augmentation. Got a couple of very nice push-up bras that really make my breasts look great.
I got a great compliment on my makeup from a friend! "You look so fresh faced and innocent!" It made me smile!
I shaved my legs for the first time ever. A-maz-ing.
I awoke this morning in love with mi mano wraped about mi holding mi tight. :)
I just love my new 100% virgin coconut oil. It is great stuff for your hands, feet, face, all over your body. It soaks in & is so nice. Also I'm having such fun cooking this Thanksgiving season, my low carb crustless pumpkin pie turned out delish & only 3 carbs per slice. Some new bra's feel great, B cup size & love playtex 18 hour are so comfy. Maybe a new relationship with a nice man soon, a couple are courting me, one seems very nice & he is so handsome. I'd love to cook for him & enjoy him in bed. It's great to be a woman. Happy Thanksgiving to everyone, enjoy.
Quote from: RachelsMantra on November 22, 2015, 09:29:36 AM
I was at a Karaoke bar last night with a cis female friend of mine and some dude came up to our table and started asking if us "ladies" wanted to dance. Of course we said no - we both were making fun of this guy. But I think I passed?
Why not dance with this man if he was handsome & nice?
Let's pull up this topic from the middle of 2nd page. :)
I haven't got exceptional beauty and I have got a hell to walk through to get my body right. But I've got my mind still. Shan't lose it to running my chase for other things too fast. Stuff has to go slow. :(
Sorta rare for me to post to this thread but yesterday I finally got my heath insurance changed over to my new name and gender. And today the coat I bought from long tall Sally showed up. It's a bit tight in the shoulders and across the breasts but other than that it's fantastic, so long I feel kinda like a jedi in it.
Serena
For the past week I couldn't put my finger down on it but something had changed with my face. I finally figured out this morning my eye color has changed in the last couple of weeks. They were a dark green color and now it's more lime green looking. That explains why I've had people telling me that my eyes look amazing. It's amazing what HRT can do!
Add to that one friend that hasn't seen me for three weeks told me my face is looking softer.
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I'm traveling today to go to Chicago for Thanksgiving. Going through LAX security screening they didn't have the normal TSA-Pre in terminal 3. I've gotten used to just going through the metal detectors on all my travels. Today I got directed to the backscatter machine and directed to put my hands over my head. My TSA I'm trans card was in my purse going through the x-ray machine. Great, I'm going to get hit with the dreaded we have an anomaly in the crotch announcement. But no. Apparently I tucked really good (actually just my everyday routine tuck) and I got the all clear. Made this girls day.
Quote from: RavenL on November 25, 2015, 05:13:59 PM
For the past week I couldn't put my finger down on it but something had changed with my face. I finally figured out this morning my eye color has changed in the last couple of weeks. They were a dark green color and now it's more lime green looking. That explains why I've had people telling me that my eyes look amazing. It's amazing what HRT can do!
Add to that one friend that hasn't seen me for three weeks told me my face is looking softer.
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That's so cool girl!
Had a call today from Gynaecologist for appointment in February to being the process of HRT. Even if I Still don't have my letter based on the diagnosis provided in the letter I did have she is prepared to get everything set up so that when I have the letter from Dr Lyons or Fleming, I am able to begin immediately. Very happy with that means I am able to have Psychiatric support during the initial few months of HRT.
Went out 2 days in a row fully dressed up and had no problems whatsoever handling it. No one seemed to mind at all.
Today I went out a bit more androgynous and still got gendered as female. Considering I'm not even on HRT yet moments like this make me really warm inside.
It just feels great & normal to be a woman. I've had such fun cooking new low carb recipes this Thanksgiving season & love my new apron. After a nasty break my nails are finally growing back out & all 10 look nice also lots of new polish to have a little fun with new manis. Happy Thanksgiving to all.
I suppose simply being alive is a reason enough to be happy today.
Quote from: Martine A. on November 27, 2015, 12:10:21 PM
I suppose simply being alive is a reason enough to be happy today.
Indeed! Through that, there are many things that become reasons to be happy too! :)
I am happy to be healthy so I can work off the 5 pounds I gained yesterday!
My girlfriend and I got to take Stephaniec out to lunch to say thank you for all that she has done for the Susan's community. It was great to meet her and get a chance to talk.
Quote from: Jessie Ann on November 27, 2015, 03:39:33 PM
My girlfriend and I got to take Stephaniec out to lunch to say thank you for all that she has done for the Susan's community. It was great to meet her and get a chance to talk.
Good on you two :)
What made me happy today was watching my 3 year old cousins delight when I gave him a garbage bag full of fluffy dinosaurs :D
He didn't have enough hands to hold them all, but he kept trying :)
Being blindfolded and in pain for 2 hours.
Oh how I like the pain monster.
After getting everything set with handling an older gentleman shopping for Black Friday. He said, "thank you dear."
Oh how I love it when someone sincerely genders me properly. Doesn't happen enough.
Kate <3
Spoil the Turkey Thursday and Black Friday are over!
I'm happy that I made it through Tday without going off my Atkins diet. My body is looking so much nicer & I feel so much better about myself. Oh & I now can make a delicious no crust pumpkin pie, only 3 carbs per slice. I'm also happy for no more glitter nail polish, oh my GF'f it's so hard to remove. Just plain smooth polish for this girl. Happy Dance.
Quote from: Martine A. on November 27, 2015, 12:10:21 PM
I suppose simply being alive is a reason enough to be happy today.
That is so true. A good friend of mine passed away a while back. I was one of her clients at her Beauty Salon, she did my electrloysis & facials, leg wax......She was so nice but she's gone. Be happy, all of us please, enjoy life.
I took my daughter to see Santa, which was great in itself, but Santa asked her if she wanted a photo with Santa and her "mummy". I was in boy mode but for someone to not only call me madam or miss as a result of what I was wearing, in a politically correct that's what I must call an MTF type of way, but to think that I was actually born female was amazing, and makes me think I might be passing even more than I realised!
Todae fer mi it was awakening to realize M a total nutter.
Normally folks would not want to believe that theyre crazy, but I happened to find that one instance it's a good thing. Mi example is, It's better to find out that ye have been an emotional nutter an that yer being ridiculous, than to find out people really do hate you. :D
Well I'm both happy and sad. Happy because my breasts are finally growing now. Sad that I can't wear my breast forms now. ( I lasted two hours before the rubbing was to much to stand) and now I've gone down to an A cup oh well. At least I have my own now that can't come off.
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Today i tried a small tank top that i had saved a couple month ago for later use and i was fitting it just fine ;D. I checked my silhouette and it looked so femine, then i was worried about my shoulders but they are not a big deal anymore :D
I am feeling fabulous right now :-*
This will sound funny but I am at my Mom's house and I found a sock from before transition. My last man sock! It made me smile to toss it in the trash.
Being taught how to apply makeup by my partner last night. Got all dressed up and it was brilliant fun :)
Had an awesome evening aboard Sea Cup with a friend. Just relaxed and watched some movies before falling asleep. Simple can be so fun sometimes! :)
I went shopping today in boy mode. This is winter and i want to go full time soon . However i couldnt go out with men shoes and xxxxxxx-large winter coat so i went shopping. Omg lol i actually had to try those woman winter boots . The saleswoman gave me the boots to try them and she didnt comment about it at all and talked to me about something else.
I am fitting 8 1/2 size :)
i am planning on going out for the first time this week. I will go to the theater.
I went grocery store shopping yesterday, just a quick trip & did not dress up very fem but it's sure hard to hide my B cup breasts in a regular t shirt without a bra. My girls felt nice not being in a bra. The poor cleck out woman was kind of blushing.
Successfully defended my PhD thesis last night. Knocked it out of the park. I spent the weekend getting my slides ready and they weren't just super well put-together, but I even coordinated 'em with my (super cute, femdrogynous) outfit. I answered my committee's questions with speed, aplomb and wit.
I didn't even practice my talk, so my confidence in the subject material really shined through. The only awkward bit for me was when I ended my talk by walking over to my little bottle of juice (also coordinated to my outfit), downed the last couple of inches, swallowed, paused for a moment's thought and said "aaaand, that's my talk" with a bit of a lazy drawl. I should have thanked my committee. Instead of being appropriately humble, I was flippant and cocky. Oops! So that's why people practice for these things!
I'm a happy girl today. It is so nice to have a very good plastic surgeon lined up for my GRS. I know she will do a great job & it will be so nice not to have to take any more spiro stuff. I'm also happy for my regular plastic surgeon. I know he can do anything else I might need to improve my appearance into a very attractive normal sexy woman. I so look forward to dating some new men after I'm healed up & feel good about myself. Happy Dance.
I was one of the photographers for my high school yearbook 37 years ago. I kept the negatives all these years. I bought a slide/negative scanner and have been converting the negatives into digital photos. I have put a bunch of the old pictures up on my FaceBook page and have been getting great comments and thank you's from so many people that it has really made me happy.
I'm happy because I just finished my first FFS consultation. With Dr.Z so excited !
lazer consult went well start next Tuesday skin takes to it well hurts more than I thought but it is ok face chest going to look better this time next week
I got my new diver license today with my new name on it ;D
Lots of good things happening for everyone, and that makes me happy. I have a great relationship with my husband, and this is my favorite season, which also makes me very happy. :)
Took out the studs I got when I had my ears pierced this summer and put on some gold hoops with pearls that my Mom gave me. My first dangly earings! The best moment was with my Mom at the grocery a few hours later. Me in my earings, my Mom in a lovely pair and all the women around us in theirs. I felt so part of the girl's club. Yay!
Quote from: Hailey zy on December 02, 2015, 08:42:59 PM
I got my new diver license today with my new name on it ;D
Yay! Congratulations :D
I received a private message from one of my middle daughters high school classmates who is friends with me on FaceBook. She just wanted me to know that she had heard Janet Mock speak at her college and that she had thought of me. She said she admired us for being so strong and brave in facing up to our issues and not letting the haters bring us down. She said transgender individuals are an inspiration to her and then she thanked me for being me and being open with the world about what I have been going through.
Seems we can affect people and not even know that we are dong it. That really made my day.
My wife brought me roses!
I went to the hairdresser in femme mode for the second time ever, and for the first time my hair is now really long enough to look feminine. Plus he can see some new growth coming through on the crown, and that is after only 8 weeks on hormones. Great to start seeing some progress :)
This was yesterday but...
Went to a tech event
registration, the person at the front desk called off the names of all my female colleagues when looking for mine.
Won an Apple Watch!!! 38mm space gray and black but I'll take it :)
Second Electro session, 90 minutes, back to work and no visible damage (but so smooottthhhhhh)
(but under-chin ATM.... could be a different story on face? :-\)
Katy xx
Quote from: sparrow on December 04, 2015, 03:51:51 AM
My wife brought me roses!
Lucky you. It's been a while since a man brought me roses but he was so nice & such a stud even if he was a married man that I found out later. He was all man, oh my........
Took my first dose of E today! I am so excited to be on this journey :D
Some sadness but also happiness at the same time................my wife & I have split & will no doubt be divorcing, my two boys (from previous failed marriage!) & I moved out last night. Both her & I are very upset at the break up but we both know that it was the only way forward due to my transition & time will heal.
I was very depressed about it last night but as I stepped out of the shower this morning I suddenly realized that I no longer have to justify myself (in a spousal sense) to anyone. Dianne is now free & in control of her body COMPLETELY for the first time in her life, this thought alone has made me a very happy girl!!
Hugs
Dianne
xo
Play fallout 4 on ps4 as female without being judged or get message call me a dumbass ->-bleeped-<- :(
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Quote from: sparrow on December 04, 2015, 03:51:51 AM
My wife brought me roses!
Nice!
You know, this reminds me of when I first started this job how on Valentine's day my wife ordered a dozen roses for me.
The women at the office were all whispering how
he got flowers on valentine's day...
I was over the moon, because... girls get flowers, not guys!!!
Of course, that is a silly gender stereotype. But I was happy that I got them.
Quote from: SofiN on December 04, 2015, 05:48:45 AM
Took my first dose of E today! I am so excited to be on this journey :D
Yay! Congratulations and welcome to the E class of 2015! :D
My wife ( who struggles with my transition) asked me..."Would you like a new set of makeup brushes for one of your Christmas gifts? " and she smiled very lovingly to me when she asked. I hugged/kissed/probably teared up a little, and thanked her for asking it and her reply was " don't worry it just takes me time for all of this...i love you "
We say "i love yous " 4-5 times a day but with that gesture it was special. I am so happy at the office today, non-stop smile.
Quote from: RobynD on December 04, 2015, 11:43:28 AM
My wife ( who struggles with my transition) asked me..."Would you like a new set of makeup brushes for one of your Christmas gifts? " and she smiled very lovingly to me when she asked. I hugged/kissed/probably teared up a little, and thanked her for asking it and her reply was " don't worry it just takes me time for all of this...i love you "
We say "i love yous " 4-5 times a day but with that gesture it was special. I am so happy at the office today, non-stop smile.
I'm smiling just reading this. That's so cool Robyn :)
So I just finished my first week at work full time and I'm sitting here reflecting at just how much acceptance there is in this world. I've had so many people come to me this week (and last, when I came out) to express support and well wishes for me that at times it's overwhelming...
I think so many times it's just human nature to assume the worst and that the worst in humanity will always surface first but for me, right now, this week I've experienced the absolute *best* that humanity has to offer and I'm so thankful to have had this experience.
Quote from: DianneM on December 04, 2015, 08:15:27 AM
Some sadness but also happiness at the same time................my wife & I have split & will no doubt be divorcing, my two boys (from previous failed marriage!) & I moved out last night. Both her & I are very upset at the break up but we both know that it was the only way forward due to my transition & time will heal.
I was very depressed about it last night but as I stepped out of the shower this morning I suddenly realized that I no longer have to justify myself (in a spousal sense) to anyone. Dianne is now free & in control of her body COMPLETELY for the first time in her life, this thought alone has made me a very happy girl!!
Hugs
Dianne
xo
Hugs and also jealousy. Congrats and condolences at the same time.
Quote from: Kellam on December 04, 2015, 10:41:49 AM
Yay! Congratulations and welcome to the E class of 2015! :D
Thank you! I'm looking forward to the coming weeks as my body adjusts to it :3
Quote from: DianneM on December 04, 2015, 08:15:27 AM
...I suddenly realized that I no longer have to justify myself (in a spousal sense) to anyone. Dianne is now free & in control of her body COMPLETELY for the first time in her life, this thought alone has made me a very happy girl!!
Hugs
Dianne
xo
^^ THIS! congratulations! :)
I ended a 14 year relationship for the same reason, only to get into another one that was at first supporting, then not so much as I went further... great if you are in a relationship that is 110% supportive, but I think much of the transition stuff has to be totally open. things change as you discover yourself, though it's a bit lonely to not be with anyone, we are able to do it on our own terms :)
my bit of happy today, I hooked up with a drummer, getting together next Thursday! should be fun... if we find a bass player who is trans we could be the first (trans)girl group :D
xox, Candi
Quote from: DianneM on December 04, 2015, 08:15:27 AM
Some sadness but also happiness at the same time................my wife & I have split & will no doubt be divorcing, my two boys (from previous failed marriage!) & I moved out last night. Both her & I are very upset at the break up but we both know that it was the only way forward due to my transition & time will heal.
I was very depressed about it last night but as I stepped out of the shower this morning I suddenly realized that I no longer have to justify myself (in a spousal sense) to anyone. Dianne is now free & in control of her body COMPLETELY for the first time in her life, this thought alone has made me a very happy girl!!
Hugs
Dianne
xo
I went through that long long ago. I was married briefly but it was more of a lesbian relationship than any male/female deal. She has done fine, 2 sons & 2-3 marriages. We are kind of friends. We both see the same plastic surgeon. She is prettier than me but that's OK. It almost has to be done if you want a normal life as a woman & your wife wants a man. I know it will hurt but maybe you 2 can be friends. Friends are important in life...
Quote from: Candi.Krol on December 04, 2015, 06:54:57 PM
my bit of happy today, I hooked up with a drummer, getting together next Thursday! should be fun... if we find a bass player who is trans we could be the first (trans)girl group :D
That's awesome! Too bad I'm not closer, I play bass and guitar. That would be cool! :)
Quote from: iKate on December 04, 2015, 08:53:08 AM
I was over the moon, because... girls get flowers, not guys!!!
Of course, that is a silly gender stereotype. But I was happy that I got them.
Of course it's a silly stereotype! But getting roses is nice, in part, because it affirms my gender. And... my middle name is Rose and that's what she calls me. She got me 11 roses, 'cause I'm her Rose. Still feeling all melty 'cause of that... and she apparently had this planned months in advance! <3
Quote from: SofiN on December 04, 2015, 05:48:45 AM
Took my first dose of E today! I am so excited to be on this journey :D
Congrats Sophie! A step on to a wider road for sure :)
Hi, this is my first proper post; hopefully it's ok and not too rambling!
Today's been a bit of a mixed bag, emotionally. While my wife and my mum went out for a girl's lunch, I spent some time with just my dad for the first time since coming out to him and instead of it being awkward and strained, the conversation was easy and harmonious and we even had a few laughs!
When I went to pick the guys up they were in high spirits and had had a wonderful time together, and their happiness was infectious. We went back to my parents' house for a bit and after some light hearted words talk turned to me transitioning and what it means for all of our futures, and the sad fact that I've broken my wife's heart and our impending separation. But testament to the incredibly wise, strong and compassionate human being that she is, she said that both she and I and she and my parents will always remain friends.
To add to this my parents love her as much as I do, and are supportive and understanding of us both, and have been so amazing in every way in what are, or could be, stressful and difficult circumstances.
I feel so very lucky to have such warm, generous, understanding and loving people around me, even more so as many people affected by ->-bleeped-<-/transsexuality are often met with hostility and rejection by family and partners. I hope that more people get the kind of love and support that they deserve for being true to themselves.
Evie xx
I think I have become more passable; I think I looked good before my recent jaw and chin surgery, and I was always treated as a woman with no reference to my birth sex, but I still had the feeling that when it came to being clocked, that it was a mixed bag, but now, even though I am still very swollen, and there are a couple of things I am concerned about, I have the feeling that I am indeed truly passing amidst most of the people I interact with, and that makes me incredibly happy!
What a busy day of shopping, I bought....... & more ......all girly nice things. I was dressed dull kinda male. The clerk at a thrift store said you have such a nice voice for a man? I said thank you so much....she was busy so I did not make any other comment.
Went out to lunch had a great time talking with Sigyn!
Quote from: Jessie Ann on December 05, 2015, 09:43:27 PM
Went out to lunch had a great time talking with Sigyn!
Aw! You beat me to it, girl! <3
Was a beautiful morning in Sydney today.
Went out for a 100k bike ride and felt nice and strong all the way.
Stoped and had breakfast overlooking the water.
Boy I love e boobies are so nice. Ran out today. Oh well off the shops I go.
Now to get Cindy out on a bike on Sydney.
I will make sure it is recorded to post here. ;D
Quote from: Jenny07 on December 06, 2015, 03:28:42 AM
Was a beautiful morning in Sydney today.
Went out for a 100k bike ride and felt nice and strong all the way.
Stoped and had breakfast overlooking the water.
Boy I love e boobies are so nice. Ran out today. Oh well off the shops I go.
Now to get Cindy out on a bike on Sydney.
I will make sure it is recorded to post here. ;D
My bike has an electric motor, you will need a tandem for me!
I'll need to borrow your legs!
Quote from: Emjay on December 04, 2015, 08:56:44 PM
That's awesome! Too bad I'm not closer, I play bass and guitar. That would be cool! :)
if you move closer, we'll both have another thing to post in this thread :D
xox, Candi
Quote from: Cindy on December 06, 2015, 04:20:53 AM
My bike has an electric motor, you will need a tandem for me!
I'll need to borrow your legs!
My bike has a key and it is called a Harley I only need my legs to shift and keep it upright when stopped. LOL
Hugs Lyndsey
I'll be a happy girl when I finish my next procedure. My plastic surgeon wanted me to wait for at least 6 months after tummy tuck surgery to have my GRS. It's been about 6 months & I seem to be healing up OK. She is a very experienced surgeon & a nice woman. It will be so nice to get put under, then awake with a hopeful nice vagina & more normal body. That will be a very happy day. Happy Dance.
I looked in the mirror and I finally saw boobs! I looked like I had a woman's body. It was a wonderful feeling.
So I have a friend who stayed with me for a few days on the boat. This morning she decided to play a prank and put askew the "padding" that was in my bra...'cept it is not padding...and they are sore...and she grabbed a handful before I could turn away. :o
Anyway, I yelped pretty loud and backed into the mast step before she could let go. She knows I am on HRT, but did not understand my anatomy apparently. After a few minutes, we were both laughing about it and she was apologizing for "man handling" me. It was a neat moment as someone else is truly aware that things are in motion for me.
Quote from: RachelsMantra on December 06, 2015, 08:59:18 AM
I looked in the mirror and I finally saw boobs! I looked like I had a woman's body. It was a wonderful feeling.
It is so exciting. I know the excitement level that out bodies are finally becomming more beautiful. I just love it.
I had a first today.....
Someone called me the c word on ->-bleeped-<- today (I identify trans there)
Third day of 40C+ so I bought a new bikini! Fluorescent orange with black straps.
I watered my front garden while wearing it and male neighbours decided to water their gardens also.
I'm so glad I'm a horticulturalist and can inspire others ::)
The ecosystem thanks you for your service ;D
Have wanted to have my legs shaved for a while so they looked and felt great with pantyhose. Finally did it over the weekend and I'm loving the extra sensation and the way it looks :)
I had a dream i had long hair woke up happy
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Quote from: Cindy on December 07, 2015, 01:49:03 AM
Third day of 40C+ so I bought a new bikini! Fluorescent orange with black straps.
I watered my front garden while wearing it and male neighbours decided to water their gardens also.
I'm so glad I'm a horticulturalist and can inspire others ::)
Cool Cindy. I love a veggies garden also & roses, other plants.....however it's a one piece for me. I've never looked good in a bikini, lucky girl. Have a great day green thumb woman.
Quote from: Cindy on December 07, 2015, 01:49:03 AM
Third day of 40C+ so I bought a new bikini! Fluorescent orange with black straps.
I watered my front garden while wearing it and male neighbours decided to water their gardens also.
I'm so glad I'm a horticulturalist and can inspire others ::)
40C! We're getting cold, damp, grey weather here in the Waikato. I think our Summer has been cancelled due to government cuts.
Now I'm trying to remember the last time I wore a bikini, - something tells me it was a long time ago ;)
Haven't seen anyone wearing a bikini where I live!
I went to Ocean State Job Lot with Sweetie today to get some gloves. She pointed out the leather with thinsulate men's. I said I'f rather not. She pointed out that I'd probably have a hard time finding women's to fit, so we both looked at them. Then we looked at hats. She picked out a rather girly hat with a pompom that would match my favorite scarf. We had a good time trying on the hats and I bought the one she helped me pick out.
We also scheduled the provider to come tomorrow and reinstall an internet connection.
Now, as I type this, I'm soaking in a bubble bath and drinking tea. A very good day.
wow! what a day of wonders!
- I've been looking after a friends cat, today his roommate came home, saw me and smiled, staring at me... finally he said "my god you are gorgeous!"
- walking home had an epiphany, decided to go vegetarian again and wrote the lyrics to a song, right on the street, good stuff too! cant wait to put it to music!
- was desperately short of a few make-up items and the nice cosmetics girl was in today, super friendly to me, and very helpful, found me a bunch of stuff on special, so happy she was in... the older lady is such a grump and tries to sell me the most expensive stuff
- found a pair of black and white striped tights that I had been looking for (wore them tonight as well, getting a few complements on my legs)
- came home to find an email from my mother saying she saw my latest video for a song I did and she said I was beautiful!!! MY MOTHER SAID I WAS BEAUTIFUL!!!
- next email I opened was from an agent/producer who I talked to a few weeks ago (who I thought had forgotten about me) she apologized for the delay, and has a bunch of stuff for me and wants me to perform all over the month!
- went to my weekly Trans* support group and walking there was told by 3 different people that I was "Très belle" (very pretty), "wow magnifique" (wow, magnificent), and "you look fantastic" (yeah, that last one was english speaking), finally once in my group I was complimented a couple more times :)
- realizing my life is finally going in the good direction
what a day!!!
I AM SOOOOOO HAPPY!!!!!
xox, Candi
<no foul language please>
Hi All
tonight i was to tired to do anything and my son called me and said we had to go to this licensing seminar for our masters Lic. But he picked me up and we went and it got out early so him and I went out to dinner and had a lot of laughs and it turned out great.
Lyndsey
It's the little things that do it....
After some quick math and coupons, I got a large bottle of Nivea moisturizing lotion for free.
Cindy :o
Oh deer.
Had a meeting earlier in the week at work and vented a to my senior boss. Spent quite a bit of time on issues I needed to raise.
Currently I have so many options at work that it's stressing me out, 4 confirmed for next year with a 5th if I choose that door.
I am so disillusioned with work currently and made it very clear.
Did it in a positive way so let's see how they respond.
They have till mid January to show how serious they are and if they come to the party.
I was asked to think which option I want for next year.
All of this when I have always been told one of me was one too many. Just ask Cindy.
What have I done wrong? :-\
I'm going to finally visit Hair Club for women next week for hair transplants. And I'm starting with a new electrolysis lady after my previous lady friend passed away. It's strange but both are named Sarah, my mother was a Sarah & one of my best girl friends is Sarah. It must be some kind of oman.
Had a couple of really uplifting moments today!
I just got asked for ID when buying wine, for the first time in years - the minimum age here to buy alcohol is 18 and I'm 35!
But more special than that, I thought I'd found my new name by chosing one that's always been a favourite - Evie - but decided to ask my mum to chose instead. As my mum's Scottish I wanted a Scottish name and I love what she picked even better - Kirsty. Plus in the process my dad admitted that they'd always wanted their third child to be a girl!
Currently feeling very warm and fuzzy inside 😊
I got compliments today from 3 different women at work on what I was wearing. They were casual complements that women give each other and that simple acceptance felt great.
Later then when I got home I had email from 2 ladies I used to work with years ago. Both were supportive and gave me a lot of props for doing this. Again it felt great.
Walked 8 hill filled miles in just under 2 hours, including stops to take pictures and tinkle in the woods. That has me easily under 15 minutes per mile! It was a beautiful, if unseasonably warm, December day. I got to wear a t-shirt and capris!
I'm excited for appt. with a new electrolysis lady referred by my plastic surgeon. It seems that she does excellent work, very nice & she also does permanent makeup. I may have her shape my eyebrows a little nicer. Life is good, it's so nice to be a woman..........almost Christmas, giving lots of little presents to friends.
Quote from: CrysC on December 10, 2015, 12:09:44 AM
I got compliments today from 3 different women at work on what I was wearing. They were casual complements that women give each other and that simple acceptance felt great.
Later then when I got home I had email from 2 ladies I used to work with years ago. Both were supportive and gave me a lot of props for doing this. Again it felt great.
It is so nice to hear when you get the compliments as you did. I had started a new job and no one knows anything about my passed. I have got so many complement also on my suits that I wear when I go to court house. I moved 100 mile away from were I use to live and work for the DA's office. So I need to get dressed up every day at work.If you have any Idea how people are in a court house it is amazing to me anyone says anything. In the same note I can not wait to come home and change into something a lot more comfortable. LOL Like my jeans or sweets. I have not been complemented on them. >:-)
Hugs
Lynn
I got maam'd for the first time by a guy behind the counter at a convenience store today. Unfortunately he seemed to be the only one in the store that saw me that way. I got weird (like scary) looks from the rest of the guys.
Joined susans, which is the first forum ive joined since transistioning. Walked my lil Pomeranian round the park. I just finished making my partner veggie bangers and mash, which they are happily gobbling up while i watch them play Fallout. So far a great day :) Really good to hear about everyones happy feels, what a lovely idea for a thread X
My mother randomly came to me and asked if she can flatten my hair. Then she gave me advices about makeup.
I am happy she is making progress and begins to see me as her daughter.
Quote from: Moomin on December 12, 2015, 01:15:32 PM
Joined susans, which is the first forum ive joined since transistioning. Walked my lil Pomeranian round the park. I just finished making my partner veggie bangers and mash, which they are happily gobbling up while i watch them play Fallout. So far a great day :) Really good to hear about everyones happy feels, what a lovely idea for a thread X
Aww you have a Pomeranian; they are so cute!!!
Thank you Kittenpower. He's chocolate brown and all the adorable. I'd be happy to post pics if you could please direct me to the appropriate board. I also have a tiny house cat. Just want to add, I love your glassess! Thats great Archlord, baby steps. Its a process for everyone in your life when you come out. Hope you continue to make progress.
Found out that I wont have to be alone for my post op in Bangkok. A dear girlfriend has agreed to be there for me when I get out of the hospital. What a blessing! And to boot all she's a newly wed.(Oct 31). What an understanding husband!!
I guess just being a little old toothless granny who is disappearing into the woodwork after living out all the time in the neighborhood makes me happy. I would be happier if I could find out what my Medicare Wellcare would cover of my transitioning costs so that I could make some changes even in smallish increments. Finding a transitioning counselor near where I live who could prescribe me hormones would make me happier. But all be told, I am alive and out and about and am not treated disrespectfully by anyone. Sometimes I am delighted by a sly look from another gray-haired grandmotherly type and I smile back. And overall I am just leaving the impression that I am just another little old gray-haired granny with big feet and an aching body and a shorter Gandolf type walking stick.
Back on E after a week off it.
Calmed things down in my head
Rode my super bike today
So nice to ride
Quote from: Jenny07 on December 12, 2015, 10:04:41 PM
Back on E after a week off it.
Calmed things down in my head
Rode my super bike today
So nice to ride
Oh me, I feel so strange & nervous if I miss a day or 2.
Crewed on a Lighted Boat Parade this evening and had a great time waving to crowds!
Today (well it was today 12/12 a little over an hour ago) was my 2 year anniversary of HRT. I'm so happy with how far I've come.
Quote from: Sydney_NYC on December 13, 2015, 12:11:49 AM
Today (well it was today 12/12 a little over an hour ago) was my 2 year anniversary of HRT. I'm so happy with how far I've come.
Happy Birthday! :D
Quote from: Sydney_NYC on December 13, 2015, 12:11:49 AM
Today (well it was today 12/12 a little over an hour ago) was my 2 year anniversary of HRT. I'm so happy with how far I've come.
As a fellow tall, you are an inspiration. Thank you for sharing your story.
Congrats Sidney and Happy Birthday!
This happened yesterday but I was not able to post until now: After withdrawing from the men's tennis league earlier this fall, I finally got to play in a social round robin on the women's side. Had a great time. Almost everyone is very excepting of my transition. Last night, my partner and I attended our annual Christmas dinner and dance. I was in female mode, as I have been since October. What fun! This surprises both my SO and myself as we live in what we thought is a very conservative community. Even though the road has its ups and downs, I am so pleased to be on it. Can't wait until after Christmas when I submit my name and gender change papers and application for surgery!
Quote from: Lyndsey on December 12, 2015, 08:29:53 AM
It is so nice to hear when you get the compliments as you did. I had started a new job and no one knows anything about my passed. I have got so many complement also on my suits that I wear when I go to court house. I moved 100 mile away from were I use to live and work for the DA's office. So I need to get dressed up every day at work.If you have any Idea how people are in a court house it is amazing to me anyone says anything. In the same note I can not wait to come home and change into something a lot more comfortable. LOL Like my jeans or sweets. I have not been complemented on them. >:-)
Hugs
Lynn
Heh, I'm with you Lynn. I like getting prettied up but it's great to just relax too. Not many compliments awaiting me there though :-)
Double yea. Sunflower seeds are OK for my Atkins way of eating & I see my plastic surgeon today for a check up & plan for some more facial surgery. Happy dance.
I recently discovered by chance that a person who I always respected gone through a male to female transition. I'm very happy for her, can't stop smiling when I'm thinking about it.
Quote from: CrysC on December 13, 2015, 11:40:25 AM
Heh, I'm with you Lynn. I like getting prettied up but it's great to just relax too. Not many compliments awaiting me there though :-)
LOL it is what it is i love getting prettied up but then I do love my sweats!! >:-)
Hugs
Lynn
I guess this makes me happy. My plastic surgeon wants to do dermabrasion on my face. The cost is around 5K & it takes time to heal up but I should look so much younger & nicer. He does not think my face needs anything else, I have a soft feminine face which is so nice. He's an excellent surgeon & all the women are so supportive.
Appt. Friday with a new electrolysis lady that also does great work with permanent makeup. I'm going to have her reshape my eyebrows & also some eye liner. That will be so nice....Happy Dance that I found her.
I'm falling in love with a cis lesbian and she loves me back.
Today is Sweetie's birthday. She hates celebrating it and she's kinda down. My transition weighs heavily upon her even though she wants what's best for me, so...
Today the cable TV is being put back on. She tried Hulu, etc., but too many of her shows weren't available, and...
I'm making prime rib on our rotisserie with a red wine au jus, roasted red potatoes, steakhouse mushrooms with onion, and green peppers and tomato with a basil, balsamic vinegar and olive oil vinaigrette.
I love her so and she can't ever have the one thing she really wants. It would literally kill me.
So cool! Congrats girl ❤️
Quote from: RachelsMantra on December 16, 2015, 08:48:15 AM
I'm falling in love with a cis lesbian and she loves me back.
I went to a transgender fund raiser in Houston on Friday night. Met two Susan's alumni at the event and we all went out to a bar afterwards. After they dropped me off at my hotel I noticed my new phone was missing. I knew it was in the car. Keri found it and her wife mailed it back to me. So happy to get my phone back!
Hi All
This morning I woke up to a very warm day and I'm picking up my 11 year old granddaughter and going down and take a long ride up north in my sea plane. Victoria is a carbon copy of her mom and that is so wonderful. She is one of my high lights of my life and so full of energy.
I will post some pictures in a minute
Hugs
Lyndsey
http://imgur.com/5GvFHTD
http://imgur.com/a/AVs83
http://imgur.com/uXYrxte
Talked with my VP today about time off for FFS in 2016 and SRS in 2016/17. He said it's fine and they will accommodate me.
That's great news as I was a bit worried.
It ain't over till its over but it's a good sign.
Time to start nailing down dates for those... :)
Quote from: Sydney_NYC on December 13, 2015, 12:11:49 AM
Today (well it was today 12/12 a little over an hour ago) was my 2 year anniversary of HRT. I'm so happy with how far I've come.
Congrats!!! You look great!
Quote from: iKate on December 16, 2015, 11:09:49 AM
Congrats!!! You look great!
Hi Kate
I'm so happy for you as you will know it is so rewarding to have all your dates set up. Then you start the count down and get very excited :angel:
Hugs
Lyndsey
Oh me. A very nice married man is courting me from a dating site. I know I should not get involved however I've always loved a little fling with a married 100% heterosexual well endowed man. Most unmarried men get so serious & I'm just not ready for that with any man. It makes me so happy to be with a strong man. Maybe it will work out....he's seems very honest & sincere. At least he's not hiding anything like some men do.
My wife and I are playing matchmaker... this is something we've always done, even before I realized that I was transgender. Another little detail of my past that makes a lot of sense now.
Anyway... a girlfriend of mine was in need, and she gave me permission to pass out her phone number. My wife and I chatted a bit, and she's got a friend who is an amazing match. I've been texting both of 'em, passing along compliments... so exciting! Aah, young love!
I decided that I'm getting a good wig for myself for Christmas.
I've eaten a normal diet today after 3 days of very very little intake..
Feeling nice and considering shaving my legs so that's exciting lol
No more work this year!
I am finding interaction with girls so much easier. This is very strange but nice.
Girls at work, some really very nice and others, seems something has changed???
Bit confused by it as in the past I was invisible to them.
Quote from: BubblegumSquish on December 17, 2015, 10:06:01 PM
I've eaten a normal diet today after 3 days of very very little intake..
Feeling nice and considering shaving my legs so that's exciting lol
Look into the Atkins way of eating. Good foods but low carbs. Carbs make fat. It's fun for me to cook new dishes with low carbs. There are several FB support pages & women all over the world follow the Atkins plan to lose weight. I've safely removed about 25 pounds in the past year. It'a a life time change in the way of eating, not some quick deal & you never starve yourself. You eat well but low carbs.... Good Luck GF.
Big day for me. Off for a new appt with electrolysis lady that also does permanent eye makeup. I hope to have her shape my eyebrows & maybe eyelids.....Then to Hair Club for Women to see about hair transplants, I hope they can use some lower neck facial hairs as doner hairs. That would be so nice & less electrolysis. Happy Dance.
I've lost 31kg since January, I have less than 8kg to go to reach my goal weight.
I've had more people come up and tell me how good I look and how brave I am than people giving me dirty looks.
I have not yet been verbally or physically abused since starting my transition.
I Happy just to wake up in the morning knowing I feel like I have always wanted to feel.
Lyndsey
Just got ears pierced :D
Quote from: archlord on December 18, 2015, 01:24:28 PM
Just got ears pierced :D
I'm so happy for you!! ;D I have two in each ear. and that is enough. but love it. i have 3/4 cart diamond studs in the back ones that I rarely ever take out and I change the front set all the time as to what I'm wearing. ;)
Lynn
What made me happy today was putting in my ruby studs in my pierced ears, Hole #2 on each side. Left the clear, faceted larger studs in hole #1 on each side.
What made me happy yesterday was getting my "Sex: Female" on my driver's license.
What made me happy two days ago was my appointment with a new family doctor that is TG herself. Super cool!
Quote from: Roberto on December 18, 2015, 02:17:46 PM
What made me happy today was putting in my ruby studs in my pierced ears, Hole #2 on each side. Left the clear, faceted larger studs in hole #1 on each side.
What made me happy yesterday was getting my "Sex: Female" on my driver's license.
What made me happy two days ago was my appointment with a new family doctor that is TG herself. Super cool!
I'm so happy for you as I have two in each ear too. I have 3/4 cart diamonds in the back ones that I very rarely take out I just change the front ones
Lynn
Making arrangements with my big sis for birthday lunch. It will be the first time we've met up since I transitioned 😊
Oh i've got 2 in each ear too! Mainly becausing picking just 1 pair of earrings is too hard.
So exciting you just got your ears pierced Archlord! Much fun and glamour ahead!
Really lovely outlook Lynn. Life can be so good X
One day closer to hormones. Woo!
Love my new electrolysis salon that I met today. Such a nice elegant salon & they can easily remove my remaining sparce facial hairs. $65 per hour was quite a surprise, I expected more...Happy Dance. My previous electrol lady passed away about a month ago. We all knew her & were sad at her passing. It was good to grieve together some & share stories about her. She was a very kind gentle woman. RIP, Sarah.
Quote from: archlord on December 18, 2015, 01:24:28 PM
Just got ears pierced :D
You sure make me feel old. OMG I've had pierced ears for 30-40 years since high school. Enjoy GF
Yes, I'm with you. My ears were triple pierced in 1983, so that's 32 to 33 years ago now ... So I'm feeling old too! My SRS was even 30 years ago. Wow.
Quote from: Roberto on December 18, 2015, 10:19:03 PM
Yes, I'm with you. My ears were triple pierced in 1983, so that's 32 to 33 years ago now ... So I'm feeling old too! My SRS was even 30 years ago. Wow.
Lucky you. I wish my GRS was done long long ago. I sure would have loved to enjoy more fully some of the men I dated back in those years. OH my some where such studs & I so wanted them........inside my vagina......body. Take care girl friend & Merry Christmas.
My breasts are sore so that makes me really happy!
"Ok lets do this, youre my gf for the night!"
I smiled all night :-)
Oh Thank you FrancisAnn ... And Merry Christmas to you too GF! Roberta.
I'm so very happy to have found a new electrolysis salon after my previous electro lady passed away. I'm going to concentrate on having every little hair finally removed, happy dance. Then per my plastic surgeon advise I plan to go ahead with dermabrasion on my entire face. I'll look rough for a while however when I heal up my face will finally look so much nicer, softer & far more feminine. Oh me that will finally be so nice. I want to finally become an attractive sexy confident pretty woman. I can have my GRS anytime I want so that procedure is maybe 3-4 months away after my face heals up. Happy dance for me to finally become an attractive normal woman to enjoy life more fully. I deserve it after all the years of strain & stress with being trapped in the wrong physical body.
To the lady that I may have unknowingly scooped parking spot at local mall, you made my day.
You wishing me a merry (@!&^%&*) Christmas BITCH !, said that I was a passable female... best Christmas ever.
My new electrolysis ladies sure do not mess around. My next appointment is for 8 AM next Monday for a 2 hour session. They are the most efficient electro ladies I've even used & such a nice pleasant elegant salon. Happy dance. I fit right in with their nice clientel & feel at home in their salon. My face is looking nicer & nicer if I do say so myself. It feels so normal to be a woman. I'm so looking forward to my GRS perhaps in 2-3 months for a hopeful medium depth vagina. I have some nice men courting me & oh my it will be so nice to one day fully enjoying a nice strong man. Happy dance again. Merry Christmas to all.
Went to see "The Danish Girl" with a bunch of my friends (cis women, trans women & trans men). It was a wonderful movie. If you go bring tissues!
Hugz,
Joi
OH, happy again today! I just turned in my surgeon's letter and the paperwork for my new passport with the "F" gender marker ... Got my new passport photo, and it's in the works! That makes me happy. Now I'll have a driver's license AND a passport that agree: Sex: F :-) Next on the agenda ... Social Security, after I get the new passport.
My bestie did my eyebrows! I told her that I wanted them done by someone the first time and suggested that maybe her daughter, who has a makeup show on YouTube would be a good choice. She said, "no way, she likes really bushy eyebrows. I'll do them when you're ready." Then, after a moment, she said, "I just wanna get my hands on those eyebrows, now." I told her to go ahead, so she did.
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Too much beard shadow in this picture, but the other one doesn't show off the brows as well.
Last night at work someone stopped me and told me that they really liked the "new" me so much better. Apparently I'm much more friendly and outgoing now than before going full time. :)
.......My wife confirmed this after I told her the story...... :laugh:
Everyone seems to keep staring at my chest lately, which is a good thing; that always makes me happy :-) I should start progesterone tomorrow with my new endo; he might be 75 years old but I hear he is still awesome!
The main source of my happiness though is looking forward to again sharing the gift of family, that just gets better each and every day. They are the best Christmas present I could have ever hoped for.
I'm very happy that I started using 100% natural coconut oil on my face. It is so much softer & nicer. I'm really very lucky to have a nice feminine face & I'm trying my best to take good care of it. It's almost Christmas friends, he happy & proud of who you are, I am.
I'm going back to Burlingame California for another trip in February
Fun this time
Lynn
Quote from: MsMarlo on December 22, 2015, 03:55:09 PM
Everyone seems to keep staring at my chest lately, which is a good thing; that always makes me happy :-) I should start progesterone tomorrow with my new endo; he might be 75 years old but I hear he is still awesome!
The main source of my happiness though is looking forward to again sharing the gift of family, that just gets better each and every day. They are the best Christmas present I could have ever hoped for.
Ms Marlo, you look so nice & I know the wonderful feeling of growing breasts. That is so amazing & it feels so right even if it was several years later than puberty, in my case quite a few years, hahaha. I live in the southeast US also. I'm proud of you to post your location. WTG girl friend. Merry Christmas to you.
Had two of my coworkers refer to me as "she" today during conversation. I think I am completely transparent at work now. No special dress or anything, they like my attitude and style according to another friend. Sweet :) Oh, and had a customer (male) keep looking at my chest while I was discussing one of our products. Guess the high beams were on REALLY HIGH and suddenly I understood why it could be so annoying...I found it flattering :)
Quote from: Dee Marshall on December 22, 2015, 12:54:12 PM
My bestie did my eyebrows! I told her that I wanted them done by someone the first time and suggested that maybe her daughter, who has a makeup show on YouTube would be a good choice. She said, "no way, she likes really bushy eyebrows. I'll do them when you're ready." Then, after a moment, she said, "I just wanna get my hands on those eyebrows, now." I told her to go ahead, so she did.
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Too much beard shadow in this picture, but the other one doesn't show off the brows as well.
Hell yeah! I got mine done the other day and although it is the beginning of a SLOW shaping process.. and mine look nice; yours are super feminine! luckkkyyyy! i wish mine were pretty like yours haha
Quote from: BubblegumSquish on December 22, 2015, 07:01:43 PM
Hell yeah! I got mine done the other day and although it is the beginning of a SLOW shaping process.. and mine look nice; yours are super feminine! luckkkyyyy! i wish mine were pretty like yours haha
All she did was clear up a few strays and take two rows of hair off of the bottom. She was jealous. Her's are much furrier! I guess it's the difference between Irish and Cuban ancestry.
Every time I look in a mirror now I grin!
I like your brows:)
I'm getting mine done at a permanent makeup studio this week; I want a better arch, and I'm going to have them start closer to the inner corners, and lengthened more on the outer corners.
Quote from: kittenpower on December 22, 2015, 09:04:38 PM
I like your brows:)
I'm getting mine done at a permanent makeup studio this week; I want a better arch, and I'm going to have them start closer to the inner corners, and lengthened more on the outer corners.
My new electrolysis ladies do permanent cosmetics/makeup. I'm excited to see what they can do with my eyebrows, eyeliner or whatever other areas they can help with. I'd really love a better more defined lip line if they can do that. After my facial surgery to remove a scar on my lower lip, my lip line is not very well defined. It's so nice to find these salons to help us look nicer. Good luck to you with your face girl friend.
Had my first boymode fail experience a week ago after finals. Then it happened again today, twice. So, it looks like these hormones are finally working. If these fails keep happening then maybe I'll go fulltime next year.
Hi All
I woke this morning to find a Christmas card in my door. It was from my brother Jim that I haven't seen for three and a half years. It was a gift card for $150.00 Made out in my Female name. I just wish that he knock on my door so I could Hug him and say thank you so much. I'm hoping and praying that this is a new start for us as I miss him so much. We use to travel the world together and have so many laugh's and so much fun. I Love Him so much. I have been crying most of he morning. Both Happy tears and sad that he didn't see me. :'(
Lynn
I'm now fitting Size 7 B(M) US shoes, which I am ecstatic about. I'll still buy size 8 for now but I did have dysphoria about my feet.
Quote from: iKate on December 23, 2015, 11:02:14 AM
I'm now fitting Size 7 B(M) US shoes, which I am ecstatic about. I'll still buy size 8 for now but I did have dysphoria about my feet.
You are lucky! I have size 8 1/2 women's
Lynn
Quote from: Lyndsey on December 23, 2015, 11:04:37 AM
You are lucky! I have size 8 1/2 women's
Lynn
I used to be size 9 men's. Years ago I didn't even fit size 10. But I had some foot swelling due to hyperuricemia (gout). Now that is pretty much gone plus the shrinkage from HRT so I'm down to a good size.
Quote from: iKate on December 23, 2015, 12:08:13 PM
I used to be size 9 men's. Years ago I didn't even fit size 10. But I had some foot swelling due to hyperuricemia (gout). Now that is pretty much gone plus the shrinkage from HRT so I'm down to a good size.
Hi Kate
I'm so happy for you as you know it is a lot easier to be in the normal size category as we can buy shoes everywhere. I feel very bad for the girls that have to shop on line and then take the chance that they don't fit and have to go threw the act of sending them back and trying again.
Hugs Lynn
I got my nails done, There pink!!
Found out I have everything I need to get my birth certificate amended to reflect my correct gender and my new name. Way happy today!!
Quote from: Jessie Ann on December 23, 2015, 04:11:36 PM
Found out I have everything I need to get my birth certificate amended to reflect my correct gender and my new name. Way happy today!!
Oh My
That is always something wonderful to hear. SWEET!!!
hug's
Lynn
It is like an early Christmas for me! Yesterday I sent in my name change papers and got my doctor to fill in the physician form for gender change. I sent the forms in today! What a feeling! I just need to wait up to 4 weeks for the certificates to arrive. I also got a referral for Gender Assignment Surgery sent in yesterday! Wow. It seems like a whirlwind and I have been waiting for this day - like forever! Forward along the path I go!
Quote from: islandgirl on December 23, 2015, 06:56:33 PM
It is like an early Christmas for me! Yesterday I sent in my name change papers and got my doctor to fill in the physician form for gender change. I sent the forms in today! What a feeling! I just need to wait up to 4 weeks for the certificates to arrive. I also got a referral for Gender Assignment Surgery sent in yesterday! Wow. It seems like a whirlwind and I have been waiting for this day - like forever! Forward along the path I go!
Oh My God I'm so happy for you! I know that feeling I just got all my new stuff back in early November and It is so nice to know that know one can tell you any different! Love to hear good news like this!
Big Hug's and Congratulations
Lyndsey Marie
After months of Deliberation I have finally found a name that I like and meets with some criteria that I wanted. I won't be doing anything official with my name for a few months yet but coming to a decision was the hard part.
I don't know that I can do anything about changing it on here or not but I will be going my the name Elizabeth in the real world which I will wait and see what derivative of Elizabeth most people use...Liz, Libby ,Beth or some such derivative. I am starting to change my name and use it when I can so I can get used to it.
I felt okay today cos i ate a bit. merry xmas all xx
Went out for a nice ride this morning, got drenched in a cloud burst.
Did 80k so feel good.
Survived the shops today, manic to put it mildly but I needed to supplies
Now to watch Bad Santa to get me in the Xmas spirit....
Quote from: sarahtokes on December 23, 2015, 09:27:19 PM
After months of Deliberation I have finally found a name that I like and meets with some criteria that I wanted. I won't be doing anything official with my name for a few months yet but coming to a decision was the hard part.
I don't know that I can do anything about changing it on here or not but I will be going my the name Elizabeth in the real world which I will wait and see what derivative of Elizabeth most people use...Liz, Libby ,Beth or some such derivative. I am starting to change my name and use it when I can so I can get used to it.
Of course! Whatever makes you happy, Liz. ;)
Quote from: Lyndsey on December 23, 2015, 12:13:50 PM
Hi Kate
I'm so happy for you as you know it is a lot easier to be in the normal size category as we can buy shoes everywhere. I feel very bad for the girls that have to shop on line and then take the chance that they don't fit and have to go threw the act of sending them back and trying again.
Hugs Lynn
It's not a blessing as it seems. Common sizes are often sold out or more expensive than other sizes that don't sell as well.
I'm doing a happy dance that there was no damage to my place from last nights tornadoes. Still sad for those with damage & loss of life. It's feels so good to be a woman & have so many nice friends.....My body & face are looking so much nicer each day, how nice to see some real improvements after 2 years plus of HRT & several surgeries.
Im home for Christmas for the first time since transitioning. My Dad has finally started to call me "Rachel"! This makes me sooooooooooo happy omg.
Quote from: RachelsMantra on December 24, 2015, 07:36:48 AM
Im home for Christmas for the first time since transitioning. My Dad has finally started to call me "Rachel"! This makes me sooooooooooo happy omg.
Wooohooo congrats!
I LOVE Christmas and today is the start of all the big fun
Hug's
Lynn
I got a present which had "For Freya" written on it. From my mother, of course.
Congrats Rachel! Family acceptance is Soooo big! I just went to the pharmacy to pick up a few hair brushes ... Got ma'amed by the cashier, just a little Christmas Eve smile for that ... Made me feel good.
Quote from: kittenpower on December 22, 2015, 09:04:38 PM
I like your brows:)
I'm getting mine done at a permanent makeup studio this week; I want a better arch, and I'm going to have them start closer to the inner corners, and lengthened more on the outer corners.
I went to my appointment this morning, and the consult went really well, but since I'm still healing from my surgery with Dr. Z 3 months ago, and I had to have a course of antibiotics last month, I decided to reschedule for next month, and the artist was very understanding. She drew in my brows, and I am really happy with how they looked; I am so looking forward to having them done. I've learned to trust my instincts, and as she was prepping me for the treatment my gut told me not to do it today, and that overrode my desire to have it done, and also the inconvenience of having to reschedule.
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A new friend invited me to spend Christmas Day with her.
Thank you.
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I sure hope Santa Claus likes crustless pumpkin pie. I'm baking a nice one & I'll leave it on a small table by the fireplace with a big knife, saucer & fork. Ho Ho Ho friends.
I love watching my grand children open there stuff on Christmas Morning
Hug's
Lyndsey
Last night I told my daughter that I am transitioning. She is accepting and supportive, that makes this the best Christmas I've ever had!
Yesterday, the clerk said "Thank you ma'am". I was in boymode, no hormones, look like a guy and all.... But she must had subconciously thought of me as female based on my given looks (she was a bit taller than me).
Freud psychology.
Cooking xmas dinner almost on my own with just a few hints from my mother.
Sophie
Last Night just before I went to my families christmas party my mother came to me and gave me a early present, new earrings in my birth stone, I love them and the thought that went into them. I transisioned 6 months ago and this was my first christmas as serena. which also meant that party was the first time I saw my cousins, aunts and uncles in one places sense I came out. What I expected and sorta feared happend at the party, I walked in, was happily greeted my mother misgendered me once and my aunt misnamed me once, but everyone was otherwise very good about it and no one asked any questions or said anything about it. In short the fact that I am presenting as female was not a subject at all. That part sorta bothers me, I sorta wish we could just have a Q&A session, get it all out there and not dance around things avoiding the subject, but still nothing negitive really at all.
I always wonder how often people I know talk about my transision when I am not around. I know it happens people ask friends of mine about me and such with some regularity but never seem to talk to me in person. I mean Its nice that they don't make a huge deal about it, it would just be nice if people would just talk to me about it so I don't keep worrying about when/if they will ask me about it.
ok not totally a what made me happy today but definatly a good day.
Just put my forms & letters in the mail to get my birth certificate amended to Female. That's in the works now, another smile for today!
Quote from: Roberto on December 26, 2015, 11:56:52 AM
Just put my forms & letters in the mail to get my birth certificate amended to Female. That's in the works now, another smile for today!
I"M SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!!! :angel: :D I had surgery in October I sent mine in and got it back in early November of this year. YAHOO! I love it and now nobody an question my being Female. :angel: ;D
Hug's
Lyndsey
Quote from: Roberto on December 26, 2015, 11:56:52 AM
Just put my forms & letters in the mail to get my birth certificate amended to Female. That's in the works now, another smile for today!
Congrats! I know the feeling. I had put mine in on Dec. 22. All we need to do is 'patiently' wait. I will be so happy when I Have the certificates in my hands!
Yes, it's a strange feeling to know that we could get in trouble by using a men's room now! Smile!
Add me to the list who just mailed their birth certificate change in. I have all of my other documents changed already. So this was the last piece in my ID puzzle.
Quote from: islandgirl on December 26, 2015, 03:35:49 PM
Congrats! I know the feeling. I had put mine in on Dec. 22. All we need to do is 'patiently' wait. I will be so happy when I Have the certificates in my hands!
A friend of Sweetie's is visiting us for two weeks from Vancouver. Several times this evening she referred to me as "Mr. Dion", making me cringe. Sweetie offered to speak to her about it, which is huge! I told her I would take care of it, as I planned to, but, she offered! Small victories and slow acceptance. I'll take it!
Hi All
I was lazy today and read my book and didn't even take a shower till 3pm. then I'm going out to a big Formal with my man and he is all done up in his suit. Sweet! I have a sweet long soft Burgundy silk gown with a lace top and love it! He couldn't stop looking at me and telling me how pretty I am. WOW! I know it will be a great night.
Do you think that he is trying to get lucky to night? >:-) LOL!
Oh No
Hugs
Lyndsey
The site of obvious beginnings of cleavage with no bra or cheating, just a tank top on.
Have had two ladies from my dock hug me today. They pressed right into the 'girls' before realizing that my yelps were from pain. They are both aware and they started reminiscing about their adolescent years. They both sort of laugh that I am going a second one at my age.
Just reached b cup
Beautiful sunny clear weather for a nice change. It feels good to be a woman.......& to be alive.
Oh heck yeah! Went shopping with friends and picked up a brand new Kimono with some awesome shoes! Scored all sorts of basic wears and came in under my budget. Was a blast! Got a pedicure too!
(https://dl.dropboxusercontent.com/u/73371079/2015-12-28%2008.29.02.jpg)
I was doing the grocery shopping and standing at the deli counter waiting for my order when an old man walked up behind me to wait.
Another server asked him his order and he said "This young lady was waiting before me."
It felt so awesome being correctly gendered.
I thanked him and said I was already being served, I have felt fantastic the whole day.
Later I stopped in at hair stylists to ask for some advice on how to wear my hair while growing it out so it looked more feminine.
I was told that I shouldn't worry and that it looked great.
I also realised that I've been living full-time for the last few months. It wasn't even a conscious decision, it just happened.
I hope everyone else has had an amazing day.
Hugs,
Sarah
Just received an email from the US State Dept. that they have finally finished processing my new passport and that they had mailed it. Took them 15 weeks to process.
I should have it in hand on Monday the 4th.
Now I can get my Thai visa.
Hoooray!
That is awesome news Joi! Congrats and am jealous...a Thai Visa!
Congrats! Such a long wait! So exciting to be able to reach your next goal! Much id paper work in in now and I will be doing the passport thing later this spring.
Hi All
I got up this morning to see my brother Jimmy plowed my driveway. :angel: The funny thing is I have not seen him in person for 4 years! He has talked to me on the phone but he said what I have done has freaked him out. He said he can't face me yet. He has been so stealth he does things for me all the time when I'm not around but never comes in. By the time I get out to see him he's gone. It hurts me but I do know he will someday when he is ready. I pray for the day he will stop and I can see him. :'(
Hug's
Lyndsey
Quote from: Joi on December 29, 2015, 11:49:02 PM
Just received an email from the US State Dept. that they have finally finished processing my new passport and that they had mailed it. Took them 15 weeks to process.
I should have it in hand on Monday the 4th.
Now I can get my Thai visa.
Hoooray!
WOW! Joi
I'm so happy for you. I guess that I was lucky that way as I live near Portsmouth New Hampshire were they do the passports. I just went there and they were so nice and I walked out with my new one the same day. had to give them my old one but they put punch makes threw it and reissued my new one with my new name and gender and picture .
Hug's
Lyndsey
So many things make me happy. It's just so nice to be a woman.......Happy New Years to all Susan's Place friends.
Went to the pharmacy today to pick-up a prescription. First came, "I'll be right with you ma'am" ... Then came "Can I help you ma'am". (Nice!) I gave her my prescription card, clickety-click goes her keyboard and she says "Oh this says Roberto. (Like my screen name). That can't be right! You don't look like a Roberto!" (Right! ... Love it!) I said yah, well, that's an old record! It all just sort of made my day ...
Quote from: Joi on December 29, 2015, 11:49:02 PM
Just received an email from the US State Dept. that they have finally finished processing my new passport and that they had mailed it. Took them 15 weeks to process.
I should have it in hand on Monday the 4th.
Now I can get my Thai visa.
Hoooray!
Happy landings! We all wish you lots of success! Great start for a new year . . .
Hi All
I Feel blessed to be on this site and trying my best to help all of us threw the good and the bad. If I can't help I will always try to guide you to someone of a place that can help. I have to say that I have had a lot of help here from all of you also. I love being here! :angel: :angel:
Hug's
Lyndsey
Got to leave work early today and escape the Times Square crowd. :)
Oh and I wore a suit to work.
Waking up and feeling the carpet under my toes, the heart was pumpin' too. I did do my nails this morning as well. (put it in neutral by opi) Can't get any better than that. "
Spending a small part of new years eve on here with you lot and seeing so many of you guys getting good news for the new year. If only some was coming my way, lol.
Happy new Year to you all.
Sophie
I woke up to a brand new year.
May it bring you all health, wealth, happiness, and love 😘
Hugs,
Sarah
Quote from: iKate on December 31, 2015, 01:24:04 PM
Got to leave work early today and escape the Times Square crowd. :)
Oh and I wore a suit to work.
I Wear them a lot because of my job too
Lynn
Quote from: Lyndsey on December 31, 2015, 05:50:27 PM
I Wear them a lot because of my job too
Lynn
I need to dress more business like because I have a lot of meetings and stuff. But other than that nobody cares.
Quote from: iKate on December 31, 2015, 06:34:12 PM
I need to dress more business like because I have a lot of meetings and stuff. But other than that nobody cares.
I alway need to dress for court
Lynn
Happy New Year friends. My new all cotton PJ's from The Vermont Country Store sure feel warm. It's in the low 30's where I live. I had my black eyed peas & collard greens for good fortune, love & good health so 2016 should be a good year. I'd like a tall strong new man for 2016 to enjoy.
It's a new year!
Time for a fresh new beginning. Here's hoping everyone has an amazing 2016 :D
Quote from: SofiN on January 01, 2016, 10:43:43 AM
It's a new year!
Time for a fresh new beginning. Here's hoping everyone has an amazing 2016 :D
This is a whole new year for me. Last year I began with being presumed male and finished with being presumed female and all those other stages in between. It was the single most difficult and scary year of my life. I faced so many of my biggest fears. I went from a person with zero self confidence to someone who is more like the me I have always wanted to be. At midnight last night I had a huge sense of relief. It was over, I had done it, I survived!
This year, this day, they make me happy because they are the initiation of a lifetime of being recognized as me. My real life builds from this point forward. I am full of hope for my future and joy in my present moments.
Happy New Year. After partying at home a bit last evening, i woke up to a house full of family that have been with us for the week. This family has been only marginally supportive or even recognizing of my transition but they have been really great guests and i had the chance to answer their questions etc.
This past year has been a difficult one for me personally bringing my life to record lows in every respect. Now, I have a new year to look forward to with none of that baggage. Life can only get better for me now!
A new year. A new start. I spent at least 9 months on spiro waiting to get approved for E and finally got it at the beginning of December. It's so nice to have hormones again.
Found out that I still have a part time job. One of the other employees wanted to fight me at work the other night and I was worried that because they need him more than me, I was going to lose it. My boss told me that he will be apologizing when I come back and that I'm the only person he enjoys working with because I joke around with him.
I'm not sure how to deal with him though as he is the only person at work to notice I had breasts forming and then noticed I had a sports bra on when I tried to hide them. It's good part time money but I'll have to leave when I get even more obvious as my boss's husband is Egyptian and VERY conservative on any sexuality or trans issue.
Dang. I've gone and written a book.
Looking forward to a transformative year [emoji3]
Ella
Quote from: Sophieraven on December 31, 2015, 04:09:40 PM
Spending a small part of new years eve on here with you lot and seeing so many of you guys getting good news for the new year. If only some was coming my way, lol.
Happy new Year to you all.
Sophie
Don't worry, good things will come your way sooner or later too Sophie!
I don't have any dramatic feel good moments to share so far, but I am feeling more free to express my inner self every day - and it's great. It's such a freeing experience that is hard to describe. I'm finding that I am reaching a point where I almost want to be discovered to be trans and at least less intensely worried about how others will respond.
Went out in full dress last night was so fun to be seen was at a lbgt bar so even though I didn't come close to passing nobody cared good time
Ok, so it's not "today" but I'm gonna stretch it for this one.
Went out NYE as Emma for the first time in my life. Happy for so many reasons:
1) she says she actually prefers me as Emma as I'm more fun and more outgoing (but she's not attracted to me as Emma)
2) my friend asked if I'd had a boob job (nope, just hormones and a good bra, but it seems the boogie fairy has been kind to me)
3) a guy asked to take a photo of my cleavage for his cleavage of the week feature (prob a lie but I don't care, he wanted a photo of my cleavage!)
4) my wife spoke to somebody who misunderstood the story and thought I was her husband's ex wife. Seems I even fully pass in gay bars
5) I got to wear my new kick ass Louboutin heels
Happy New Year!
2016 is the first year I am starting as full woman.
I hope everybody out there has a fantastic year!
Quote from: CrysC on January 02, 2016, 02:53:12 PM
Happy New Year!
2016 is the first year I am starting as full woman.
I hope everybody out there has a fantastic year!
Hi CrysC
I'm Very Happy for you as this is a new start in your life!
For me today was wonderful as I spent last night with one of my brothers and sisters that I haven't seen for 4 years and all went well. The beginning of a new error for me
Hug's
Lyndsey
Despite being sick the last few days (guh winter..) I noticed something quite exciting today.
I have 2 hard lumps which I'm guessing is the beginning of breast budding! They are pretty sore too so it seems to check out so far. Seems about right for almost a month on hormones.
Also one of my brothers called me Sophie which made me really happy inside. I hope other members catch on soon.
Quote from: SofiN on January 02, 2016, 03:45:19 PM
Despite being sick the last few days (guh winter..) I noticed something quite exciting today.
I have 2 hard lumps which I'm guessing is the beginning of breast budding! They are pretty sore too so it seems to check out so far. Seems about right for almost a month on hormones.
Also one of my brothers called me Sophie which made me really happy inside. I hope other members catch on soon.
Hi Sophie
That is wonderful both the buds and your brothers comment. Think of the buds as a flower that will bloom. :angel:
Hug's
Lyndsey
I am just starting my transition. Finally came out to my wife last month. So far have only started sirolactone. I did a routine household chores and my wife said I'm such a good girl. Was awesome to hear for the first time.
Oh how I have been waiting to say this for a long time
Just went to the mailbox and picked up my "new" passport! YAAAAY!
New legal name correct. In the section for sex a big capitol 'F"
All that's left is my Thai Visa and I'm ready to fly!
Kinda flying right now! ;)
Hugz,
Joi
Joi, Congrats on the Passport, Must be great to see your proper name on there. Don't fly too high tho there may be airspace restrictions there, lol, don't want a millitary escort home.
Sophie
I'm happy to have found a nice woman surgeon here in the eastern USA for my GRS when I'm ready. She is very nice & we talk on facebook all the time. Her fees are not excessive, since she is a new surgeon, very qualified however not well known & booked up for 6 months or a year in advance like some in the USA. Happy New Year to all & good luck to us all.
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Quote from: Joi on January 02, 2016, 11:44:19 PM
Oh how I have been waiting to say this for a long time
Just went to the mailbox and picked up my "new" passport! YAAAAY!
New legal name correct. In the section for sex a big capitol 'F"
All that's left is my Thai Visa and I'm ready to fly!
Kinda flying right now! ;)
Hugz,
Joi
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Joi:
Congratulations on the great news with your new passport. Yep, that nice 'F' may be one singular letter but it symbolises the years of hard work you have done to achieve it.
Now for reality. The Royal Thai Embassy website says they can take '15 business days' to process your visa application - there is no guarantee they will issue one.
With that in mind, apply early and keep your fingers crossed.
If no visa now, go to Cambodia for a couple days before you get started, see the temples and other sites, and the Thai Embassy can issue your 60-days visa on next-day service.
Best wishes to you, Joi, as your years of efforts come to fruition.
To those of you just beginning, yes, transition can have its rough spots and tough days, but this is a well-worn path that leads to success one step at a time.
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Came out to a friend!
I came out to a friend yesterday and without hesitation he was fully accepting he thought my breast growth was just me gaining weight lol... maybe I'll work up the courage to come out to the rest of my band soon enough!
Hugs JD!
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Quote from: Kellam on January 01, 2016, 11:32:39 AM
This is a whole new year for me. Last year I began with being presumed male and finished with being presumed female and all those other stages in between. It was the single most difficult and scary year of my life. I faced so many of my biggest fears. I went from a person with zero self confidence to someone who is more like the me I have always wanted to be. At midnight last night I had a huge sense of relief. It was over, I had done it, I survived!
This year, this day, they make me happy because they are the initiation of a lifetime of being recognized as me. My real life builds from this point forward. I am full of hope for my future and joy in my present moments.
Sounds like one full on year Kellam, really good to hear you made it in one piece :) Very inspirational post!
P.s Love your avatar piccie x
What made me happy today? Skipping in the rain with my girl friend, and for that moment forgetting all my worries and just being Xxx
Telling a guy you are attracted to, that you are trans?
For a month I began to talk to a guy on Facebook. Me and him were in the same facebook gaming group, and he commented on some of my posts in the group. One day I just started to chat with him for no reason. He replied and he was a very nice guy, kind of shy and abit flirty, and I think he is good looking!
On the 3rd or 4th day, I told him that I was trans. He replied instantly that he thought that I was a cis female. But he just put it aside and kept talking to me like any girl! We talked every day and we also decided to meet and play some games together at his place after new year and getting to know each other. At this time, I felt attracted to him.
And today I came home after spending the weekend at his place and well...we played alot of video games, and we talked alot and had a great time and he said that he was attracted to me. He was so shy that he didn't dare to kiss me, so I had to take the first step and said to him: "Hey, don't be shy!"
Well, so much happened in a short time and both of us wants to develelop all of this into a serious relationship. He also said that he doesn't see my trans identity as an issue. I looked up his family members, and alot of them were showing their support for LGBT rights.
And...I'm in love. He's my first boyfriend and later he messaged me today that his bed has my scent. That totally got my heart melting.
What a great start of this year.
I shaved my brows down to a shorter level and plucked out the monobrow in the middle. Still not femininely shaped,but a step in the right direction :)
Quote from: Moomin on January 03, 2016, 12:59:48 PM
Sounds like one full on year Kellam, really good to hear you made it in one piece :) Very inspirational post!
P.s Love your avatar piccie x
What made me happy today? Skipping in the rain with my girl friend, and for that moment forgetting all my worries and just being Xxx
Thanks, and thanks again Moomin! :D
P.s. I love skipping in the rain! Did you splash in any puddles? Anyway, just being is truly a blessing. Thanks for sharing that simple joy!
Attempted eyeliner for the first time and I really like how it makes my eyes pop!
There is also less than a week away from my doctor's visit, so I'm really excited about that too. =)
Hi All
I had a great time out with two of my girl friends that I work with. We went out to dinner and we ate in the bar. We all got hit on a lot LOL. My girl friend do not have a clue that I'm Trans. They never will and I have known them for over 3 1/2 years.
Lyndsey
I've been retooling my wardrobe, aiming for "dyke" because I'm about to start a new job and I'm not out yet. Basically, I want to be read as male by everybody but myself. Since this is a significant compromise and I'm starting tomorrow, I haven't actually been dressing this way (I want my new clothes to be clean, and I've been going more femme in the last week to combat the upcoming dysphoria).
I'm a slow start in the morning, so I set out to put together an outfit for tomorrow before I went to bed. I ended up playing dress-up for about 45 minutes. Often times, it can take me that long to dress in the morning because I'm slow and dumb tired and indecisive, distracted by making breakfast etc. But in those 45 minutes, I came up with an outfit for every day of the week. They look good, I'm pretty confident they'll be read as masculine enough, and my wife agrees on all fronts! Each outfit is on a hanger in my closet and I can just rip 'em down, throw 'em on and run out the door. My wife is like "good job, you've rediscovered the secret to dressing for office jobs." lol
And I'm super excited about the work I'll be doing.
Oh yes! Lots of splashing and spinning ;) X
2 hour appt. with my new electrolysis lady today & I hope all goes well. She is so strick & they worry about every little minute of the day, $65 per hour. I miss my previous electro lady that passed away 2 months ago. She was so nice & did a great job on my face with such nice facials...
FrancisAnn, Good luck and I hope all goes well for you. Sorry for the loss of the previous electro lady. Hugs
Mariah
Hi Girls
I woke up this morning and feel great my cold is gone.
Lynn
Yay! Glad your feeling better Lyndsey! X
Susan's coming out post. In the words of Stan Lee, 'nough said!
Quote from: Moomin on January 04, 2016, 04:28:54 PM
Yay! Glad your feeling better Lyndsey! X
Thank you so much Moomin
Lyndsey
Love my new electrolysis lady! Her process is great with very little pain to remove my remaining facial hairs. She has 2 good friends/clients that completed their GRS & are living happy lives. One recently got married & she attended her wedding. She wants me to meet them & join in a monthly social event at one church. I'm looking forward to getting to know these women plus others & who knows maybe a man is out there for me. Happy Dance!
Quote from: Mariah2014 on January 04, 2016, 07:00:55 AM
FrancisAnn, Good luck and I hope all goes well for you. Sorry for the loss of the previous electro lady. Hugs
Mariah
Mariah. Life is good for me & I hope life is good for you friend. Take care, love, Francis
Today I had to go to the bank counter to draw out cash because the ATM wasn't working.
I presented my card and withdrawal form to the lady at the counter. She looks at the form, then at my card (which is in my old male name) then at me and says "Is this your card miss?"
It took me a few seconds to workout what she was implying. I told her that yes it is my card but I haven't had my name changed yet.
She said it was no problem at all and that when the name change went through they could update my card quickly.
It has made me feel like I've almost left all of my past life behind me, all except the good friends and family :)
Happy Today! Got my brand new U.S. passport in the mail with my "F" for gender and my matching photo. Made me smile.
Without my involvement, my company has updated their discrimination and harassment policy with a note that "sex" includes pregnancy and gender identity. It's still a pretty lame policy since the "company policy" is that "provincial law prohibits..." which isn't actually a policy so much as a statement of fact. And since neither provincial law nor case law support their statement of fact... ah... here I am, looking the gift horse in the mouth.
Also, they're putting in new single occupancy bathrooms. I just got ahold of the blueprints, and one of them has a urinal and the other has a locking door. Rats. Since the construction isn't done yet (I think plumbing might be a done deal) I'm pushing to get neutral signage on the doors regardless.
Last year I had to travel to Manila to conduct training for 2 months.
To put it mildly I did not want to do it and be away from home.
Today I got asked to go to a wedding of one of the Manila team later in the year.
Things did not turn out how I expected and I had a good time and build very strong bonds with them.
I do miss them but we talk most days and see them on the video phones.
Life is full of surprises
SURPISE!
Yay!!! I finally know when I can start hrt! I need to have a few more meetings with my psychologist that have also been planned, but at least I now know for sure I can start early June. I was just waiting and waiting, not hearing anything back from the VUmc in Amsterdam after my intake appointments, making the dysphoria worse. So today I couldn't wait anymore for them to call me and contacted them myself. When they saw i was already referred to them in August of last year, they profoundly apologized for keeping me in limbo like that. I felt relieved they said that, because I was afraid they would consider me to be the complaining type of patient, which I really try not to be.
It actually was taking too long, because something went wrong in their bureaucracy. They thanked me for my patience, could imagine my gender dysphoria getting worse and planned everything in one go.
I'm a happy girl now :)
Hi Girls
Well Last night I got to do something new with two beautiful women and really enjoyed myself! :angel:This week I have learn so much here with all of you. We all have such different paths that we all follow in life and when we bump into each other I believe that our paths were meant to cross. Last night when I feel asleep I knew that I had made two more close friends and will alway cherish that.
Hug's Lyndsey
Even though it took me way too long to get to work today because of the incredibly lousy weather here in LA, I'm excited to be going to the West Coast premier of the new web series "Her Story." A show about transgender women dating in Los Angeles. There will be a large number of trans women from all across the country there, including a number of ladies from this board. So, even though the weather is bad the company will be fantastic!!
Quote from: Jessie Ann on January 06, 2016, 02:25:07 PM
Even though it took me way too long to get to work today because of the incredibly lousy weather here in LA, I'm excited to be going to the West Coast premier of the new web series "Her Story." A show about transgender women dating in Los Angeles. There will be a large number of trans women from all across the country there, including a number of ladies from this board. So, even though the weather is bad the company will be fantastic!!
Enjoy girl friend. That's sounds great. I'm envious since I never get to travel much at all.
Love the lips Jessie! ;)
Where on the web will "Her Story" be streaming?
Hugz!
Payday came through
VISIT ALL THE STORES
CHECK ALL THE SALES :D
Her Story will be released on January 9th on YouTube. There will be a number of 8-10 minute scenes. It was a very timely and thought provoking look at what life is like for #girlslikeus. I think there may be some parts that may be triggering for some gals. I had a great time and it was very fun to see it in a room full of other transwomen. I hope that they will be able to continue on with the story and get a production deal.
Here are a couple pictures of the cast. Laura Zak and Jen Richards co-wrote and co-produced the show.
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Left to right: Laura Zak, Caroline Whitney Smith, Angelica Ross, Kristina Mitchell, Christian Ochoa, Jen Richards.
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Left to Right: Laura Zak, Angelica Ross, Jen Richards
Sydney siders can finally start drying out after a weeks rain.
Starting to get rising damp...
Better stop jumping in puddles.
I'm still so happy to have found my new electrolysis lady. She has 2 clients that have completed their GRS & are living normal happy lives. One is happily married & just a nice young woman to everyone & the other is a nice single woman. She does great work on my face & is excited to help me become more of an attractive hetrosexual woman. She likes my facial features & after my facelift I do look very nice if I do say so myself. Maybe in time I can find a nice man or two but I'm in no hurry to get married unless he's a hunk. Happy Dance.
FrannieAnnie, don't settle for a hunk, find a hunk who treats you right. You deserve it!
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Quote from: Jenny07 on January 07, 2016, 04:28:13 AM
Sydney siders can finally start drying out after a weeks rain.
Starting to get rising damp...
Better stop jumping in puddles.
Hi Jenny
I haven't been jumping over puddles Ive been wading threw Snow.
Hug's
Lyndsey
I'm shopping for a Shiba Inu puppy :)
No wonder I've always attracted & enjoyed men. I look hot & sexy when I dress up just a little. It will sure be nice when my body is complete so I can fully enjoy a strong nice man.........Life is good. It's so nice to be a woman. I was really a hottie in my early 20's dressed nice & doing some shows at "gay" bars. All the men were so nice, buying me drinks.....those were the days however I still look very nice even in my early 50's..
At work today I was delivering an item I had just had calibrated for somebody and they thanked Me for a quick turnaround and I replied I always Do my best and got back "GOOD LASSIE" and that really made my day as I have known him for about 15 Years but He fully accepts me as a woman now
I met an awesome girl and we are going out for coffee tomorrow night.
She knows I'm trans and we've talked about the limitations and that I'm pre-op and want the surgery.
She's a chef and a musician and most important of all: she thinks I'm beautiful 💓👸 and I think she is too 😍
Went to the Social Security office this morning ... Hopefully with all the required papers in hand. Had to wait over an hour, but I Successfully changed my social security gender to "F", and a new Medicare card is on the way also! Made me happy today.
Correction to my post above. Her Story will be available on January 19th.
Being alive and being who I truly am!
Lyndsey
My dog jumping all over me and licking my face when I practice voice hahaha she's cute :D
Painted my nails for the first time and it came out pretty well considering I have no experience xD
Takes so long to dry though ;-;
After they are a little dry try putting them in the freezer or under cold running water. Drying nail polish is a simple chemical reaction, reduce the temperature and it rapidly turns solid.
As for myself yesterday was just a good day, like no freak outs, limited self hate, all in all I felt good about myself. I really really wish this feeling could last.
Serena
After being on the Atkins way of eating for almost a year & losing 25 pounds or so my feet are smaller!!!! Happy dance, size 10 medium are actually loose on me. However a 9 medium is a little too snug. Happy Dance!!!!! Some new boots with a 2 inch heel feel great & at 5' 8" I'm not too tall for a 2-3 inch heel. It feels so good to become a much more attractive kind of thin woman....
Finished plucking hair from my neck without any bruising or dark spots. I found a video by a girl named Carolina on youtube. Listening to Adele before a hot bath.
Hi Girls
Today I got to catch up with the long lost sleep that I have needed for my recovery from a highly stressful week.
Hug's
Lyndsey
Quote from: Valwen on January 09, 2016, 01:36:13 PM
After they are a little dry try putting them in the freezer or under cold running water. Drying nail polish is a simple chemical reaction, reduce the temperature and it rapidly turns solid.
Thanks for the tip! A friend also suggested a hairdryer with a cool button could work as well.
I got new glasses (on order) and started wearing contacts.
I got my blood work results back and they are good - very good :-)
Quote from: SofiN on January 09, 2016, 08:18:59 PM
Thanks for the tip! A friend also suggested a hairdryer with a cool button could work as well.
Sally Hanson makes some new gel polish that is great. The top coat hardens quick & it lasts much longer than any normal polish. 2 coats of polish then top coat. It's great polish.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on January 10, 2016, 06:09:06 PM
Sally Hanson makes some new gel polish that is great. The top coat hardens quick & it lasts much longer than any normal polish. 2 coats of polish then top coat. It's great polish.
Remember to use an undercoat. The gels can stain your nails otherwise
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I like the way they look. I went with subtle but shimmering.
Hi Girls
What made me happy is seeing One of my best friends start to get back on her feet after a horrible weekend. There is two of us here that will alway go out of our way to help her and she found out who her true friends are. There is other's that helped too but just thought I say that. I have found and made a lot of friend here and It can be a very friendly place with lots of good advice.
Hug's
Lyndsey
I had a fantastic brunch with a couple of transgender activists and entrepreneurs. Thanks to Nikki Araguz Loyd and Angelica Ross for sharing part of their day with me. I hope that someday I can be as much of an asset to our community as these two ladies are.
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I had a very definite male fail at the bank this weekend .I went into the bank to retrieve some money from an old savings account the Teller took my card swiped it and said Sorry Madam I cannot let You have this Money it's in the name of ******** my old male name .I explained that I was transitioning and showed him my old identification and he apologised and Said please take this as a compliment as I can see no male in You at all .I have to admit I left the bank on wings of happiness .I most definitely took it as a compliment and it made my Day
Toni
Quote from: Sarah82 on January 10, 2016, 06:36:31 PM
Remember to use an undercoat. The gels can stain your nails otherwise
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I like the way they look. I went with subtle but shimmering.
So true, always use a base coat. Your nails look nice. Biotin 10,000 mcg per day will help. Any polish will stain your nails, so always a clear base coat & it makes doing a new mani so easy. Oh & try to only use none acetone remover, it's better for your cuticles & not as harsh as nasty acetone. Good luck young girl, you look very pretty.
Yesterday work was very difficult but two things made it shine. For one, as I walked up to our work area a coworker handed me the reading glasses I had lost the day before. They aren't expensive, but they're new. Also, I had half a dozen "excuse me, miss" or "ma'am"s and not a single "sir" or "young man". Got that one last week from a woman who must have been 20 years younger than me.
Picked up my Thai Visa today!
GCS Surgery Paid In Full today! (A part of my life's work)
Hard to top that in one day!
Hugz! ;D
I had an appointment today for laser hair removal for my facial hair (for now!). Seems like my hair and skin type is fine for the treatment (the odd grey or ginger one will have electrolysis) and i thought the price was great so I'll be beginning in the next month :)
Got to meet Jen Richards this evening. She's very funny and very pretty!
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Nice 2 hour weekly session with my new electrolysis lady today. She does a great job & very few areas to clean up. Her blend system stings some but not much. I'm very happy I found her after a year or 2 with a previous electro lady that had older much more painful equipment. Happy Dance!!
Quote from: Chrissy1979 on January 11, 2016, 11:38:26 PM
I had an appointment today for laser hair removal for my facial hair (for now!). Seems like my hair and skin type is fine for the treatment (the odd grey or ginger one will have electrolysis) and i thought the price was great so I'll be beginning in the next month :)
Chrissy lasers do not do much, sorry hun.
Yay someone posted to this so I can find the thread.
I saw a therapist today, and for the first time ever I uttered, out loud, to another human being, that I am a woman.
I saw in the mirror, later, with my first ever purchased for myself women's clothing and wig, my reflection that was me. Suzi. I am alive!
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Quote from: ImSuziG on January 13, 2016, 07:00:46 PM
Yay someone posted to this so I can find the thread.
I saw a therapist today, and for the first time ever I uttered, out loud, to another human being, that I am a woman.
I saw in the mirror, later, with my first ever purchased for myself women's clothing and wig, my reflection that was me. Suzi. I am alive!
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Welcome to the world Suzi 😄
That first time you see yourself is amazing and it just gets better from there.
Hugs,
Sarah
Had my retinopathy today, was worried because the letter said they saw something last time so had to go to a bigger hospital for a better machine. Having just seen the pics and scans with them it looks all ok for now. Parking was a nightmare though and priced by Dick Turpin. Now to get the Doctor to start getting started with the Gender stuff.
Sophie
PS one from the weekend, My son caught me checking out the shoes in shoezone, and looked at me and said"i know Daddy", as there where others present i didn't press him on it but on the way home to his mothers i asked him what he ment. He told me that he'd seen my girl stuff and understood. So we talked about it some more and i asked him what he thought about it. He just looked at me and said" i don't care daddy, you are still you".
Quote from: Sophieraven on January 14, 2016, 08:17:26 AM
PS one from the weekend, My son caught me checking out the shoes in shoezone, and looked at me and said"i know Daddy", as there where others present i didn't press him on it but on the way home to his mothers i asked him what he ment. He told me that he'd seen my girl stuff and understood. So we talked about it some more and i asked him what he thought about it. He just looked at me and said" i don't care daddy, you are still you".
😂😂😂
Children can be so awesome like this, before I came out my little cousin Rhoan, who is only 3, and I were playing together before dinner and he turns to me and says "You're not really a boy are you?" And I say no and he just hugs me 😂
Hugs to everyone,
Sarah
A friend of mine messaged me today. She thinks a friend of hers might be trans! They are only 16 and show a lot of signs. I'm not jumping to any conclusions, and I advised discretion.
But I'm so happy I might be able to help somone! Like I'm sure many of us always wanted to have but never did.
I'm going to a costume party tomorrow night. The theme is "Reboot." Going along with the reboot theme, I'm gonna officially come out to this set of friends. Mostly, I'm going to explain that I'm actually in drag because I'm dressing like a man (Tim Curry) and not, as it would appear, as a woman (since I'm doing Frank-n-furter... they're doing a RHPS reboot, so that's also in-theme). It will be lots of fun explaining this to people.
Sparrow good luck. Sounds like a wonderful tie to come out. Hugs
Mariah
I think it is nearly time.
And I think my favourite aunty is over to play. ;)
Quote from: sparrow on January 15, 2016, 01:54:40 AM
I'm going to a costume party tomorrow night. The theme is "Reboot." Going along with the reboot theme, I'm gonna officially come out to this set of friends. Mostly, I'm going to explain that I'm actually in drag because I'm dressing like a man (Tim Curry) and not, as it would appear, as a woman (since I'm doing Frank-n-furter... they're doing a RHPS reboot, so that's also in-theme). It will be lots of fun explaining this to people.
Go all out, enjoy every minute. Make sure your nails look nice & maybe get help so your makeup looks nice. I hope you dress as yourself, a woman.
Quote from: Jessie Ann on January 10, 2016, 11:53:07 PM
I had a fantastic brunch with a couple of transgender activists and entrepreneurs. Thanks to Nikki Araguz Loyd and Angelica Ross for sharing part of their day with me. I hope that someday I can be as much of an asset to our community as these two ladies are.
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You all look great wish I could have been there
Quote from: Jessie Ann on January 12, 2016, 01:33:58 AM
Got to meet Jen Richards this evening. She's very funny and very pretty!
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Omg she is so pretty.
Of course you are too hot sruff
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My past two months sure appeared headed toward a business disaster before the end of January. We got hit with a totally unexpected, un-explained rejection notice going against everything else that was already set in motion to follow. Not good for the business plan.
We still proceeded with our work and figured that we'd tough it out if they persisted their opposition.
Victory today. Not totally our way as first planned, but clearly more than we could have ever expected and well enough to get the job done on time. No harm, no foul - despite this sidetrack in one angle - will conclude in absolute success in the end.
Special 'Thank you' to Yann, Li, Ildi, and Eveline for their hard work making it happen.
As Li says, 'Dee-lation!' (delightfull elation) HOORAY for us all!!
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Going to my hair stylist today. I have been growing it back out for the last 7 months after a hair butcher scalped me... I really do need to stop going to the random hair dressers... My regular hair dresser is available and fit me in! I did warn him about what happened and he didn't bat an eye to take me in! YAY!!
Found out that my new gender correct birth certificate is being mailed out to me today!! Congratulations!! It's a girl!!!
Thanks for the kind words Olivia!! ❤️❤️❤️
Quote from: Mariah2014 on January 15, 2016, 03:04:20 AM
Sparrow good luck. Sounds like a wonderful tie to come out. Hugs
Mariah
Hi Mariah :angel:
Nice Picture!! I have 7 deer in my back yard and they are so pretty to see in the snow. :laugh:
Hug's
Lynn
I know it was a week ago but last Saturday a friend came over an did my makeup and taught me a lot. It was the first time I felt pretty and it was an amazing experience all around!
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Here I did my own makeup well enough for the first time on Monday and I actually felt good about it. I felt pretty and got very excited for the future!
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These little things can mean so much sometimes :)
I sure did some thrift store shopping today. A beautiful Leslie Fay elegant dress for $5, lots of nice jewerly, braclets, earrings & sweaters from a new consignment shop, 2-3 more nice dresses from a goodwill store. "Thanks hun, please come back & shop with us some more" was nice. That was a nice day. I'll put together a nice outfit for my electrolysis appt. next Tuesday & dress nice. That will feel good. I'm a very passable attractive woman, nicer looking than most cis women....that do not take care of themselves. I'm lucky to have a feminine soft face that looks younger after some plastic surgery & my natural voice has always been nice & thought to be female over the phone or to anyone I talk with. Happy dance today.
12 hrs. from now I will depart for Thailand. It's hard to believe that my time is almost here.
People have asked if I'm nervous. Surprisingly, I'm not - at all. Exited yes! This is my destiny and come what may it is the culmination of a dream that had it's spark in the 1950's. Ancient history to most.
Perhaps some of you have experienced this already and know ! ........ with all of the possible comments or questions one might think that I might have as such a momentous occasion approaches you'd never guess what's on my mind!
OK here it is: When the ticker factory chart reaches the end of the track (as it will next week when the date of my GCS occurs) what happens to it? Does it just disappear?
Guess I'll just have to wait and find out!
Hugz!
Joi
A stranger referred to me as "she" when talking to someone else. Woo hoo!
I guess I don't look as far from a "she" as I think.
That is exciting Joi! Look forward to hearing from you after your surgery. So happy that you have reached this point on your path!
Quote from: FrancisAnn on January 15, 2016, 06:33:08 AM
Go all out, enjoy every minute. Make sure your nails look nice & maybe get help so your makeup looks nice. I hope you dress as yourself, a woman.
lol, it was a costume party, I couldn't possibly go as myself! That was something boy-me used to do! I was doublecross-dressing! OMG it was a riot. My makeup did not look "nice," but I nailed what I was going for! Everybody who had seen Rocky Horror got it immediately. Everybody else was fairly disturbed by the outfit. A good time was had by me!
I would get confused being double cross dressed, hahahaha. You are stronger than me, my skin crawls whenever I've ever been forced to wear any "male" clothes.......It reminds me of high school long ago when I had to dress as a boy & fit in, yuck!!!
Got to have breakfast with my dad, two sisters, a brother-in-law and a childhood friend before heading out with my dad for the drive from Denver to Los Angeles. The last few days have been the first they have seen me in person as my true self. All in all it has gone pretty well so far.
Got to see my therapist today, which is always an awesome time! She is great and I enjoy our sessions immensely. There is a lot of drama in my life right now, experiences that are beyond my control. Love of friends disallows the option of space...so the next best thing, therapy!
Also, got to spend time with an awesome friend this afternoon at the local center.
What a great day!
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Lovely Suzi! Very classy picks.
I'm over the moon excited about lacing a corset all by myself! A friend of mine gave me a very lovely black corset and thaught me how to wear it. Those things are tough to figure out! :)
I reconnected on Facebook with an old friend. When we first met in 1998 she was fairly new to the transgender community. Today, she is one of the best known transgender activists in the country.
Quote from: Harley Quinn on January 16, 2016, 08:31:00 PM
I'm over the moon excited about lacing a corset all by myself! A friend of mine gave me a very lovely black corset and thaught me how to wear it. Those things are tough to figure out! :)
Go slow & not too tight until your body slowly adjusts, have fun. They can really give you an hourglass figure but oh me....sometimes it's so easy to get too tight.
Hi Girls
Today I got up very early to go and check on a couple of Firefighters that I worked with over a 31 year period that were hurt last night and a fire and they are both alright!!! :angel: :angel:
Hug's Lyndsey
Quote from: Harley Quinn on January 16, 2016, 08:31:00 PM
I'm over the moon excited about lacing a corset all by myself! A friend of mine gave me a very lovely black corset and thaught me how to wear it. Those things are tough to figure out! :)
Hi Harley
You are right and wait till you go to take it off!! LOL! Enjoy! Your body will stay there after a while of wearing one I have been doing corset training for a year and have been very successful with it.
Hugs
Lyndsey
So I'm in the cosmetics aisle along with a few other women looking at things and these two guys walk into the aisle. One says to the other, "This is a girls aisle. We don't know what we are doing." The other says, "Yea, we need help from a girl. We are lost here." At that point one comes over to me and asked if I could help them find a specific Covergirl lipstick for his wife.
I said, "Sure" or some such thing and helped them find it. I totally enjoyed that feeling. Multiple women in the aisle and they approached me to help them. :D
My wife and I both got called ladies by the hostess at a restaurant the other night while as we were wrapping up vacation. What was even better though was the guy staring down my shirt at breakfast as I was making a waffle - I thought at first he didn't know how to use the waffle maker (at the hotel) but no, he was a starin' lol
Be safe
Marlo
Not today, but Saturday morning I went to the post office in total male mode and the guy at the counter looked at me and said, "How can I help you ma'am." LOL
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I just had some dental work done and that sucked and not good. But half my face is numb and when I talk it sounds "wediculous" so we will call this the silver lining.
Serena
My weekly electrolysis beauty salon appt is for tomorrow morning & I'm excited. My lady is so beautiful & elegant, age 66 & she does not look a day over 50. She does excellent work & likes me & my soft facial features, my face is looking so much nicer little by little. Happy dance.
I spent the day looking after my sisters kids. Nothing quite like being called auntie lala all day long ( they can't say Laura)!
Silly me - I put on matching panties and camisole then added a bright male shirt to give me a nice tomboy look (I've still got the body of a man after all) and pranced around the house singing I am a girl, then loaded up Helen Reddy's "I am Woman" and started singing along with the lyrics. Silly, but it made me happy!
This morning I was offered a position in the Bachelor of Nursing Science at the University of the Sunshine Coast 😄
I start at the end of February, I'm so happy 😄
I only took my entry test yesterday afternoon, I must have done well
Quote from: Sarah82 on January 19, 2016, 11:51:41 PM
This morning I was offered a position in the Bachelor of Nursing Science at the University of the Sunshine Coast 😄
I start at the end of February, I'm so happy 😄
I only took my entry test yesterday afternoon, I must have done well
Now that must be worth a real happy dance - congrats!
Toured Queensland once a few years ago - beautiful countryside, amazing coastline.
Quote from: EmilyClark on January 15, 2016, 02:35:59 PM
I know it was a week ago but last Saturday a friend came over an did my makeup and taught me a lot. It was the first time I felt pretty and it was an amazing experience all around!
(https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1581/24257718456_e36194ee83_m.jpg) (https://flic.kr/p/CXz9z7)
Here I did my own makeup well enough for the first time on Monday and I actually felt good about it. I felt pretty and got very excited for the future!
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These little things can mean so much sometimes :)
Looking great Emily :)
Quote from: Sarah82 on January 19, 2016, 11:51:41 PM
This morning I was offered a position in the Bachelor of Nursing Science at the University of the Sunshine Coast 😄
I start at the end of February, I'm so happy 😄
I only took my entry test yesterday afternoon, I must have done well
Congratulations!!!!
Well done Honey!
A Friend of mine at work that I have Known for 20 years has at last got the hang of gendering Me correctly .He had a conversation with another colleague about Me and and got the gendering right every time It has been hard for him as we used to be Gym pals and cycle buddies for many Years so My transition was quite a surprise to him LOL ;D
Quote from: Sarah82 on January 19, 2016, 11:51:41 PM
This morning I was offered a position in the Bachelor of Nursing Science at the University of the Sunshine Coast 😄
I start at the end of February, I'm so happy 😄
I only took my entry test yesterday afternoon, I must have done well
That is awesome, Sarah! You will be working towards your Nursing Bachelors? I hope to be following you in this soon :)
Hi Girls
Today i got up early and had breakfast with my granddaughter Victoria.
Lyndsey
Quote from: kaitylynn on January 20, 2016, 07:49:24 AM
That is awesome, Sarah! You will be working towards your Nursing Bachelors? I hope to be following you in this soon :)
Thanks hon 😄 and good luck with your studies. It's an amazing thing to help others
And thank you to everyone who has wished me well
One fear I always had was going to places that are hang outs for Caribbean people because some are very transphobic. I am pleased to say that today I went to a Jamaican take out place and I had no issues whatsoever. Yes even though I "pass" in daily life I had this fear that I would be attacked, verbally or physically even.
I went to a support group for the first time today, met some really nice TG gals all with different stories. It was really great to share our experiences, get advice, etc. And I got to introduce myself as Denali for the first time in person! :angel:
Hi Girl's
Waking up and talking to one of my best friend's Mariah. :angel:
Hug's
Lyndsey
Happy with how long my hair is getting! haven't had it cut in four years now, I might break down and get it trimmed a couple inches this spring.
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Quote from: Michelle G on January 21, 2016, 01:47:55 PM
Happy with how long my hair is getting! haven't had it cut in four years now, I might break down and get it trimmed a couple inches this spring.
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WTG, it looks great!!!! I so wish mine were at least down to my shoulders.
I received a call from my solicitor to say my insurance claim has been approved (Over 50k). This means I am now fully funded for my transition up too and including GRS or maybe even FFS (although the FFS is not something I necessarily want) It means that once I get the pain issue with the Electrolysis under control then I will be able to pay for sessions as fast as they can be done. I have been able to get a $30 per hour reduction by paying for a 10 hour block in advance.
Quote from: ElizabethK on January 22, 2016, 02:52:31 PM
I received a call from my solicitor to say my insurance claim has been approved (Over 50k). This means I am now fully funded for my transition up too and including GRS or maybe even FFS (although the FFS is not something I necessarily want) It means that once I get the pain issue with the Electrolysis under control then I will be able to pay for sessions as fast as they can be done. I have been able to get a $30 per hour reduction by paying for a 10 hour block in advance.
After waiting forever in traffic stopped at a red light, it always feels
so good when the light turns green! Enjoy the drive!
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I feel like this is the best picture I have ever taken of myself. And I started therapy this week. One step closer to getting hormones.
I came out to my 16yo daughter last night. I was expecting the worst, but she told me she's known for years and was perfectly fine with it. She told me she would love me no matter what I look like. Then she asked me if I thought Justin Bieber was attractive??? ;D
I noticed that my shoe size went from 15 to 13w in women's because of the weight I have lost over the last 2 years. I finally can go to a store even if it is Shopko, or Payless and buy shoes occasionally.
I recieved my birth certificate showing I was born female!
Quote from: Jessie Ann on January 22, 2016, 11:25:05 PM
I recieved my birth certificate showing I was born female!
Awesome! Congrats girlfriend!
Quote from: Jessie Ann on January 22, 2016, 11:25:05 PM
I recieved my birth certificate showing I was born female!
Congratulations Jessie 😌
Thanks ladies. I now have everything changed 😀 Birth certificate, drivers license, passport, Social Security records, college and law school records, work records, bank accounts, credit accounts, retirement accounts and insurance policies. Can't think of anything else that need changing. Amazing how much you can accomplish in less than a year when you are motivated. So much of that was possible because of help and information I obtained on this site.
Quote from: Jessie Ann on January 22, 2016, 11:25:05 PM
I recieved my birth certificate showing I was born female!
Congratulations! How amazing it must feel to finally see "Female" stamped on that document!
I was very dysphoric yesterday and went to bed. Today it's better and I'm sorting though some of my hangups. I'm looking forward to the future which is a milestone.
Being snowed in, my wife made this video of us and our fur babies :)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TffAwO7y8yk (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TffAwO7y8yk)
Snowed In!
This means attention from our cats, and extra time to make sausage, eggs and biscuits. It means skylights covered in ice and ice on the windows. It means extra time to be together and make the most of the day ;)
Quote from: Sydney_NYC on January 23, 2016, 12:27:19 PM
Being snowed in, my wife made this video of us and our fur babies :)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TffAwO7y8yk (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TffAwO7y8yk)
Snowed In!
This means attention from our cats, and extra time to make sausage, eggs and biscuits. It means skylights covered in ice and ice on the windows. It means extra time to be together and make the most of the day ;)
Looks like a wonderful way to spend a snow day! :)
Quote from: itsApril on January 22, 2016, 03:02:03 PM
After waiting forever in traffic stopped at a red light, it always feels so good when the light turns green! Enjoy the drive!
You have all been telling me it takes a bit to get momentum going but when it does...well looks like I am strapping in for the ride of a lifetime and I cannot wait...February is going to be big with appointments with the ,Psych for letters and Gyne for HRT, throw is some weekly electrolysis and my dance card is starting to look pretty full ;D ;D
My cousin's daughter approached me for some education about us! I'm tutoring her in trans 101 by texting even as I post this.
I finally got to tell my Son's mother that I'm Trans. I have been putting it off for a while expecting it to all kick off big style in my face. What i actually got was an "OMG That makes so much sense to everything" Comment and she became actually supportive and told me about a friend of hers that was FtM. So that now all the main people told. Now to just get the dotor to get off his butt and start doing something.
Sophie
My weekly electroysis appt. is tomorrow so yea. My face is finally looking clean & so much nicer. I'm so glad I found this woman, she fully understands since she has 3 previous clients that have had their GRS & enjoying happy lives. She likes me & does great work. Happy Dance.
I'm going for a electrolysis consult and trial session tomorrow. After 15 sessions of laser almost all my facial hair is gone, only left with some really light yet course hair to get rid of.
I started laser on my chest and after the first session earlier this week I've seen a 50% reduction already. I'm so happy 😄
Quote from: Sarah82 on January 25, 2016, 04:59:53 PM
I'm going for a electrolysis consult and trial session tomorrow. After 15 sessions of laser almost all my facial hair is gone, only left with some really light yet course hair to get rid of.
I started laser on my chest and after the first session earlier this week I've seen a 50% reduction already. I'm so happy 😄
Congrats I have had 3 sessions of laser with great results and just started electrolysis myself...good luck and I hope it doesn't take too long for you to get s full clearance, sounds like you are over halfway there at least!! ;)
My new dryer arrived today. Hugs
Mariah
Well as I am writing this is am traveling for the first time as myself. I'm headed to the wig store to buy a good wig to give me some confidence to go out. I'm with my amazing wife and great friend. Besides being scared to death, it is an amazing experience, I'm so happy to finally be me.(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fuploads.tapatalk-cdn.com%2F20160127%2F1158c364bfef33b84c14f8dc29c5a103.jpg&hash=0b8ed7f9c95da41bbe99e2cc575a34079f40c8bc)
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Today I heard some potentially good news from the FAA.
Size 14 skinny jeans today - perfect fit!! Yea! I made sure everyone in the store knew it too lolol
Today I learned that gender affirmation surgery, with a doctor who has been recommended on this forum, is only half as expensive as I had been lead to believe 😄
I got my first to pairs of womens shoes it feels great not to only have mens sneakers now
Quote from: VanessaZT on January 28, 2016, 03:48:32 PM
I got my first to pairs of womens shoes it feels great not to only have mens sneakers now
It's a great feeling that first pair of shoes 😊
Be careful they will rub differently than men's shoes
There are some good anti blister band aids that really help with that 😊
What kind did you get?
I went with a nice pair of flats to start with
On an unrelated subject, can anyone tell me how to post a ticker timeline? I cannot find the preferences link for the life of me. Thanks
Be safe,
Marlo
Click on the ticker contained in my post.
At the TickerTracker web site pick the one titled event. - next
Chose the event start or end date and enter a title. - next
Chose the style you want to use. - next
Chose the slide icon. - next
Copy the information in the bbCode box
Go to your forum profile and paste the code into the signature box that has under it "Max characters: 600; characters remaining: xxx"
Save profile and your ticker should show on your posts.
Quote from: MsMarlo on January 28, 2016, 04:05:14 PM
On an unrelated subject, can anyone tell me how to post a ticker timeline? I cannot find the preferences link for the life of me. Thanks
Be safe,
Marlo
My name and gender marker change was confirmed today! I ordered my new birth certificate and it is being couriered to me. Should receive early next week! I am officially "F"! I have to wait to do all the other document changes until I get back to our 'summer home' in April. I sure hope I don't have passport issues coming and going over the next couple of months! I will have name change certificate along with the birth certificate and hopefully this should help with Customs.
Quote from: Sarah82 on January 28, 2016, 04:03:01 PM
It's a great feeling that first pair of shoes 😊
Be careful they will rub differently than men's shoes
There are some good anti blister band aids that really help with that 😊
What kind did you get?
I went with a nice pair of flats to start with
I got a pair of heels like 3/4 chunky to practice with, a pair of flats, and 2 pair of those canvas keds
Finally got gf to accept she passes : 3 We're both MtF and I pass well enough,and so does she, but I had to drill it into her, like my friends did with me. Now she's super happy and that makes me happy ^_^ Also got up the guts to tell her I love her, and she said it back :D
Then we had a netflix and cuddle night and fell asleep with Full Metal Alchemist on c:
And here is a pic:
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Life is going very well, my electrloysis is going well & soon a 100% smooth face for life, oh happy dance. Atkins way of eating is going well, I'm down 25 since last year & my body looks pretty nice, I'd still love to lose another 15-20. I may start with a new doc on HRT & finally have a pellet for so much easier HRT. Life is good. It's so nice & I'm so thankful to be a hetrosexual woman that has always enjoyed men, maybe a new nice man one of these days to enjoy.
Got a message from a few friends that they are coming to visit this evening on Sea Cup. Love having peops around on the boat as it gives me a chance to hostess...always a good time when on the water :) Happy girl this morning.
Today I had to use a parking garage to visit a friend. I was over time by a few minutes so should have been charged for full day $15.00 instead of just the couple of hours I was there. The guy at the toll booth stated "just doesn't seem right" wen I gave him the ticket. I asked him why and then told him no worries and that I did not mind paying the full fee. He told me "no maim this isn't right" got out of the booth and lifted the gate for me. I drove off paying nothing :) I either totally freaked him out or was doing a good job at passing I prefer to think the latter. but free is free YAY!
Quote from: AshleeLC on January 28, 2016, 11:35:40 PM
Also got up the guts to tell her I love her, and she said it back :D
What a great moment!
The phrase "smile your face" its such a great term that my yoga instructor goes by in daily life.
Kate <3
I went to sephora today to figure out my foundation and what not I went with my partners daughter because I'm a big chicken, but it went so good I don't know why I'm such a chicken, but I'm getting braver .
Now going to my first show, I play in a band, in female mode. So excited and terrified at the same time.
Wish me luck
Quote from: buhddakahn on January 29, 2016, 03:51:13 PM
I went to sephora today to figure out my foundation and what not I went with my partners daughter because I'm a big chicken, but it went so good I don't know why I'm such a chicken, but I'm getting braver .
Now going to my first show, I play in a band, in female mode. So excited and terrified at the same time.
Wish me luck
Rock out! Unless, of course, it folk, or country, or...
Quote from: EmilyClark on January 27, 2016, 02:20:40 PM
Well as I am writing this is am traveling for the first time as myself. I'm headed to the wig store to buy a good wig to give me some confidence to go out. I'm with my amazing wife and great friend. Besides being scared to death, it is an amazing experience, I'm so happy to finally be me.(https://www.susans.org/proxy.php?request=http%3A%2F%2Fuploads.tapatalk-cdn.com%2F20160127%2F1158c364bfef33b84c14f8dc29c5a103.jpg&hash=0b8ed7f9c95da41bbe99e2cc575a34079f40c8bc)
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Cutie :)
Quote from: Dee Marshall on January 29, 2016, 04:11:55 PM
Rock out! Unless, of course, it folk, or country, or...
Lol. Well, it's an acoustic guitar, vocals and me on bass. Semi soft rock. It went reasonably well, aside from being incredibly nervous. My biggest issue was not moisturizing before putting my makeup on. By the end of the night is was getting cakey.
I'll get it right tonight for the rock band. [emoji1]
I created a gofundme campaign for my future gender correction surgery.
I've already had a couple of donations and I haven't even started sharing it with all my social network groups.
I hadn't even planned on sharing it till next year, I just wanted to set it up.
I sure hope I can follow thru & complete my GRS by late spring, then heal up OK. I sure miss being with a strong man. I told myself not to get involved again until my body was correct but it's so hard being alone......I'm happy but just a little lonely........right now. Have a great day mtF friends.
I just got signed of for HRT ☺
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Hey Francis, you are not alone...know what you are saying though. Just know that we love you!
Congrats Lily!
Came out at work this week and was well accepted.
I'm full time now and happy to start the RLE.
So, here's my Avatar! Yes that's me. Still don't pass, but I'll get there.
One year on HRT today. What an amazingly awesome and sometimes scary year it has been. Now that i have the yoke of depression and anxiety off of me, i can finally be a real person and help my loved ones, contribute more to society etc.
I'm really happy :)
Happy Transiversary!!
Quote from: RobynD on February 01, 2016, 10:12:29 AM
One year on HRT today.
Congrats girl! It feels amazing doesn't it!!
Quote from: Charley on January 31, 2016, 09:30:36 AM
Came out at work this week and was well accepted.
I'm full time now and happy to start the RLE.
Just got fan mail! :laugh:
Hugs, Devlyn
I had my court date this morning for my legal name change. It had to be rescheduled from December due to **someone** not having all of her documentation in order..... :(
Today though, I got it done! I am now legally Megan Jayne! I can't wait until I don't have to strategically hold my thumb over my name when I swipe my bank card anymore. Hopefully that part will go quickly! :D
Congrats Megan! Now comes the fun part....getting all those accounts and other things changed.
Quote from: Emjay on February 01, 2016, 01:58:23 PM
I had my court date this morning for my legal name change. It had to be rescheduled from December due to **someone** not having all of her documentation in order..... :(
Today though, I got it done! I am now legally Megan Jayne! I can't wait until I don't have to strategically hold my thumb over my name when I swipe my bank card anymore. Hopefully that part will go quickly! :D
Quote from: Jessie Ann on February 01, 2016, 02:23:41 PM
Congrats Megan! Now comes the fun part....getting all those accounts and other things changed.
Haha thanks!
Yeahhhhhhhhh not especially looking forward to that. Especially making phone calls. But we have to do what we have to do. :)
I finally got my first appointment with Gender Dysphoria counseling next Friday morning. I am really nervous and exciting.
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Great news Luanne! Working with a counselor has been really positive and it will likely help you out a lot.
Well hello Megan Jayne! ;D
Happy b-day Robyn :)
Looked at some current pictures of my body and realized just how much has changed! Was caught off guard and while there is still a long journey ahead, I am totally happy!
60 pounds down, Yoga, HRT and really great friends...yeah, a lot to be happy and thankful for!
Quote from: kaitylynn on February 01, 2016, 10:20:13 PM
Great news Luanne! Working with a counselor has been really positive and it will likely help you out a lot.
Well hello Megan Jayne! ;D
Happy b-day Robyn :)
I have been looking forward this for awhile now, and I am happy to start new journey of my transition. I plan to go to this appointment with full makeup, wig and nice dress I just bought on Sunday for this occasion.
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More & more ppl call me mam or sweetie even when I'm not wearing any makeup or trying to be very feminine. So that's very nice. I'm lucky that my face has nice soft features & when I'm finally free from any facial hairs that will be so nice....OMG such a relief to be done with those nasty hairs, love my new electrolysis. Next session stopping by my plastic surgeon for a dental block/shots then to electro lady 15 minutes away so I'll not feel a thing as she cleans up my upper lip. Oh happy dance when it's 100% smooth. Oh what women go through to look pretty......
My feet have actually shrunk. Such a happy girl about that. Normally I'm a medium width 10 & now a normal width 9 almost fits. I love nice shoes & boots with a 2-3 inch heel. I've lost about 25 on the Atkins diet which did it I guess. Happy dance without my feet hurting......, kind of feel like dancing.
I went to get my hair done today (about an every 8 week thing at present), it is getting to be longer and so feminine. I'm going for an asymmetrical bob sort of look with long sides. That and a brow wax from some supportive ladies and i was smiling as wide as my face would reasonably allow.
I'm looking forward to sharing pics in this community as soon as I feel it is time :)
I just love salon day.
Hi Francis and everyone!
I'm tending to an old shoulder injury right now (partially torn rotator cuff that is tearing more) so I may not be on as much as I'd like to but now that I'm off work for a spell it will be more.
Anyway, I think my feet have shrunk too; I wear a size 10 in heels and an 11 in work boots (as well as dress boots); the 11's are now big to the point where I need to replace them and the 10's are getting loose as well.
Long live Atkins! I've lost nearly 75 pounds with it and am on a modified Atkins schedule that another cop I worked when I started devised - working great!
Be safe and keep an eye on those storms - Aliceville is getting its ass kicked right now by a confirmed tornado and y'all look to be right in line.
Marlo
I went to my therapist today, which was perfect because when I woke up this morning I had clarity and realized that the path to transition is what I am to do. I am a woman, inside, and I have repressed and buried her long enough. So in therapy I was giddy with excitement and told my therapist my revelation, and she agreed, and we are getting HRT lined up and she is giving me a letter. I am excited, scared, happy, joyous! It has truly been a good day for me!!
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Quote from: ImSuziG on February 02, 2016, 05:43:30 PM
I went to my therapist today, which was perfect because when I woke up this morning I had clarity and realized that the path to transition is what I am to do. I am a woman, inside, and I have repressed and buried her long enough. So in therapy I was giddy with excitement and told my therapist my revelation, and she agreed, and we are getting HRT lined up and she is giving me a letter. I am excited, scared, happy, joyous! It has truly been a good day for me!!
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Congrats Suzi.
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Well, the other night I was feeling inspired (okay maybe just a little drunk >:-) ) But I went ahead and bought my first wig, and it was delivered today! Even thought at first I was thinking "Ohh what did you do", actually couldn't be happier about it ;D In some way I wish I didn't have to buy a wig but... testosterone can be a jerk. Anyway I'm really excited to share, like a lot more than I thought I'd ever be. Sorry I didn't take a full face picture, but its kind of two fold. First I still have a beard (makes things easier in boy life), also still kind of worried about showing my whole face to the internet, ya I know that's a little paranoid.
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Quote from: WildPollyAppeared on February 02, 2016, 06:55:25 PM
Well, the other night I was feeling inspired (okay maybe just a little drunk >:-) ) But I went ahead and bought my first wig, and it was delivered today! Even thought at first I was thinking "Ohh what did you do", actually couldn't be happier about it ;D In some way I wish I didn't have to buy a wig but... testosterone can be a jerk. Anyway I'm really excited to share, like a lot more than I thought I'd ever be. Sorry I didn't take a full face picture, but its kind of two fold. First I still have a beard (makes things easier in boy life), also still kind of worried about showing my whole face to the internet, ya I know that's a little paranoid.
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Awww! Congratulations on your purchase. :) Yeah, I've posted ONE picture on this forum and only one and it was of me with a beard, desperately looking for some sort of affirmation. I was looking for hope and I totally got shot down. So kudos to you for being super smart and not having to deal with the nasties 'round these parts.
I love your brows and eyes, btw!
PS. I no longer have a beard and I'm 6 months into HRT, starting laser very soon, but I refuse to put up another picture here. Way too cliquish for me.
Mallory, thank you so much! I'm sorry to hear you had a bad experience with your first picture, but just so you know you made my mood go sky high ;D Since I posted that I'm pretty sure my heart has either beat twice or 3 million times I'm not sure cause I was so nervous. Also just noticed in the second picture I tried so hard to look only at my camera lens and not the screen it made me go cross eye :P
I got an hour of tourture, uhh ... I mean electrolysis for free and knowing that in 3 more days I'll be leaving for Thailand.
Quote from: WildPollyAppeared on February 02, 2016, 07:59:26 PM
Mallory, thank you so much! I'm sorry to hear you had a bad experience with your first picture, but just so you know you made my mood go sky high ;D Since I posted that I'm pretty sure my heart has either beat twice or 3 million times I'm not sure cause I was so nervous. Also just noticed in the second picture I tried so hard to look only at my camera lens and not the screen it made me go cross eye :P
Aww, you're very welcome. :) We each have our own starting points, but yours (at least what you shown) looks to be really good. Best of luck on the road to transition!
Quote from: MsMarlo on February 02, 2016, 04:57:07 PM
Hi Francis and everyone!
I'm tending to an old shoulder injury right now (partially torn rotator cuff that is tearing more) so I may not be on as much as I'd like to but now that I'm off work for a spell it will be more.
Anyway, I think my feet have shrunk too; I wear a size 10 in heels and an 11 in work boots (as well as dress boots); the 11's are now big to the point where I need to replace them and the 10's are getting loose as well.
Long live Atkins! I've lost nearly 75 pounds with it and am on a modified Atkins schedule that another cop I worked when I started devised - working great!
Be safe and keep an eye on those storms - Aliceville is getting its ass kicked right now by a confirmed tornado and y'all look to be right in line.
Marlo
Marlo. That is so nice that you are a Atkins woman, that's great. I've been on it for about a year & love it. It's the best "diet" I've ever been on. Have you ever made the egg & cream cheese pancakes? They are delish & only 1-2 carbs from the cream cheese. I love my Atkins sisters, we all help each other so so much. Take care girl friend & have a great day. Life is good for me...............
Quote from: MsMarlo on February 02, 2016, 04:57:07 PM
Hi Francis and everyone!
I'm tending to an old shoulder injury right now (partially torn rotator cuff that is tearing more) so I may not be on as much as I'd like to but now that I'm off work for a spell it will be more.
Anyway, I think my feet have shrunk too; I wear a size 10 in heels and an 11 in work boots (as well as dress boots); the 11's are now big to the point where I need to replace them and the 10's are getting loose as well.
Long live Atkins! I've lost nearly 75 pounds with it and am on a modified Atkins schedule that another cop I worked when I started devised - working great!
Be safe and keep an eye on those storms - Aliceville is getting its ass kicked right now by a confirmed tornado and y'all look to be right in line.
Marlo
Marlo, It is so nice having smaller feet. I've always loved wearing heels since being a normal little girl playing dress up in my mother's heels & red lipstick long ago. I just love nice shoes & boots. Oh my, my closet is just not big enough. Not many ppl do it but I pick up the nicest shoes at thrift stores, so cheap & most are like new....A normal width 10 fits me very well. Oh & it was nice when my electrolyisis lady gave me a pair of her boots a couple of years ago, size 10, they were tight on her but loose & comfortable for me. I wear them al the time.....TC & good luck your way.
1-Yesterday I had a wig fitted and styled to my head and face.(no way I can grow my own at this point.
2-Getting started on my HRT today.
Grinning coyly,
Joanna
starting hrt to day spiro and estra* :3
I had a meeting with my trans group tonight and a couple of girls joined who are just like me! For some time I felt a bit alienated, because many of the women in the group are much older than me, stay with their wives during and after transitioning and have life experiences that are very different from mine. The new girls used to be gay boys like me and when they talk about their experiences, I have so much recognition with them, it's like looking in the mirror. We instantly became friends and on top of that, one of them is a hairdresser who will help me with my eternal bad hairday.
I feel so happy, thought I even was an outsider as a transgender. Turned out to be untrue :)
yeah , I felt the same way when I changed doctors and started going to the LGBT health clinic.
Since my appointment with Gender Dysphoria next Friday. So today I decide gradually change my appearance to be more feminine. So when I take my shower this morning I using Anarchy for her for body wash (I love the fragrant) and body spray. I also apply little makeup and some lipsticks go to work.
While I was assist one of my co-worker with her computer.
She comments: You're smell nice like a woman
Me: Thanks (in low voice and blush)
She turns around and look at me said: Nice makeup and lips color
I was blush some more and could not said a thing.
At lunch time we talk and I told her while I begin to put on makeup and female fragrance. I told her the story about my transition. She so understands and support since her sister also a Transsexual FtM.
I think I begin my coming out as a transwoman. I am so happy and nervous girl today. I will be sleep well tonight.
^^^^
Lovely, safe and happy journey Honey.
Quote from: Cindy on February 04, 2016, 12:36:17 AM
^^^^
Lovely, safe and happy journey Honey.
Thanks Cindy I think I will. Hugs
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I've pretty much been crying for months about this and everyone (my therapist, a group I go to, the one friend I've come out to) kept telling me it will be alright. Today things somehow gelled for me and (for now at least) I believe it will. Let's see how I feel after I tell my wife.
Claire (née Dori)
In the last two days, I have received my new birth certificate and my name change certificate. I can't believe that after all these years that I have in my our little hands, recognition of the real me! I have had to celebrate quietly as my partner is still working through things. We have come a long way and she totally supports me.
Quote from: islandgirl on February 04, 2016, 01:55:36 PM
In the last two days, I have received my new birth certificate and my name change certificate. I can't believe that after all these years that I have in my our little hands, recognition of the real me! I have had to celebrate quietly as my partner is still working through things. We have come a long way and she totally supports me.
Congrats! Next step is the SRS.
Luanne
Today at my Diabetic review with a new doctor the subject of my Gender dysphoria came up and it's effects on me and my weight. He's now referring me to to the Local Mental health team with a view to referring me to CX GIC as soon as possible. So today I'm dead chuffed.
Sophie
Dressed up today took some photos was tired of my avatar so I am pleased with my photo
I went to my gender therapist today dressed for the first time. I've gone wearing womens jeans/boots and nails painted in past but today I decided I wanted to push myself a bit.
I wore black tights, black skirt, red blouse with a comfy sweater over it, and pair of black ankle high buckle boots. I had on minimum makeup, as I'm still bad at it, and can't stand foundation that looks heavy. I'd never pass, with my beard shadow, but that wasn't really the point.
I was comfortable and felt feminine, which helped me be a bit more in tune with my therapist. Had a lovely session, and felt really good on way home. I have things to start pondering, plans for transitioning, how that will look, and how it might proceed.
My biggest anxiety right now is how I come out to my best friends, probably the most difficult part of this whole thing. My best friends are pretty much guys guys. Known them for 20 years, since college. My gut reaction is that I'll lose most of them, which is going to pull a major rug out from under the support system I've built since adulthood. But who knows. That's for another day to ponder I guess.
Cheers,
-G
Quote from: GiaFarrell on February 04, 2016, 04:40:31 PM
I went to my gender therapist today dressed for the first time. I've gone wearing womens jeans/boots and nails painted in past but today I decided I wanted to push myself a bit.
I wore black tights, black skirt, red blouse with a comfy sweater over it, and pair of black ankle high buckle boots. I had on minimum makeup, as I'm still bad at it, and can't stand foundation that looks heavy. I'd never pass, with my beard shadow, but that wasn't really the point.
I was comfortable and felt feminine, which helped me be a bit more in tune with my therapist. Had a lovely session, and felt really good on way home. I have things to start pondering, plans for transitioning, how that will look, and how it might proceed.
My biggest anxiety right now is how I come out to my best friends, probably the most difficult part of this whole thing. My best friends are pretty much guys guys. Known them for 20 years, since college. My gut reaction is that I'll lose most of them, which is going to pull a major rug out from under the support system I've built since adulthood. But who knows. That's for another day to ponder I guess.
Cheers,
-G
Gia, you never know what future will be like, just enjoy the moment that make you happy as you are.
Luanne
Thanks Luanne! Actually, my application is in, at least for the first step. The application process is a two step process for me so I will have to wait until GRS.
What made me happy today? Went to the airport with my leg brace on (because I need it to go skiing in Utah), and the TSA scanner choked on that, of course, so the cry went out immediately "Female Assist Please". That's worth a smile.
Congrats, that is fantastic. Sorry about your leg needing a brace though. Hugs
Mariah
Quote from: Roberto on February 05, 2016, 12:01:05 PM
What made me happy today? Went to the airport with my leg brace on (because I need it to go skiing in Utah), and the TSA scanner choked on that, of course, so the cry went out immediately "Female Assist Please". That's worth a smile.
My illustrious chief (so-called chief) made the schedule for February in an apparent attempt to really piss me off. Instead, it totally backfired on his ass.
Unfortunately, one of my injuries form the assassination attempt of 2013 has gotten worse; the partial rotator cuff tear is starting to tear the rest of the way and not only is there obvious pain but numbness now in the shoulder and the arm. Workmans comp was dragging their butts but my attorney lit a fire under their ass and we're in the process of seeing the ortho next week.
I can still type but only for limited amounts of time; this thing really sucks.
Be safe
Marlo
I had my first laser session on my beard this morning. It was quite painful during (no pain afterwards though) so quite excited! Hopefully about six sessions over six months should do it, with the odd grey hair getting electrolysis...
Quote from: MsMarlo on February 05, 2016, 02:52:08 PM
My illustrious chief (so-called chief) made the schedule for February in an apparent attempt to really piss me off. Instead, it totally backfired on his ass.
Unfortunately, one of my injuries form the assassination attempt of 2013 has gotten worse; the partial rotator cuff tear is starting to tear the rest of the way and not only is there obvious pain but numbness now in the shoulder and the arm. Workmans comp was dragging their butts but my attorney lit a fire under their ass and we're in the process of seeing the ortho next week.
I can still type but only for limited amounts of time; this thing really sucks.
Be safe
Marlo
[/quoteOMG, What a mess. No idea you had so much trouble. I'm stressed about eating a pizza. Guess I should count my blessings. Good luck to you & good luck healing up.
Life is good I guess, ate a pizza & know I gained a pound or 2. I so remember my first appt with a doc for HRT. He asked do you ever cross dress? I said I'm cross dressed right now wearing this dull male stuff just to make everyone happy. I should be wearing a pretty dress. He gave me my script in 10 minutes for whatever I needed. Have a great day ppl.
I got an elliptical to use as a training device to cut down on the impact on my joints for running.
Went out to dinner with my Mom during a visit to her town, and she commented that she liked my low-cut top, earrings, longer hair (than she had see before), painted nails, necklaces ... And she said "the waitress might think that we're sisters!" Made me smile.
My nails are coming along pretty nice after a nasty break 2 weeks ago. Biotin & some unique cuticle oil has made such a nice improvement with their strength & growth. Happy Dance.
Well a day late with this ( wifi went haywire last night ). Therapy appointment yesterday , heading to the front door of the building. Gentleman heading to door from other direction. He hurried up to get to the door ahead of me and held it open as I went in. Smiled and thanked him. After decades of "guy me" holding doors for the ladies it's was real nice being on the receiving end of that gesture of politeness !
Hi! My second time in public as "me" and I walked around a festival with hundreds of people. Nobody seemed to take much notice. I love being a girl. I am living my dream!!!
Moni
It is nice to be out and about dress as we please. That why I love San Jose and San Francisco, and I could dress up to go out and no one said a words.
Luanne
This morning at work I had a loud discussion with one of my girls, she's a bit hard of hearing, and realized that my voice was on point the whole time. Later a customer called to me for help, "miss?", but started to apologize when I turned. The voice thing helped me screw my courage up and I said, " actually, you were right the first time", and smiled at her. She smiled back and addressed me as "miss" several more times as we ran into each other in the store!
Realized a source of anxiety, and my wife helped me work through it.
Always had a strong negative emotional response to cooking--still do--but today she remembered to give me a few minutes "to get everybody on board" before making a couple of dips for The Big Game today. We went into the kitchen, and as she was gently telling me to "grate this, sprinkle that, etc" I realized my anxiety was based on a fear of her getting impatient and shoving me out of the kitchen...
Don't know when that happened in my life, but I have always dreaded the kitchen because of that. I didn't know this until today. She was so patient with me, such a quiet and encouraging voice, it was actually enjoyable to make guacamole dip and the cheesy potato side.
This was HUGE for me, and I'm still happy and glowing inside because of it.
I'm sure happy not to give a hoot about football, I'd rather do my nails, do some cooking or make a dress if I still sewed. Appt. tomorrow with my plastic surgeon for a dental block shot, then to my electrolysis lady for a 2 hour session to maybe clean off my upper lip. Happy dance when all that nasty hair is gone.
Sailing! Got out on the water for the first time in 2016. Loved it and looking forward to getting Sea Cup out on the water many more times this year!
Quote from: kaitylynn on February 07, 2016, 11:44:48 PM
Sailing! Got out on the water for the first time in 2016. Loved it and looking forward to getting Sea Cup out on the water many more times this year!
I lived on a sailboat for 4-5 years some 6-7 years ago. It was pretty cool but now I sure love my farm with land to grow roses, flowers & even a big garden. My own private place. My new electrolysis lady is just great, she really likes me & looks forward to being friends for years as I complete my GRS & all other things to finally become an attractive sexy woman. She is age 66 however does not look a day over 50. I'm letting her do whatever she thinks on my face. Soon I'll let her do some permanent makeup, eye liner & maybe lip liner work. I have a pretty, soft feminine face so life is good for me. Next appt. for Wed. We do 2 hour sessions which is about right. Happy dance for me.
I take riding lessons, English Saddle. While I was in the tack room, a little girl, about 10 or 11, came up to me, looked me right in the eyes and said " I love your hair!". I was so happy :) She made my Weekend!
Quote from: Iliana.Found on February 09, 2016, 11:04:00 AM
I take riding lessons, English Saddle. While I was in the tack room, a little girl, about 10 or 11, came up to me, looked me right in the eyes and said " I love your hair!". I was so happy :) She made my Weekend!
Kids are awesome. I love when things like this happen to me, that's so cool :)
Went to the BMV today and got my name and gender marker changed on my license. WOOOOHOO!!!!!
I've never been so happy to get an "F" on anything in my life! :D
Congrats Girl!!!
Quote from: Emjay on February 10, 2016, 06:09:53 PM
Went to the BMV today and got my name and gender marker changed on my license. WOOOOHOO!!!!!
I've never been so happy to get an "F" on anything in my life! :D
I received an early Valentine's Day gift from my girl friend....a Waterford Crystal heart!! Beautiful!
What made me happy today was getting my first electrolysis session. God was it painful!!! But what made it endurable was my electrolysist, Katie. She made me feel welcomed. And, since she had previously undergone electrolysis we were able to empathize with each other. That's what made me happy today-- to be just 'another' girl. See, that's were I wanna be. Not in the spotlight. God NO!! But a transwoman who's got something to say. So I felt respected today as well. And in those immortal words by that darn Canadian, Shenia Twain, 'Man, I Feel Like a Woman.' Much Love, Stephanie Garrett
For the first time I saw my breasts as, well, breasts. It was the way my shirt was fitting, the way the shadows were working, and the bit the hormones have done so far... they looked like breasts.
It was pretty awesome.
Quote from: Emjay on February 10, 2016, 06:09:53 PM
Went to the BMV today and got my name and gender marker changed on my license. WOOOOHOO!!!!!
I've never been so happy to get an "F" on anything in my life! :D
Congrats!!! That's a funny way to put it lmao ;D
My new electrolysis lady is doing a great job. My face looks nicer & nicer. We are going to do some permanent eye liner soon. She gave me a 30 bottle collection of her older polish, one was Christian Dior, simple pink. Great polish. She has 3-4 clients that have completed their GRS & enjoying happy complete lives. I'm so glad to find her & join her friends. 2 are happily married very happy women. I'm not sure if I ever want to get married however I sure enjoy a nice man , we'll see. Happy dance for being a hetrosexual nice attractive woman.
I had a flying dream last night. I love those. Ever since I've come to grips with who I was I've been able to have flying dreams again.
I scheduled a consult with my preferred surgon for SRS. I will be evaluated at the end of the month and I will find out what dates are available for the June/July time period. Then the fun of working with my insurance company begins.
Took a big step today and spent the whole day out and about in public in wonderful Manchester. No bad responses from anyone, everywhere I went staff were professional and courteous.
Quote from: meganjames2 on February 13, 2016, 01:14:59 PM
Took a big step today and spent the whole day out and about in public in wonderful Manchester. No bad responses from anyone, everywhere I went staff were professional and courteous.
And a big boost to your id, I suspect. ;)
First laser appointment was yesterday. My face looks like it's been sent through a dull wood chipper, but whatever! Won't be long before it's all gone; no more razor burn, stubble, or ingrown hairs. Tech asked me if I was nervous. Nope. Long time coming.
Quote from: Mallory on February 13, 2016, 07:36:12 PM
First laser appointment was yesterday. My face looks like it's been sent through a dull wood chipper, but whatever! Won't be long before it's all gone; no more razor burn, stubble, or ingrown hairs. Tech asked me if I was nervous. Nope. Long time coming.
Good luck to you. Most times laser work does not permanetly kill the hair folicles. I had my first laser work 20 + years ago. Electrolysis is the only system that really kills the hair folice.
Appt. with my electrolysis nice lady tomorrow. We are coming along very well. I so enjoy seeing her & having a much smoother nicer looking face. She does a great job & we are becomming good friends.
That is wonderful Francis Ann. Hugs
Mariah
Quote from: FrancisAnn on February 15, 2016, 07:25:20 PM
Appt. with my electrolysis nice lady tomorrow. We are coming along very well. I so enjoy seeing her & having a much smoother nicer looking face. She does a great job & we are becomming good friends.
Little bit of a play around with some makeup and wig to see if I couldn't get a half reasonable Avatar pic...I was happy with the result considering I am pre-everything...for the next few weeks at least. Was pretty happy with the result, apart from I didn't have any powder to finish, but you can't have everything
I'm not sure where to begin. I'm beside myself with excitement. Here are a few things:
1) Over the last two weeks I've had long truthful meaningful talks with my wife. We are getting along much better. I was not very pleasant to live with.
2) found a great therapist. She even assigns homework. I love it.
3) have been to several shoe stores and tried on and bought a few pairs of shoes and boots. ($5 for a cute pair of pumps on clearance:). Btw- nine west has lots of size 10, 10.5 and 11s in stock in our outlet mall.
4) found a very accepting social group, they meet four nights per week and no one said boo when I showed up in feminine attire.
5) I have a mental plan on telling everyone. Just need to wait a while due to other things going on. Tough secret to keep since I wasn't too yell it from a mountain top.
6) I've started to mentally accept after 45 years that me number 1 dream will be coming true. ( I hope I don't miss the little voice who has kept me company all these years.)
7) I've started to use my chosen female name in the first person in emails to my confidants. (Denise Catherine, that will be on my driver's license, eventually)
8) survived not shaving for 6 days and sent pictures to the electrolysis clinic for an initial evaluation.
9) my hair is almost to the point of being able to be styled androgynously. Two weeks more should be enough.
Basically I'm constantly happy. I feel 100 times better. In fact I'm almost giddy.
Just found out my parents didn't actually cut me off. There was just a communications breakdown. It still caused damage, but it's reparable.
My youngest daughter (22) just expressed an interest in attending a yoga class with me! This is huge as we have not done anything together in what feels like forever...
This morning I put on my makeup and brushed my wig and looked in the mirror. There where a man had stood was a woman. Not a ravishing beautiful one but not all of us can look like a Goddess, but a woman just the same. That woman was me and I'm happy with what I saw.
I put on some practical work clothes and my orange with yellow reflective striped safety vest because I'm learning how to drive 18 wheelers because a mini just won't do for that and went out the door to face the world. Confidant as to who I am and doing something that a few years ago like being in the daylight alone would have scared the living bejeesus out of me.
Love,
Clare
Today I shaved and did my hair, redid my nails three times, they still weren't right, and drove an hour and a half to my endo. I saw his associate and a medical student. The office, now clinic, is part of a teaching hospital. They told me I'm in great shape and agreed to all my requests. My dosage was doubled! The doctor told me that my previous dose is considered a low dose there. Dr. Joseph also promised to send out my letters for driver's license, passport and social security by the end of the week. She then gave me her card and said to call her in two weeks if they don't arrive. Even before then she told me she'd never seen me happier.
Congrats you are now closer to complete your transition.
I came out to my mom and she told me she loved me and she always will
signed~
♡Kirsten Danielle xoxo
my gf gave me a purple eyebrow pencil and it just matched everything so perfectly @_@
https://www.instagram.com/p/BB3Hw23L8yv/?taken-by=zenesthesia (https://www.instagram.com/p/BB3Hw23L8yv/?taken-by=zenesthesia)
she says i'm super cute and it makes me blush every time '3
Thanks, Luanneph! Congrats, Kirsten, that's a big one! I'm happy for you Phek.
My boobs hurt! See previous post.
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It has been quite a while since I posted but today marks a big occasion for me!
I'm wearing my first bras now as I actually need them. Didn't think it would happen this fast but there is no way I can hide them any more xD
Certainly is...different wearing it. It feels right somehow though.
Playtex 18 hour bra's are the best. You will not even notice that you are wearing a bra, so comfy.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on February 17, 2016, 08:54:39 AM
Playtex 18 hour bra's are the best. You will not even notice that you are wearing a bra, so comfy.
I love playtex! I have some panties made by them already and they are super comfy. I'll consider trying their bras too, thank you :D
Hey there gang!
The news is not so good; I do have a partial tear that can go at any time the rest of the way so surgery is the only option. I guess what made me happy about it is that my shoulder is finally going to get fixed. Four to six months off of work- that should be interesting.
My optometrist told me yesterday I need Cataracts surgery soon. Look like my transition may delay for little while.
Quote from: luanneph on February 17, 2016, 02:43:09 PM
My optometrist told me yesterday I need Cataracts surgery soon. Look like my transition may delay for little while.
I had that in my right eye several years back. If you have astigmatism or some other issue requiring corrective lenses they can use a corrective replacement lens and you'll never need glasses, except reading glasses, again.
Quote from: Dee Marshall on February 17, 2016, 04:00:31 PM
I had that in my right eye several years back. If you have astigmatism or some other issue requiring corrective lenses they can use a corrective replacement lens and you'll never need glasses, except reading glasses, again.
Right now I am waiting for appointment with Opthalmologist for recommendation. Just a waiting game now.
Luanne
Went to staples today with my partners offspring because they needed to pick up something for work. Anyway. We were standing there discussing the item when a sales clerk stopped and asked if us ladies needed any help. I know I'm not passing, but that was really sweet of him to do that.
Stevie
Went out in female jeans/singlet top (and a cardigan style jacket) to the shops today and had my hair cut and colored in a salon which is the first time I've let anyone near it with scissors since I started growing it. Didn't really style it just neatened up but the color is way better than my home dye jobs.
Still happy from last weeks Mani Pedi (another first) as well though scuba diving takes it's toll on nails.
Also yesterday came out by email to a former boss and great friend and got a lovely super supportive email from him back.
Overall a pretty damn good week :)
Quote from: SofiN on February 17, 2016, 09:19:57 AM
I love playtex! I have some panties made by them already and they are super comfy. I'll consider trying their bras too, thank you :D
Underwear bras are nice for a night out on the town.....but soft playtex 18 hour bras are like second nature. I wear a bra most every day & never even think about it any more, just normal clothes. Good luck, enjoy life GF.
Appt. tomorrow morning early with my plastic surgeon for Dental block shots then to my electrol lady 20 minutes away for her to work on my nasty upper lip hairs. That will be so nice to have no pain while my lady kills those remaining nasty hairs!!!! The rest of my face is easy & almost smooth but oh me the upper lip is so sensitive. Thank goodness for dental block shots. Life is good. I'm finally looking & feeling more normal & more of an attractive confident woman. OH my lady does permanet cosmetic makeup. Some time I'm going to let her do my eye brows to shape them nicer & do eye liner. She does this all the time for her clients & does excellent work. She is an artist really. Happy dance to have found her.
Yesterday was the farthest I have ever gone, well I always think I was "that far" but when I look back, I always held back just a little. So I had 2 appointments and dressed/dolled up as far as I thought I could, I looked great! I went shopping in between apps, I went to the casino. I carried my big ol purse (never done that) I had to pee 3 times when out.... one at a burger king, one at the casino and one at a store. I walked right into the ladies room like I belonged there... In and on the way into the restroom I encountered other women, even casino workers...not one raised eyebrow, no comments, I didnt get arrested or chased out. That was great. The entire day was uneventful as far as other people are concerned, I smiled at many, I said hi softly to a few... never a bit of strangeness from any. Gave me a great boost in confidence :D
Quote from: MsMarlo on February 17, 2016, 02:08:22 PM
Hey there gang!
The news is not so good; I do have a partial tear that can go at any time the rest of the way so surgery is the only option. I guess what made me happy about it is that my shoulder is finally going to get fixed. Four to six months off of work- that should be interesting.
Sorry you have to have surgery, but if it heals you it will definitely be worth it! I had a tear in my left rotator cuff in 2003, and it's still very painful and stiff, so I can relate to what you may be going through. Best wishes :)
Quote from: RitaChans on February 18, 2016, 07:03:47 AM
Yesterday was the farthest I have ever gone, well I always think I was "that far" but when I look back, I always held back just a little. So I had 2 appointments and dressed/dolled up as far as I thought I could, I looked great! I went shopping in between apps, I went to the casino. I carried my big ol purse (never done that) I had to pee 3 times when out.... one at a burger king, one at the casino and one at a store. I walked right into the ladies room like I belonged there... In and on the way into the restroom I encountered other women, even casino workers...not one raised eyebrow, no comments, I didnt get arrested or chased out. That was great. The entire day was uneventful as far as other people are concerned, I smiled at many, I said hi softly to a few... never a bit of strangeness from any. Gave me a great boost in confidence :D
WTG; sounds like you are making good progress! Each step we take makes us stronger and boosts our self esteem and confidence.
thank you kit-tay ;)
Yesterday a co-worker, who "manages" the cosmetics isles, helped me pick out a BB cream. I tried it today and with a little judicious double layering, it covers my beard shadow perfectly!
Just got my new blood work number's back.
My estrogen level has increased more than 50% and my testosterone level has dropped about 40% all in the past 6 months on low dose hrt...
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My plastic surgeon & electrolysis lady did such nice work on my face yesterday. A dental block was so easy & I did not feel a thing even right under my nose or entire upper lip. Happy Dance!!!! Also my lady does permanent lip liner work when I'm ready. My lower lip was badly cut during childhood & I had some plastic surgery last summer however they are still not full even lips. However soon with some filler injections & lip liner work from my electrol lady I will finally have nice pleasant full evenly balanced kissable lips. Oh my how great that will be to be proud of my lips for the first time in my life. Thank goodness for plastic surgeons.
Yesterday I talked to my Gender therapist about my blood work, and look like my Estrogen levels are higher than my Tetestoron
Luanne
Quote from: luanneph on February 20, 2016, 07:27:56 AM
Yesterday I talked to my Gender therapist about my blood work, and look like my Estrogen levels are higher than my Tetestoron
Luanne
Testosterone levels. We also talking about my Cataract surgery coming up, and we decide to delay my hormones replacement therapy for a month after eyes operations.
Quote from: FrancisAnn on February 20, 2016, 05:18:20 AM
My plastic surgeon & electrolysis lady did such nice work on my face yesterday. A dental block was so easy & I did not feel a thing even right under my nose or entire upper lip. Happy Dance!!!! Also my lady does permanent lip liner work when I'm ready. My lower lip was badly cut during childhood & I had some plastic surgery last summer however they are still not full even lips. However soon with some filler injections & lip liner work from my electrol lady I will finally have nice pleasant full evenly balanced kissable lips. Oh my how great that will be to be proud of my lips for the first time in my life. Thank goodness for plastic surgeons.
Luanne
Yea!! Our cat just had her litter of kittens - five so far and all the little critters are doing just fine :-)
I have a date. We're just going out as friends for now but I desperately need friends. Also my boobs are visible when I'm wearing clothing now.
Thank Kitten :-)
Like a dummy I looked the surgery up on YouTube and saw it performed up at Ohio State on a footballs player. While I kind of wish I hadn't seen it, I'm glad that I did. Very detailed and informative. I hope workman's comp hurries up and approves the surgery - I think I injured it a bit more earlier today.
Quote from: Waex on February 22, 2016, 08:52:50 AM
I have a date. We're just going out as friends for now but I desperately need friends. Also my boobs are visible when I'm wearing clothing now.
Have a great time, Waex!
Woke up early! Morning dilation DONE! ;D
Two things:
Made appointment with Dr Ettner in Lincolnwood IL for initial consult for hormones. I'm both excited and scared. But one thing is for sure - it's going to be the longest three weeks of my life, then another few days for blood test results then ... I'm so damn excited I can hardly wait, it's only been 45 years!
My wife actually asked to see the clothes I've purchased and she liked a pair of boots to note the manufacturer to see if they have them in her size. Let's hope the appointment doesn't freak her out (she does know I'm making it, but now it may be 'real')
Watched the Danish girl last night cured my self to sleep woke up feeling good had a great day nor questioned if I was trans only thought of how to move forward with positive steps maybe first day like that in years
Went out wearing androgynous outfit and with a handbag for the first time to see "Pride and Prejudice and Zombies".
Movie was better than I thought it would be and it was 37C outside so aircon was fantastic.
I was on my way home from work this morning and, like every morning, stopped off at my usual gas station to get a soda for the long trek home.
As I was leaving I caught sight of a mans' reflection in the glass doors as I opened them. He was 100% hardcore, unabashedly checking me out! :D My wife says that she catches guys doing that from time to time when we're out but that's the first time I've ever noticed it.
I'm happily married and not really interested in guys but the validation still felt incredible, that made my morning. Thanks random gas station guy!
After a bit of a slowdown.....boobs are hurting a lot today.....wonderful!!
Hugs
Dianne
xo
Quote from: DianneM on February 25, 2016, 03:10:40 PM
After a bit of a slowdown.....boobs are hurting a lot today.....wonderful!!
Hugs
Dianne
xo
It's always good when things pick back up isn't it? I love when this happens to me too, though I do feel a little odd thinking "My boobs are killling me today........ YAY!" :D
Quote from: Emjay on February 25, 2016, 05:10:21 PM
It's always good when things pick back up isn't it? I love when this happens to me too, though I do feel a little odd thinking "My boobs are killling me today........ YAY!" :D
Lol......yes it feels different for sure but what a wonderful feeling toke.....I was actually sitting at my desk thinking... "Wow they actually feel different....they feel like boobs".... As you said...yay!
Hugs
Dianne
Xo
Work was annoying, Sweetie had problems with the car that cost us $240 to fix and, despite that, it was a wonderful day because MY LETTERS CAME IN THE MAIL!
Out to my mom last night ans she has been great texting all day with nice comments also plenty of questions
That good Jessica! That means she is learning to accept who you're.
Luanne
My wife went shopping with me today, and she picked out a lot of things for me.
Quote from: Ibaoddone on February 26, 2016, 05:22:48 PM
My wife went shopping with me today, and she picked out a lot of things for me.
Nice!!!
For my part my happy was to finally get my birth certificate. They sent the first copy to the wrong address. I'm now legally female from stem to stern. For me it was a relief like, it can't be taken away now or some other silly thought.
Today is my one year on hormones. I feel happy that I got this far ;D
Quote from: marssu on February 28, 2016, 01:57:26 AM
Today is my one year on hormones. I feel happy that I got this far ;D
Happy Birthday! :D
Happy Tranniversary! I will join you at the one year mark next week.
Quote from: marssu on February 28, 2016, 01:57:26 AM
Today is my one year on hormones. I feel happy that I got this far ;D
Went to my first Trans meetup and met an amazing and gorgeous group of super welcoming people. Couldn't stop smiling on the train home.
Check out girl asked to see my bankcard this morning because it did not have a chip. She looked at the name then said she had to see my ID and asked if that was my husbands card. Had to explain that it was my card and I have gone through a few changes, but it felt great when she asked if it was my husbands card.
So I show up to a customer's home that I have been to before, about a six months ago. Knock on the door and she answers and stares at me. She tells me that she was told that the company would be sending the same person as last time and clearly, they cannot listen...
Had to explain to her...I am the same tech as last time. She argued with me and finally I describe the work performed on the prior visit and then repeated some of our original conversation. She just stares some more and then utter disbelief mixed with understanding that I have been there before.
While I am working, she is focusing on me and lets me know I look a lot younger than in our first meeting and that I definitely have a different body. Then eyes land on my chest and bam...she gets it. She works in the medical profession and has the tact not to say anything further, instead waiting to see if I choose to say something. I do, and she goes on to describe all the changes she can see, some obvious and a few not ones I recognize as easily.
I was flattered that she could see and I left as Kait, a new person to her. Will be interesting to hear how the follow-up call from the office goes.
talking to my mom and just listening to her voice when i woke up crying my eyes out missing my dad. put me right back to sleep ^.^
I passed as female for the first time ever! By which I mean, I looked in the mirror and read myself as female! It's amazing what a pair of tweezers and a little eyeliner can do... and maybe the 8 months of HRT helps a little too. ;)
I went out in a dress for the first time. Went to Sydneys Mardi Gras parade and felt comortable even with the large crowds. Met up with new friend Claire and grabbed some dinner. Overall much better than sitting at home watching Netflix.
Also, nobody called me "sir" all day yesterday! I swear that it's the eyeliner. I've been practicing stabbing myself in the eye a bunch, and that's finally paid off!
I was done with my electrolysis appointment and stopped at a WAWA (convenience store) and got a bag of shelled pistachios. When I paid for them the young woman asked, Do you want your nuts in a bag. I said no I do not want them in the bag. I chuckled to myself as I put them in my pocked and walked out of the store. I go to WAWA's in Pennsylvania and New Jersey all the time. I have yet to have an issue, comment or look from store workers or patrons. :)
It is the end of the season for one of the tennis leagues I have joined. What makes me so happy is how I was accepted by the other 4.0 women on the team. I have been included in everything!It also helped that my partner and I won the last 3 matches! My other league finishes this week, Friday, and a year end luncheon follows the following Friday. Our captain said that most of the girls get a little dressed up and that I could wear a skirt if I wanted. Well, I did not have one, my partner was not there yet, until today. I bought a cute white skirt, well skort, and this will go nicely with the nice colourful top that I purchase a while back.
I got my trachea shaved today. It is pretty intense but I am happy <3
Yay, Marssu!
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Got called "ma'am" a few times with no makeup on :-)
Quote from: MsMarlo on March 08, 2016, 11:42:09 AM
Got called "ma'am" a few times with no makeup on :-)
Wonderful!
Quote from: MsMarlo on March 08, 2016, 11:42:09 AM
Got called "ma'am" a few times with no makeup on :-)
^^^^^^Best. ........feeling. .........ever! :laugh:
Quote from: sparrow on March 06, 2016, 01:20:32 PM
Also, nobody called me "sir" all day yesterday! I swear that it's the eyeliner. I've been practicing stabbing myself in the eye a bunch, and that's finally paid off!
That's awesome! I used to keep an app on my phone that was like a counter. ... it would keep track of days since (fill in the blank). Mine was days since last "sir". It was kind of depressing at first but the more i went out as me and being called sir diminished it got to be really encouraging to look back on. I finally got a new phone and didn't reinstall it but i think i was over something like 3 months at that time. I know, it's kind if an odd thing to keep track of, I'm weird like that.
I understand completely on the eyeliner, it gets easier I promise! :)
I spent a wonderful day off not feeling judged by anyone
Came out to a close gay friend and it went really well. He was overjoyed and excited to have me be his ->-bleeped-<- Hag and wants to drag me around all the gay and trans friendly clubs. :)
Starting to get into the double digits of people who know and the only hold up now is parents but expect this to happen over the next few weeks.
Congrats girl. Another step taken care of! I hope your doing good today.
Quote from: marssu on March 08, 2016, 08:25:49 AM
I got my trachea shaved today. It is pretty intense but I am happy <3
Last week I joined a weight loss group at work. We all weighed in to establish our starting weight. We are competing to see who can lose the most weight over the next couple of months. We had our first weigh-in today to check our status. I had the most weight loss by 2x the nearest person. 15 lbs so far. Eating healthy and going at least 3 miles a day on my elliptical has helped so much. My goal is to get down to 180 or so by the start of summer. I want to look good in a bikini at the beach. :icon_workout:
Emjay and Dee you are not kidding. Did it again when I was getting my lab work done today. Wigs are pretty much a thing of the past too. Yea! :D
Officially started the at work transition and there were no negative reactions.
Quote from: kaitylynn on March 05, 2016, 06:23:41 AM
I was flattered that she could see and I left as Kait, a new person to her. Will be interesting to hear how the follow-up call from the office goes.
That's a great story. Glad you had a such a warm customer.
Without hesitation, my new next door neighbours father identified me as a female. I have been identified as a woman before but this time has left me on a high ;D. It is time for some chocolate mousse to celebrate!
I had a hard time in the Chicago Art Institute due to my Unwanted thought syndrome. But after I got to the airport I read a Kerri Edwards book of poetry and felt so much better because it spoke to me so profoundly. Plus I got a refill of hormones and some letters of approval to give to any bureau robot types that give me trouble.
Came out to two of my friends today and they were really supportive! :D
Second full face laser second chest laser done third scheduled yay
Job interview went well and got script for higher E dose .
Firmed up my laser appointment for next Friday and have a friend coming with! Cool. Got to talk with a friend that I have not heard from in a long while. He and his wife are very supportive and it is good to hear from them.
Also, had another long talk with my dad and he is now starting to see the truth in my actions. It has been very hard for him as he has not wanted to consider until now. The physical changes have become undeniable and it seems that is kind of forcing the issue in our relationship. I love him and am completely independent, but still want him to understand my happiness!
I'm sure happy that my nails healed up. I got such a nasty infection or nail fungus. It was terrible. But it's so hard to keep nice nails with spring time, garden work, yard work....so medium lenght will have to do. No big news, kind of frustrated with life not being a 100% normal woman, I sure would enjoy loving a man & enjoying him completely. I should have been born physically female, no doubt about that. Take care friends & have a nice spring day.
Ive just changed my name! Im now legally called Miss Zoe Louise Taylor! :) x
Quote from: Zoe Louise Taylor on March 13, 2016, 11:01:51 AM
Ive just changed my name! Im now legally called Miss Zoe Louise Taylor! :) x
Congratulations, it's a GIRL!
Quote from: Zoe Louise Taylor on March 13, 2016, 11:01:51 AM
Ive just changed my name! Im now legally called Miss Zoe Louise Taylor! :) x
Oh me. Now that is great news WTG girl!
I am going to go to the shooting range for the first time since I transitioned! Looking forward to getting a little conservative gun control action.......proper breathing, smooth trigger pull.
My wife and I went the LGBT Export in Manhattan today. There were a few financial planners there and an attorney that we talked to. Both times they asked is when or if we were married and we said about 19 years ago. Then both times they asked when were we legally married. Again we said 19 years ago. Then the "puzzled" look on there faces with a "wait a minute how is that possible?" Then I explain that I'm trans and then they get it, LOL.
Got ears pieced today. Major ouch but only lasted a few seconds then dull ache and a headache. Worth it though.
I'm sure happy to be a "hetrosexual girl now woman" & never had any mental concerns about that since childhood. It seems that so many ppl have such mental anguish about their gender issues & sexual attraction issues. I feel for their pain. Back to see my electrolysis lady this week. She went on an 8 day cruise a while & I can't wait to hear all about it. She deserved it. She had helped natural born women & mtF women with facial hair issues for some 30 years. She really likes me & I like her.
Quote from: Willowicious on March 10, 2016, 07:11:45 PM
Came out to two of my friends today and they were really supportive! :D
Exciting! That's a really big deal! I'm glad they were supportive ;D
For me, I'm just learning makeup, so I don't have a lot of supplies. I came out to an out of town friend who was very supportive and mentioned to her cosmetic-loving mom that she had a friend who was getting into makeup.
My friend just visited and brought a huuuge bag of cosmetics, brushes, and the most mom-ish thing, toothpaste :D
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Apparently her mother acquires far more makeup than she needs and loves giving extra to makeup newbies. While she doesn't know I'm transgender, my friend assured me she is very open-minded, so bonus points for awesome friend's mom! I'm so happy and thankful ;D
Might sound goofy.. but I woke up this morning and found a female nipple.
I've been on hormones for about a month now, and couldn't believe how clearly "different" it is to the other one... which in turn made me insanely happy. I don't think I've ever used Happy and Monday at the same time to describe a day before.
I know.. I know... it was probably not a "Pop!" overnight thing.. but it was damn sneaky =)
Filed my name change paperwork :) :) :)
I meet with this semesters group of Law Clerks who have been working with us for the last few months. I wanted to talk to them about my being transgender and to see how they have liked clerking for us. I was blown away when they all told me that they had no idea that I was trans. I've worked with a number of them and see them most every day. I couldn't believe that they hadn't figured it out. On of the clerks is a young lady who is 6' tall and we had talked for quite a while about being tall. I guess I can quit posting in the Do I Pass thread. ;D
I put in a picture of me at five years old into http://how-old.net/ and it said five year old girl.
I told them so back then!
Met with the Dr that my therapist suggested. He's a really nice guy. It just dawned on me that he's the first guy I've told. Everyone else as been female - strange. Anyway.... I have a script for Spiro and Estradiol (injections)! Although he asked me to hold off on the Estradiol until a full physical which is TWO months away. So I get to stare at the syringes and Estradiol for two months and do nothing with it. (Yes I'll behave.)
Spiro starts tomorrow after getting baseline blood work done!
Saw my endocrinologist. We agreed to increase my E dose by adding gels as well as tablets. We also agreed to switch to implants at the next consult.
I didn't notice but at some stage the pathologist has changed my gender marker from M to U.
I just bought my first shoes and discovered that my size is an 11, not a 12 like I thought.
This is especially exciting since it greatly increases my chances at finding shoes that fit. Plus, places actually stock 11's some times. I haven't found a single 12 yet...
Just over 3 months on hormones and I will be employed in 2-3 weeks.
It's sure nice to see so many women use this page. I started it some 2 years ago so we could all share the good things in our lives. Happy day today, going shopping, love my thrift store shopping, need new sandals....., t tops, maybe cute shorts for summer wear.
I passed my Class A/C driving test today!!!!!
I can now drive 18 wheel, 76 foot long tractor trailers, heavy duty trucks, "Greyhound" type buses, tour bus, airport shuttle bus, ambulance, fire truck, cars/vans light duty trucks.
Only 3 minor faults with a 92% pass grade!!
Now I am a minority within a minority when it comes to women commercial drivers!
Now this has made me happy today!!!!!
Love,
Clare
Quote from: rachel89 on March 15, 2016, 10:37:20 PM
Just over 3 months on hormones and I will be employed in 2-3 weeks.
Congratulations on the job. I myself am at 2nd interview stage today and have my fingers crossed.
I got ma'amed today. ;D
I didn't see this yesterday. I had my 4th therapissy appt. and it was the first time presenting as Sofia to my therapist!!! Sofia for therapy visits from here on out.
2nd interview for new job went great and I am optimistic. It is full time so I can afford all the fab winter clothes now in store in Australia. Also got a call back from Amazon recruiting which I am going to cultivate since my next interviews down the track are probably going to be obviously in transition and/or as female and they seem to have pretty good policies .
Went and got nails done to celebrate.
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First dinner out as myself with two of my former professors. It was lovely. They were fully supportive of my transition, though I very nervous about it going in. :)
Quote from: lilijames on March 16, 2016, 11:32:54 PM
2nd interview for new job went great and I am optimistic. It is full time so I can afford all the fab winter clothes now in store in Australia. Also got a call back from Amazon recruiting which I am going to cultivate since my next interviews down the track are probably going to be obviously in transition and/or as female and they seem to have pretty good policies .
Went and got nails done to celebrate.
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Your nails look nice. To me a woman's nails & hands say a lot about herself. I've always loved to have nice nails however I never go acrylic. You can grow your own nails with biotin & cuticle oils. It works. But anyway it's nice to see a member take care of their nails. Mine really look nice most of the time unless I have a break in one than darn, so upset....It takes weeks to fill back in.....I can go on & on about nails.....
Quote from: FrancisAnn on March 17, 2016, 01:44:31 AM
Your nails look nice. To me a woman's nails & hands say a lot about herself. I've always loved to have nice nails however I never go acrylic. You can grow your own nails with biotin & cuticle oils. It works. But anyway it's nice to see a member take care of their nails. Mine really look nice most of the time unless I have a break in one than darn, so upset....It takes weeks to fill back in.....I can go on & on about nails.....
My nails used to chip and crack but Ive been getting manicures (usually with Clear polish but am going out this weekend) and they seems to be less susceptible to damage .Or I am just being a bit more careful. Downside is that I go SCUBA diving and the gloves wear away the polish near the tips . Will need to practice coloring or at least touching the color up myself .
Quote from: lilijames on March 17, 2016, 01:52:24 AM
My nails used to chip and crack but Ive been getting manicures (usually with Clear polish but am going out this weekend) and they seems to be less susceptible to damage .Or I am just being a bit more careful. Downside is that I go SCUBA diving and the gloves wear away the polish near the tips . Will need to practice coloring or at least touching the color up myself .
All of us that are active have a hrad time keeping long nails. Mine are about as long as I can keep them. I do a lot of garden work, cooking, washing dishes then when one breaks I almost cry. Biotin will make them stronger & some cuticle oil will also make them stronger. Acrylic nails are hard, lots of women do that but I've always liked natural nails. It's nice to see a girl friend that takes care of her nails......Have fun.
Mum has been really stressed out lately so she went on a one week retreat. She called me up today saying that she was all relaxed and was having a lovely time. It makes me happy to know that she is okay.
Super duper awesome day.
Went femme to a new Yoga class and was treated fantastically. Then got out to a missed call and it was the recruitment agent I've been dealing with confirming my job offer . 6 month rolling contract at Huge Telco with great internal diversity programs.
Celebrated by seeing "Hail Caesar" Coen brothers film which was better than I'd been led to expect then did some shopping including new short and skirt and headed home.
Tonight off to dinner with some Sydney gals.
My butt is getting bigger & waist smaller. That is such a welcome relief. It's kinda cold today so I slipped on some older jeans, they fill out in the right places, happy dance. And my poor breasts are at least a B cup. I sure wish my girls would fill in my bras better. That would be so nice. I do not want to have implants. Life is good girl friends, have a great friday. Back to see my electrolysis lady next week, she had been on a 2 week summer cruise with her hubby. My face is looking nice but still some of those nasty little hairs but they are all going away. She does a great job on my face & sees me as a very pretty attractive woman with a little work here & there....
Today I'm becoming more comfortable (excited?) about transitioning. I started Spiro two days ago and updated my profile here from gender "blank" to gender "female" and it feels good.
I'm a planner. I like having a plan. Plans change but at least there's a path to follow. My current plan is to go as long as I can until total Male-Fail before going full time. That's one anxiety issue off the list. Now to cross off the other few and I'll be mentally ready to gfree to transition.
After so long denying myself of being me, the true me is finally starting to come out and I feel WONDERFUL.
This is a bit of a question along with a happy moment.
I have noticed some really exciting changes these last few weeks and my outfits are starting to fit better. I actually have the makings of an hourglass figure already which I am in love with! Just wish hips would fill out a little more to help with pants... (boobs are doing well too, I'm quite happy with the progress for 15 weeks on HRT)
As for the question, is it possible to get the hormonal cycle side of periods? For the last 5 days now I've been really emotional, to the point of crying a LOT. Sometimes disrupting sleep, and weirdly enough I had some cramps a couple of days ago as well. I know we don't have the organs but is this still possible or am I going mad? Nothing has changed in terms of my medication / eating habits etc.
I don't think so, generally. The trick is in the phrase "hormonal cycle". If you're on pills your estrogen stays basically constant. On injections, patches, or implants then yes. As they wear out your levels drop until your next dose. That happens with pills, too, but daily.
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Going out to a season end luncheon with the girls on my tennis team! Getting all dressed up! Our team is in the running for the top team!
As of today, I now officially have decent employment.
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