Great to hear you are OK.

Hugs

Cindy

Quote from: Layn on September 05, 2013, 03:30:26 AM
a small update:
everything went super well. I was worried the night before (all dark and pessimistic thoughts) and a friend helped me through it. The day of surgery i felt really good, before and after surgery both. The only problem is that everyone wants me to rest, but then people keep coming in my room to check up on me or visit me . Hospital food has been much better than advertised (which made me eat faster and more than i should on the first day ). I also met a lot of nice people, who i hope to see again once i leave the hospital. And the staff is great.
I just wish the mattress was better. ouch.

Hi Layn,

Wonderful to hear everything went well. I will have my SRS with dr Suporn on 20th November and I am already quite nervous.

Quote from: Lauratranswoman on September 08, 2013, 04:27:41 AM
Hi Layn,

Wonderful to hear everything went well. I will have my SRS with dr Suporn on 20th November and I am already quite nervous.

Hi Laura!
Wish you good luck with your surgery!

Yeah the surgery went great and i think i've been healing well. I think others haven't had it as easy, but i think it comes down to how much rest each person's body needs. It seems however somewhat consistent to get cranky on day 3. Might be the lack of hormones, might be the fact you have to stay in bed for 5 days, or it might just be because my butt is sore from lying on it for so long . They help you turn of course, but i prefer facing my laptop. Basically, everyone says the surgery is the hard part, but it's really the waiting until you can stand again that's taxing. Thankfully the staff is great. Did i mention that the staff is great? (i know i did) they're really nice and always there when you call them. They take great care and always make sure that you're okay. Sometimes communication is difficult (i should probably use that phrase book they gave me ) but no matter what, they do everything they can to support me.
Mhm what else? Getting sick of the air conditioner. Never liked them and now i can't even open a window. I haven't gotten anyone to play Magic with me... yet! The weather looks dreadful right now which makes me happy to be inside. As i mentioned i brought a lot of entertainment, but it's kinda hard to choose what to do. Some things tire too much, others are not engaging enough. It's good if it's engrossing, but you need to be able to pause at any time. etc. Reading a book seems to be most reliable for most occasions, but i'm finding good quiet moments near night time for more contemplativev(indie) games.

This sounds fab! Many thanks! I am a bit relieved ;-)

I've got another query: what is your first reaction when you woke up after surgery and saw there wasn't anything hanging there between your legs? I just wonder how I will react. Probably relieved and very happy.

well, i haven't seen anything so far since it's all bandaged up. I know it's different there now, and it feels a bit different, but not completely, as my brain took some time to comprehend that things down there are rearranged. and well, i have a catheter coming out of the bandages so essentially i still sorta have a penis. It's just plastic and really long and goes into a bag . tomorrow the bandages come off so i imagine that's when it becomes real to me. I imagine even then it'll be kind of a whirlwind of thoughts, emotions, things to do, etc. and only when i get home and look at the mirror in my own room that i've looked at every day i'll really truly understand that it is real.

As for first thoughts in general when waking up...i don't quite remember waking up. My parents say i was awake when they brought me to my room, but i don't remember. The first thing i remember after the surgery is giving my father tech support on how to get online on his laptop in the hospital . It isn't really something you should do right after a surgery, but he wanted to tell the rest of the family everything went well. Oh well, it's what i always have to do and i think it helped me get bright and awake early on which improved my mood over the first days.

Layn,
Glad things so far have been going well for you. I wish you a fast recovery and easy dilations.

Take things day by day, do what you need to make yourself comfortable. It does get better with each passing day.

Hugs
Izzy

Hi Layn,

How are you now? Still on the right track?

L. x

Had a bit of a meltdown yesterday. Not because of anything specific and definitely not just surgery/recovery related. It's just everything negative i was feeling culminated and crashed down on me. I'm feeling better now, but i've been feeling a bit more pain and small wounds appeared that i'm just not understanding how. However that's nitpicking since apparently i'm healing pretty well overall. I haven't been getting out much to let those wounds heal but i think i really need to get a bit out. I really want to spend a bit of time with the clinic's cat/cat that hangs out at the clinic(?) and of course everyone else who is here

"and small wounds appeared that i'm just not understanding how". I know about these they just seem to pop up with any warning. For me they freaked me out everytime but they did calm down and started to re heal ok. I think most of mine was as the stitches started to disolve it gave a litte spot for the inside pressure to work its way out???

Relax as much as you can, also leave your bits hang out and air as much as you can, that seemed to help speed the healing.

Great ideas to get out to see some people and also pets are always something that can bring calm in humans.

Hugs and glad all in all things are going good.
Izzy

I had two 'meltdowns' while I was there. I think it's normal to have something like this happen. Luckily my parents were there during one of them and got me a milkshake to get my blood sugar back up, and in the other one I became super dysphoric because of the pain and sensations in my vagina so I talked with a friend. But thankfully that was it. I can say even though you have pain and discomfort (and it's a little strange) in the beginning things do get better!

Quote from: mind is quiet now on September 15, 2013, 11:33:20 AM
I think most of mine was as the stitches started to disolve it gave a litte spot for the inside pressure to work its way out???

I'm not sure i understand, but it did only happen after getting a few stitches removed, which sounds similar!

I couldn't ask my parents for anything since they were a part of why i had a meltdown and so i excused myself and tried to cry quietly and a friend helped me a bit.
Did anyone watch that thai commercial that has been floating around? It's from true (the wifi provider at the hospital for example). It's already emotional, but it hit me harder since i just was in a thai hospital, just used their services and also have bills in baht right now and i just immediately bawled. My god that could not have been more appropriately timed.

Update!


... nothing special going on
well i've started hormones again. started dynamic dilation (which seems so much better!). large dilator is starting to feel normal sized. everything down there feels tingly. everyones slowly going stir-crazy. i'm loving the post-op care booklet i've been given (i love that it says that after 3 months you can have intercourse, and a few sentences later it says after 6 months you can ENJOY intercourse). starting the third book i've brought (Cloud Atlas. I loved the movie and am really curious about the completely different structure in the book). aaaaand... yeah i can't think of anything more. Really the thing that still touches me the most is meeting and talking with all the diverse and interesting women all of whom understand exactly what i've been feeling my whole life and what i'm going through right now. Talking about the most diverse things, all the happy moments we've had, some of the sad moments we've had, and all kinds of things that just interest us. It's what i wish it had been like for me with support groups.

Hi Layn,

Fantastic to hear everything is going fine. I still have to wait for another 59 days to get my 'big' moment.

Keep us updated!

Take care,

L. x

I'm back home now. It's nice to be home, but i was greeted by a lot of annoyances which probably caused my first dilation back home to be harder. I think i might have lost 1 cm. Not too bad, since i'm still above what i expected and had at the start, but i really do hope to gain it back in the next session. It's weird, but at this point i wish i was still in Thailand. That might change once i get my routine working again and i've come out to half of my roommates who still don't know. Ayup, probably should have done that earlier

I wish you good luck! How are the dilations now?

I'm feeling better and coming out worked out well. Well, okay the one roommate i've only told about my big operation and how it affects me, but no details so far. I don't feel like coming out to yet another person right now.

Anyway. Dilations. Hate it. Getting sick and sore and tired of it. I feel like taking a break from it, but i just can't and i have to do it again and again and again and again and again and again and again and again *sigh* AND AGAIN. BAH. 2 more months of 3 times a day during scar tissue contraction or whatever it was that is making it harder. Can't wait for it to get easier.

Glad you are feeling better. Yep dilations are a huge part of our lives early post. I just hit my 6 month mark and now down to 1x a day. I am still having issues with my PC musle not stoping it fight to keep things extra tight. Even now only having 1 x a day it seem now to be way harder to get in then when more times a day. Guess at some point it dilations start to win the battle over the body trying to close things back up.

It does not really take long for the time to get to the 1x a day, just keep them up.
Hugs
Izzy

I woke up to some bleeding this morning. I had been warned that it could happen, but mainly from the urethra and inside the vagina. I think the blood is coming from somewhere nearer to the clitoris. I'm hoping it's just some popped granulation i hadn't noticed before... There's no sense in worrying immediately too much, but still it's a bit scary (and annoying) to suddenly be bleeding again and not being sure where it's from. Well i'm saying that it's not from the urethra since my urine isn't colored in any way, but yesterday i've been peeing relatively straight and today it was like something was covering from above the exit.

Yes blood freaked me out each time. I am at my 6 month mark and still time to time get a little tinge of blood mixed in with the lube.

Take it as you need, if it get heavy try to get to see the doctor.

Izzy

Hey Layn. Can we get an update?