Quote from: Mr Hockey on March 04, 2014, 08:15:45 PM
My goal is to look like that post-op.

presumably not carved out of butter, tho. 

Quote from: G:W:Y:N:N:E on March 04, 2014, 08:21:21 PM
presumably not carved out of butter, tho. 

That would be a very bad surgeon, wouldn't it?

All in all it has been a happy day, but I got called "miss" at the 7 Eleven. I honestly have no idea why. Nearly two years on T...I am a bit behind other guys in terms of changes, but I really believe I don't look female anymore. I mean, I went to Las Vegas and literally never had a single issue with anyone questioning my maleness. I was treated just like my father, or like any other man that walked in the door. So what the hell? *sigh*

Keaira and I watched Frozen tonight, and it made me sad how much I could relate to Elsa. How she kept isolating herself because of her power to make ice and snow. I've spent the past 3 years locking myself in the basement whenever possible because I don't feel comfortable interacting with others, on the off chance they see my chest, or in the case of a gf, the genitals I have. Or if someone wants to tell them about my past because they have a big gossip mouth. The only difference between myself and Elsa is that Elsa, in the end, accepted her powers and made them a part of her life. But for me...well, if I could accept being born the way I was, and live that outwardly (that includes as "out"), I'd have stayed female and saved myself all this hassle.

I need to get back to working on my voice again

I want takeaway for dinner. Sooo bad lol.

Reading about this man who donated his penis to an Icelandic collector. They failed to conserve it properly. Whooops.

Since Jamie is letting people use his old blog for their blogs, I'm thinkinh about taking up the offer. Who thinks I should start one? 

Quote from: Mr Hockey on March 05, 2014, 04:25:40 PM
Since Jamie is letting people use his old blog for their blogs, I'm thinkinh about taking up the offer. Who thinks I should start one? 

I'd go for it. I like my blog, it's kind of nice to have when I want to post something but don't know which board it's really suitable for...or if it's like really personal, it's easier to have in a blog, just makes more sense to me.

Quote from: birkin on March 05, 2014, 04:32:34 PM
I'd go for it. I like my blog, it's kind of nice to have when I want to post something but don't know which board it's really suitable for...or if it's like really personal, it's easier to have in a blog, just makes more sense to me.

Hmm yeah, makes sense. Maybe I will. 

Been listening to nothing but Noise for the last few hours.

WHAT?!!!

I can't hear a thing!

Why is it that people will come into the store and share so much personal stuff with me?  I hear about their troubles, their drama and some of them will continually update me on their lives with no prompting from me. I don't share what they say with other people, so maybe that has a bit to do with it?    Who knows, but I sometimes feel like one of those old timey bartenders that people use as sounding boards, counselors or some kind of confessional priest, lol.   


I couldn't do it myself though. My business is my business and I rarely share much with even family.

Quote from: JaimeD on March 05, 2014, 05:26:05 PM
Why is it that people will come into the store and share so much personal stuff with me?  I hear about their troubles, their drama and some of them will continually update me on their lives with no prompting from me. I don't share what they say with other people, so maybe that has a bit to do with it?    Who knows, but I sometimes feel like one of those old timey bartenders that people use as sounding boards, counselors or some kind of confessional priest, lol.   


I couldn't do it myself though. My business is my business and I rarely share much with even family.

Sometimes people just don't see retail employees as real people.  This can lead to people telling you their life story and can also lead to people treating you like garbage because as soon as you put on a name tag and a uniform you lose all identity as a fellow human being.

I'm still too young to wear stuff that's "age appropriate".

The whole new healthcare thing is weird. Was searching for stuff about trans care to see if it'd be worth it to go with that over what I curently have. Checking the ACA plans, it says that at my age and incomr I should be elligible for medicaid, but when I check the medicaid planner, it says not avalible, check the ACA plans.

Quote from: JaimeD on March 05, 2014, 05:26:05 PM
Why is it that people will come into the store and share so much personal stuff with me?  I hear about their troubles, their drama and some of them will continually update me on their lives with no prompting from me. I don't share what they say with other people, so maybe that has a bit to do with it?    Who knows, but I sometimes feel like one of those old timey bartenders that people use as sounding boards, counselors or some kind of confessional priest, lol.   


I couldn't do it myself though. My business is my business and I rarely share much with even family.

It's because they know and like you and feel confident that you aren't going to blather their personal stuff all over. I have been in a retail setting at a lumber and hardware company once and always took a lot of time with women who were taking on a traditionally male type of project, and developed a lot of long term friendships and got plenty of appreciative hugs for taking the extra time with them to help them complete their projects successfully.

Quote from: Caysee Danielle on March 05, 2014, 05:35:56 PM
Sometimes people just don't see retail employees as real people.  This can lead to people telling you their life story and can also lead to people treating you like garbage because as soon as you put on a name tag and a uniform you lose all identity as a fellow human being.

we don't do names tags and uniforms where I work. And no one treats me like garbage just because I work there, locals or tourists. But then its a tight community where most everyone knows everyone else and many of my customers knows where I live, knew my dad and that I'm trans. Most of our customers are very regular since we are the only place to get gas most of the time in our end of the county along with their cigs, beer, snacks or to get some grocery item they need so they don't have to drive all the way to town for it. So yeah, I know most of them and I'm sure they view me as quite real.

I've not worked retail in larger cities or anything, so I'm sure clerks' experiences in those places could be quite different.

I'm thinking that I should get my little buisness running again.   Today I sold almost the rest of my beverages that are two years old!  It's my fault because selling them just fell off my radar.  I may make like $5 profit after I break even, but that's better than making nothing, especially while I'm in the process of finding a job.  However, that may not work because now my mother goes with this girl who takes her children with her so I may not be able to fit, especially with the groceries afterwards, and with the way her children be coughing and sneezing it may not be worth it for my sanity.  Oh well.  I'll figure something out maybe.

I want to talk about my weird stuff again. Oh well.

I'm already thinking about Halloween costumes. I wish I could a costume whenever I want.

I am trying to decide how much weight I should lose for surgery. it's especially important in my case, given that since it'll be done through a lipo type method I will have loose skin that will need to heal up.

Less weight = less loose skin, better healing of what loose skin does show up

Less weight could also mean much smaller breasts in the meantime, given that he said the vast majority of my breasts are fat, with very little actual breast tissue.

but in researching lipo, it does appear that whatever weight you are when you have it, you have to maintain it - the more you go above that weight you had at surgery, the more chance fat will redeposit in the area you had it removed from (seems it has to be significant, but still).

So yeah in essence I have to decide what weight I could realistically maintain over the course of my life. 

Quote from: Willow on March 05, 2014, 05:45:09 PM
The whole new healthcare thing is weird. Was searching for stuff about trans care to see if it'd be worth it to go with that over what I currently have. Checking the ACA plans, it says that at my age and income I should be eligible for medicaid, but when I check the medicaid planner, it says not available, check the ACA plans.

Elections have consequences.

Quote from: JaimeD on March 05, 2014, 05:26:05 PM
Why is it that people will come into the store and share so much personal stuff with me?  I hear about their troubles, their drama and some of them will continually update me on their lives with no prompting from me. I don't share what they say with other people, so maybe that has a bit to do with it?    Who knows, but I sometimes feel like one of those old timey bartenders that people use as sounding boards, counselors or some kind of confessional priest, lol.   

I couldn't do it myself though. My business is my business and I rarely share much with even family.

When I worked at a 7-11 in high school, I would greet customers with, "How are you today?"  Some of them actually thought I wanted to know!