Damn I'm happy Nebido needs to be injected with months in-between, my upper butt cheek is really feeling it right now, yowza...

Two things mostly 1: Glad I don't have access to a gun and that I threw that blade away ages ago. 2: How can I perform open heart surgery on myself? This one is damaged and needs replacing or just being gone.

Two of five sections of this chapter completed. Of the three remaining, only one is difficult and time intensive...meaning, if I finish the two easier ones today, I can really work at the harder section tomorrow and be done this chapter tomorrow.

After that, one intensive and nightmarish chapter.

Then, the fun one. Some editing and touchups....then I write my conclusion.

ugh The way my head feels at the moment I think I may have given myself a very mild concussion but I am not sure.

Quote from: Charley Bea(EmeraldP) on January 30, 2014, 05:24:15 PMugh The way my head feels at the moment I think I may have given myself a very mild concussion but I am not sure.

Beats hitting your head on a steel beam.
Unless that's exactly what you did.

Ice and ibuprofen.

Quote from: birkin on January 30, 2014, 03:28:25 PM
Two of five sections of this chapter completed. Of the three remaining, only one is difficult and time intensive...meaning, if I finish the two easier ones today, I can really work at the harder section tomorrow and be done this chapter tomorrow.

After that, one intensive and nightmarish chapter.

Then, the fun one. Some editing and touchups....then I write my conclusion.

You are seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, we're going to be proud of you Master! 

At some point over the last year I stopped being such a misanthrope.  I have gained a lot of empathy and compassion for others, when before I really couldn't care less.   I used to think that people just suck and that the demise of mankind couldn't come soon enough. 

Now I think I shall let you all live.

You're welcome.

Now who else wants tacos?

Quote from: Willow on January 30, 2014, 05:32:28 PM
Beats hitting your head on a steel beam.
Unless that's exactly what you did.

Ice and ibuprofen.

Nope was punching my temples and the top of my head during my dark moments earlier.

Quote from: Jill F on January 30, 2014, 05:56:30 PM
At some point over the last year I stopped being such a misanthrope.  I have gained a lot of empathy and compassion for others, when before I really couldn't care less.   I used to think that people just suck and that the demise of mankind couldn't come soon enough. 

Now I think I shall let you all live.

You're welcome.

Now who else wants tacos?

Fish tacos? I love me some fish tacos glad to hear you no longer want a gigantic meteor or zombie apocalypse to visit us 

I'm thinking that I need to take some risks or I won't move forward with my plans. I'm wondering where and how to get the information I need in order to do that.

I'm also thinking that I need to pull an all nighter to clean my apartment and wondering how I'm going to do that if I'm already tired and it's only midnight.

Quote from: Shantel on January 30, 2014, 05:48:16 PM
You are seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, we're going to be proud of you Master! 

Thanks Auntie.

Feel like I'm getting weird looks when I'm out and about in guy mode this last week... mostly from other men. When I'm in guy mode I dress very plainly and my natural hairline leaves no doubt about my bio gender but it does look like they're "confused" by me. I can only presume it's gender related... unless I have a second head no one is telling me about...?

Quote from: Jill F on January 30, 2014, 05:56:30 PM
At some point over the last year I stopped being such a misanthrope.  I have gained a lot of empathy and compassion for others, when before I really couldn't care less.   I used to think that people just suck and that the demise of mankind couldn't come soon enough. 

Know exactly what you mean - my apocalyptic misanthropic streak has really faded this last year...

I just told my mom that I applied for two more jobs and she said "yay, more money in the house!". 

She's been hinting at me to contribute more to the house when I get a job.  She might want about $100 a month, which may suck for my pocket, but is WAY more cheaper than living on my own so I can't complain.  That's like $1200 a year right?  I may just give her the $1200 upfront so she won't nag me about paying it monthly.  I have a feeling she would rather have $100 monthly because it's easy to spend $1200 in one setting and still feel lacking,wheras at least she has money to look foward every month.  On the other hand, I would much rather give her the $1200 so I wouldn't have to deal with paying her "rent" until the next year and I could focus on saving the rest easier. 

I just need to get a job first before I think about that.  I want to work at a nearby hospital so I'm looking at job openings daily there.  I'm so glad they have you apply online there.

Quote from: Jill F on January 30, 2014, 05:56:30 PM
At some point over the last year I stopped being such a misanthrope.  I have gained a lot of empathy and compassion for others, when before I really couldn't care less.   I used to think that people just suck and that the demise of mankind couldn't come soon enough. 

I still have some shades of that train of thought but they aren't as extreme as they were in the past. Now it's basically a feeling reserved for very specific groups (racists, thugs, white collar criminals, homophobes/transphobes, the anti Portia Porcupine types etc)

Quote from: Malachite on January 31, 2014, 03:12:57 PM
I just told my mom that I applied for two more jobs and she said "yay, more money in the house!". 

She's been hinting at me to contribute more to the house when I get a job.  She might want about $100 a month, which may suck for my pocket, but is WAY more cheaper than living on my own so I can't complain.  That's like $1200 a year right?  I may just give her the $1200 upfront so she won't nag me about paying it monthly.  I have a feeling she would rather have $100 monthly because it's easy to spend $1200 in one setting and still feel lacking,wheras at least she has money to look foward every month.  On the other hand, I would much rather give her the $1200 so I wouldn't have to deal with paying her "rent" until the next year and I could focus on saving the rest easier. 

I just need to get a job first before I think about that.  I want to work at a nearby hospital so I'm looking at job openings daily there.  I'm so glad they have you apply online there.

Do it monthly or she will figure you can afford more if you can pay that much up front.

Quote from: big head horsey-face on January 31, 2014, 03:19:43 PM
Do it monthly or she will figure you can afford more if you can pay that much up front.

That makes sense.  At least I can act like I'm just trying to "scrap" by with a job.  It won't even be acting really. >.>

A quick look at one of the vanity threads reminded me of why I have them in my ignore list. They will stay there too, lol.


And I can't decide between chocolate ice cream or some oreos and milk.

Quote from: Malachite on January 31, 2014, 03:12:57 PM
I just told my mom that I applied for two more jobs and she said "yay, more money in the house!". 

She's been hinting at me to contribute more to the house when I get a job.  She might want about $100 a month, which may suck for my pocket, but is WAY more cheaper than living on my own so I can't complain.  That's like $1200 a year right?  I may just give her the $1200 upfront so she won't nag me about paying it monthly.  I have a feeling she would rather have $100 monthly because it's easy to spend $1200 in one setting and still feel lacking,wheras at least she has money to look foward every month.  On the other hand, I would much rather give her the $1200 so I wouldn't have to deal with paying her "rent" until the next year and I could focus on saving the rest easier. 

I just need to get a job first before I think about that.  I want to work at a nearby hospital so I'm looking at job openings daily there.  I'm so glad they have you apply online there.

I pay my mom $400 a month and she definitely prefers it monthly, for just the reason you said. My brother once handed her $1200 for 3 months and she wasn't happy about that at all. She said she didn't even want it, that she wanted it monthly only lol.

Quote from: big head horsey-face on January 31, 2014, 05:40:17 PM
A quick look at one of the vanity threads reminded me of why I have them in my ignore list. They will stay there too, lol.


And I can't decide between chocolate ice cream or some oreos and milk.

Oreos and milk sounds tasty about now.

All of the picture threads for the guys are on my ignore list.  I only go there when I see a new face because I'm nosy lol

Oh man, I'd kill for Oreos.