Don't have a bad migraine today, its so great, I can use numbers, words, and so much more, its been a while since I've not had one.

Today I noticed that the majority of my facial hair is coming in very dark, and when I shave it my skin doesn't look like soft girl skin anymore. I have almost full, noticeable side burns now too!

Also bought myself something nice.

Ever have those times when you've been dealing with some difficult, stressful stuff pretty much by yourself and it suddenly hits you that you've been dealing with it pretty much by yourself? Because I just had one of those. If I may boast for a second, I am strong. Things bringing me down? Too bad, things, I can and will deal with you anyway! Muahahaha!

Noise, Noise & more Noise.

My horse is recovering, he is recovering, HE IS RECOVERING!! Sooon his foot should be good again and I am so happy.

Quote from: Kittenswithmittens on February 20, 2014, 03:21:22 PM
My horse is recovering, he is recovering, HE IS RECOVERING!! Sooon his foot should be good again and I am so happy.

Quote from: Kittenswithmittens on February 20, 2014, 03:21:22 PM
My horse is recovering, he is recovering, HE IS RECOVERING!! Sooon his foot should be good again and I am so happy.

Right on!

I have my internet turned back on. PSN, here I come!

Quote from: Mr Hockey on February 20, 2014, 04:12:04 PM
I have my internet turned back on. PSN, here I come!

That's online gaming, right?

Quote from: Laura Squirrel on February 20, 2014, 04:27:49 PM
That's online gaming, right?

Yup. PlayStation Network.

This thread is uplifting to me. I've had a bit of trouble with being able to feel emotions or feeling-states as strong as "happy" but I enjoy pleasantries and insight into other peoples' feelings.

Quote from: LordKAT on February 18, 2014, 09:02:41 AM
"I'm hiding, I'm hiding and no one knows where.

All they can see is my toes and my hair."

     -Dorothy Keely Aldis

Actually, I'm having some car problems like Teela, and some mental anguish from lawyers and tax people.  I haven't really left.

I'm glad you aren't gone and glad you are not the only one for whom being gone isn't the end of the world.

Quote from: Malachite on February 07, 2014, 09:29:07 PM
Seeing the blood on my cotton ball from having my blood drawn

Lol goshdarnit Malachite I know this is from awhile ago but that's morbid and silly.

Quote from: Edge on February 19, 2014, 06:34:50 AM
It's stab myself in the leg day. I like calling it that.
Also, I just rechecked an e-mail from my genetics professor. My lab report isn't due until next week and I don't have a lab tomorrow. Thank goodness. I need the extra time for other things.
I decided to skip school this morning. Yes, I know, but the amount of tiredness I've been feeling is ridiculous and I'm guessing it has to do with being sick, so I decided to take the time to rest and hopefully feel better.

This brought up all sorts of issues because I had a schizoid boyfriend once who stabbed me in the leg because he thought I was reading his thoughts, and then I realized...duh lol I too have a day once a week when I stab myself in the leg. It's intense. xD

I miss studying genetics and I am currently skipping school indefinitely.

I miss Susan's and I am currently popping in now and then, hopefully with increasing frequency until I become comfortable with hanging around again.

It makes me happy to be so adventurous. I'm also getting to where I can talk in Ventrilo in World of Warcraft, and I'm too twitchy to talk on Neopets but I have been having small conversations with neighbors and with the postman and the grocery clerks. It all feels like happy progress.

Normal life is happier than it has any right to be and I am very teenager-y lately, self-centered and obsessed with one musician after another, and everything feeling more meaningful than it probably is.

Finally accepting myself fully and deciding to ask for referral to a gender identity clinic.

I've had an excited buzz since reaching that conclusion today ^_^

@Felix,

I was glad to see you posting again after a hiatus. I hope the indefinitely isn't really along time. School has its uses, sometimes as just an excuse for normal adult conversation. You have a stressful enough home life.

Quote from: LordKAT on February 21, 2014, 07:30:33 AM
@Felix,

I was glad to see you posting again after a hiatus. I hope the indefinitely isn't really along time. School has its uses, sometimes as just an excuse for normal adult conversation. You have a stressful enough home life.

Yeah I agree with LordKAT Felix, good to see you are still kicking and checking in here with your extended family!

Name change requested. Trust me, I don't ever want to go through this ever again. getting the proof was hard, but getting the two witnesses...


Now to wait for the judge's answer, and I will be Noah (identified as female in the country). Then after two years HRT or SRS I can update it to Noa, or Ainhoa.

FINALLY got my horrible itchy bandages off and got to see how my top surgery looks. And that is, AMAZING. I am over the moon right now.

got all that itchy foam off! my surgery looks great!

This quote I remembered from doctor who's 11th regen

A very important message whenever your going through change and having a hard time

"We all change. When you think about it, we're all different people all through our lives. And that's okay. That's good. You gotta keep moving on, so long as you remember all the people you used to be."

I'm currently going through the whole, I don't know who I am phase of discovering the female me, and remembering that has helped greatly.

My best friend (she knows about me) said I looked like Clare from "The Breakfast Club" so that made my day 1000% better. It was aloha day at school so i wore a lea around my head and people said I looked like a girl, and I'm not even out yet! I also wore a cute pink hat for a little that I nabbed from a friend that got me the same results (: today definitely wasn't as bad as yesterday until I got out of basketball practice, and my brain pretty much exploded with thoughts of what's wrong with me so I took a breather and walked to subway.