Quote from: birkin on April 18, 2014, 07:17:31 PM
COB are pretty awesome.

edit: check out the band Hypocrisy if you haven't already. I'd go for "The Arrival" album first.

I will in the morning. Thanks!
I think I ran out of room on my ipod again.

Quote from: birkin on April 18, 2014, 07:17:31 PM
check out the band Hypocrisy if you haven't already. I'd go for "The Arrival" album first.

Hypocrisy is pretty good. Even though I've only listened to a handful of tracks since I heard them back in 1992 on the "Death Is Just The Beginning, Volume Two" compilation, I've liked every song that I've heard. I decided to pull them up on Spotify and jam to them for a bit.

I wonder if T had any effect on my change of opinion on "the growly thing." I used not to like that style of vocals. Soon after starting T, I like them just fine (hence the re-getting into metal stuff). Or maybe it was just a coincidence.

Quote from: Edge on April 18, 2014, 11:10:27 PM
I wonder if T had any effect on my change of opinion on "the growly thing." I used not to like that style of vocals. Soon after starting T, I like them just fine (hence the re-getting into metal stuff). Or maybe it was just a coincidence.

Ehhhh, I doubt that T had anything to do with that. Perhaps it had to do with a natural evolution in your listening preferences. I've never stopped liking that style since I heard Napalm Death for the first time back in the middle of December of 1990. It was either the 8th or the 15th because I remember it being before the Christmas break.

The only time that I ever got out of something was back in 06 or 07 when I got bored with Noise and I didn't listen to it or play it for quite awhile. I got back into it in 09 and it's been full steam ahead ever since.

Quote from: Edge on April 18, 2014, 11:10:27 PM
I wonder if T had any effect on my change of opinion on "the growly thing." I used not to like that style of vocals. Soon after starting T, I like them just fine (hence the re-getting into metal stuff). Or maybe it was just a coincidence.

Hm, could be hormones but I'm more inclined to think it's a coincidence. I didn't get into that kid of vocals until I was about 15 or 16. I find following metal songs, mentally, and appreciating them is much different from songs that we hear more often. They flow differently and are structured differently. Can't explain exactly how, in technical terms, but there's a very different mindset you have to be in when listening to metal.

Quote from: birkin on April 18, 2014, 11:31:59 PM
there's a very different mindset you have to be in when listening to metal.

Hmmmm, I don't know about that. I can go from Impetigo, to Elton John, to A.C., to King Missile, to Carcass to more mellow My Dying Bride material, to Godflesh and anything and everything in between all within in an hour if I feel like it.

To clarify, metal is the genre I hear the most often and have since high school. If one does need a different mindset, how come it waited to click in now as opposed to when I was hanging out with metalheads and their music 24/7?
Also, although I preferred bands without "the growly thing," metal has been my favourite music genre since high school and bands without the growly vocals have the same structure and flow of the music.

Edit: I checked out Hypocrisy and like them. Then I found out one of them has an industrial metal project, checked that out, and like that too. Thanks!
I have definitely run out of room on my ipod.

I've heard multiple times from my brothers that my dad makes fun of my degree to them...or my job hunt success (lack thereof). I'm probably going to have to work a job I am overqualified for because of my surgeries, I can't really get on the career path right now when I plan to have two surgeries within a year's time.

I vented to my mom in the car about it. She said what I (and my brothers) suspect all along...my dad is just so unhappy with his job, and insecure in his intelligence and success, that he needs to put down his children to feel better about himself. My mom said I should be proud of the work I have put in for my degree and that it doesn't matter even if I don't make a ton of money, because the person who is happy is the one who is successful, not someone who is unhappy and makes a lot of money.

So I figure, if every single person I talk to knows that it's my dad who has the issue, and not me, why should I take anything he says personally or even care about his opinion? Everyone who knows him and knows us can clearly see that he is the one who is taking his issues out on me.

I wish this would just end

Quote from: birkin on April 19, 2014, 06:09:04 PM
I've heard multiple times from my brothers that my dad makes fun of my degree to them...or my job hunt success (lack thereof). I'm probably going to have to work a job I am overqualified for because of my surgeries, I can't really get on the career path right now when I plan to have two surgeries within a year's time.

I vented to my mom in the car about it. She said what I (and my brothers) suspect all along...my dad is just so unhappy with his job, and insecure in his intelligence and success, that he needs to put down his children to feel better about himself. My mom said I should be proud of the work I have put in for my degree and that it doesn't matter even if I don't make a ton of money, because the person who is happy is the one who is successful, not someone who is unhappy and makes a lot of money.

So I figure, if every single person I talk to knows that it's my dad who has the issue, and not me, why should I take anything he says personally or even care about his opinion? Everyone who knows him and knows us can clearly see that he is the one who is taking his issues out on me.

It's a shame that he's so insecure and lacking self esteem that he has to browbeat you over it. This is one of the ways some parents teach their kids on how not to be when they reach adulthood, we can learn positive things from those negative messages that our parents send us at times, you will never emulate his example in your own life. Your dad may not even see himself like you and your mother are so able to. He probably loves you very much and is completely unaware of what an insensitive and emotionally unavailable human being he has become. You can feel hurt and miserable about it or you can mentally forgive him and realize that he's just another imperfect human being with weaknesses and failings. Take heart in the fact that you won't be under his roof forever anyway hon.

maybe a nap will help?

Quote from: Edge on April 19, 2014, 08:09:08 AM
To clarify, metal is the genre I hear the most often and have since high school. If one does need a different mindset, how come it waited to click in now as opposed to when I was hanging out with metalheads and their music 24/7?
Also, although I preferred bands without "the growly thing," metal has been my favourite music genre since high school and bands without the growly vocals have the same structure and flow of the music.

I think it's more of a gradual evolution. It really isn't any more complex than that. When I listen to Autopsy, A.C., Carcass, etc, it doesn't make me think a different way. Some people think that it's supposed to be "angry" "uuurrgh" and all of that stupid cliched crap. But to me, it's just all music at the end of the day. It makes me happy, I enjoy it and that is all there is to it. I don't put on Carcass and want to "smash stuff" I don't put on My Dying Bride and cry my eyes out.

You get the point.

Quote from: Melanie CT on April 19, 2014, 06:24:10 PM
I wish this would just end

*gives you a hug*

Thank you Sephirah. It's just been one of those days.

"I wish this would just end, too"

I hadn't checked my email because I didn't expect lab results already. Everything came back good and my "cholesterol is great!" So, no medical reason to not take T. I also had her pay special attention to my iron since that's been an issue for me. That was good. I'm feeling kind of proud. Especially after a day like today. I really am leaving the eating disorder behind. I'm actually healthy.

And with that, I am going to bed because I already should have gone to bed

.... heh, my cat just triggered siri on the phone. I wonder what he wanted to do.

Too much caffeine? Probably. Feeling antsy and strange, not in a bad way mind. I just need to move a little hahaha. It's been a good night. Hope everyone has a fantastic Easter

About to log off for the day to spend time with my family. Happy Easter, everyone!

Body clock is alternating between New Zealand and West Europe times. Not good for a girl on the US' east coast.
I need to pump myself full of tea and other caffeinated beverages to survive for the next 12 hours or more. Which is an issue since I developed somewhat of a caffeine addiction/tolerance, making it difficult for me to actually get much benefit out of caffeine besides just surviving.

I have 10 more days to smoke a few cigarettes if I want. Cold day is April 30th to stop 100%. Plastic surgery scheduled for June 10th & my body has to be clean of any nasty tobacco stuff.