Think of your head as an unsafe neighborhood; don't go there alone.

- Augusten Burroughs

I wish be seen as who I really am. I wish I could look like myself. While I'm at it, I also want power and a pony. I was kidding about the pony.

I'm kind of confused about my friends.
-One accused me of being attracted to her because I said something nice to her despite knowing that I've only been attracted to one person in four years and he is not her. This confuses me as well as the revulsion I now feel towards her. Such deep disgust on my part seems like a bit of an overreaction.
-A couple of my friends claimed I was close/like family. One even told me he considered me a close friend before I even knew we were friends. It's not that I mind so much as it's too fast for me and caught me off guard. I know I'm more cautious than most (I didn't even know D was my friend until a few months after we met), but I know this is too fast even for a normal person.
-One of my friends insinuated that I would not like to see what's inside his head. Now I'm even more curious. I'm... confused isn't quite the right word, but close enough... about this because why would he think I of all people would be afraid of what is in his head?

Is it wrong that i want someone next to me when i sleep?
I dont know why i suddenly want this kind of thing. Ive never had it before to want the experience... But even so, i feel like i miss it...

Quote from: Emo on January 24, 2014, 01:07:21 AM
Is it wrong that i want someone next to me when i sleep?
I dont know why i suddenly want this kind of thing. Ive never had it before to want the experience... But even so, i feel like i miss it...

Girls need that kind of affection ,,, I guess 
Id like to have someone to sleep with too :/
It wouldnt have to be necessarily a boyfriend/girlfriend ,a little sister /bro or a pet or whatever would be fine I guess XD

Quote from: FalsePrincess on January 24, 2014, 01:15:36 AM
Girls need that kind of affection ,,, I guess 
Id like to have someone to sleep with too :/
It wouldnt have to be necessarily a boyfriend/girlfriend ,a little sister /bro or a pet or whatever would be fine I guess XD

I never thought of it before. I thought i was just lonely in general.. But after spending time with my friends, i guess i didnt want to go in a way. I wanted someone to stay... For once...
But ive come to realize in my life, friendships tend not to last. Not usually because we dont like each other.. But we always drift apart in some way...

That was a tangent... But its what im thinking about i guess.

Quote from: Emo on January 24, 2014, 01:21:05 AM
I never thought of it before. I thought i was just lonely in general.. But after spending time with my friends, i guess i didnt want to go in a way. I wanted someone to stay... For once...
But ive come to realize in my life, friendships tend not to last. Not usually because we dont like each other.. But we always drift apart in some way...

That was a tangent... But its what im thinking about i guess.

Yeah I know that feel ,
like for example wouldnt it be awesome if you d live together in a big house with all your friends and family?
Some people can get used to being alone,but life its much more better with people you love by your side.

My family would not get along with my friends. But i get what youre saying...
Altho id be happy with just one person.

Quote from: alabamagirl on January 24, 2014, 01:29:37 AM
You're a sweet girl, Noelle. You'll definitely find a guy who will love and cherish you, and keep you from feeling lonely the rest of your life. That's how I feel about my girlfriend. I know you'll find someone who feels that way about you, too. *hugs*

Thanks AG.
That means a lot to me..

If there was hope for me, there is hope for anyone! :p

Yesterday, I was just in such a bad state of mind that I cooked some chicken nuggets...I followed the instructions perfectly, and ate about 6. Usually I'm anal about good hygiene but I felt so sad I just couldn't be arsed to cut them in half, I figured the instructions could be trusted. My mom came home and asked what raw nuggets were doing on the counter. She broke them in half and they were entirely pink and fleshy inside. So...yeah. I didn't get sick last night, but I do have some stomach cramps and feel a little off. And apparently food poisoning can be delayed 2-5 days.

Quote from: Gwynne on January 22, 2014, 10:04:09 PM
Lifetime movie of the week? Nah. More like pulp romance.

Actually, the sig quote comes from a fic I wrote entitled: "The Lesson". There was a subplot in this story where Rebecca (Laura's mother) tries to convince Portia that coming out to her mother would be a good idea. Portia is terrified of this idea but Rebecca takes it upon herself to speak to Sharon (Portia's mother) about this. As it turns out, Sharon and David (Portia's father) have suspected something for quite some time.

Eventually, Sharon and Rebecca meet up with Laura, Portia and Kathy after school. Rebecca makes it known to Portia that she has let the cat out of the bag. Portia is relieved to discover that her mother doesn't care about the fact that she is a lesbian. That leads to a little discussion about that whole issue. This conversation is where Kathy says the bit that is in the sig quote.

I actually had no intention of writing anything like that when I started this series. But one thing led to another all on its own and here we are.

Was in the newspaper today. Whole page. That's the 6th time since December I believe.

Got a doctor's appointment Monday.  I'm scared, but at the same time I need to know what I got going on so when I get my consultation with Dr. Garramone, I can give him a better assessment of my health problems.  I hate having my blood drawn though....I hate it with a passion.  I got to get it done though.

In other news, the Mavericks Invitational surfing events come on in less than one minute.  I love watching live surfing on tv.  It's rare to come by.  I played Kelly Slater's pro surfer and surved the Mavericks waves on there. 

Today I checked an apartment that it was like a dream. Sadly my father did not approve the idea of having removed the kitchen to make a gigantic dining / living room and have a makeshift kitchen in a closed terrace (no reselling value?). Now I have found the same one with the original configuration and better home appliances, but in a third floor instead of a first (no lift). Funny, now just the problem of my father not wanting me to live close to him and having a chance of seeing me in female presentation. And we already had a fight because of that today: Limiting where I can live as if a restraining order existed. He keeps showing me zones I don't want to live in. In the end, If I can't live in the capital, I am attracted to my old hometown.

Quote from: Kittenswithmittens on January 24, 2014, 02:15:52 PM
Was in the newspaper today. Whole page. That's the 6th time since December I believe.

Must feel good to be famous, now if only fortune would follow huh?

Quote from: Kittenswithmittens on January 24, 2014, 02:15:52 PM
Was in the newspaper today. Whole page. That's the 6th time since December I believe.

Have to ask. What is drawing all of the media scrutiny? 

Quote from: Gwynne on January 24, 2014, 08:33:27 PM
Have to ask. What is drawing all of the media scrutiny? 

I'm guessing cuteness. One the pictures is of Kittens in a sleigh right?

I'm always into creepy things, but for some reason, today I'm really craving creepy things and can't seem to find enough. Living vicariously though fiction again I guess.

Wondering if a uterus transplant would ever be possible...

Quote from: Emo on January 25, 2014, 01:58:39 AM
Wondering if a uterus transplant would ever be possible...

Probably but it sounds like too much trouble. And you'd still not be able to produce biological offspring.

I figure it will likely be at least another month to a month and a half before I actually get a whole day off.  lets hope I don't go off the deep end beforehand, lol.  It would be nice to sleep in at least one or two days right now, but I can't. sigh