Quote from: Laura Squirrel on April 09, 2014, 06:42:18 PM
I always thought they were saying "douche". 

Sounds like it, amazing how drugs affected these musicians!

Quote from: Jill F on April 09, 2014, 06:39:53 PM
Damn you!  AAARGHHH!

Wait, it isn't "Wrapped up like a douche"?

*shoves ice pick in ear*

Deuce was a street term alluding to the devil. Blinded by the light was in lieu of how we say being blown away alluding once again to Saul of Tarsus being blinded by the light on the road to Damascus, the rest of it is just a lot of druggie mumbo jumbo.

I'm trying hard to finally have one life. Nice meeting with plastic surgeon on a face, neck lift, upper & lower eye work & chemical peel for a nice face. She will not work on me unless I 100% stop any cigarette smoke. Bought Ecigs, they work great, no longer want any tobacco. Taking my HRT & adding more friends as Francis Ann. Eeveryone is supporative & I have some very close women friends that are "holding my hand" as I try my best to join them. More electrolysis to remove more damn facial hair, it hurts but has to be done.    That's what I'm thinking.

Quote from: FrancisAnn on April 09, 2014, 07:19:05 PM
I'm trying hard to finally have one life. Nice meeting with plastic surgeon on a face, neck lift, upper & lower eye work & chemical peel for a nice face. She will not work on me unless I 100% stop any cigarette smoke. Bought Ecigs, they work great, no longer want any tobacco. Taking my HRT & adding more friends as Francis Ann. Eeveryone is supporative & I have some very close women friends that are "holding my hand" as I try my best to join them. More electrolysis to remove more damn facial hair, it hurts but has to be done.    That's what I'm thinking.

Good for you honey, my surgeon was pleased that I quite smoking back in 1976, the big concern is the horrific damage that nicotine does to one's skin because it tends to collapse the capillaries that brings blood and oxygen to nourish skin cells. I once worked for the game department where we used "Capture" guns to immobilize dangerous wild animals in residential areas. The dart was loaded with nicotine sulfate which collapsed the animal's vascular system and caused them to pass out. I saw a video where nicotine was injected into the very visible veins on the underside of a rabbit's ear, you could see it collapse. Nicotine not only kills the outer skin on your face but can set you up for a bad clot if your on HRT. This should give you all the incentive you and anyone else would need to quit right away! Keep in mind that the tobacco companies don't care if it kills you as long as they can profit off of you up until your death.

 I know it's a very bad habit. I do/did not smoke much & knew the surgeon would tell me to stop 100%. Part of the reason I visited. The Ecigs are very light & maybe I can stop them in time.

Quote from: Liam Erik on April 09, 2014, 07:56:28 PM
Had a really, really awful day of hormonal imbalance on the last day before shot day.  Anxiety up through the roof, old self-harm and suicidal ideation thoughts turning over in my brain, too much emotion for no reason, which is suffocating.  I almost cried today after watching a show I'm invested in kill off a character who was a complete *sshole anyway.  How stupid is that?  I can't believe I used to feel this way or worse all the time.  It makes me angry at how irresponsible and ridiculous it is that so many other people can't get their godd*mn medical treatment at all hardly.

Hang in there hon, it'll get better! Don't kill anyone, they're probably not worth going to prison over anyway.

I only had one reference of my old self on the Internet...soon, with the help of my ex (a mod on the forum I was on), she will be gone off the net entirely.

Though of course this led me to go through old posts...I remember telling all my online guy friends that I was doing this. A few were really great, but some were very unsupportive and honestly pretty mean. I'd talk about something not trans related and they'd go "men don't do that." "Men don't say that." I'm so glad that this part of my life is behind me now, that - providing no one outs me without my consent - I can actually just be "normal" again.

jfc this makes me wish I hadn't dragged out the girl thing for so long. I honestly made things so much harder for myself, I should have taken action instead of sitting around thinking "time" (i.e., years of wasted, miserable life) would actually make my family accept it.

Quote from: Shantel on April 09, 2014, 06:36:18 PM
It could be something much worse like this....

Blinded by the light,
Wrapped up like a noose another rumor in the night

Blinded by the light,
revved up like a deuce,
another runner in the night

Blinded by the light,
revved up like a deuce,
another runner in the night

Madman drummers bummers,
Indians in the summer with a teenage diplomat
In the dumps with the mumps as the adolescent pumps his way into his hat
With a boulder on my shoulder,
feelin' kinda older,
I tripped the merry-go-round

With this very unpleasin',
sneezin' and wheezin,
the calliope crashed to the ground
The calliope crashed to the ground

But she was...
Blinded by the light,
revved up like a deuce,
another runner in the night


Manfred Mann - Blinded By The Light Lyrics |  Have another duber!

you are evil

and yeah, it's not douche although I heard an interview with the guy (drawing a blank on his name) and he said he was so drunk he had no idea what he was singing

I'm thinking "The Douchewrappers" would be a good band name now.  Or not.

Scary thing that the drummer on "Blinded by the Light" played with Jimmy Page, AC/DC and even people I've played with.  Ugh, I'm 2 degrees of jam from that one.

Why do i try?

Three hours and I wrote a solid 6 pages for my thesis.

I am so close I can actually literally taste it. Aaaargh. I imagine I will need about 20 more pages or so. Of course, after that, I have a lot of editing, bibliography organizing, along with a few more authors to add, but oh my Jesus. When this is done I will be such a happy man.

Am sat at uni in a room all alone freakin out about my exam in 20 minutes and cursing the fact that i am special so have to sit it in a room on my own. My classmates are the otherside of campus able to freak out together lol

Quote from: birkin on April 10, 2014, 02:30:57 AM
Three hours and I wrote a solid 6 pages for my thesis.

I am so close I can actually literally taste it. Aaaargh. I imagine I will need about 20 more pages or so. Of course, after that, I have a lot of editing, bibliography organizing, along with a few more authors to add, but oh my Jesus. When this is done I will be such a happy man.

Good luck dude! You can do it

Quote from: birkin on April 10, 2014, 02:30:57 AM
Three hours and I wrote a solid 6 pages for my thesis.

I am so close I can actually literally taste it. Aaaargh. I imagine I will need about 20 more pages or so. Of course, after that, I have a lot of editing, bibliography organizing, along with a few more authors to add, but oh my Jesus. When this is done I will be such a happy man.

I agree.You can do it! 



Yeah, I'm thinking that even if I get my license, I'm not going to drive out of state to get hormones.  I'm just going to hire a professional driver for that or just take a taxi.  Gosh that is going to be expensive, but I just can't make that drive.  I'll just have to add that extra expese into the budget.  Perhaps I can find a trans-friendly doctor closer one day.  Gosh for my wallet's sake I hope so.

What a little mess I'm in.

Talk is scheduled with plastic surgeon's office today. I must tell them I'm taking full strenght HRT. They want my doctor's OK for surgery however my local doc in a very small town has no idea I'm taking HRT. So I have to ask them to find a new doc for me to meet & one that is supportative of mtF patients. Then a physical, blood tests, etc.. to maybe receive his/her approval for facial plastic surgery.

I need a new doc anyway to help with HRT levels so maybe it will all work out. I sure hope so.

Quote from: radsi on April 10, 2014, 03:12:33 AM
Good luck dude! You can do it

Quote from: Malachite on April 10, 2014, 03:15:13 AM
I agree.You can do it! 

Thanks guys! Had a meeting today about the thesis and now I am exhausted because I woke up earlier than my sleeping patterns would prefer...

Quote from: birkin on April 10, 2014, 02:30:57 AM
Three hours and I wrote a solid 6 pages for my thesis.

I am so close I can actually literally taste it. Aaaargh. I imagine I will need about 20 more pages or so. Of course, after that, I have a lot of editing, bibliography organizing, along with a few more authors to add, but oh my Jesus. When this is done I will be such a happy man.

Hey - hey! 

Someone added me in Skype, no idea who he is but the first thing he asks is if I'm FTM. :s Well, he's offline now but since I'm a realistic pessimist, I have this feeling he might be some creep... I hope I'm wrong.

But I'm so not gonna answer any questions about the contents of my pants.

I'm cold again? this is inasne

Congress is the opposite of progress.