Reading through a lot of the MtF HRT page on the wiki, Progestogen sounds like it would help with a lot of my bodily problems, "increase in body temperature enabling one to better tolerate the cold" I'm inside wearing two coats right now "healthier nails" mine break all too often "produce a sense of calm" that will be sooooo good, to be calm "and promote sleep" just yes to that "bronchi are widened (helps respiration)" big plus, maybe enough to help my coughing.

Overall, that just makes me a hundred times more ready and sure I'm doing what i want and need by choosing to transition, seems even my body knows its wrong.

My wife is 110% accepting of me and really loves me!

Quote from: Amelia Pond on December 03, 2013, 02:44:52 PMMy wife is 110% accepting of me and really loves me!

Nice, it seems she has come around

Quote from: Amelia Pond on December 03, 2013, 02:44:52 PM
My wife is 110% accepting of me and really loves me!

Great to hear, i was really hoping she'd come around!

Quote from: Amelia Pond on December 03, 2013, 02:44:52 PM
My wife is 110% accepting of me and really loves me!

Good news Amy, maybe all that weight you lost got her attention and spoke volumes about the positive aspects of what's happening with you. What do you think?

Thanks everyone!

Quote from: Shantel on December 03, 2013, 04:17:21 PM
Good news Amy, maybe all that weight you lost got her attention and spoke volumes about the positive aspects of what's happening with you. What do you think?

No, I don't think that's it, she has lost as much weight as I have. I think it was just because the second time I said that we should get divorced, I was sticking with it and she realized that being with me was more important than my gender.

Quote from: Amelia Pond on December 03, 2013, 04:29:38 PM
Thanks everyone!
No, I don't think that's it, she has lost as much weight as I have. I think it was just because the second time I said that we should get divorced, I was sticking with it and she realized that being with me was more important than my gender.

Of course you're meeting her part way, it hasn't been all a one sided thing has it?

Quote from: Shantel on December 03, 2013, 04:33:34 PM
Of course you're meeting her part way, it hasn't been all a one sided thing has it?

Part way, how?

Quote from: Amelia Pond on December 03, 2013, 04:40:48 PM
Part way, how?

If one marriage partner insists on having their own way to the extent that they bully and completely crush the other partner into a compliant corner on any kind of issue without having made any concessions whatsoever, then the peace just isn't going to last for long.

Quote from: Shantel on December 03, 2013, 05:00:25 PM
If one marriage partner insists on having their own way to the extent that they bully and completely crush the other partner into a compliant corner on any kind of issue without having made any concessions whatsoever, then the peace just isn't going to last for long.

I still have that tiniest of hopes my wife will come around. . . I have no idea what will happen when it comes to divorce.
... but I know it won't happen.

Give and take is necessary... but there's also need and want. I need to transition, Amy needs to transition... there are some things you cannot capitulate on. Divorce was the compromise... and (while I hate to simplify it so much) Amy's wife's bluff was called.

I think you still have a rough road ahead, but I'm happy for you Amy!! As long as you love your wife and she loves you, I think it's a good decision! Just always remember to take her needs into account before your wants and you cannot do wrong (IMO). If your needs clash, it might not work out... but you did right by her.

Now if only I could get my wife to understand that...

Quote from: Shantel on December 03, 2013, 05:00:25 PM
If one marriage partner insists on having their own way to the extent that they bully and completely crush the other partner into a compliant corner on any kind of issue without having made any concessions whatsoever, then the peace just isn't going to last for long.

No, I know what part way means. I was asking if you were suggesting a specific way we could meet part way?

To somewhat answer your question. Neither of us felt forced back into the relationship and both of our needs are being met.

Quote from: kabit on December 03, 2013, 05:30:16 PM
I still have that tiniest of hopes my wife will come around. . . I have no idea what will happen when it comes to divorce.
... but I know it won't happen.

Give and take is necessary... but there's also need and want. I need to transition, Amy needs to transition... there are some things you cannot capitulate on. Divorce was the compromise... and (while I hate to simplify it so much) Amy's wife's bluff was called.

I think you still have a rough road ahead, but I'm happy for you Amy!! As long as you love your wife and she loves you, I think it's a good decision! Just always remember to take her needs into account before your wants and you cannot do wrong (IMO). If your needs clash, it might not work out... but you did right by her.

Now if only I could get my wife to understand that...

Thanks kabit! I wish you the best of luck with your wife. It took nearly a year of pure hell after coming out to her in order for her to finally accept me for who I am rather than focusing on what parts I have.

Glad to hear the good news, Amy! Hugs, Devlyn

Quote from: Amelia Pond on December 03, 2013, 05:37:36 PM
No, I know what part way means. I was asking if you were suggesting a specific way we could meet part way?

To somewhat answer your question. Neither of us felt forced back into the relationship and both of our needs are being met.
Thanks kabit! I wish you the best of luck with your wife. It took nearly a year of pure hell after coming out to her in order for her to finally accept me for who I am rather than focusing on what parts I have.

Oh that's good news Amy, my spouse and I have resolved those issues some time ago too. We'll have to keep our fingers crossed for Kabit and many others. It's do-able but takes work and a lot of tears.

These came (it was a black Friday deal - warmer and nicer than the PJs I have now):
http://amzn.com/B00EM4Q1K8

They're really nice. The pants are awesome. The shirt is a bit tight (as reviews from other items in this brand mention), but not too tight. I can see that, if I had some extra chest size for some reason, it'd be too tight.

My Zulily order also came today!! http://amzn.com/B008H58NFE First purse & wallet... I guess I can bring it to therapy tomorrow !!

Quote from: Shantel on December 03, 2013, 06:03:59 PM
Oh that's good news Amy, my spouse and I have resolved those issues some time ago too. We'll have to keep our fingers crossed for Kabit and many others. It's do-able but takes work and a lot of tears.

We seem to be doing well... but I can't see her choosing to stay with me. I have a hard time seeing her keeping the current living arrangement during my transition. She has social anxiety issues.

Good news about the therapist I'm going to see. I can see why now that she's so highly recommended by Transgender Michigan. She didn't accept my insurance, but is currently filing the paperwork to accept it, and if they allow back billing, I see her Saturday.

I went to a support group today and was asked how long I've been on HRT and been out at work. The look on their faces was priceless as I'm still pre everything and there's no way i'll be out at work for at least 4 more months or until I male fail. They said I pass pretty well which I'll take it as being 5'11" and pre HRT I feel like I don't pass at all compared to all of the cis women who are around 5'7" ish. But still it made me happy to get a compliment like that. I was also very proud of my makeup, I think I did a pretty darn good job for as short of a time that I have been doing it.

Quote from: Willow on December 03, 2013, 06:48:53 PM
Good news about the therapist I'm going to see. I can see why now that she's so highly recommended by Transgender Michigan. She didn't accept my insurance, but is currently filing the paperwork to accept it, and if they allow back billing, I see her Saturday.

Awesome!

Plastic surgeon said I don't actually need any FFS procedures nor a facelift to look like I want to.

I'll be home in 2 days after surgery!

Spent time chatting with Caleb. And yes, I am still missing him terribly.
Also, a friend from Valeo added me via Facebook. He hasnt seen me since February and said, " I have to admit, you look more like a woman than ever. If I hadnt  have known you for so long I would never have guessed that you were transgender."

Congrats, Jill and Amy!

I feel really happy and excited for some reason. I like it. Maybe it's because I now have a Loki costume. It's not perfect, but it's still great. Maybe it's because I am attracted to someone for the first time in about four years or more. Maybe I'll see him tomorrow. Maybe it's because metal is awesome. Maybe it's because I love being me.

Quote from: Joules on December 03, 2013, 11:14:47 PM
Nice Edge!  These are new sounds from you, it suits you well, keep it up 

They're not new. People just tend not to notice. Well, being attracted to someone is.