Hello everyone,
This is the very confused person who has been posting as Tegan.
If you know me and have been following my reports for the past couple of days, then I am writing this message to you.
Thank you, from the bottom of my heart for being supportive, caring, and kind.
I'm going to take a little time off from Susan's because I need it.
Here's my current situation: my wife and I spoke quite a bit more when she got home today. We're trying hard to communicate and work through this. I have my therapist appointment on Monday, and I'll be taking these few days off from Susan's. I just have too many conflicting signals in my head right now, and I need some time to try to center myself. Thank you for being understanding.
I will check in next week after I've had a little time and after I've spoken to the therapist. I'm not trying to bury this, but I need professional help right now before anything else. I promise I will not hurt myself and that I will reach out if my thoughts go dark.
You've been so very good to me. Please know how much I appreciate that.
I'll check in soon-early next week.
Be well,
-T
PS. I'm doing this of my own volition. I love my wife, and she is not the bad guy. I truly regret if I ever painted her that way. She's hurting too. We're working through this together.