Quote from: kabit on November 19, 2013, 02:40:59 AMIf you don't have hormones by my birthday I'll be really    !!!! (July )
Patience... I have sooo little and the T makes it worse - I'm just thankful I have a count down I can hold on to. I've been talking hormones to the family - which always makes them and me nervous - but it seems to help them understand. They say I've changed... I say I've doubled my testosterone and feel like I did in high school again (which is right before I gained the weight). Those who knew me then (i.e. my parents) probably remember my short temper . I think I've been doing VERY well at not living to that standard.

Willow, I hope yours come before mine! Did you get that campus job you were looking at (I think that was you)?

Unfortunately summer was when I was for some reason expected to go on hormones.
I don't think that medical professionals, even those trained in transgender issues, are fully capable of understanding that just because we've been out and seeing them for 2-3 months doesn't mean that we've only been stuggling since then; I've been struggling and suffering over the last half of my short life. With only this week, thanksgiving week, the week after, and fimals week, I really hope I can get the letter by next week, starting on hormones the week after,  which then puts the 1 week blood test during finals week, but the only way to change that is to get the letter this week, which I doubt I will.

Unfortunately not. It's a little too late this semestre; I'll try again for spring to find something off campus. Maybe I could be an ultra nerd at gamestop

Sorry for bringing so much negativity into what is supposed to be a happy that, so I'll add this: after shaving my arms and hands  (Veet didn't work so well on them compared to the legs and armpits. Maybe I was just too anxious and started scraping too early) my hands du so much faster in the weak air dryers in the bathroom in this floor. And mysweet pea moisturizer smells soooooooo good and feels so nice

Quote from: Willow on November 19, 2013, 03:30:16 AM
Unfortunately summer was when I was for some reason expected to go on hormones.
I don't think that medical professionals, even those trained in transgender issues, are fully capable of understanding that just because we've been out and seeing them for 2-3 months doesn't mean that we've only been stuggling since then; I've been struggling and suffering over the last half of my short life. With only this week, thanksgiving week, the week after, and fimals week, I really hope I can get the letter by next week, starting on hormones the week after,  which then puts the 1 week blood test during finals week, but the only way to change that is to get the letter this week, which I doubt I will.

Unfortunately not. It's a little too late this semestre; I'll try again for spring to find something off campus. Maybe I could be an ultra nerd at gamestop

Sorry for bringing so much negativity into what is supposed to be a happy that, so I'll add this: after shaving my arms and hands  (Veet didn't work so well on them compared to the legs and armpits. Maybe I was just too anxious and started scraping too early) my hands du so much faster in the weak air dryers in the bathroom in this floor. And mysweet pea moisturizer smells soooooooo good and feels so nice

You'll get there!! I'm noticing (from these forums) that some therapists are better at NOT gatekeeping than others. It may help, too, that I'm not planning on getting E for a number of months yet (May/June...). Mine seemed to understand that it was something I struggled with for over 20 years (longer than you've been alive... LOL ). Anyone who has struggled and come to a fairly complete realization on their own, once the therapist has determined that much at least, clearly deserves and needs the hormone therapy!

Good luck with the end of the semester! There are worse places to work than GameStop (unless you hate Battletoads 2).

I haven't used depilitory creme yet... I should really try it, but I'm scared (I have sensitive skin - if you've seen my freak-out after the first laser session). I LOVE lotion now... it's weird - I always hated putting it on my wife, but now I use it daily on my forearms and lower legs (especially going into the dry season). I think I didn't like it because of the hair. I use Bath & Body's Sakura and it smells lovely all day. It's not (I hope) so strong that everyone can smell it (I can't until I get close), but the scent actually lasts all day!

Quote from: kabit on November 19, 2013, 04:21:11 AMYou'll get there!! I'm noticing (from these forums) that some therapists are better at NOT gatekeeping than others. It may help, too, that I'm not planning on getting E for a number of months yet (May/June...). Mine seemed to understand that it was something I struggled with for over 20 years (longer than you've been alive... LOL ). Anyone who has struggled and come to a fairly complete realization on their own, once the therapist has determined that much at least, clearly deserves and needs the hormone therapy!

Good luck with the end of the semester! There are worse places to work than GameStop (unless you hate Battletoads 2).

I haven't used depilitory creme yet... I should really try it, but I'm scared (I have sensitive skin - if you've seen my freak-out after the first laser session). I LOVE lotion now... it's weird - I always hated putting it on my wife, but now I use it daily on my forearms and lower legs (especially going into the dry season). I think I didn't like it because of the hair. I use Bath & Body's Sakura and it smells lovely all day. It's not (I hope) so strong that everyone can smell it (I can't until I get close), but the scent actually lasts all day!

I'm pretty sure the psychaiatrist I saw has the idea that I'm certain that I want to go through with this; she was the one who encouraged me to dress for Haloween, amd mow I take every chance I can get. Today is going to be so awesome; there's a drag masquerade, and I'm going to be beautiful.
I terms of timing, now is ideal, so that I come back to school in the fall with 8-9 months of HRT, possibly some FFS at the 6-7 month mark, and ready to go full time. I'm just annoyed at all the reasons for gatekeeping (are you sure this is what you want? What will your family think? Can you handle the changes? etc.) aren't all relevent, or are just BS. Of course I'm ready, I went into therapy because I had made my mind up that this is what I wanted. My family shoulsn't have input on it, it's my life, let me have a choice for once. And I can handle the changes. In fact, I can't wait for them. I may be able to finally pass a math test due to being able to concentrate.

Lol wat?
I was kinda joking, I worked retail for nearly 3 months over the summer and hated my life. But that's all you can really get without a degree. Still working on it.

I went cheap; the big bottle of Suave for $2 at Meijer is whati can afford. And it works great.

It's 11 am here in UK, and I'm still in bed, probably feeling a touch un happy that I've not got up yet, but when I do, that alone will make me feel very happy, I know that because I always do in my TG life of the last two and a half years.

Anyway I've not been a complete lazy bitch, my laptops on my knees and I've just posted a bit on my ups and downs regarding permanent make-up. My clothes hang around my bedroom all screaming "please wear me today" a far cry from my married days when they all had to hide inside cases and such. So, so far today, It's a sort of regular happy day.

I told my therapist about my (by my own admission, i am aware of it) rather distorted self-perception and self-image. To calm myself down i grabbed his guitar and played for a bit. He complimented me on my finger-strumming technique and that i am actually able to get a half-decent sound of of that crummy cheap guitar in his therapy room. He told me that indeed my self-perception seems to be distorted at times and that he wishes he could help me with my problems, because of my many personal problems.

THIS!!!

http://www.upworthy.com/if-3-little-girls-did-this-to-my-house-id-do-everything-i-could-to-get-them-full-rides-to-harvard-am2-8a?c=ufb1

I am an engineer.  I've raised three daughters, and wish I was raised as a daughter myself.  I *always* make time to explain about science and engineering... and now, finally, someone in the toy industry is starting to get it!!!

Nice idea, yucky ad.

Two great events back to back almost; the hockey team dinner (I'm invited for being a member of the student section) and then the drag ball. Enough time between the two to get ready.

I mistakenly made my laser appointment for Thursday (I can't do Thursday... at least not after 2 or so). My awesome tech called me today with an opening for this afternoon!

Session 4 complete! I think it was a good one!!

I received my fourth Doctor's scarf in the mail today. Now I'm all set for warmth (I hope) for my upcoming trip to Wisconsin!

got some good news today

Laser appointment went great. I'm use to tolerating a lot of pain from the sports injuries I've sustained over the years. Overall it wasn't bad at all. He never had to stop once he started and I don't even have any redness and I can rub my hand over my beard and NOT feel that darn sandpaper effect for once. I can't wait to see how my beard looks in about 1-2 weeks when these hairs start falling out. So excited right now I almost don't want to go to bed. I even got a big confidence boost from him saying how much different in a very good way I was this week compared to last when I showed up in male mode for my consultation.

Seeing keaira come to the hotel lobby to pick me up. She skipped free food at work to come see me sooner. Driving with keaira. Shopping in walmart with keaira. Having lunch with keaira.

Had fun at the show, and in the bathroom, someone asked me if my hair was naturally curly. I took off my wig and showed her. She was stunned that I looked so good.

Going out without makeup, heels or a bra (sorry if that's tmi) made me happy! 


Being Willow's date made me happier! 

Quote from: DianaPeña on November 19, 2013, 12:31:30 PM
That ad was AWESOME!

Anywho, I found a youtube video that made me happy. The Pope Song. Lots of swearing, but if you care more about his swearing than the fact that the pope covered for child-molesting priests, then I don't know what to say to you.

'video of tim minchin's pope song'

This! Tim's awesome!

One of our sisters has survived the Spanish Inquisition to get onto hormones.

I will let her spread her good news after such a long wait.

Go girl.

Quote from: Shaina on November 20, 2013, 12:06:20 AM
Going out without makeup, heels or a bra (sorry if that's tmi) made me happy! 


Being Willow's date made me happier! 

You both such a cute odd couple, looks like you both had such fun though!

I am having a hard time deciding which one I want to hugglesquish the most - Shaina or Willow. You both look absolutely lovely

Quote from: Kittenswithmittens on November 20, 2013, 11:04:09 AMI am having a hard time deciding which one I want to hugglesquish the most - Shaina or Willow. You both look absolutely lovely

I need the hugs more. I just got out of bed because I was so depressed that I can't be that all the time.