Quote from: oZma on January 16, 2013, 01:35:47 PM
another fear - after srs, which is kind of the end game for transition... I'm afraid ill get depressed not knowing what to do with all this transition momentum. like ill feel 'what do I do next...?' and people will say 'LIVE!' and ill say ' I don't even know what that means... living and transition seem to so closely correlated that without transition... I might feel lost?'
Kia Ora Ozma,
Prior to having surgery I had already assimilated into main stream society 'as a female', in other words I had found contentment in the here and now... After transitioning and before surgery I was 'present' [no worrying thoughts about the past or future] after surgery I was and still am present..
For me, transitioning simply involved living full time as the gender I was meant to be-[with or without surgery]...
Back in 2000 when I went full time, I had hormonally and mentally 'completed' my transition[ I started HRT in 1997/8, now it just does maintenance work] ... However in 2005 I was fortunate in that I was selected for government funded surgery...This was 'just' an unexpected 'bonus' ...
Meditation can help to put things into perspective...However some people find it quite difficult to just sit and observe, for example, with the practice of 'zazen' or 'vipassana' meditation,[the monkey mind can wander all over the place and some just can't get it to settle]...
For those type of people whose minds are full of monkey chatter, the meditative movements of yoga and tai chi would be more helpful/beneficial -where the monkey mind is brought under control by movement and breath.
As the past goes, the future is subtly unfolding in the present moment. And the present moment is all there 'is' and that is 'NOW'...So enjoy where you are at, and let this enjoyment unfold into the future...
Metta Zenda
