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Three Months and I'm Developing!!!

Started by gina_taylor, May 27, 2005, 02:02:59 PM

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Chaunte

Quote from: AllisonY2K on September 24, 2005, 11:03:41 AM
... the whole kit and kaboodle. (do people still say that?)

Allison,

I say that!  I also use "the whole nine yards, lets go downtown, itsie-bitsie, biggie-wiggie and a whole slew of other arcain (sic) phrases I've learned over 3.7 billion years.

Chaunte
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Chaunte

Terri,

Did you study psychology?  You seem to have the wonderful gift of asking the right question at the right time to shake up our preconceived notions about our worlds.

Chaunte
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Chaunte

Quote from: Terri-Gene on August 21, 2005, 04:03:32 PM

I can tell you by personal experience that GID may only be the tip of the iceburg regarding your emotional and mental health and other problems must be addressed seperate and aside from the GID issue if you are to make it through as a confident, healthy individual once you have seen the GID issue through. 


I know that my therapist is asking more and more questions about me and not focusing so much on GID.  She asks a lot of hard questions that can be tough to answer, and that is good.  In the long run, it will make me more of a complete and unified person.

Chaunte
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Terri-Gene

I
Quoteknow that my therapist is asking more and more questions about me and not focusing so much on GID. 

there is only so much that can be done with GID once you have accepted it and decided what responisible decisions you want to make about it, once you are somewhat comfotable about it and understand your realistic options what more can be said about it?

All the pent up stuff that may just be normal or as a result of the GID issue though can be pretty unhealthy though and if not delt with, can take its toll on you, even to the point of making you an unhappy camper no matter what you do or don't do about transition.

Terri
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Terri-Gene

QuoteTerri,

Did you study psychology?

No Chaunte, I don't believe I ever did, not in an acedemic way at least.  I just have an idea or two about what runs around in my own head and i've associated with more then my share the professional set and talk to many of them as friends and aquintences at work for a few years now, about a dozen or so on the compound I work on and I guess I kind of get into thier type of thinking sometimes, though one should never try to diagnose or analyse themselves, to hard to be objective about such things and to easy to let yourself off to easily, sides, I believe in doing what I do best and leave what I don't do best to professionals.

Terri
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gina_taylor

Terri, I guess my delusion state of mind must have been working and I must have thought I had seen something. The only time that I actually do see some development is when I'm sitting down and when I lean forward. LOL  ;D


Maybe we should talk. Why don't you send me a PM.

Gina
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gina_taylor

Bobbie, my best girlfriend neglected to tell me to order some Feminant pills which is a low doseage of hormones when Ii had started taking the breast enhancement cream, so I have just placed an order for it, and I'll be starting on that when it comes in and I should see a difference.  :)

Gina
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stephanie_craxford

Are you refering to this:

http://www.crossdresser.com/product_page_detail.asp?ProductID=6&ProductCatID=10&ProductSubCatID=&Search=

If you are don't waste you money Gina,  also what is this breast enhancement cream that you are using.  What are the results, what is it called and how long have you been using it.

If it is over the counter stuff I have my doubts that you will get the results promosed or what you are looking for.  See your doctor about HRT, ask him/her questions...

Steph
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Leigh

I have an excess bridge I am looking to get rid of also.
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In practical terms, this means that raw ovarian concentrate, for instance, contains a variety of known and unknown intrinsic factors that support ovarian functions in the recipient.

Well that certain explains everything to me.  Just what I always wanted in my body--known factors much less unknown ones.

This stuff is horse apples
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gina_taylor

Sorry Stephanie, but I couldn't open the link, but the breast enhancement cream I get from a magazine called TRANSFORMATION, a magazine for men that like to be women, and the Feminant pills is also coming from the same place.  My best girlfriend Bobbie started using the breast enhancement cream and the Feminant pills a year ago and she was succesfully able to develop a 42 B size bust.

I'll be seeing my doctor in a few weeks and I'll be asking him a few questions, but I really doubt that he'll be able to give me any answers. But he may surprise me  :-\

Gina
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Terri-Gene

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Gina, Steph and Leigh were using some discretion in not talking about self enhancement at just this point, but we are getting awful close aren't we? after all, this is the gist of what this thread is getting into, do counter bought drugs work or not in non medical treatment?

As to the widest range of rather expert or near so experience, no, they do not work without estrogen type forms that are illegal by law in most places to sell across the counter if they contain estrogens in any amount or form to be useful in male to female body changes or for any use without a doctors care and supervision, such things will get pharmacists thrown into prison if they knowingly and habitually sell such things, though they may have some effect on born females or those with existing female organs and such things are universally throughout the world known to be dangerous to human beings who have particular health problems..... and no, there is NO certified tests which show they do work, at least NONE that have made any kind of non commercial news in the scientific community unless they have to do with fish, rodents or RATS etc.  It might be best to steer away from such redundant and non intellectual chatter as there are those that WILL try out dangerous drugs that can permanently disable them for life just because someone said it MIGHT work.  Castration at very young ages to some extent, if you have a lifetime to wait for "quick and easy" results, but how many will go that route?  especially with most likely results being possible if before puberty starts and it is also likely nothing useful or satisfying will occur other then growing up with a frilly voice and no beard if done before they grow one or their voice hormonally changes by having enough T during puberty.

As to taking female estrogens at female dosages, there are only certain physical characteristics in a male that will make it work without many, many years in born male form, again, useless information in the real scientific world though there are those who said it would work.  Like your friend did, first she said she was taking ONLY the store bought stuff then admitted she was taking someone's estrogen pills, which again is self medication if you didn't mention anything about doctors or the need for them.  Altogether a bad subject to be discussing unless you want to talk about valid scientific research other then what people say without validity, scientific fact about these products other then what they want to tell you.  For general scientific knowledge, NONE of it works without Estrogen or possibly some other forms not talked about in any public forum, and that would have nothing to do with pharmacy developers as they could sell you enough XXX crap to fill their bank if they could which they can't by documented REAL studies

And yes Gina, I'll talk to you in PM if you have any legit treatment questions about who and how to get help, but there is enough of that kind of information not only in the forums but the Wiki and a lot that is said right here in the forums and the forums and Wiki is where legit and expectation does the best for everybody and all concerned what with all this "LEGIT" redefinition going on all the time on other boards and among those who can't spell D O C T O R on the streets and give all the crap about non therapy drugs to everyone, I know more personally about the problems with HRT/RLT and such then many other medically defined clinical TS's. I'm not for that cowpattie stuff about hormones which most clinical TS's have never used or seen work, that no doctors, therapists or private enterprises have any scientists, legitimately able to prove works, or have no belief in at all.  I've had my own shell shocks before, during, afterwards and again last year with nowhere to go but where I must to have it all done in the medical zone only, and even then without any guarantee of no risk.  My medical record suggests another stroke within 3 or 4 years from now due to what they call the Estrogen Stroke last November.  When i make SRS I can't even think about how long I'll last afterwards, how's that for you and BS drugs without any scientific proof that they really can and do work, regardless of what the devil said.  HRT can and will kill some people or give them conditions that will no longer allow them to work or make a living, Believe it.

Chaunte wrote: 
QuoteI know that my therapist is asking more and more questions about me and not focusing so much on GID.  She asks a lot of hard questions that can be tough to answer, and that is good.  In the long run, it will make me more of a complete and unified person.

I believe you.  Same here, in my case I became a rather endangered and endangerment to others due to some career choices I made in the early 70's to escape all gender related estrangements and suspicions, I spent some years kill or be killed for some years just to confirm myself as male and really wasn't handling it on an internal basis and worked myself into a kind of person, few would want to be around much unless they knew me very, very well and I knew them for being real. 

I finally allowed some treatment on my real feelings about those things which I did for all my life in the company of therapists; not for anyone else's real good, but for my own frame of mind and linked with becoming suicidal due to being taken off estrogens over a stroke last November and conducting myself badly for some time before they found a way to put me back on at much lower doses then before .... much more then birth control pills or such which Gina was giving which have been proven not to do the job in any kind of  timely manner if anything at all other then possible medical defects in the male body, or female body also.   I'm not really into what some people on the street might say about them working or not.  There is no scientific proof even by the people who make them that they really do work on any but a very few people if any at all.  No scientific tests by scientific standards has been shown to science or public by the ones who say thier products work, not in any workable, realistic manner that would give them any credibility at all or you would be watching the tests on 69 minutes don't ya think?

That's why I mentioned about non medical care in what Gina has been discussing.  Any talk about store bought drugs, or internet drugs really are not the kind of thing we should categorically talk about here in a safe, medical and cognizant way, it is just that when not talked about in a congenial and medical way, such methods are dangerous and I have had some good experience what can happen even with some of the best medical programs available to me, or anyone for that matter and I have met and talked a lot with other TS's I can trust for truth and programs that I know for a fact or as close as possible to me that tell me what they have seen happen in many areas and I have no reason to doubt them just as I have no reason to doubt Dr.'s, Psychologists and Psychiatrist who I have talked to almost every day of the week for years at work.

I don't get everything right all the time, but I know what the medical professionals have told me, Pharmacists have told me, and some post ops have told me and what people on the street have told me.  I prefer to take it from the scientific people and people who were there about what's legit or not and what effects they have had with non prescription drugs.  Notice that you will find few if ANY actual clinical TS types, who are in legit transition under medical care who have any logic at all in store bought drugs that actually work, as most are in sever financial condition due to their constant expenses for medical care and drugs. and might possibly use the drugs under medical care if they worked at all as good as estrogen, which is NOT all that expensive when you have a source for a medical prescription. I HATE all that BS about use this cream or that cream to grow BIG breasts, it is just so much COWPATTI by any scientific tests done in a realistic way without preconceived lies and multiple untruths about how good it works when talking to a sales pitching bunch of trying to get there for nothing.  YOU CAN find a doctor that will work for you if you really try.  It is work and friends that are the hard part but you can find friends and you can find work, you simply have to go DO IT.

Sorry about all that, I have a very personal issue about the supposed safety of HRT, even though I know that medically used HRT is most generally safe for most that use it, though I have heard legitimate accounts of some medically supervised persons who have had up to death in the results of it, and I've had my own criteria I have been slowly clawing out of just over this last year over should have transitioned years ago and didn't and waited almost to long to actually no longer able to not do it under the best of medical care, I have never taken a pill that wasn't prescribed to me of anything since as a teenager, and that was more then 40 years ago and already deeply in the rough over the TS problem that I didn't have the nerve for back in those years and tried to live without it.

Terri
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gina_taylor

Thanks as always Terri for your valid point of view. I guess the cream would be considered an over the counter medictaion since it isn't a perscription type medictaion.

I have seen pictures of Bobby, my best girlfriend and she definately has  a 42 B size bust which is the reulsts of using the aforementoned cream and Feminant. So I do have some proof that it does work.

Now I do realize that there has been a lot of BS out there on things that will make your breasts get bigger, and the only thing that gets bigger is their wallet size.


I appreciate the fact that you'll PM me when I have any legit treatment questions about who and how to get helpand I realize that there is alot of information available through the Wiki forum. But I will keep your offer in mind.

So for what little I'm spending on this treatment, I'm hoping that it will work for me as well as it's worked for my girlfriend Bobby, and if not, then so be  it. Right now I don't have much to lose.

Gina



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Cassandra

No Gina, you have money to lose. Money that could be better spent on legitimate meds prescribed by your doctor. You only have your friends word for it on her breast size. This is totally anecdotal. You're not stupid! Don't fall for false claims. Maybe there are other reasons your friend experienced breast enlargement. I have seen the ads for these creams. For some odd reason I received a magazine from transforms and after reading it I can assure you this companies materials are full of false or unprovable claims. Please get a ddoctor who will prescribe a proper HRT regimine. You have a good job, this should not be a problem for you. Why do you insist on spending good money you could use to transition from reputible doctors? I don't understand your insistance on these obscure measures.

Cassie
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gina_taylor

Thanks Melissa. You're probably right there. I'm very desperate to make some changes in my life, and I'm very impatient. ::)

As I've said before, back in February, I spoke with my doctor about starting HRT,and he told me that he wasn't too knowledgeable about it,and had suggested that I talk with my psychitarist. So I talked with my psychiatrist the following week, and he told me the same  thing. I found a pharmacy that I could get hormones from, but I would require a perscription, so I asked my doctor for a perscription,and I didn't get it, so I had to find other means, and so Bobby told me about the breast enhancement cream and what it had done for her, and so for $39.00, I decided to give it a try. But as said,she neglected to tell me about the Feminant pills, which is the hormones. If anything, I may just forget about it and become a non-op transsexual. :(



Gina
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Cassandra

Quoteyou shouldn't be the one that is defeated.  You should get back on your feet and pursue your dreams.

I have to second this Gina. I don't generally reccommend shopping doctors but in your case I think you really need to find some other doctors. If you are determined enough you will do this and get the proper HRT and doctors to montior your therapy. Don't give up the ship.

Cassie
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gina_taylor

I don't know. I'm just feeling a bit defeated.Like I'm swimming against the tide and I'm not getting anywhere, and it's very frustrating.  :(

I realize that being a non-op is a choice, but I'm not sure which way I want to go. My head is too much in a jumble right now.  ???  ???  ???

Gina
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gina_taylor

#76
Thanks Melissa for your thoughtful words.

I went out last night and I really had a good time.  :)  I spoke with a pre-op transsexual for a length of time and she was able to clear my head on alot of things, so now I have a much better idea of where I'm going  :) :) :).

Gina
 
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Wendy

Is is quite interesting to note that there are genetic male TS's that have had facial surgery and not SRS and vice versa and both groups are very happy.  Therefore we can be pleased with the journey even though we may take a different path than we expected.

What do you think would be easier with respect to genetic male TS's: 1. to look like a female and have male genitals or 2. to look like a male and have female genitals?  Both groups can feel very comfortable with their decisions.  However if you could only chose one group which would it be? (That is a rhetorical question.)

This whole thread started with "Three months and I'm developing!".  That sounds neat for a MTF!  I can relate.

You will be successful in your journey.  However it will meander along the way.
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gina_taylor

Thanks Wendy for your kind words of wisdom.

Yes, everyone does take a different journey, and every journey does take a different path than we expected.

I would feel a lot better to look like a female with male genitals than to look like a male with female genitals. But that's my opinion. Interesting fact there: Things have changes so much in the last year tell me though, Wendy, how do you relate to all this?  ??? If you want , send me a PM, and we'll talk.

Thanks to all for your continued support for my journey . . .

Gina
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Terri-Gene

Quote1. to look like a female and have male genitals or 2. to look like a male and have female genitals?

Perfectly simple question with a perfectly simple answer.

If I had no choice but one or the other I'd look at it in this respect.  I am a lifelong Transsexual.  I not only prefer the company and association of other women rather then that of men but I truely want to be a woman and experience life as one.  Then two, I have a lifelong hatred of my own body, specifically the genitals. 

Read the above again and you can see that looking like a woman but not sharing a general simularity, specifically genitals with them would do nothing at all for my peace of mind or happiness in life, no matter how good I could manage to look as a woman.  The issue for me is the genitals, and the life, not at all the looks.  I have a definate fem appearance for a person of my age but I put no great effort into enhancing that look with makeup, hairdo's and fancy clothing.  Rather I basically look like how my environment and life experience have raised me to look and I don't do much at all to add any artificiallity to that look.

If I could have the surgery but could not do HRT or style myself in a more fem manner I would still be happy in life as my body would feel right, even without breasts and I know and have seen enough maleish looking women coping with the world despite it that I would just look at myself as being what I am, a woman, and live out my life with the knowledge that I could be myself no matter what my appearance was.

To be granted perfect female looks but still retaining male organs would do little more then drive me totally crazy as there would be nowhere I could go and escape the basic root of the problem I have due to my condition.

Each can have thier own opinion and be perfectly happy with whichever choice they would make, but I could never consider a person to be a woman who would deliberately choose a penis over a vagina to be happy in life, especially just to project an image rather then a fact.

Terri
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