"There are women who transition and still identify as women? Do these women have any blogs or whatever that I can check out? Those might be the people I have the most in common with. And thankyou! I hope my therapist can help me figure out whats up and what to do."
Of course there are such people!
Unfortunately, the two I know--and they are some of the more interesting people I know--are quite private and would not welcome any attention, let alone blog. But that isn't so important anyway, because their road is not yours, and vice versa. Why oh why would it be wrong to modify your body if that's what you feel, while retaining the sense of "she" in your head? It IS your body, amirite? As long as you are aware of many things good and bad (including added health risks, bad attention, perhaps diminished job prospects, diminished partner prospects, work required to present however you like to present, money it costs, possible irreversibility of changes, possible loss of family and friends.... whew, I leave anything out??
then it is entirely up to you to express yourself as you see fit. And don't discount the possibility that the "she" in your head will slowly, over a few years, change almost imperceptibly to a "he". Or something in between. Or something else entirely. Be informed, be honest, and you'll be fine.
